Here is chapter 4 for you my lovelies. It's a short one, but I quite like it. :D
I hope you do too. :)
4. LOVE
SPOV:
I love you.
Three words. Eight letters. Half a second to say.
But words that could make or break everything we have.
Over the past year I have learnt a lot. I have learnt that love is not something to be taken lightly as I did in the past. It's not something that should be laughed off, talked scornfully about, forgotten.
I thought it was funny when you said that you loved me. I thought you were joking.
Sure, I knew that I was in love with you. But I thought that being in love was just the giddy feeling I had when you held my hand or whispered my name, or called me crying in the middle of the night – because I was the only one who could make everything better.
But I didn't know that I loved you. That love went beyond what was on the surface, beyond the superficial, beyond the giggles and notes.
And now that I've realized that you were for real. Love was for real. You were right. Love was right.
Funny how it's only now that I've realized it, you might not love me anymore. Perhaps everything between us is over. Perhaps I was too late.
You couldn't possibly understand how hard it was to be separated from you. I know that your life over the past year was probably terrible. Because of me. And I know I broke your heart. But even though your year was bad, can you imagine how hard it was for me to know that I was breaking your heart, and not be able to do anything about it?
I'm a terrible person. Really I am. Who would do that to someone else? Someone who they loved?
Me. Because I cared more about the band and about my publicist and what I thought the record label and the fans and everyone else wanted, than I did about you.
Ouch.
But when I realized that love was real, then I knew that whatever they said didn't matter. Nothing mattered. Only you.
And now that you probably don't love me, I love you. Love is so fickle really. It only takes a moment to say, but it takes a lifetime to try and escape from its effect.
All I can say is that I want you back. Because I know that what we have is real.
Love.
What can I say except that I will LOVE you if you take the time to review. Hey that rhymed. :P
lovelovelove
-Nikki