Title: A Night To Remember 4/??
Author: moi svrldsmntls
Pairing: kirk/spock
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I don't any of the characters or the movie although I really wish I could come up with that much genius! Don't own don't sue!
Spock
James. T. Kirk. Once again that name causes emotions in me that no one has ever been able to accomplish. Once again I lose myself in the essence that his very being…
How could I have even dared touch him after I so cowardly left him. But then again how could I not? He was there. In the flesh before my very eyes just as I remembered him. Only now the maturity of years have slightly tainted his features giving him a more rugged manly look that I could never truly accomplish with my physiology.
To feel him so close, to taste his lips and skin once more, was more overwhelming to a mind such as mine even with all the years of training on Vulcan that I have had.
My thoughts are brought back to the way things had ended yesterday with a encounter…
"Don't you ever touch me again! What you think you can show up again and fuck me and then leave me high and dry like you did last time? No. Never again you hear me Spock!"
Those words. Those very words that left me so paralyzed, I could not have responded even if I had wanted to.
I was not looking forward to when shooting the film would begin and I would have to witness the love of my life being touched, caressed, loved by another that was not me.
Maybe not love because I knew no other could love him as I did but just the thought of someone else even touching him was making me burn…
Burn with envy…
Another emotion I have never truly understood until that very moment. I try to push it out of mind as I enter the building where I see everyone hard at work preparing for the first scene. I find Uhura putting some last minute touches on the set as I sit in the 'Captain's Chair' as the crew has decided to dub it. Quite illogical to name an inanimate object but do not voice my opinion out loud. I have long noticed the compelling need for humans anthropomorphism.
I see no need to read the script once more since I've memorized the scene and decide better to use my time to check the camera equipment. As I'm looking through the lenses to see what angle I want to view from I spot Jim across the room. My breath catches at the sight of him in his casual clothing. He looks so breathtakingly beautiful. The clothing fitting perfectly to his broad shoulders and chest, accentuating his firm figure. I'm completely captivated by his presence I do not notice Uhura is standing right behind me, silently observing.
"He maybe cute but he has a lot to learn about being a decent human being" she says bitterly.
"I on the contrary would argue with this assessment" I say turning my attention to her, "I find Mr. Kirk to be exceptionally fascinating in his line of work, a rare find with not only aesthetically pleasing qualities but also incredible talent which I look forward to captivating on film."
"Whoa that's one high opinion, I guess he's alright if you say so but still think he's got a lot to learn. Well I gotta go finish up, do you need anything?" she asks.
"I do not require anything at this moment. Thank you Ms. Uhura."
She turns and walks over to a man everyone calls Bones. I do not understand the reasoning behind this name but once again do not question it. She seems to be captivated by their conversation, so I turn back to what I was previously doing only to find I am no longer alone. Jim is standing before me with an expression I cannot decipher. Whether it was curiosity or longing or maybe both I cannot tell because it is gone the next moment leaving me with a doubt as to whether I had imagined it or not.
"So I heard what you said to Uhura, you didn't have to do that you know? She's right there's nothing decent or right about what I do and I know I'm asshole so if you think I'm gonna forgive you for that I'll let you know right now I'm not that easy…" he trails off with a lost defeated angry look. I feel something inside of my chest tighten at the sound of his voice sounding so small. I do not let any of this as I straighten myself and put my hands behind my back.
"I assure you I was defending nothing nor using that as an excuse to justify what I've done but giving my honest opinion on something I found an error in. Ms. Uhura is blinded by her dislike of you and does wish to see 'the real you' as you humans would say." I said trying to not let my voice betray what I was feeling at that very moment.
"Well thanks anyways that was…nice of you" he says with a small smile that disappears instantly as it came. I find myself longing to see more of it.
"You have nothing to thank me for I was again expressing only an honest opinion based on the facts that I know are true." I said staring at him in the eye.
"So uh where do you want me?" he asks trying to be professional.
For a moment I am unable to answer, my mind forming images of our past couplings, until I am able to decipher what he truly means. I of course do not any of this show but his face tells me that he knew exactly where my mind was, a testament of how attuned we were.
"If you will kindly follow me I will show you where exactly I would like you to sit" I say with as much seriousness as I can.
We move across to one of the tables in the middle of the bar scene. I take one more look at all around me to admire the work and efficiency of the entire crew. I gesture for him to sit in the chair and I sit in the one across from him.
"As you already know you have been physically beaten, which is why you are covered in blood, and Captain Pike has stopped the fight. You will sit there and recite your lines while Mr. Pike sits where I am now. After the first few lines you will get up and move across to where he is sitting and proceed with…what is required of you" I say, my voice once again controlled.
"So I've just gotten the shit kicked out of me and basically I say my spiel and then walk all sexy to him, get on my knees and blow him right?" he says with his usual smirk.
"Though your use of wording is quite crude it is also very appropriate" I cannot help but let my lips twitch upward a bit but I quickly hide it.
He has seen it unfortunately and makes his smirk grow more smug. We let our eyes linger a moment too long on each other. Each taking in each others features, before our moment is interrupted when Uhura walks over to announce that we are ready to begin filming. I nod once at him once, his eyes staring straight into mine. I do not know where the anger from yesterday went but I am relieved its not what I see in his eyes.
I walk back and sit in my chair, adjusting the camera once more to check that its perfect. I see Jim through the lens and I find he is still staring at me. He winks at me and gives me a charming smile that gives me the sensation of melting.
"Alright everyone silence on the set" I immediately feel everyone stop their activities and all eyes on me, the silence is deafening. I did not even require to raise my voice, Fascinating.
I nod towards both gentlemen as cue to begin speaking. As the scene unfolds I find myself completely enthralled by his performance. Although its acting, the emotions he puts into the words capture your attention. As if you knew what he was going through. As the scene continues to unfold, the mood changes quickly and I find myself fascinated by how he manages to grasp your attention towards him without a single movement of his body.
"So you like being the only genius level repeat offender in the mid west?" Pike says firmly.
"Maybe I love it" Kirk says while licking his lips sensually. I follow the movement of his tongue across his lips. Captivated by the small gesture and a quick survey of the room shows I'm not the only one.
As Kirk laughs at Pike's suggestion of enlisting in Starfleet, the sexual tension in the room increases. His smile, oh how truly beautiful it is. How his face lights up, resonating his beauty for all to see. I feel a quick bout of jealousy which I immediately rid myself of. There is no need to be jealous of something that is not mine. Completely Illogical.
"We done?" Kirk asks with fierce look in his eyes.
"I'm done" Pike says with finality.
"Well Captain Pike. You've seen my father, maybe even met him. You've seen how…handsome he is am I right?" Kirk says.
"Well yeah but what does that have to do with Starfleet?" Pike says, confusion in his voice.
"My father was a great man, captain of a starship for just 12 minutes and he saved over 800 lives, that's a lot to live up to wouldn't you say?" Kirk says as he gets up and strides over to wear Pike is sitting.
"Yeah I dare you to better." he says cocky.
"Lets get something straight," Jim says standing over Pike, his eyes staring straight into his, "whatever he can do, I can do better and I'll show you by doing those 4 years in 3 and by doing this" Kirk says as he captures Pike's lips in kiss.
Tentative at first but as Jim's lips press firmer into his, Pike seems to literally melt into the kiss. I hear the quiet gasp of several crew members. Their breaths quickening at the scene unfolding before them. I find my own breathing becoming erratic and I fight to control it as well as the quickly growing erection I try to conceal. I continue filming and find that Jim's eyes are no longer closed but are open and focused on me.
His tongue wrapping itself around Pike's so sensually, his every movement making it harder and harder for me to control my actions. I thank all my years on Vulcan for amount of control and stoicism I am showing on the outside, on the inside I am burning, yearning for his lips to be in mine. His hands travel downward rubbing against hardening erection, his eyes still locked onto mine. I lick my dry lips trying to keep some of quickly losing control intact. His lips move down to his neck, his tongue added to the mix.
Pike moans slightly at a bite Kirk places on the pulse of his neck, at the same time I feel my own hand traveling to cup my erection. I look around quickly to see if anyone notices but see that everyone is in a near similar state but as myself trying to be professional and failing miserably at concealing their arousal. Soon Jim is on his knees, unzipping the black trousers and freeing the trapped erection.
The quiet gasp that escapes my lips is my final failed attempt at hiding my own arousal as Jim wraps his lips upon the harden member. I see his tongue sliding up then down tracing the penis with his lips and tongue. Pike's hand travels down to his head and entangles his fingers in his hair. His moans of desire no longer contained but liberated revealing the intensity of what he was feeling at the sexual attentions.
Kirk's head starts to bob up and down on the erection, his movements becoming faster and faster, his tongue stroking broadly, erotically causing everyone in the room to shift in their positions. My palm rubs harder against my phallus, a quiet moan escaping my lips. He seems to hear this because once again his eyes are locked onto mine.
The noise I produced seems to encourage him because if possible his movements become faster and faster, with more tongue and saliva dribbling down his chin and all over the erection. My own hand seems to follow his rhythm because I soon find myself close to climax. I see that the hand that is free is stroking his own member with the same strength and speed as the actions of his lips and tongue.
I know he is almost there but he is trying to make Pike climax first. He is not far behind as he grunts and groans become louder. His blue eyes are dilated and dark with lust, his lips are swollen red and the noises he makes around the erection enough to drive anyone mad with lust. My assessment is correct at the answering deep groan as he releases in Jim's mouth. Jim moans around the softening member as he swallows the fluid. Some manages to get on his chin, and I find myself wanting to lick it off him which I quickly rid myself of but notice I'm not alone because I see Pike taking his face in his hands and using his tongue to clean the excess off. He pulls Jim in for another kiss while one of his hands travels down the wrap around his neglected member.
Jim groans into the kiss as Pike's hand moves swiftly over his member, the noises doing everything for my impending orgasm. Jim opens his eyes once more and locks them onto mine as he nears the edge, his moans pouring out of him enveloping my very essence and bringing me over the edge in a mind blowing orgasm causing me to take every lesson I've learned my entire life in control to be put to the test in that very instance.
Jim must have sensed it because he follows me a second after and I'm there capturing it in all its erotic glory. The sounds being produced from his mouth are like music to my ears. I quickly compose myself making sure no one saw my loss of control. I notice no one paying attention to anything but to what they just saw and some were trying to conceal themselves as I was at that very moment.
I turn back to the scene before me to see them wrapping it up with the last few lines…
"So what do you think now…Captain?" Jim says with his infamous smirk displayed.
"I think with a mouth like yours Kirk, it'll be a loss for all of Starfleet if you don't enlist" he says with a smirk of his own. He captures Jim's lips in one last final kiss before standing and leaving Jim to his thoughts.
"Cut" I say and instantly the atmosphere dies and everyone is back to their usual professionalism. I make my way over to the actors and notice the coloring in Jim's face and the smell radiating off him more strongly than before. I feel stirrings of arousal once more in my groin but block it out once I'm in front of him.
"That was quite the performance J- Mr. Kirk, the same goes for you Mr. Pike. I offer my congratulations." I say.
"Thanks Mr. Spock. If you'll excuse me gentlemen I have to go clean myself up" said Pike leaving us with a final nod.
I nod back and Jim gives a wave of his hand and we are left alone. He looks up at me and I find myself drowning into his eyes like I did once long ago. The beauty more enrapturing now with the afterglow of coupling. I open my mouth to offer my congrats to him before we are interrupted once more by Uhura's presence.
"Hey Spock, we need you over here to check some of the film" she says, annoyance at being in Kirk's eyesight evident in her voice.
"I will join you in just a moment Ms. Uhura if you will give me just one moment with Mr. Kirk please" I say with as much authority as I have.
She looks at me and just nods tightly before she leaves. I turn back to Jim to find him hiding a smile. I tilt my head to the side as to question why and the merely makes him giggle more loudly.
"You really got that 'I'm the boss' thing down." he says his smile illuminating his face.
"Well technically I am 'the boss' as you say. So whatever I say must be respected and excepted as such" I say with my hands behind my back knowing the reaction it would cause in him.
I watch him laugh more loudly and freely now and it was a absolutely wonderful site. I had thought I would never see it again. He is about to say something else when we are interrupted this time by a green woman who as quick as a flash is in Jim's arms kissing and hugging him. The jealousy I once felt is back again and I find myself disgusted with the display.
"Jimmy Jimmy Jimmy!!! Oh how I missed you its been a while!" the green woman says in between kisses.
"Yeah its nice to see you too Gaila, now will you get off?" he says with slight annoyance but I also see a smile on his face which makes whatever hope I had crumble.
"If you'll excuse me I have obligations I must attend too" I say tight lipped and stoicism in place.
"Wait Spock it-" Jim tries to say but I do not let him finish as I quickly make my way over to the crew.
"Oh forget that boring old Vulcan, come on we have to catch up!" I hear her say from across the room.
"No wait-" he tries to protest but is tugged away quickly. I give him one final look and turn back to what I working on.
It's quite illogical to focus on something worthless as emotions when there is work to be done…