*Nervous Laughter* Alright, So I lied. I dont think Im going to to not continue. What can I say...? I was just struck with inspiration. I'll talk more after, just go read now. (Sorry in advanced for spelling and grammar errors. I usually beta it myself, but I was really eager to update.)

I officially hate confrontations. I thought as I was sprawled on my bed.
Upon hearing a knock, I looked up to find Serena in all her not pregnant glory, looking at me with concern. I hate her.

"Hey B." She says, coming in my room and closing the door.

I lay back down without a greeting. Maybe she'll go away if I ignore her.

"I spoke to Nate earlier...He said you were with Chuck again..." Serena trailed off.

Bitch. "Oh Screw you, S. Oh wait. Nate already did," I spat bitingly. Serena opened her mouth to speak, but I broke her off. "And your not even pregnant! You bitch. You deserve a human mistake! Not me! But of course, You being Serena Van der Woodsen could never have to face the consequence." I will not cry.

Her face turned sour, and she was quick to defend herself "Hey! Don't go blaming me for your mistakes. I'm not the one who slept with Chuck and Nate! So excuse me-"

"Your excused." I finished for her, glaring at in the direction of the door.

Serena shook her head. "You can fight with me for however long you want, but you cant fight this forever Blair. Your pregnant whether you like it not. So either get an abortion, or find out who the father is and tell them the truth. Because Blair, that so called 'human mistake' deserves someone better than who your being right now." And with that, she was left.

I couldn't control the tears now as they came down in a torrent on my cheeks. I placed my hand on my slightly stomach, and looked down at it.

I'm sorry I'm not a better person. I fell asleep like that.

"So Blair, back at your old games I see." Little J. How dare she. My little minions behind her.

"You don't know what your talking about, J. So why don't you run along with your little gay friends?" I raised my chin up at her, daring her to speak.

"Why don't you go to the gynecologist?" She sneered.

My mouth hung open in surprise. How did she know? Who had told?

"Its all around school Blair. Everyone knows about how you slept with Chuck and Nate, and now your pregnant. I'm pretty sure you cant come back from that. Oh but don't worry, I keep your throne warm." She smirked, and turned quickly on her heel. My mouth was still hanging open. I looked around to see if anyone had heard, only to find that everyone was watching me. Nate stood in a corner, staring at me with disbelief. Judgment was tattooed in large print on everyones faces. I turned around and ran. I got halfway out of Constance, only to run into Chuck.

Chuck.

"Did you tell anyone?"

"Oh whatever do you speak of?" He asked, taking a drag of his cigarette. I felt sick again, and my heart sped.

I glared at him. "You know very well what I'm talking about!" I exploded, tears threatening to escape like they had last night. In attempt to express some of my anger, I took his cigarette, threw it on the floor, and smashed it. His eyes followed my charade down to his cigarette to my face.

"Forgive me, Blair. I forgot smoke is bad for the baby. Not that it matters, I was a bit drunk anyways when we had sex. Its not like your going to keep it though." He responded, sounding sure of his words, as he pulled out another cigarette.

I smiled bitterly at him. "I'm keeping the baby."

"Oh, I see. So its Nathaniel's." He said in a whisper.

"I don't know whose baby it is."

"Well if its mine, you're getting rid of it."

My mouth hung in shock for the second time this morning. "I will do no such thing."

He took a step closer to me now, our faces almost touching. His breath was hot on my face, and smelling of cigarettes. "You just cant let me go now can you? Its beginning to get a little desperate, Blair. The games over. We're over."

He stepped away from me, and left. Just like that.

My surroundings were spinning, and my food was rising. I threw up on the side steps of Constance, and tried to grip the iron fence beside me.

It felt as if my heart was spewed from my lips as well.

My world was coming down a slow burn.

If ever asked who I wanted to be the father more, I would deny it heavily. For he was cruel and sick, and not worthy of being a parent. But who was I to judge, I was no more suitable than he.

I no longer had loved ones on the outside world, the closest connection I had to someone was the baby inside of my connected by the umbilical cord. But as soon as the baby was out of me, it was bound to hate me just as much as everyone else.

I swallowed my rising food again, and took a seat on the steps. I put my hands over my face, and wept.

For I was alone.

Mmm...I dont know why, I just saw Chuck mad at Blair in my head when she tells him shes pregnant. I think at this point, Chuck is somewhat in love with Blair already, but still somewhat hesitant, and trying to fight off his feelings for her. But he loves her, he just doesnt realize it yet. Blair too. So dont be too mad a Chuck.

Sorry if you dont agree, Its hard sometimes to try to fit into Chuck's character.

But anyways, as I said at the top, I'm pretty sure I'm here to stay and finish what I started. And I think Im also going to start replying to my reviews. I didnt before, and It feels really impersonal. I'd like to get to know my readers better and interact with them, get to know what they think.

And I also think I'll start leaving songs for my chapters every once in a while, just like the show. I already liked Indie music, and I just found the motther load on this one website. So I'll be exploring new songs along with you.

Todays song for the chapter is: Glacially by Asobi Seksu

So leave a review. :) Its greatly appreciated.