Fractured Souls

More or less the same disclaimer that everyone puts; Do not own, make no money, contains Yaoi, might be graphic, has character death, implies rape, ect. NOTE: According to Rowling, James could have been born between 2002-2005 being at least one year older than Albus. In this Fiction, he is two years older than Albus and Scorpius, born August 26th, 2004.

Author note: Sorry it took forever, school has been a little bit of a pain right now. :/ I promise the next chapter will come soon! 3 Also, thanks to my BETA Pj. Couldn't have it up without him!

Chapter Three: November

'The reason is that they're a part of you, and you're a part of them. You're soul mates'

Scorpius spent a week in the hospital, playing chess and doing homework with Rose and Albus, while the student body was alerted that Gryffindor was disqualified from the Quidditch cup due to "lack of team members." On a separate note, Daerik, Brandon, and Kalvin were all expelled for a mysterious reason. Rose and Albus tried to keep him in the loop about everything that was happening at the school, but Scorpius didn't really care. While he wasn't being pestered by the 'wonder friends,' Scorpius spent his time in the Astronomy tower. He didn't actually know why he felt drawn to the tall tower, something in his mind just clicked whenever he was standing near the edge. He wondered what it would be like to jump off the edge of the tower and not worry about what happened at the end.

Like I'm falling from a tower, but I don't care.

James.

He sighed deeply, closing his eyes and leaning farther over the edge. He hadn't thought about James since that day, he hadn't really thought about anything since... Raped. Say the word, Scorpius. Don't be afraid of a word, words can't hurt you anymore, only he –

"Get away from that ledge, Scorpius." A voice broke his thoughts, causing him to slip. He closed his eyes in fear, waiting for this feeling to stop. He knew he was going to fall, warmth filled his body and a numb sensation overcame him. This feeling of peace was what he was waiting for, what he craved more than anything. He slowly opened his eyes only to find he wasn't falling, he was safely held in the arms of someone. This warmth was perfect, Scorpius felt like he could fall asleep in these arms for all eternity. He nestled into the peace, his face brushing against soft skin. The warmth was slowly fading, the strong arms were leaving him, dark clouds of doubt began filling his perfect peace. He reached out, fingers searching the warmth that was there a moment ago.

"Stupid. Why are you trying to kill yourself?" Scorpius opened his eyes to see James standing before him, his eyes molten balls of hatred. Scorpius felt the cold, penetrating stare rip through him and he began to wonder if jumping off the tower right now would stop it from destroying him.

"I... I wasn't trying to kill myself. I just –"

"You just what? Think you're better than everyone else? Think that you can solve this on your own? You're a fool, Malfoy." Scorpius' lungs stopped working, he couldn't think, couldn't breath.

Malfoy.

"Rose sent me to find you because she was worried you would do something drastic. It's a good thing I was here or you would have fallen to your de–"

"I DON'T NEED YOUR PITY, POTTER!" Scorpius screamed, his eyes flashing with their own form of hatred. "I don't need your help, I sure as HELL don't need your friendship, and I. Don't. Need. You. Stay the HELL away from me." He stormed off, pausing a few seconds later when his mind began to clear. What have I done... He whirled around, hoping he could make it better.

"James, I–" The brunette stood in silence for a long time, his face remaining emotionless. Finally, he looked up into Scorpius' eyes and the blonde felt his heart sink so low he swore James could see it. In his eyes was the same sparkle he gave everyone else.

"Fine, Scorpius. See you around." With that, James left the tower, leaving Scorpius alone once again. This time, the blonde was sure it would be for good.

If he closed his eyes tightly, he could still smell the way James did that day on the tower. He could feel the warmth surge through his body, the peace fill his mind until he could drift off into a somewhat restful sleep. But in the morning, his eyes would still be surrounded by dark circles, he would look worse than he had the day before, he would remember what reality was like. Rose and Albus knew something was wrong with their friend, but they didn't know exactly what.

A few times Scorpius looked towards James, hoping to see the brunette looking his way, but it never happened. He longed to go back to that tower, wished to take back everything he said, anything to make the brunette look at him again. The brunette didn't seem to feel the same way, his life went on without hesitation, without worry, without Scorpius.

The days Scorpius hated the most were his days for rounds. Rose had been assigned to his night, now that James was 'busy' and had to take other shifts. The two wandered around the halls, checking to makes sure no one was out of bed unless serving detention or another reason sanctioned by the school. Rose chattered on, trying to fill the silence since Scorpius wasn't going to, until they heard something.

"I do love you." Rose quickly ducked into an alcove, motioning to Scorpius to follow suit.

"Rose, why are we hiding? We're Prefects!"

"So now you talk..."

"Shut up... wait, answer my question."

"GOSSIP!"

"Oh for Merlin–"

"shhhhhhh!" The two listened carefully, breathing very quietly hoping to hear every detail. Silence filled the halls and the pair looked at each other. Rose swore quietly and was about to step out, when a second voice filled the air.

"I don't really care what you do. You live your life and I live mine."

"Seriously? You're going to try that crap on me? We've known each other for seven years. I know when you are trying to avoid something."

"Magdalene, this isn't what I came here for. I don't need a lecture from you as well."

"Maybe you should. You have been a piece of crap for a long time, but this is the worst. You know what happened and I want to know too."

"Privacy. Maggie, some of us can keep secrets." Scorpius rolled his eyes, nudging Rose in the ribs and jerking his head in a leave now motion. She sighed and agreed, moving slowly away from the gossip.

"James Sirius, you can't keep a secret if it killed you." She gripped Scorpius' arm, forcing him to stop and dragged him back to their hiding spot.

"I can. Some secrets aren't worth keeping."

"I love you still." They heard a sigh, shuffle of feet, and a light smacking sound echoed through the hall.

"I know, Maggie. I still have feelings for you as well. Since we both can't seem to get over each other..." Rose quickly shoved Scorpius out of the alcove, trying to help them escape down the hall faster, but a tapestry fell onto a set of armor. The two crashed to the floor, tangled in a mess of armor and fabric.

"Hey! No students out of bed!" Magdalene grabbed the tapestry and flung it off the two embarrassed Prefects, her eyebrows shooting up. "Oh, you two are on duty aren't you?" Rose nodded, trying to scramble up before...

"Rose, Scorpius..." James walked up behind Magdalene, his eyes scanning over the heap on the floor. The blonde looked up into James' eyes, his breath catching in his throat. Fireworks poured through his body, soft warmth radiating from his chest. He never wanted to leave this spot as long as he lived. Slowly, the brunette's flames faded and the blonde was left with nothing but the hollow shell that was his heart.

"Well, we should be getting to bed, right Scorpius?" Rose asked, tugging the boy closer to her. Scorpius didn't move, his feet had suddenly become lead and grown roots.

Please... please make him go away... I can't do this... I can't see him... I need to be away...

"Come on, James. Let's let them do their rounds..." Magdalene grabbed James, Rose grabbed Scorpius, and they both walked their own way.

"It's over... It's completely over..." Albus moaned, throwing himself on to Scorpius' bed and rolling in the sheets. The blonde sighed deeply and flopped next to him, pulling the pillows over his face.

"What's over, Albus?" Rose asked, closing the door to the boy's dorm room and casting a silencing charm.

"My life. My relationship, my family. Take your pick and smash them together!" Rose sighed deeply and flopped on top of Scorpius, the blonde grunted but didn't protest.

"Albus. Just because Lily is dating someone doesn't mean your family is over."

"It does if they are a Slytherin! Lynx Nott to be precise. Slytherin Seeker, ok? That's a no-no. James..." He hesitated for a moment, "will have a hissy fit." Rose rolled her eyes and playfully slapped her cousin.

"You're dating a Ravenclaw." Albus frowned and covered his eyes with his hand.

"WAS dating a Ravenclaw. She decided that we were 'better as friends' It was the 'smart' thing to do." Scorpius pulled the pillow off of his face, pushing Rose off enough so he could sit up.

"You and Ditzy broke up?"

"It's Mitzi, Scorpius, and yes." Albus frowned even more, falling into Scorpius' lap and sighing. "Now she's dating Mr. Gregory Something. He's a 'proper Ravenclaw date.' Blech."

"Do you still love her?" Scorpius asked softly, his eyes misty and distant. "When you see her with him, do you still feel that small hope she'll look your way?" Albus and Rose looked up at the blonde.

"Every time. I feel like my heart is an empty shell when she doesn't look at me, yet if she does I can't move. I'm so afraid that this moment will stop and I'll never have her again..." Albus' speech was interrupted by a quiet sob, the brunette couldn't keep himself together.

"Is this what love always feels like?" Albus asked, finally puling himself together. Rose leaned over and grabbed both Albus and Scorpius in a hug. The two boys leaned into her, Albus still sobbing and Scorpius dead silent.

"I feel like I'm dying. I can't breath can't eat... I dream of her... and when I wake up..."

"You realize that the worst thing is having to sit by the person you love knowing they don't love you back." Scorpius finished, pulling away from Rose and holding his knees close to him.

"That your heart is like broken glass, and you don't want to hurt yourself putting the pieces back together... You want to see them, hear them, get a reaction from them – even if it is anger." Rose bit her lip, trying to hold back her own tears as Albus let out another sob.

"The pain of having a broken heart is not enough to kill you, but still not enough to let you live." She finished, her mouth quivering with sorrow. Scorpius burst into tears, clutching his knees so tight his nails broke the skin. Rose and Albus grabbed their friend and held him tightly.

Their hearts were shattered.