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After the training was over I skidded to a stop in my Dust Demon and pulled my tan scarf down from over my face.

"Alright, newbie, training times over." I watched as Jak came to halt beside me and I nodded my head at him, a smirk playing on my face, "Kleiver won't play clean, Jak, so watch your ass out there. Other than that I think you've got what it takes to beat him. He's too cocky for his own good any-damn-ways."

Jak simply nodded at me and I pulled my red goggles back on my eyes, revving the engine some while tapping my ear.

"If you need anything afterwards just use your communicator and I'll find you. I've gotta get going," I said nodding. Dax rose a brow waving his arms from Jak's shoulder.

"Why do ya always just bail!" I merely shrugged down at the Ottsel before smiling fakely.

"You'll be fine, Dax. You guys have raced before. Look.." I looked over at Jak and nodded once more, "It's the same as Zoomer racing except…your on the ground and you have a car."

I heard Dax mumble something and Jak looked over at me again, his hand on the wheel while the other waved when he spoke, "You aren't gonna stay and watch?"

I shook my head some, glancing off to the side, "Shit to do, people to kill. Ya know how it is."

Jak's distaste for that line simply showed and I almost gloried in that look. It always made me feel great when someone showed their dislike for my recklessness. I mean what was a girl to do in a world of Wastelanders? Stand by and watch the men do the work? Tchhhhh please.

In all reality I didn't have anything to do, but I really didn't feel comfortable being around Jak and Daxter quite yet, even if it was just to watch them race. I guess you could say I was still simply trying to absorb the fact they were even there in the Wastelands with me.

"What happens when we win?" I looked over at Jak's question and then chuckled some, shifting gears in the Dust Demon.

"Well, newbie, if you win, you get to keep the vehicle for as long as you live…right? Well," I smirked. "We'll just see how long that'll be."

Daxter blinked instantly at me and I waved some, "See ya around~" Not wasting another moment I zoomed off heading right back to Spargus.

The drive back to Spargus though was what I was supposed to be thinking about. I mean you could say my mind was a bit distracted. In reality it was all filled with thoughts now about Haven city which, none the less, pissed me off. Here I was going on almost half a year without a care in the world about the damn place or the people in it..and now I gave a shit!

I tsked shifting gears and spun around the rocks, the Dust Demon flying over the sandy dune before I landed again and straightened out.

Evidence of my frustration was obviously there in my driving. Don't judge. It came out of habit really. I sighed myself calm and began driving at a semi-easy pace once again. But it wasn't really working. The mere thought of the city throwing Jak out made me stop and think about it.

How much danger was the city really in?

To throw out their savior as a threat. First me, then him, Daxter. Who knew who was next. The way things were being ran I wouldn't be surprised if they got rid of Ashelin and she was the new ruler over the damn place. No doubt it was the council.

Always was. Always will be.

But out of all of this, all of my thoughts and repressed feelings over the situation, was it bad the only person that came to mind…the only person I thought about after all of this information was poured on me…was Adriel…?

One couldn't be surprised I guess. Depends on your point of view. But for me…it was different since he was my protector, ex-fiancé, and the only man that loved me for over twelve years when he was trapped in my head.

It was sorta like my life was a damn story. (:D)

Snapping out of my thoughts before they got any more depressing then they needed to be I pulled through the doors to Spargus, spinning off into a stop in my usual spot and hopped out.

My brow simply rose upon seeing Damas and I pulled down my scarf, pushing my goggles up to my head, "Did I miss something?"

He nodded his head towards me in greeting, his staff in hand and he spoke calmly as ever, "Did you finish training the new ones?"

"Yeah. They should be racing Kleiver now," I mumbled shrugging. I rebandaged my hands while speaking offhandishly, "Doubt they'll lose."

"You have faith in them?" I looked at Damas as he gave me a questioning look and simply shrugged again.

"Well I mean, don't get me wrong, he's got driving skills. I'll give him that," I said crossing my arms. Damas stared at me for a moment and I made a face, getting defensive.

"What?"

The male simply shook his head, waving his hand in a dismissed manner, "It is nothing. Carry-"

"I can't believe it!" I drew my pistol and pointed it instantly at the yelling thing that was on Damas' shoulder but stopped short to see it it was actually-

"Pecker?" His wide dark eyes stared at me in surprise at my hard green ones and the monkaw's wings were up defensively.

"Good to know you'd shoot an old friend on sight!" he yelled quickly. I put my gun back in its holster with a small growl.

"You think that was bad, shoulda seen what I did to Jak and Daxter," I mumbled annoyed. He stared at me and then sat correctly on Damas' shoulder.

"I cannot believe you're *squawk* even alive!" I glared at him instantly and he shrunk back, almost hiding on Damas' shoulder, "Cause, uh, ya know..it was five months and all."

"Six months, two weeks and twenty seven days," I snapped looking at him. He stared at me wide eyed and I shrugged softly, "But hey…who's counting…"

Damas looked at me with a calm yet curious gaze, "It seems you know him too."

"Couldn't forget an animal like that," I muttered annoyed. Turning, I decided the best thing now as to just get the hell outta here. So before Jak made his entrance I left and headed for the city, back to my house to be exact. I've had too much excitement for one day and it was only midday.

"Oi…" I rubbed the back of my head going towards my house at an easy pace. I looked over where the monks were usually at and could only roll my eyes as Seem came straight over.

"Dude, I'm so not in the mood."

"What connection do you have with Orange Lightning and his partner?" I looked at him as he pointed at me, his red eyes narrowing. I stared at him for a moment in confusion before raising a brow.

"Who?"

"You know who," he said folding his arms annoyed. I thought about it and then realized who he was talking about causing me to rub my forehead and shut my eyes.

"Daxter..man I swear to-"

"You're going to be the end of us." I glared at Seem as he spoke and then shifted my weight to my other leg, my hands on my hips and he went on, "This whole time the Day Star has grown closer and closer. Only getting closer when we found you."

I grunted shutting an eye when he jammed his finger in the center of my chest and glared at him hard.

"What? You think I wanna be the reason the worlds gonna end?" I snapped sarcastically. Seem just looked at me dully and I rolled my eyes looking away, "I don't have time for this."

"Why else would you have stayed here?" he asked loudly. I looked at him as if he were stupid and then motioned where I just came from.

"Where else was I supposed to go!"

"Back up to the sun planet you are from!" I stopped at that, staring at Seem and he glared looking me over with disgust, "You do not belong on this planet."

I blinked repeatedly as he turned and walked off and could honestly say I was in a bit of shock at his words. It sorta made my stone heart beat again with pain and I looked down before turning and storming to my home.

I slammed the door behind me before my eyes got tunnel vision and suddenly- blackout.

3rd Person

Jak walked through the Spargus streets an an easy pace. Damas had told him where Kida resided, but he didn't really know if he should have went there or not. All of this time he had dreamed about what he'd do if he found out she was alive. How much he'd hold her and kiss her and just about anything that involved keeping her close. But…it wasn't the same Kida from before.

The green eyes he learned to love were dull, empty, and cold. Her features were the same sure, but the expression on them was different. Harsh. Jak spoke softly, really just voicing his thoughts, "Maybe the Kida we knew…really did die when she was thrown out.."

Daxter looked at his bestfriend before smiling unsurely.

"Nah, she needs a little reminding," he reassured calmly. Jak looked at the Ottsel with the shake of his head.

"You can see it too, Dax…she's a whole different person. It's like she doesn't even remember who we are." Jak's eyes grew distant as he sighed, "How she felt…"

At that moment it was when Daxter realized it wasn't even the fact she changed that had bothered Jak. It was her lack of love. She loved him…she had to still loved him. It was just buried just like everything else. Kida had walls now…barriers to keep others out and unfortunately that meant she locked herself in too…

Dax sighed, his ears falling flat, "I miss her too, buddy…"

Jak stared off as he spoke slowly again, "Before…she said that we never tried anything to stop it, but cut herself off." Dax looked over at him and Jak looked at the orange creature with a slight panicked look in his eye, "She's right, Dax. When we had the chance to say goodbye…I said no and stayed with Keira instead…because I was afraid." Jak looked to the ground and then sighed softly, "That was probably…the biggest mistake of my life.."

Daxter didn't say anything since…part of that was true. The request to talk to her was denied and she was never going to find out. But Adriel wasn't afraid to talk to her since he just refused to say goodbye.

Now look where they were.

Dax sighed and then shrugged, "All we can do is talk to her a day at a time and try to get the old Ki back. Even if she is mad…"

"That's the thing…what if she's so mad over the feeling of being abandoned she doesn't go back the same way?" Jak asked shaking his head. Jak looked at him and Dax offered a smile nodding.

"She's in there somewhere. We found you and you were all craaaazy and stuff. We got you back didn't we?"

Jak looked at Daxter and chuckled as they started off again. Daxter just smiled once more, shutting his eyes and folding his arms.

"Thought so."

1st POV

I breathed heavily sliding down to the floor against my door and stared wide eyed at my house.

"Holy shit…" I felt I was shaking some as I attempted to calm and looked around the mess of area, the torn fabric to my couch, the destroyed living room. It was like it was mauled by an animal.

I held up my hands staring at them and sighed as it was over. I banged the back of my head against the door softly and shut my eyes tiredly.

Sad to say, this happened when my anger took control. The only thing I could relate it to was the little change Jak had when he switched it up and went all Dark-Jak-kill-people-and-destroy-things on us. I couldn't really control it. Well I mean I could..but there were so many times where my anger got the best of me.

I would just snap, blackout and by the time I came to something like this was usually in my eye sight. I huffed standing and glanced around the room in annoyance. Sighing I brought my hand up and rubbed my head, shutting my eyes.

"This'll take forever to clean," I muttered hotly. Not to mention this heat was getting to me. In reality I knew why I snapped. Seem got to me as he did all the time. Him and his damn "words of wisdom". Sometimes he needed to know when to shut hell up.

Maybe it was hard to tell, I mean yeah it was hard to tell, but I was still human. I fucking had feelings too.

I growled and turned, punching the wall but my hand went straight through the wallpaper and hit the cement on the other side. My green eyes flashed some and I tsked, pressing my other hand against the wall for leverage and pulled. My fist ripped from the hole in the wall and I clenched my hand before turning and heading to the bathroom.

"Maybe now is a good time for a shower…" I said softly, breathing in to calm myself. There was going to be no good in going out and beating the shit out of the marauders wasn't going to happen if I didn't get it together.

Starting the cool water of the shower I began to strip down to nothing. I ran my hand through the dark locks I owned, unbandaging myself as the water ran and I tried clearing my head. Soon I was stepping in and hissed as the cold drops hit my warm skin, cooling it off along with my temper.

Sighing I submitted to the feeling of comfort beneath the water and held myself, letting the shower's water fall on my head and I stood right beneath it looking at the drain. My eyes slid shut at the feeling and I could literally feel the pain from Seem's words being washed away in that instant.

What he had to say and think didn't matter to me. It never did before so why was I going to start now. He simply needed something to blame the growing doom on and I was the closest thing.

Sometimes it made sense, sometimes it didn't. Sure I was the princess to a Twin Sun, I'd give him that if he were to use that as the reason the purple star was getting closer. But the Twin Sun- in one point in time being Suns- was green. The "Star of Doom" was purple, therefore he sounded stupid and needed to get his facts straight. Either that or learn his colors.

My elf ear twitched when I heard the sound of knocking on my door. I averted my attention, instantly annoyed at the fact I now had a damn visitor when I was just relaxed for once! The water got turned off as I took my hand off of the knob to the shower and I opened the curtain again, stepping out while grabbing the clean tan like towel thing there.

Seeing it just covered enough I wrapped it around me securely before padding out of the bathroom. My long hair fell down my chest and cascaded down my back but I didn't really have time to do much else as I walked through the house and into the living room.

I almost slowed to a stop seeing the destruction in the area. Both of my couches looked torn but could easily be fixed, the rug was hanging from the unlit fire lamp on the ceiling and there were a select few items in the area that probably couldn't be fixed. Snapping out of it I quickly went to the door and grabbed the pistol on the stand next to the door and opened it quickly, pointing the gun at my visitor.

"Sup," I said shifting in my spot. A huff left me seeing it was of course, Jak and Daxter. Both of them had their hands up, staring cross eyed at the pistol pointed at Jak's nose and then looked at me.

"We come in peace," Daxter said slowly. I rolled my eyes, but my gun didn't falter as I looked at both of them.

"What do you want…" Jak frowned, moving my gun from his face and I stood correctly as he spoke again.

"You told us to come find you when we were done."

I shook my head, "Mmm I disagree." Turning I left the door open since they were gonna come in anyways, tossing my pistol on the stand again.

"I said if you needed anything..use your communicator and I'd find you." I rolled my eyes walking over things across the floor in the living room and went towards the hall, "Don't think you need anything. Look you already have armor."

No doubt they were both looking around my destroyed house by now, Dax probably on top of the fire lamp and lifting the rug from it as if it were a disease. Turning around I came to a stop right before the hall and I smirked dully, a hand on my hip as I looked up directly at Dax.

"Why am I not surprised?" I mumbled chuckling. Jak walked around the couch, running his fingers over the claw like scratches before he looked at me with a confused and curious gaze.

"What the hell happened in here?"

The only thing I could think of doing at this point was to keep it calm, cool, and short, "Lost my control. Small accident don't worry."

Jak motioned to the couch and stared at me dully, "Small accident."

Again I shrugged, shifting and folding my arms while looking off to the side. My gaze went up to Dax as he crawled down and landed back on Jak's shoulder.

"Lost control? Ya mean like Jak does?"

After a moment of awkward silence and my lack of answer I only shrugged. Daxter rolled his eyes and Jak frowned, apparently not liking my answer too much.

Not that I really cared.

"Kida, you-"

"I'm gonna get dressed," I cut in. I turned abruptly, going down the hall, passed the bathroom on my left and went right at the end into the door, shutting it behind me.

I didn't need the lecture. Wasn't worth it. I knew my faults and my strong suits. I knew that I had anger problems that needed to be handled. I knew that having blackouts and destroying things around me was dangerous. I knew that I had a special power. I knew I was a princess to one of the Twin Suns. And I also knew that my closed off emotions were probably going to be the death of me.

I also knew..that I didn't give a shit.

If I had truly cared about all of my problems and issues I would have solved them before Jak arrived. I would have done it on my own because I'm strong enough to do that by myself. I didn't need to support and worthless caring of a friend. See the trick was to meet your insecurities first, that way when other people try to point them out- you've already come to terms with them and can deal with them your own damn way.

I finished bandaging my chest and came to a slow stop, staring at my reflection in the full body mirror. My jeans as always were open on the sides, the straps tight around my legs and my chest was bandaged securely.

Was this really me? Is this what I had became? Some emotionless robot that craved nothing but violence and the rush of reckless racing?

Shutting my green eyes I grabbed my brown cloth jacket thing and pulled it on before grabbing my gloves and walking back into the living room.

'It doesn't matter…'

I watched as Jak looked at the map that was painted on my living room wall and I leaned against the doorway to the hallway with my arms crossed.

"I made that when I first got here." Jak and Dax both looked at me and I nodded some, walking over until I was next to Jak, "I got pissed that I didn't know where I was going all the time. So I painted that, then studied it every day until I knew this place like the back of my hand."

When I glanced over at the boys they were both staring at me causing me to glare instantly.

"What?"

Dax shook his head quickly and Jak simply shrugged, "You're just…" He trailed off softly, looking away from me and I felt my glare fall to a small frown but I didn't press the situation.

That's only because I already knew what he was going to say. I wasn't stupid…well I liked to think that. Point was…I changed. I knew that, but I guess it took me a while to realize I changed that much.

I didn't noticed I changed from the girl that once lived a carefree and adventures life on an island to a girl that hated what she thought were her friends and wanted to solve everything with violence.

Yeah…I did change.

Huffing at my own thoughts I turned and started to pick the shit up from the living room floor, all the while mumbling to myself.

"Why's it matter? They can take care of themselves. I don't miss them. I don't need them. I don't need anyone just like they don't need me."

"Is that what you think? This entire time?" I looked at Jak and stood correctly, my arms folding.

"No. It's what I know. It's what I've known the entire time." Daxter jumped off of Jak's shoulder as said male glared instantly.

"You really believe that no one cared for you? No one missed you?" My green eyes flashed as I stood up to him easily, not caring if he was less then a foot away.

"You think my friends would have left me out here to die?"

Jak shut his eyes, inhaling deeply to calm himself, "There was nothing we could do, Kida. We tried everythi-"

"Not enough!" I cut in sharply. Jak stared at me as I shook my head laughing blankly. How was he going to stand there and tell me what to think? I glared at him, pointing to my chest and motioned around.

"I was alone all this time with no word from any of you. No sign that you were safe! No word that you cared I was gone! Nothing!" Jak stared at me and said nothing and that probably got me more upset. I stared at him, glancing at Daxter and saw his ears were flat against his head.

Looking at Jak again I shook my head, "You didn't even want to see me before I was sent away, Jak!"

My voice was broken and I looked away quickly, as if I were slapped in the face. Jak again said nothing and I turned away from him fully, my arms folding across my chest as I stared at the ground.

"The only one…that saw me off…was my guardian," I breathed softly. I glanced over my shoulder at him some, my voice calm.

"To think…he loved me first and protected me up to the very end…" With that I turned and walked right back down the hall.

"I suggest you leave."

Damn. Kida is just a spunky girl isn't she. Well..hateful..crazed…harsh…heartless…girl. *clears throat* Um review and come back next time! :D