I Remember You

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Chapter Four: Dreams

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Tony slept that night, better then he'd slept in years. But his dreams were filled with Loki, the memories of their past relationships, some of them at least. He dreamt of Loki saving him on the streets of London as a sixteen year old boy, and him falling for the other. He dreamt of them as Roman soldiers, both exchanging heated kisses in secrecy. He remembered being shot in the civil war and Loki nursing him back to health without question. He awoke slowly at around the time of nine a.m. Sitting up, he felt his head pound, looking down his bed was a mess, but his bed partner wasn't there.

Moving to the shower, he turned it on. He began to wash himself before he felt the memories of last night return to him. He'd slept with Loki, and he'd practically forced Loki into bed with him. The other had been going on about how he was engaged, and he'd kissed him. Loki had returned every advance though, so it wasn't like it wasn't consensual. He sighed pinching his forehead, what was this? Why did the other let him do that? He knew he was drunk after all.

Not like it mattered, Loki wasn't there when he woke up. No he didn't know where Loki had run off to.

-with Loki-

He'd returned to Asgard, despite his problems with Odin, he did have a place secret from the rest of them. That place was a bedroom that wasn't his but wasn't often checked. He hid away there to think on things. Yes Odin didn't care for him, Thor pretended to care, and the one person who had loved him had slept with him but was marrying another. Loki was becoming angrier and angrier, what had he done to deserve this!? It was because of what he'd done on Asgard? Well possibly, but the anger was still building inside of Loki, threatening to explode. Tony was with her, she was better for him then Loki was, wasn't she? She was normal, Tony wouldn't have to hide his relationship this life time, he could finally have children. Loki still became angry at the thoughts, the one good thing he'd ever had was Tony! So why should he allow it to be taken this time!?

Well it wasn't like he had a choice, he doubted that Tony even remembered last night. Loki felt hopeless, and felt that maybe the only way he might even start to be seen is if he did something drastic. He'd need to attack something, somewhere. He just needed to get this out, if they all felt that he wasn't needed then he would make them see that he was someone not to be trifled with.

-with Tony-

Over the next few days, Tony kept having dreams, more like memories of past lives with Loki. Marriages in secret, love vows, a smiling Loki. Everything kept haunting his sleep. Finally he stopped sleeping, but it didn't seem to matter, because even in his day dreams that happened because he was exhausting himself, Loki was there. Tony finally called Thor in, which prompted his arrival.

"Man of Iron, why do you call for me?" asked Thor.

"Your...brother. Like I've been having these weird dreams about him." said Tony.

"What sort of dreams?" asked Thor.

Tony began to explain to Thor, but Thor bit his tongue, it wasn't his place to explain this to Tony.

"Can you tell me what it's about?" asked Tony.

"May I ask you something Stark?" asked Thor.

"Sure, what?" asked Tony.

"Do you like your life as it is right now?" asked Thor.

"Yeah, why?" asked Tony.

"Are you happy marrying Pepper?" asked Thor.

"Yeah, why?" asked Tony again.

"Then I cannot answer you." spoke Thor.

Tony looked confused, Thor left though before he could ask him anything else. He was happy, right? Pepper, she was perfect. She was the best thing that had been in his life, right? Except that he'd slept with Loki behind her back, he'd cared for him the moment he'd met him, he'd wanted to know more. Maybe it was just curiosity? No that wasn't it, it couldn't be. Since he'd met Loki, it was like some sort of force was pushing them together. He cared about Pepper, he loved her, she'd done nothing wrong, so wasn't him marrying her the right choice? It had to be, yet he was so torn.

-meanwhile with Loki-

Loki would make the world pay, he was tired of this, despite the pain in his chest for it, he was going to attack New York. They deserved it, if he couldn't be happy why should they be allowed to be? His beloved Anthony wasn't his anymore, what did he have to lose?

Tony got the call a few days later that there was a disturbance in Central Park that he was going to have to take care of. The other Avengers were off fighting another villain somewhere, so it was up to him alone. He flew out in his suit, and saw in horror as Loki attacked the place, pure chaos around him as his magics flew all over. Tony landed and blasted Loki. Loki smirked at him.

"How good of you to show Stark." spoke Loki.

"Loki don't do this." said Tony.

"Why not?" asked Loki examining his scepter that he'd obtained.

"Damnit Loki talk to me." spoke Tony.

"And tell you what!?" exclaimed Loki sending magic flying at Tony. Tony blasted back and ran at Loki, he pinned him under his suit before he flew up out of the park, he quickly made Jarvis call a cover up agency and they were back at his tower in no time.

"Look, if you're angry with me, attack me here." said Tony.

"Protecting me?" asked Loki.

"Yeah kinda." said Tony.

Loki growled and broke one of Tony's vases in the room, he looked angry, pissed off at everything.

"Now talk Reindeer Games." spoke Tony raising his glove at Loki making sure he understood.

"I have nothing to lose." spoke Loki sending a cold blast at Tony, Tony deflected it.

"What makes you say that?" asked Tony.

"You wouldn't understand." spoke Loki with a growl.

"Then explain it to me." spoke Tony.

"I remember you!" shouted Loki suddenly.

Tony put his gloved hand down and his suit disappeared. "You remember me?" he asked.

Loki's broken glance at him was enough to pull at Tony's heart like nothing else.

"I promised myself I would wait over and over again for you." spoke Loki.

"What are you talking about?" asked Tony.

"I can't really tell you." spoke Loki biting his lip.

"Does this have to do with those dreams I've had?" asked Tony.

"What dreams?" asked Loki.

Tony began to explain the dreams he'd had since that night, he also elaborated that he remembered that night.

"Past lives." spoke Loki.

"Past lives?" asked Tony.

"I can't really elaborate more then that." spoke Loki.

"Why not?" asked Tony.

"Because you are getting married! You have someone you dolt! The facts that you even slept with me shouldn't have happened!" roared Loki, anger and hurt in his tone.

"I was drunk." said Tony.

"That's no excuse." spoke Loki grabbing Tony's chin hard, Tony felt himself being lifted up, the other sure as hell was strong. But just as Loki was about to throw him, something in his eyes looked at Tony and he dropped him. Loki turned away from Tony walking to the bar and sitting down at it.

Tony coughed and coughed but he looked at Loki. "You always choke your bed partners?" he asked.

"I have only ever had one bed partner." spoke Loki.

Tony stood up and walked over. "Whoa I was pretty sure I wasn't your first." he said.

Loki growled a little and sighed. "What do you want of me Stark? You want me not to be angry? I have lost everything, I never had a father it turned out, my entire upbringing was a lie, and the one good thing I had I lost because I was too bent on revenge at the time to see it was time to go back for it. I made one mistake and it cost me the one thing that ever mattered to me. The facts that I am not imprisoned by now I do not understand, after everything I did out of anger." spoke Loki.

Tony sat down pouring them both drinks. "My dad didn't pay attention to me, he called me his greatest treasure even though I never would be really, I was lied to by the one man in my life who I thought I could trust." said Tony.

Loki looked at him with intrigue, Tony began telling him the stories of Afghanistan, Stain, his father's tape, everything. He poured out what had happened in Loki's absence, what Loki could have prevented had he only shown up on time. Loki was pale by the end of it. Yes in each life time, he had saved Tony from something, only this time...he wasn't there.

"I covered up your mess from today before it got too bad." said Tony.

Loki suddenly stood up. "I failed.." he said.

"What?" asked Tony.

Loki looked at Tony, a haunted look in his eyes. "Allow me to explain to you something." he said.

Tony nodded and Loki began to tell him about a lover, he never named the lover. He told him how many lives the lover he'd had, had lived through, and how in each of them Loki had saved him from something, but this time he'd been to late to save him. They had married so many times, but because of Loki's immortality, the mortal always died, this time the mortal was marrying someone else. Loki would always be with him on his sixteenth birthday.

"Wow that's...some dedication. But one guy can't be worth all of this pain, come on, there's gotta be other fish in the sea, right?" spoke Tony with eyes wide.

"I would wait a million lifetimes over for him. I would never betray our love. I will love him forevermore, I know I will. Never had the thought occurred to me to try and find someone else." spoke Loki.

"But you...slept with me." spoke Tony.

Loki looked at him, as Tony pieced everything together, he suddenly stood up. "Wait whoa, I'm him!?" exclaimed Tony.

Loki smiled sadly and looked at the floor. "I understand if you wish for me to leave now." spoke Loki.

"No I..." began Tony.

But then he heard JARVIS alert him that Pepper was coming, Loki stood up. "Anthony, I will always remember you, love you, and wait for you. But even I know that she is your love this time." spoke Loki.

Tony reached a hand out, but he was gone, and Pepper was walking in. She kissed his cheek, and Tony had never felt like this big of a piece of shit before.

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