This isn't exactly a romance song-fic, to me, it's a friendship fic, but readers are free to interpret as they please. , Unlike the other two I did, this doesn't exactly take place in a specific episode, but it does take place after Terra comes along and obviously before she betrays them all.

This song is called by "Trying", by Lifehouse.

Enjoy!

Kree

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The roof never failed to provide her a place of security and comfort. Even if the rest of her friends were playing volleyball in the background, slamming balls into the air that nearly knocked off her head, she could sit above the edge of the Titans Tower building in complete meditation. Lately, life at the Titans Tower was hectic, but life at home usually was. Maybe it was a little more hectic since Terra came back as heart-wrenching emotions and tangled thoughts twisted the normally cleared passages in her mind. Whatever the reason, she found herself coming outside on the roof a lot more often, and this was no exception.

She had tried to mediate near the windows in the living room, but a football game between Terra, Cyborg, and Beast Boy had forced her to retreat to the tranquility of the outdoors. In a way, she didn't really mind coming outside... it was a breathtaking sight above the ocean, foaming with snowflake-like bubbles and mist. The sun was embracing the horizon in a spectacle of reds and oranges and a purple cloud began to stretch across the sky. Yes, it was quite beautiful outside, but she wished that she wasn't so bothered with Terra being back and all...

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Could you let down your hair be transparent for awhile

just a little while

to see if your human after all

honesty is a hard attribute to find

when we all want to seem like

we've got it all figured out

well let me be the first to say that I don't have a clue

I don't have all the answers

ain't gonna pretend like I do

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"Hey Ray, why ya up here all alone?" A friendly voice called out from behind her. She didn't have to turn around to see that it was Cyborg, approaching her from the entrance of the tower. He might have been far away, but his voice was strong and loud, so he could have been two feet away and she wouldn't be able to tell the difference. He walked up to her, sitting beside her on the ledge.

"When I meditate, Cyborg, I usually do it all alone. This time is no different," she replied bluntly, still facing the ocean and closing her eyes.

"Well yeah, I know that," he rolled his eyes, "but how come you won't meditate in the living room where everyone else is?"

"If you haven't noticed, your football feud was devastating my concentration." For once, she had gotten hit in the head of the football by Terra's throw.

"But that never bothered you before," Cyborg chuckled, "and besides, we've stopped. Why don't you come inside now?"

"It's quite nice out here, thank you very much."

"You got a point there, but are you still gonna tell me what's up?"

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Just trying

to find my way

trying

to find my way the best that I know how

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She opened her eyes and blinked once. Her violet eyes were still focused on the bleeding sun, but he could tell that the question was playing with her mind. "Do I ever tell any of you what's up?"

"Sure you do, like the time when--"

"Cyborg, if you haven't noticed, there is nothing wrong with me."

"Well you look a little emotionally disturbed," he crossed his arms.

She blinked again and turned her head towards him. "And you don't look so aerodynamic, if you know what I mean," she replied acidly.

"Aw, but you wouldn't push me off the building without diving down to catch me," he mused.

"Watch me."

He smirked, his brown eye twinkling as he too, looked towards the dying sky. Her heart relaxed a little bit, some of the tension disappearing, but not much of it. Closing her eyes, a vision instantly came upon her, blinding her mind. She suddenly cried out, her eyes flashing open with red light, releasing a huge breath of air. Panting wildly, she felt Cyborg's robotic hand lightly grasp her shoulder.

"Raven, what happened?" He asked instantly, his voice full of sincerity. "Raven, are you okay?"

She quickly shook it off and then looked towards the face of her worried friend. "I'm fine." Her voice was a little shaky and was not doing a good job of concealing its lies. "I-I just saw something. That's all."

"Oh?" Cyborg cocked an eyebrow. "And what exactly did you see?"

She swallowed before answering him and then looked towards the sea. "Slade," she paused, her voice monotonous as ever. "Terra. I saw Slade and Terra. I saw a uniform, but I don't know who it belonged to..."

"Raven, you don't think..." Cyborg's voice sounded weary and graved as he trailed off into nothingness.

"Let's hope I'm wrong...even though I'm usually not."

"Do you trust her?"

"Of course I do. Do I trust my visions? Of course...so where am I going wrong?" She pushed a strand of her orchid hair to the side of her face. Her tresses swayed gently with the wind, frustrating her path of viewing.

"Well, maybe something else is bothering you," Cyborg started. "Maybe you're a little jealous of Terra."

"And why would I be jealous of Terra?"

"Well, you do like Beast Boy."

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well I haven't memorized all of the cute things to say

but I'm working on it

maybe I'll master this art form someday

if I quote all the lines off the top of my head

would you believe

that I fully understand all these things I've read

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"What was that?" Raven questioned slowly, staring at him intensely. Her heartbeat was stumbling again, running away with the breeze that brushed past her cheeks. Physically, she showed no disorder in her orthodox, emotionless state, but Cyborg flew up into the air with a gust of black energy.

"Hey, you mind putting me down?" Cyborg yelled, floating from side to side vigorously.

"Sorry," she lowered her voice, quickly looking away as she levitated him down. She'd let her powers get out of control! And because of her emotions! She could feel Cyborg's Shadow overtake her as he stood right behind her. "Listen, it's not what it looks like," she tried to make an excuse for herself.

"Uh huh," Cyborg mused. "Whatever you say, Ray..."

"I do not like Beast Boy, Cyborg," she grit her teeth and glared at him. "We're just friends, just as we are friends as well."

"You both like each other...well..." Cyborg paused, "Beast Boy isn't that open to liking you anymore because he has Terra around."

"Cyborg, that's ridiculous. You know very well that the both of us do not like each other," Raven crossed her arms.

"Come on, Ray, we're friends. You can tell me the truth."

"And the truth is I couldn't be happier that the bastard finally found someone he loves and who loves him," she spun around as another burst of black energy shot Cyborg up into the air and back onto the roof.

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I'm just trying

to find my way

trying

to find my way

trying

to find my way the best that I know how

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"Jeez, would you stop doing?" Cyborg moaned from his twisted position on the ground.

"I don't know what's wrong with me right now," she stared at the palms of her hands, the black energy jumping from one hand to the other. "I don't know why my powers are going out of control."

"Maybe it's because you love Beast Boy, and you're too afraid to admit it," he put a hand on her shoulder.

"Don't even say things like that, Cyborg!" She yelled furiously. "You know what would happen to my emotions if I were in love! You know how uncontrollable my powers could be! You know that I could hurt my friends and anybody else around me..."

"But you do love him, and it's the truth," he said softly, looking straight into her eyes. She swallowed hard, trying hard to keep the tears from escaping her eyes. "I can see it in the way you look at him. I can see that he loves you in the way that he looks at you. I can see it when he tries so desperately to make you laugh and smile and tries to make you his sorry excuse for a breakfast. He loved you, Raven, and he probably still does. If it weren't for Terra..."

"Well then we wouldn't be having this conversation now, would we?" Raven interrupted with a sharp voice. "I'm going to my room."

"Don't leave, Raven!" Cyborg exclaimed. "Please, just tell me what's bothering you. You're too good of a friend for me to leave you all alone in your misery like this."

"If I needed your help, I certainly wouldn't deserve it," she continued walking to the door.

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well I haven't got it all figured out quite yet but

even if it takes my whole life

to get to where I need to be

and if I should fall to the bottom of the end

I'll be one step back to you and

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"Would you quit running away?" Cyborg sprinted in front of the door, blocking her entrance to the Titans Tower. "Raven, we've got to talk."

"What's there to talk about?" she thrust her arms up into the air. "I want to go inside! Listen, I love Beast Boy, okay? You happy? Will you let me go into the fucking building now?"

"Nope," Cyborg shook his head, but his hard eyes softened as he watched Raven fall to the ground on her knees. She was breaking down in front of him...he couldn't tell whether or not it was acting, but the lightpost beside him did bend over, contorted in a twisted position. She wasn't crying, but the visage on her face could have given false tears away.

"I hate this," she murmured. "I hate being swayed by emotions. I hate everything about these stupid emotions. What's the point of love? It's so incredibly stupid."

"I know that's not how you really feel," Cyborg knelt down beside her. "There were times when you were in love, you felt like you were the happiest person on Earth. There were times with Beast Boy that made you smile, and hell, maybe you almost laughed," he cleared his throat. "Now, I can't believe I'm saying this, but "it is better to have loved then to have never loved at all"."

"And could you explain that?"

"Only that a human being needs to love someone or something in his or her life, in order to lead a complete one."

"And does the fact that I am half demon ring a bell?" she raised an eyebrow.

"But you are half human, just like me, and that doesn't make us any less eligible," he smiled putting his arm around her. "Even if Beast Boy is with Terra now, it doesn't mean that he doesn't care about you. It doesn't mean that he hates you or doesn't want to see you anymore. It just means that he loves someone else along with his first one. He's still your friend. No other girl could ever change that." The both of them looked into each other's eyes as Cyborg said, "Raven, all of us...we're still here for you. We're your friends. Whenever you need us, we'll come running to your side, you do know that, right?"

Raven gave him a small smile, the first one he had seen since he was up here. "Of course I know that, thanks to you. Cyborg, you're like a brother to me."

"And the same for me, I mean...as in you're like a sister to me...because you're not a guy..."

Raven sniggered as she looked into the evening sky, he helped her to her feet as they approached the door. "Thanks, Cyborg. You were always there for me when I needed it."

"And I'm still here. Still here, and always will be."

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trying

to find my way

trying

to find my way

I'm trying

to find my way

trying

to find my way.

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It's a little bit short, but I'm pleased at what I got in the end. ,

Please review!

Kree