DISCLAIMER: ONCE AGAIN, I DON'T OWN ANYTHING…only Stephenie Meyer does. If I keep saying this I'm going to get depressed….
A/N: I know I said I'd talk about the war and Bella's destiny but I still have more to talk about especially about Edward's return and his shock to learn that Bella "died".
Especially how Bella leaves and someone or more specifically some people are after her. Please review, and tell me if it sucks. I won't mind. Just do it truthfully not to lower my self-esteem. Otherwise I'll just call you a meanie butt, yeah I said it, meanie butt!
Hahaha! Just kidding, but still… keep reading.
Chapter 4
The Vision and Charlie's words
BPOV
I was dreaming. No wait. I wasn't dreaming I must've been having a vision, it was too real and too strong to be a dream. I no longer felt the pain in my head. I was watching the world from above in the sky. I got closer to the ground to see who was there and I saw Lauren and Jessica. Ha ha! I couldn't believe my eyes. They were standing on the side of the street trying to flirt with the people in the car that pulled up. They were prostitutes! Well, if you shoe fits wear it. I always knew they'd end up alone. At least I wouldn't have to worry about feeling pity for the two men that they'd end up with.
I wanted to know how Charlie ended up, if it was possible. I thought of Charlie and only Charlie. Then I felt like I was running at vamp speed possibly even faster. Everything around me suddenly became a blur until it stopped and I was at his house. I saw Charlie getting out of his cruiser and head for the door. He was happy. Happier then I'd ever seen him. But I remembered I'd seen him happy like that once before. I was only a baby and he was with Renée. I was too young for memories but this one always stuck with me because this was the moment we were a family and extremely happy.
I swelled up with tears and even though I was a vampire I still couldn't explain how I was able to cry. Somehow I still had some of my human traits except tripping of course, which I was extremely happy about because I couldn't stand to be known as a klutz again. I was able to cry and feeling pain, nap (not sleep, I'd only be able to nap for about five to ten minutes before waking up again) and I was able to blush though no one was able to do that ever again, at least not since I became a vampire. As I watched Charlie in his happy world I looked ahead and saw a woman his age running towards him and hugging him in a happy embrace. I saw how his eyes lighted up when he saw her and how relaxed he was when he had her in his arms.
Her name was Elizabeth Jameson, I could tell because it was on her nurse uniform, she must work at the hospital. I was happy for Charlie because he had finally found someone. They were probably dating because I didn't see a ring on her finger and there wasn't kid running around the house nor was there one in her belly. I was glad that the thought I projected stuck to him and he moved on, sure he didn't move on on his own but at least he found love. I turned around and left out the door with he hadn't closed yet and I walked around Forks to see how everyone ended up.
I walked up to the store and I saw Angela, sweet Angela and she had a guy who was hugging her from behind, it was Ben Cheney. They make such a sweet couple. I wished her the best, but from a distance of course. I was glad she had found someone because she was always a sweet, shy girl. I didn't have a lot of friends in Forks but Angela always made me welcomed. She was like a friend and I considered her one as well. I looked at a calendar and noticed that the date was set a year ahead to this day exactly, I kept looking at how happy Angela and Ben were holding hands.
But the happy moment was ruined as I saw a dark figure out of the corner of my eye. I didn't know who he was. He was far away from me but I could still hear him when he said, "We're coming for you Isabella. You will join us, it's your Destiny. You can't hide from Destiny."
I shuddered as a cold feeling ran up my spine and an evil smile appeared on his face. I woke up screaming in the arms of the one I once loved but now hated with a burning passion.
He was still holding on to me and looking into my eyes, which luckily were still green because of my "morphing" or shape shifting abilities.
"Umm… You can let go now!" I said annoyed. He looked hurt at the fact that I wasn't nice to him and we hadn't even known each other, or least to his knowledge he hadn't. I quickly remembered to block my scent and presence as I remembered that they might try to use their abilities on me and hopefully they didn't know you I was.
EPOV (Earlier before going into the store)
I was glad to leave Alaska and the Denali. I mean, Tanya kept hitting on me like there was no tomorrow. When someone says 'no' to you for literally the hundredth time you'd think they'd take the hint, but not Tanya she keep batting for the one hundredth and one time.
It's been 10 months today since I'd seen Bella, my Bella. I only hope she can forgive me for leaving her. I was a moron for leaving her, it broke my heart when I left her. I wonder if she moved on. What if she's dating someone else? What if I ask her to take me back and she laughs in my face and tells me to get lost?! I was really losing it because then I started panicking.
"Edward, calm down. Your worries are killing me. Take it down a notch." said Jasper sending me a wave of calmness. I gladly took it hoping for the best once I saw my Bella.
"Alright, thanks Jasper. I appreciate it. I'm just worried that she's moved on and won't take me back." I told him.
"Hey man, Bella loves you alright. She'll take you back happily. I can tell how much you guys love each other." He said trying to assure me.
"Yeah, but how do you know?" I asked him.
"Uhh, hello?! Empath here, you know, can feel emotions of others as well as project them! I could practically taste the love and lust radiating off you two!" he reminded me. "Whether I want to or not." He muttered under his breath.
"Ha-ha, sorry man! I'm just so worried that I kind of forgot about that." I said to him laughing.
"No worries." he said telling me it was okay.
"Yeah, Edward. Don't worry so much about it. It'll be fine. You know how much she loves you." said Alice reassuring me.
"Hey Emmett and Rosalie! You're awfully quiet back there." I yelled out at them. But once again they were making out.
"Hey! Stop that right now!" I yelled at them fully knowing where it was heading.
"Sorry man! But you know I can't keep my hands off my Rosalie." He told me.
"Hey Rosalie, you thinking what I'm thinking?!" he said to her winking.
I read his mind and disturbing thoughts appeared. "Eww Emmett! Stop thinking about my sister like that! It's bad enough I have to see it but do I have to read about it in your mind, too?!" I asked him hoping he would stop.
"Hey if you don't like it then stay out of my mind." he told me while a hand swatted the back of his head. I smirked at him.
"Oww, Rose! Why'd you do that for?!" he asked her like a five year old kid.
"Because you're killing the damn mood!" she yelled at him like he did something wrong.
As we were driving I noticed Alice was being awfully quiet. I noticed that look on her face and knew that she was having a vision. After a while she came out of it and looked at me grinning.
"What'd you see, Alice?!" I asked her curiously.
"Nothing. But can we go to the store? I think we need something." She said.
"Oh come on, Alice! Just tell me! I mean, we don't eat so what could possibly be at the store that would be of dire importance. Please pray tell, my darling sis?" I asked hoping to get the answer out of her.
But I knew she saw something she wouldn't tell me what so I decided to see if her mind would tell me. I looked into her mind, 'oh no Edward, you're not getting it from me like that! You'll just have to wait and see like any other non-future seeing vampire. He-he' she thought.
"Fine! We'll go to your stupid store but then I'm going to see Bella. I can't stand to be away from her anymore." I complained like a little kid.
"Oh cheer up big brother! Trust me, it'll be worth it. We might even get a laugh out of it." laughed Alice.
As we sped to the store I waited for Alice to tell me, but no such luck. I started to get irritated with her and her stupid vision.
"Okay it should get inside before we miss the show." said Alice looking cheerful while jumping up and down.
"Alright honey, just calm down." Jasper said to her trying to calm her down and lower her excitement but it didn't seem to be working.
"Come guys! We're gonna miss it!" she said as she was starting to lose her patience and grabbed Jasper's arm to pull him inside. We all ran after them to watch what Alice wanted us to see.
I saw Mike Newton staring to some girl but I couldn't see her because she was standing behind an aisle. I could hear his thoughts which were starting to sound really disturbing and perverted. 'Hot damn! She'd sexy! I'd like to bang her! I bet I could get her to scream real loud. She's be yelling out my name while I'm riding her and getting her excited! I bet she feels real good, she's probably good herself, ' he thought.
All of a sudden it seemed like he was starting to get excited himself but really he started to pee himself and somehow he ended up pissing his entire pants. I couldn't contain my laughing. I was laughing so hard I had to hold my sides from bursting. Everyone else who saw him screaming like a girl while running out of the store and to his car started laughing too.
"Dude, Alice that was awesome! Thanks for the heads up, little sis!" exclaimed Emmett.
"No problem, I…I, ha…I thought we could use a good…ha…laugh!" Alice tried to say through her laughs.
Even the girl who was the cause of his embarrassment and perverted thoughts started to laugh too. She had a beautiful laugh. I looked to see if I could find her but then she stopped laughing and I couldn't find her. I did hear two voices that were shrill and as bad as nails on a chalkboard. I knew that instant that they belonged to Lauren and Jessica. I hid behind an aisle to avoid them and their attempt to hit on me, as I watched the situation unfold I could hear that they were arguing with the girl because she had accidentally bumped into her. I rolled my eyes at their over exaggeration of Lauren's possibility at being injured. As I watched them walk away I heard her called Lauren a 'bitch' at which I laughed at because it was pretty much the truth.
I got out of my hiding place and stood there watching her laugh at something she must've been thinking. She must've been thinking about hard about something because the expression on her face said that she was wondering something. I walked over to her hoping she'd tell me what she was laughing at. When then she started screaming and holding on to her head. She' must've been in pain because she screamed again. I ran to her side as she started to fall to her knees screaming. I looked at her with a worried expression on my face. I saw her eyes only for a second as she started go into unconsciousness.
Oh my god! What happened to her?! I tried to see if I could red her thoughts to be able to determine if she was still in pain, dreaming or dead. I hoped for the second one. "Alice, Jasper, everyone get over here!" I yelled and as soon as I did they got to me quickly.
"Oh my god, Edward what happened to her?!" asked Alice probably in hysterics.
"I'm not sure. I heard her arguing with Lauren and Jessica, then she was laughing and thinking hard about something, when all of a sudden she fell to the ground screaming in pain clutching to her head!" I said worried about her when I picked up on her heart beat and noticed there wasn't any.
"Alice look into her future see if she's dead, she has no heart beat!" I told Alice hoping she'd hurry.
"Alright, give me a sec!" she said to us as she went into her vision. " I can't see anything! It's as if she has none!" panicked Alice.
"What you mean she has none?! Do mean to tell me that she's dead?!" I said yelling at her.
"Edward, calm down. She seems to be at peace and I can feel that she's happy and crying but they're tears of happiness." Jasper said trying to calm me down. "Now that's odd…" he said.
"What are you talking about?! What's odd? What's happening?" I asked him hoping he could provide the answers.
"She seems to be changing emotions. All of a sudden she's happy and then she's panicking." Jasper told me.
"Whoa, dude! What are we going to do with her? If she's dead what do we tell everyone?" asked Emmett.
"She's not dead! Otherwise Jasper couldn't be feeling her emotions!" I growled at him. Just then she woke him screaming. I looked at her green eyes which were worried and confused. I seemed to be staring into her eyes when she started to talk in her sweet voice.
"Umm…you can let go now!" she said with annoyed voice. I realized I was still holding her so I stood her up and let go. What did I do to her? Have I met her before and offended her in some way? I was hurt that she seemed to be mad at me and I didn't know why. I tried reading her thoughts to see if maybe she was at least thinking about why she hated me. But I found out that I couldn't access her thoughts.
She seemed to be staring at me with fury as her fist curled into a ball and her knuckles were almost white. I asked her if she was okay. She nodded and turned her head to mumble, "Not another one! I can't take another."
She looked back at me, more composed than when she awoken and waved good-bye at me while she ran for the door. I was confused as to why she was panicking. I tried to follow her but she was gone by the time I got out of the store. I went back inside walking.
"Hey, do you guys know what that was about?" I asked them seeing I how I was confused at what happened.
"Nah man. For some reason I couldn't feeling her emotions anymore, it was like she was shutting me out or block me." responded Jasper. I quickly looked at Jasper with yet another expression of confusion on my face.
"Yeah, I know what you mean. It's like she was blocking me too. I couldn't even read her mind to see as to why she was acting like that." I told them truthfully.
"You mean like Bella?" asked Rosalie.
"Looks like Eddie-boy is getting rusty which his ability!" said Emmett laughing at my discomfort and the fact that there was yet another who I couldn't read thoughts from. Only to receive a smack on the head by Rosalie.
"Holy Shit! I forgot about Bella. Hey I'll see you guys later! You guys can walk home right? You know what? never mind I got to go, I can't stand to be away from Bella anymore! Bye!" I said as I hurried to my silver Volvo and started to speed up to her house. I couldn't wait to see her face any longer. To hear her voice and her laughter. To smell her hair which smelled like strawberries because of her shampoo while the rest of her body smelled like freesias. I couldn't wait to kiss her plump red lips and feeling her touch as she'd start to dig her hands into my hair. I was at her house before I knew it and I knocked on her window hoping she'd open and I wouldn't have to go through Charlie who probably hates me right now for leaving.
BPOV
Holy shit! They're back, I can't believe that they're back! I thought they left for forever! They were supposed to leave and never come back! Who the hell do they think they are coming back like everything was okay?! I was starting to get fumed over the fact that they even had the guts to how their face here again, especially after what they did to me and how they played with my heart only to break it after play hacky sack with it. As I was starting to get pissed off, a voice asked me if I was okay. I turned to see that the family of assholes that were looking at me with worry stamped on their faces.
Oh crap! They saw me fall! I only hope they don't know who I am...no… no calm yourself down Bella, they haven't the slightest clue otherwise they would be calling you by your name. I nodded at them not wanting to say anything and tipping them off about who I was. Damn! I should've changed my voice before I felt. Oh well, it's too late now, it'd take too long for it to take its effect. I turned my head and analyzed every aspect of the vision, oh crap! Does this mean another power.
"Not another one! I can't take another one." I whispered to myself so low that even he couldn't even hear me. I tried to muster up all my self control to not rip them to pieces right, which I could. Single handedly, I might add. And that's not the newborn strength talking that's me. Even without the newborn strength I was still two and half times stronger than Emmett.
I composed my face the way he had the day he left me. I waved good-bye before he asked anything else and ran for it. I ran after than ever to try and get away him them. I thought I could handle seeing them again. But I can't. as I reached my car, I sat down, closed and lock the door while putting the music on again. I started to break into tears, tears that I couldn't explain came from. After all, vampires aren't supposed to cry, so what was up with that? How would I explain this? Scratch that. How could anyone explain this? But I guess it's helpful when I'm pretending to be human.
But now, I couldn't face Edward, I had to leave. I started the car and sped of back to my apartment in Port Angeles. I had to pack my bags and leave before he got a whiff of my scent, figured out it was me and came after me. I knew I'd never see Charlie again but if the vision I'd seen was true then he would be happy and better off without me. I had to hunt before I left, I hadn't hunted in a week. Not that I was worried of attacking humans. I was only worried that by the time I got Europe, I'd be too weak to fight anyone who tried to get to me. Once I realized I had to hunt, I turned the car around and quicker than even the fastest vamp out there, I finished out three bears and two deer. When I got to my car I made it to my apartment in three and half minutes,
I packed everything I had in my bag and suitcases, paid the rent and I was lucky because I was at the near the end of my lease. (A/N: not sure how long a lease usually is, but for the sake of the story let it go.) I changed appearances again after taking a shower. I made my hair short and blond with blue streaks which ended at my shoulders, I shrank 2 ½ inches making me about 5 foot 6 ½, also making my face change while making my cheekbones less defined, my lips a bit thinner than before and my eyes a medium dark blue color. I put on a jean skirt that ended 2/3 of the way to my knee, a white tee-shirt, a powder blue jacket and put my hair in a ponytail with no earrings.
I put everything in the trunk of my car and drove to the airport. I bought a ticket to Switzerland and waited for my plane as I arranged plans to have my car brought to Europe with me. I knew I was running but it wasn't because of Edward or his family. Okay, it was a bit but mostly it was because of the stranger that was in the vision with me, he was after me and a year in Europe couldn't hurt anyone.
'First call for Switzerland, now boarding.' Said the attendant through the microphone. This was my cue, I grabbed by only bag because the rest of my suitcases had gone through security first and then boarded the plane. So I had my carry on in one hand and my ticket in the other. I handed my ticket to the lady and she told me to have a nice flight. I decided to fly first class. Just in case. I didn't want to bring attention to myself by I also didn't want to run the risk of running into the family in case Alice had a vision about me. I made sure to block my scent and presence from any vampires that may be on the plane and from the Cullens.
I hated them. They're part of the reason as to why I was leaving. Why did they have to be so goddamn perfect all the time? I wished I never fell for their charm. They got me into this situation. Now, I'm not saying that I hate being vampire, because I don't hate it. In fact, I love it! It's great, the rush of fight and kill, the speed as the wind would blow in my face, and the power surge that I felt when I used my abilities. It was awesome. But also extremely lonely.
EPOV
I knocked on her window several times before calling out her name and telling her I was back. But there was never any reply. Huh, that's weird. She probably wasn't there, so decided to knock on the front door to face Charlie and ask him to hopefully tell me where Bella was so I could surprise her by telling her we were back and we were never going to leave again.
I knocked on the door three times before Charlie finally opened the door. "Hello, Charlie. Is Bella around?" I asked him politely. I could see him wince when I said her name. I wonder why
"No, she's no around." he said angrily.
"Well, could you tell me where she is? I was hoping to surprise her by telling her I was back and never leaving again." I asked again politely hoping he'd stop being angry but apparently that was not the case.
"Oh, so you haven't heard what happened to Bella?!" he said trying to hide his disgust of me.
"No, I just got back, and I was hoping to ask for her forgiveness and see if she'd take me back." I told him plainly. There was something odd going on.
"There was a bear attack. Bella isn't ever coming back." he said cracking his voice on that last sentence. He was fuming and his angry was getting stronger. He tried to close the door on me but I put my hand up as he was about to close the door, stopping it dead.
"What are you talking about? What bear attack?" I asked him hoping he was kidding.
"Bella is dead. She and Jacob were in the woods over some meadows or something and a bear attacked them. Jacob's body was the only one found, Bella's is still missing. We had a funeral for them about six months ago." he told me as his voice got quieter and quieter. I couldn't believe my Bella, my sweet Bella was dead. No, she can't be dead.
"No! she's not dead! Surely she escaped, she probably left and was found by a hiker or something. Please, tell me she isn't dead." I said pleading to him to he tell me otherwise.
"I'm sorry but we went to the scene and we….we found blood…her blood, she seemed to have lost ¾ of the blood from her entire body. Near the blood we also marks that showed she was clawing the ground as she was probably being attacked. If you want to see her tomb, it's at the Cemetery and if you'll excuse me. I have to go. Good-bye." He said almost whispering. I could see that it was paining him to tell me the story. I was looking into his mind while he told me. I ran back into the Volvo when it kept appearing.
The scene in his mind, the one that kept replaying was gruesome, her blood spilled on the ground of our beloved meadows. The claw marks on the ground that confirmed that she was in pain as she died. I couldn't bear to look at it myself, not anymore. I let out a sob for her, if I could cry I would and if my heart were beating then it would surely break again. It took ten minutes for me to compose myself but even I found it difficult at times whenever my mind would wander back to see her face. Her warm, smooth skin, her lips which I would never get to kiss again. Her hands which would never touch mine again. Her body which would never be near mine to warm up my cold body again. I'd never get to smell her scent anymore, of strawberries and freesias. Never be able to see her chocolate orbs, her lovely, wavy brown hair and I'd never ever be able to hear laugh again. It pained me to think about it, never being able to see her blush as she'd se me catch a glance at her. It wasn't fair. She should've been safe. She didn't deserve to die. My angel died of pain, and I was the cause of it. I killed my angel. An angel is never supposed to die. I sobbed out again at the thoughts of us talking and holding hands, of even being close. My phone rang and I noticed it was from Alice, but I wasn't in the mood for talking. I wasn't even feeling like living anymore of this existence without my angel, my Bella. I reluctantly pick up the phone.
"Alice, I don't feel like talking! Good-bye!" I said wanting to get back to hating my pathetic existence. I started my car and wondered where I should go. I couldn't go to the meadow because that place would only provide horrors of her death. I also couldn't go home because Alice and the family would just want to talk about it. I decided to go where Charlie told me Bella's tomb was. I drove at human speed not in any hurry to see the place where it would say that she was dead.
I got there but I moved very slowly. I looked at each tombstone until I got to Bella's. I stiffened as I read her tomb stone. (A/N: now bear with me, I know the years look weird but go with it)
Isabella Marie Swan
Lived 1982-2000
Loving daughter, loving friend
An angel among all others
I fell to my knees as I read it. I let out a sob as I touched the last words engraved on the tombstone. While I was sobbing I felt a hand touch my shoulder. It was Alice, with the rest of the family behind her. They all looked heart-broken. They had indeed lost a family member, a sister and a daughter. But I lost something even worse, my only love. The one I could actually see myself living forever in this tormenting damnation with. The only one that held my heart and would always hold my heart. I was now a broken creature damned to live out my existence on this Earth only half here. The other half, my better half was gone. Ripped away from me by the heavens after taking notice that a damned creature like never should never receive an angel like her. After a very quiet silence I heard all of them break out in sobs, even Emmett.
"At least they got the part right, you know. She was an angel. An angel that didn't deserve me. Being punished only for being with a vile, damned, scum of the Earth creature like me." I told them.
"Don't say that, Edward!" sobbed Alice.
"She's right you know. Edward, we didn't choose this life. If we were truly damned then we would've been born vampire first instead of human. And we wouldn't have been given the ability to feel. Granted, there are those who don't choose to feel the way we feel or live the way we live but at least we chose to live differently than the others. She truly was an angel. And if believe you're a damned creature. Then how could you ignore the fact that the angel fell in love with you? You, only and entirely you." said Carlisle with wise words.
The pain still hurt though, it was as if I was human being pierced with knives over and over again. I wasn't sure what to do now. I didn't want to stay here any longer, that was for sure.
I think Alice knew because she said we'd move again. Something about traveling or going back to the Denali. I didn't really a crap. I just wanted to pain in my heart to stop. I just nodded and we stood there looking at the tombstone, while the girls…and Emmett would be in sobs.
I don't think I could sob anymore, so I stood there, remembering memories of us being close and her blushing as her embarrassment. Oh how I loved to see her blush. But it pained me to think of her, I fought through the pain just to keep her in my memories.
The next day we left, wondering what to do next, and I wondering how I would survive with half of a broken heart and living out my existence, alone.
A/N: just so you know, the depressing section of EPOV needed inspiration to be written, I practically had to be Edward with a broken heart to write that, but it did help that I was listening to depressing music, like 'Pain' by THREE DAYS GRACE. I think the song helped, the song title was relating to it of course.