Chapter 4
Santana's P.O.V
Light flooded the room and chased the darkness away. Santana's eyes flickered until her brown orbs could adjust to the light. She stood up and looked at the mess that she had created in her anger. She set to work on cleaning up her room. Putting back one item at a time she couldn't help but let her mind replay the events of last night. The cleaning was done in a blur but all she could think about were the tears that feel from beautiful hazel eyes. She never meant to hurt Quinn but she didn't want her to know how fucked up she really was.
The time was approaching for Santana to go to school again. She jumped into a quick shower and threw on her cheerio outfit. She was fully aware of what was to come when she got to school so she ran to the medicine drawer and put two bottles of pain meds in her bag. If this day was going to be hell, she thought these would at least take the edge of it.
Once Santana pulled up to school she went straight to her locker to stash her meds. Unaware to Santana, Quinn was observing her every movement from the far corner. As much as it pained her, she knew that if she forced Santana to talk about it, she would just run off and hide. Before Santana could turn around Q had ran off to stay unnoticed. Santana made a be –line to the changing room to start getting ready for practice. She pushed the door open to find Quinn bent over tying her laces. Santana study her best friend's slim figure until Quinn gazed, Santana avoided eye contact. She knew it would only lead to a fight in the middle of the changing room. As captains the two girls were not to show weakness in front of the squad and that's exactly what a fight would do. Santana bent down and tied her shoes tight and made sure that her hair was in place. By the time she got back up, she was standing alone. She couldn't take this. Santana went to her locker and pulled out her other meds that she had stashed her a while ago. She took two and washed it down with her water. She patted her skirt down and fixed her shirt. She took pride in her appearance.
She made her way out to the field, where she could see Brit and Q talk and joke. Quinn took notice of Santana's presence but carried on talking to Brit like before. "Kill me now!" She thought.
"Okay, enough chitt chatting. Let's get to work! 20 laps and don't stop until all of them are done!" with their official command from sue all of the team set off to do their training, if they were caught slacking, sue would literally kill them.
After practice all the girls were in the changing room, except Santana. She was still of the field running laps. It helped clear her head from everything. "What are you doing, Santana?" Santana recognised that voice, but she didn't stop or even turn to answer the girl. "San, stop, you're going to hurt yourself." Santana slowed down slightly so that she could catch her breath. "What does it look like, Quinn" she knew she was being a bitch but she didn't care. Quinn made her way to the field and she started to run, she was able to catch up to Santana with ease. "Q, just leave me" "Santana you cannot exercise like this when you aren't physically healthy" Santana kept her gaze front, "I'm perfectly healthy Q" Quinn scoffed at this. "Don't lie to me san, I know about the pills" Santana stopped dead in her tracks. "How? when ?" Santana had turned a shade lighter than usual. "I seen you this morning, S" Santana felt a hot tear fall from her face. She didn't want to have this conversation. "How long has it been, san?" Santana couldn't look Quinn in the eyes. "A few months just" Santana made her retort barely audible. "What are they, San? Don't forget that I know your dads a doctor." Santana didn't answer, she just looked at the ground. "san, what the fuck are they" Santana couldn't take it anymore, she looked Quinn in the eyes and said in a whisper "Methadone" after answering Q, Santana took off, she went to all her lockers and took all the bottles and pills she could find, she was aware that Quinn would be on the rampage for her and she just hadn't got the energy for it, she wanted it all to end.
As soon as she had collected all of her pills she made her way to her car, she drove rapidly until she made it to her favourite place. It was a place that not many knew. Q and she had found it when they were young. It was a trail off of the main road and let to a big tree in the middle of a field covered in pretty flowers. Santana made her way to the tree and took in all of the scents and scenery. It was time, she was ready to stop the voices. Santana emptied all of the pills into her hand and with one swift move of the hand she swallowed them. She lay down and waited for them to work their magic.