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Well this took a long time to update. sorry... just, be as mean to me as you want. I deserve it. enjoy!

Carlisle's P.O.V.

"Do you think you could give me back the memory?" I asked. This was all so very strange. I just couldn't believe that someone-even vampires-could be so cruel. To kill an infant, even if it hadn't succeeded. It would be quite interesting to know of something in the past that happened but know one knew about because it had been an erased memory.

Valeray looked at me with sad, knowing eyes. "Its not a pleasant memory. You will be stuck in the past for a while if you do, going through the flashbacks. What you see there will be quite devastating." She told me. I only nodded in response. "Carlisle, I already know what you're going to say, but you really need to think about this so you know for yourself."

I took in a deep breath. I chanced a glance at Esme. She was fiddling with the hem of her shirt, a worried expression on her face. I put my hand on hers, and rubbed it soothingly while going through the thoughts that ran in my mind.

"It's something that may scar you for a while, and it's hard to overcome the fear. It took me a very long time." Valeray added just before I had come to my conclusion. I furrowed my brows in frustration.

"I would like to do it. It is my memory, and that is something that is to be treasured." I finally decided.

She sighed. "I know. I know." She sighed again. "Just say bye bye before you go into a coma state. And I'll take over your work until you wake up."

"How long will he be unconscious?" Esme finally spoke frantically.

"4 days." Valeray stated simply, as if it as only to be 4 minutes.

"4 days?!" Esme shouted.

"I promise Esme, it won't be so bad. You have your 'children' here to keep you company. I'll be here as much as Carlisle would be, since I'm taking over my job, and Eden will be here by tonight not being able to stand being so far away from me for so long. OK, well, say ba-bye to your family here so you can have a travel into the past." She ranted on.

I stood up from next to Esme, and looked to my entire family. They all ushered to me and gave me a bear hug. Emmett more bear like then the rest. But Esme held on tighter. Bella didn't come up to hug, for fear she would be squeezed to death by these vampires. "I'll see you soon my family."

"Bye Father." - Jasper

"I'll miss you Daddy!" - Alice

"Bye Dad." - Rosalie

"Later Dadio! - Emmett ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Dadio?

"I'll see you soon my Father." - Edward

They all let go of me, and then Bella came to give me a hug. "Goodbye Carlisle."

I then turned to Esme. She looked as though she would cry if she were human. And that's when it happened. A single tear ran down her cheek. She gasped and raised her hand to her cheek to feel it, but I beat her to it.

Everyone else stared in shock. Except for Valeray.

"How – why - but – this is – goodness!" Esme stuttered.

"Do you like the feel of it? How it glides down your cheek with its own trail to follow, the soft wetness of it? The wonderful feel of letting your emotions escape in that one drop of water? It's nice isn't it? I gave you the joy of that. To just let a weight on your shoulders lighten up just an ounce." Valeray whispered.

"Yes. It is wonderful. Thank you." She then turned all her attention back to me. "I shall miss you terribly Carlisle. I love you."

"Darling, it is for but a few days! I will be back sooner then you think! I promise."

"Alright."

"Now come Carlisle." Valeray said.

I followed her to my room, and found a bed there that wasn't before. I didn't ask. It was obviously put here by her.

"Lay." She said, directing me towards the bed.

I laid in the comfy bed.

"Close your eyes."

I did so.

"And now you will fall asleep, and melt into the lost memories that will soon be buried in your mind."

And with that said, I fell asleep for the first time in over 300 years, into the worst memory, that I will only be able to remember as a bad nightmare.

OoOoOoOooo!!! Cliffy!!! I think this chap. is too short, but it was an absolutley perfect place to stop! please don't hate me. REVIEW!!