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"When I pronounce the word Future.

the first syllable already belongs to the past.

When I pronounce the word Silence,

I destroy it.

When I pronounce the word Nothing,

I make something no nonbeing can hold."

-THE THREE ODDEST WORDS

So get this:

Debbie went and got herself knocked up by that Derek dude.

The only thing that ran through my mind was "Holy shit! What else did I miss?"

Cuz it's clear that I've missed a lot.

I didn't have much of an opinion when it came to Debbie being pregnant until she told me her side of the story.

The fact that Derek ran away from the baby didn't settle well in my brain, you know? I mean what else am I supposed to think, that's my sister and the dude that she claims she loves and he loves her in return just ran away from being a father, it's fucked up.

But I also know how Debbie get's once she's got an idea in her head.

She's boy crazy and it's obvious that she scared him off.

I mean I personally know for sure that if I got some girl pregnant with my baby I'd be there. Even if I didn't love the girl back. Shit, I'd be down to make Dominique my baby momma if she'd let me.

I can't entirely blame Derek for doing what he wanted.

I never met or held a conversation with him so I couldn't really judge him.

My first instinct was to have my boys track him down and have someone handle him personally.

I could make shit happen.

I'd do anything for Debbie and the rest of the fam. That's never going to change.

If Debbie wants to raise a baby then shit, who was I to tell her to get rid of my niece or nephew? If that's how Debbie wanted to plan her future then I can't, no I won't stop her. I'll stand by her, like I'm supposed to do.

When I sat in Debbie's room later that night Derek's family decided to pop up in our crib, I listened carefully as to why Debbie thought it was a good idea to have a baby.

"I need something to love. I know having this baby is my choice just like it was Derek's choice to leave us but I guess it's my fault for not knowing that he had other plans for his future."

The future.

I've thought about it.

Countless times and I know for sure that us Gallagher's are gonna make it out there.

Whether it's together or apart, we always make it through.

Nick and I stayed after school to watch Dominique practice. Man did that girl know how to move, she should be captain of the team with how many goals she scored.

I'm hoping she'd let me score my goal with her, feel me?

She could be the captain of my team too.

The way her curly hair swept into the wind, how her petite but plump thighs jiggled as she ran down the field with determination in her light green eyes.

The girl was bad and she knew it.

I was all over that and she was loving it.

I don't know why she was acting like she didn't vibe with me 'cuz I could see it in her eyes.

She wanted me just as bad as I wanted her no matter how hard she tried to deny it.

"Leggo Dom! That's what I'm talkin' about!" I cheered, now standing on the bleachers.

The girls on Dominique's team eyed me strangely and whispered something to her which made Dominique laugh before rolling her eyes at me.

With a smirk, I folded my arms across my chest watching as the girls ran to the center of the field to practice again.

I felt a nudge to my side and I turned to meet Nick's gaze.

Another kid across the field waved me over which I nodded at him that I'd be there.

"Watch our money, Nick. Can't have no one stealin' what's rightfully ours, right? G-Dog's gonna love this shit." I said grinning over at Nick who returned a small smile.

I jumped down from the bleachers and walked around the field to the other side to meet my very late appointment.

"Hey Carl..." A kid with pale blond hair and gray eyes shifted on one foot to the other.

Licking my lips I lifted my jaw to stare him down, "You're thirty minutes late. I told you to be here at four, it's four-thirty."

The kid rubbed his already red eyes, "I know. I know, I'm sorry. My dad hid my mother's inhaler while she was having a asthma attack so I had to get her to the hospital."

I wanted to frown at that. This kid's family sounded just as messed up as mine so maybe since I was in such a good mood for making hundreds today from not other kids but the adults around school, I could let it slide.

"Alright..." I trailed off trying to remember the kids name.

The malfoy look a-like eyed the scene around him paranoid as he answered me quietly, "Toby."

"Toby," I snapped my fingers with a small smile now remembering him from gym class, "Since you're having a shitty day like most people do - I'll still give you what you asked of me."

Toby grinned, "Thanks Carl-"

I held my hands out to silence him, "But I have to charge you an extra fifty for making me wait."

"Seven hundred and fifty bucks?!" Toby hollered causing me to step to him.

Toby swallowed thickly stepping down immediately as I eyed him with cold eyes. He knew better than to mess with me, I made sure everyone knew that shit. As I eyed him I could see that the guy was shaking underneath my gaze and that a few tears slipped from his eyes although his head was held down at the ground.

Sighing I replied, "Hey."

Toby lifted his head showing his watery eyes.

Couldn't believe I was getting soft about this.

"I'll knock the price down since I can see you're not having a good day. You wouldn't lie to me right Toby?" I quizzed, tilting my head to the side.

I knew that Toby got picked on around school by upperclassmen every single day, the kid had a lot of balls by ignoring them and tried to fight back on freshman beatdown Friday's.

"N-No. I wouldn't." Toby croaked.

Digging into the back of my waist band with my right hand, I held my left hand out to Toby, "That'll be five-hundred."

Toby quickly pulled the wad out counting it before handing over to me while I handed the 96A1 over to him. I didn't bother counting the money since I knew Toby could be truthful and turned to leave.

Stopping in my tracks I turned to Toby, "Just promise me if you decide to shoot up the school that you lemme and my boy Nick know first so we can take the day off, alright? I hope your mom feels better."

By the time I got back to the bleachers and Nick I noticed that practice ended early and Dominique was no where to be found.

"Yo, where's Dom?" I asked Nick.

Nick shrugged his shoulders getting off the bleachers to grab the duffle bag which held our money. "She went home."

Moving to Nick's side I asked, "Did she say anything to you before she left?"

"Yeah she said 'Tell that white boy to leave me alone and that he's not black.'" Nick answered leading the way to the school buses.

Frowning I said, "Really? That gives me an idea Nick. Tomorrow we'll stop by her house and bring lil homie by to show her that I'm not what she thinks."

I could tell by Nick's silence that he didn't agree with me and wondered what he thought about this on the back of the bus.

"What? You don't think we should go tomorrow?" I questioned.

Nick shrugged his shoulders again not bothering to say anything, which was normal.

I knew if Dominique knew about Liam that she'd deff give me a chance and that this wasn't some role I was playing. That this was the real me that she needed to see.

She would finally admit her feelings and she could be my new ride or die.

Or so I thought.

I didn't expect her pops to answer the door and threaten me with a bat.

The man wouldn't even let me say hello to her while she was completely visible to me through the doorway.

Ain't that some shit?

I'm trying to declare my love to this man's daughter yet he wants to end my life?

I'm not with that.

So at school Nick gave me some input on taking a different approach. When I saw her in the hallway with her friends I acted as if I didn't even see her, didn't look her way and didn't try to spit any game to her. I just minded my business although it was pretty hard with how good she looked today.

Lunch time rolled around and I noticed her from the corner of my eye and didn't bother to look up until she spoke to me first.

"You letting me walk by? No rhymes to recite?"

Glancing at her from over my shoulder I said, "You got a problem with my skin tone, so..."

"That's not my problem with you," Dominique stated causing me to stare at her, "My problem is that you go out of your way to sound uneducated and to look like a gangbanger, and I'm not down with that."

"You don't like rap?" I quizzed, shock easily written on my face.

Dominique pursed her lips before replying, "I prefer Shakespeare."

With confidence I thought about the new play we started to read in English today, "What can I say? I'm a fool for love. I'm Romeo, and you're my Juliet."

"Yeah, they both ended up dead." Dominique informed me with a laugh.

With raised eyebrows I wondered, "Shit. They did?"

Dominque gave me a 'Really' look before rolling her eyes and spun on her heels to walk away from me. I watched her go and when she turned around to see if I were watching, she bit down on her bottom lip and carried on her way.

Smirking I turned to Nick and gave him dap.

The sound of crashing caused me to lift my head, eyeing all the adults who whipped out their guns that I sold to them.

Eyeing Nick we both lifted our juice boxes and took a sip since it was none of our business.

Besides that a small smile appeared back on my lips as I thought about Dominique once more. I was one step closer to making her mine.

A/N: Hey guys! I tried something different by writing in first POV instead of third like I've done throughout "Homeboy" and the beginning of this story. Do you like this better or would you like me to return back to third? If it doesn't matter then that's cool too. I tried to combine episode two and three into this chapter to speed things up a little bit. Next two chapters will focus on Korinna back in Greece.

For now it looks like Carl has officially moved on a few months into the school year...or has he?

TBH I'm kind of glad that Gus wrote that song to Fiona in episode two, I mean it's evident that she hurt the poor guy and although I wanted her with Sean who knows if he's going to be really good for her since he relapsed? Gus may have truly been a good guy for Fiona. I know I'm late up on updating and that's because I've been having issues with my knee smh but hopefully I'm back.

I ALSO cannot wait to write for episode six - that was my favorite episode this season and major character development for Carl. So many ideas that I can't wait to share with you all. I also want to try and write another chapter for this tonight since you've all been oh so patient so keep your fingers crossed for that to happen tonight.

Thoughts?