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Thank you for all the hits and reviews :) here is the next chapter. I am having so much fun writing these and I simply love it when I find people have reviewed my chapters. Please, please, please review!!! Also sorry for all the direct quotes from New Moon, but when we get to Edward leaving and what he will be doing during those months apart it will be all my work :)

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Dangerous Love

Gliding over to where the blood floated on the floor, the monster inside me roared and raged inside the steel cage that contained him.

"Emmett, Rose, get Jasper outside," ordered a familiar voice, pulling me out of my darkness and forcing me to focus on the fragile girl beneath me. I crouched over the girl who laid there bleeding, because of me. Staring down into Bella's eyes I felt the pain shoot through me, how could we have done this to her? She trusted my family. Then I realised – it wasn't my family's fault. They weren't the ones who insisted Bella be apart of our lives, they weren't the ones who risked her safety every day, they weren't the ones who wouldn't change her. The scent of the blood crashed into me again and I knew I couldn't chance it. Holding my breath I looked back into Bella's face – no doubt if I were able to I would cry.

"Let me by Edward," Carlisle said, I turned around and realised that Alice, Bella, Carlisle and myself were the only ones left in the room. I didn't notice the others leave.

Edward, I'm so sorry. I don't know why I didn't see this. If only I was paying attention to the future instead of insisting she open those presents. You're right Edward, I'm sorry.

Alice thoughts were filled with pain and regret, I just looked at her but couldn't force myself to speak. Before I knew it Carlisle was saying something about taking Bella into the kitchen and I cautiously lifted Bella out of her bloody pool and carried her to the kitchen placing her in the chair gently, all the while Carlisle kept pressure on her arm as Alice followed. I stood next to her protective, in case Alice couldn't control herself. I wanted to stroke her hair, kiss her forehead, hold her hand, anything that showed her I was here for her and that I will protect. But my body wouldn't move. Of course I couldn't protect her, if I could she wouldn't be her sitting with Carlisle picking glass out of her arm.

"Just go Edward," Bella sighed, she was disappointed, I failed her.

"I can handle it," I insisted

"You don't need to be a hero, Carlisle can fix me up without your help. Get some fresh air," she said, wincing as Carlisle pulled a thick piece of glass out of her arm.

"I'll stay," I said blankly.

"Why are you so masochistic?"

"Edward you may as well go find Jasper before he gets too far. I'm sure he's upset with himself, and I doubt he'll listen to anyone but you right now" Carlisle said wisely and Bella agreed as did Alice. I eyed them all wondering why they wanted to get rid of me so quickly.

He's too fast, neither Emmett or I can keep up with him. Sorry Edward I tried to get him to stay.

Rosalie's thoughts made me realise that I was the only one who could catch up with Jasper and probably the only one he would listen to. But who could I listen to? I looked back into Bella's eyes before sprinting out the back door. I passed Emmett and Rosalie on my way to the woods and they were talking to me in their minds.

I'm so sorry Edward, I should have been paying more attention. I should have reacted quicker and stopped him. Emmett was riddled with guilt.

"It's not your fault Emmett" was all I managed to say before I picked up my pace as I darted into the darkness of the forest.

I immediately picked up his scent and followed it deeper into the woods. The aroma of deer blood lingered in the air and I realised that Jasper was hunting. I stalked the smell and came into a small clearing that was sectioned off by three over grown moss covered trees. In the middle of the clearing laid a family of deer massacred and drained of all the blood, I sniffed the air and looked up into the trees. There in the second tree was a crouched silhouette sitting on one of the branches. I scaled up the tree and went to sit on the branch next to Jasper, looking down at the family of dead deer. I never really thought about the animals we killed for blood, but after tonight I did think. I thought about the possible relationships animals were capable of and I thought about the amount of relationships we, as vampires, ruined and destroyed. Jasper looked up and turned to me and I felt a ray of happiness overcome me.

"No, please Jasper. I don't want to feel anything else," I pleaded. Jasper nodded and let my pain and guilt rush through me again.

Edward...I can't find the words to describe how—how- sorry I am. I am not asking for forgiveness because I know I don't deserve it. But I just want you to know, that I would never want to hurt Bella, she is like a sister to me. And I am sorry that I have caused you this pain, I know how much she means to you.

"Jasper," I said surprisingly calmly, "It's not your fault. I forgive you."

Edward, no. I don't deserve your forgiveness, of course it's my fault – please don't let me off so easily, I promise-

"Jasper!" I cut him off, "If I didn't fall in love with Bella and force her to be involved in this life we wouldn't be in this situation. So it's not your fault!"

You can't help who you fall in love with and as for forcing Bella into this life. Everyone knows that is the last thing you did – Bella wants to be part of this family and it was her choice to be involved.

"So you are saying she had this coming?!" I snapped back.

No, Edward, no! I didn't mean that, I'm sorry.

I realised what I had just done and hated myself for it.

"Sorry Jasper, I didn't mean to snap at you like that. I know you didn't mean it that way," Jasper winced at the word snap. I looked back down at the family of deer and the pain ripped through me, I couldn't put Bella in danger again. How would I survive if I were to loose her. Even worse, how would I survive if it was one of us who hurt her. I was torn between two solutions.

Edward, what is wrong? You're emotions are all over the place.

I turned to Jasper, should I tell him? After I beat I decided – of course I would tell him, he was my brother.

"I have two solutions," I began, "a) turn Bella into one of us."

Finally you have come round, you know how much she wants to become one of us. That is the perfect solution.

"I haven't finished, b) we leave," I stated.

Jasper simply stared before releasing his thoughts into my mind.

Edward! What are you thinking?! I've felt your love for one another, you can't, you just can'. It will kill you!

"Better me then her," I replied.

No. That is ridiculous, after all that has happened you can't just give up. What about her? What about how Bella will feel. Do you have any idea what that will do to her!

"That's why I am torn Jasper! I need time to think things through!"

Fine, give it time. But you know as well as I do that option B just isn't an option.

"Well neither is option A then"

Please, just promise me you will talk to the rest of the family about this.

"Fine, I promise," I paused, "Carlisle is nearly done, I'm going to take Bella home." I jumped down from the tree and ran across the clearly. Looking back I noticed that Jasper had not moved.

I don't think I'm ready to go back yet. Sorry.

"I understand, want me to send Alice over?" I asked.

Yes please.

I set of running back towards the house and within a matter of minutes I was standing by the back door listening to Carlisle finish his conversation with Bella.

"I wasn't sorry, though. I've never been sorry that I saved Edward" Carlisle said filled with pride.

Carlisle had too much faith and trust in me, I looked down ashamed in myself.

"I suppose I should take you home now," he continued, this was my cue.

"I'll do that," I said walking through the door and into the kitchen. I ensured my face was showed no emotion – I couldn't give Bella any hint at how much I was hurting. How I was contemplating our lives together.

"Carlisle can take me."

Her reply burned through me, was she really that frightened of me that she couldn't trust me to be alone with her?

"I'm fine," I said blankly, I gave her some excuse about changing and Charlie before walking out of the kitchen to find Alice. I avoided the rest of my family and charged up the stairs to find Alice in her and Jasper's bedroom.

"Jasper is in the forest-"

In the second tree in the clearing. I can see, I'll go find him as soon as I've seen you and Bella off.

Alice stood up from her computer and crossed the bedroom to where I was standing in the door frame. One second we were both staring at each other, the next she was hugging me tightly.

Edward, please think this through. I know you are hurting but I keep getting glimpses and I don't like what I'm seeing. Just think things through

"I will," I whispered.

The next ten minuted went by in a blur as I waited for Bella by the front door while she changed into Esme's shirt and said goodbye to the rest of my family. All the while my mind was racing through the different possibilities and time after time I came back to the same two solutions. I opened the door and walked with Bella in silence to my car, my thoughts still racing and speeding around my head. I opened the passenger door and helped her into the car, buckling her seatbelt before proceeding to my own seat. I looked back at my house and thought how much had changed in one single night. After closing my eyes and letting out a quiet sigh I pulled out of the drive and drove off into the darkness with Bella by my side.