I've been fine for this past week, why did it have to happen today? The day I tell Shizu-chan to go to work, that I'll be fine and Shiki came back. I shouldn't have told Shizu-chan to go. He's the only one who could have protected me and I had sent him away for the day. I'm such an idiot…
The day started out fine, I cooked some breakfast and we had a bit of chit-chat as we ate. He asked if I was going anywhere today to which I said no, and then suggested he go to work. I believed I would be fine for one day, I didn't think Shiki would visit me today. It's like he knew I'd be alone…
I called Shizu-chan, trying my best to hold my phone still against my ear but I was shaking far too much. Shiki had just left after trying to get me to sleep with him. I didn't want to but that wasn't a good enough reason for him, he kept trying to convince me with his words and his touches. Then as he realised it wasn't working, he decided to put out his cigar and leave, my neck being his ashtray. It hurt but the fear was stronger than the pain, I just wanted Shizu-chan here. When he answered I told him I needed him back over here, he assured me he was on his way and hung up. I set my phone down on my desk, relieved that Shizu-chan would be back soon. In the space of a few days we'd gone from enemies to almost friends. We were like the kind of friends who got along but didn't need to interact much to be content. It was strange how they didn't even really argue anymore. Maybe if their first meeting had gone different, they would have been friends.
I wasn't waiting long before Shizu-chan walked through my door. "What did the asshole do this time?" I looked away, a little reluctant to tell him. We weren't really close but Shizu-chan seemed a little protective over me now. I wasn't sure how to feel about that but I couldn't really do anything about it. Turns out I didn't have to tell him as he spotted the burn and pulled the collar of my shirt down slightly to see it properly. "What the hell made him do that?!" I sighed; I wasn't going to get out of telling him. "He came over, acting like he didn't hurt me last time. He tried to get me to sleep with him. When I refused and he realised he wasn't getting anywhere, he put out his cigar on me and walked out..." I couldn't bring myself to look at him, I felt a little like a failure. I couldn't seem to help myself and I was relying on him for protection. I blinked when I felt him wrap his arms around me. I hadn't expected him to hug me, but what surprised me more was how safe I felt in those arms.
"I'm not leaving you on your own again until that bastard gets a taste of his own medicine." I simply nodded and shyly returned the hug. I'd only ever really been hugged by my sisters, so having someone else hug me, let alone someone like shizu-chan hug me was quite unusual. Shizu-chan didn't seem to mind; if anything it seemed that he hugged me a little tighter.
We stayed like that for a few minutes before we moved apart. Shizu-chan went to get a drink and I went to sit on the couch. I wondered what it would be like if I had never become Shiki's boyfriend and if Shizu-chan and I had become civil with one another. Shizu-chan would definitely have been granted the peaceful life he wished for. Maybe he could still have it, once Shiki left me alone, I wouldn't try and make us enemies again. I rather like the idea of being friends with Shizu-chan.
A hour or three later we were both sat on the couch, watching a movie, one of Kasuka's to be precise. I was amazed to see how good an actor he is despite being so expressionless in person. I had glanced at Shizu-chan a few times and each time he was smiling, watching his brother act. I noticed he looked quite different smiling, but different in a nice way. The next time I glanced at him however, I was surprised to see he was looking back at me. I blinked having expected him to still be watching the film. "What is it..?" I couldn't help but ask, I was curious what made him look at me, not that I minded. "You keep glancing at me and I was wondering why." I felt my cheeks heat up a tad at that; I didn't think he'd notice. Seems he's sharper than I thought. "it's nothing, though I didn't think you'd notice…" he chuckled lightly, he didn't appear to mind me glancing at him.
I blinked when I heard a knock at the door, then paled as I realised it'd be Shiki. Before I could respond, the door opened. "Izaya, I'm back". I gulped; I couldn't predict what would happen with Shiki and Shizu-chan both here. This wasn't good. "W-welcome back Shiki…" I mentally cursed myself for stuttering. Shiki made his way over, raising an eyebrow when he noticed I wasn't alone. Then I raised an eyebrow as Shizu-chan stood and made his way to Shiki, stopping in front of him, glaring. This was bad…