Holla! How is everyone? HEY! Who let the Kat out of the bag?! Anywho, in order to make up for the very, very short last chapter, I have decided to make this one very, very long! Also, it appears that I have forgotten this, but we now have a new guest who is going to appear in the Author's Note, please give a round of applause to the one, the only, LILLYANTBUB! Or for short, Lil'Bubs. Lil'Bubs is hoping to join the wonderful people at , but her internet is currently going down into the deep seven levels of HELL due to construction work on her street, which will likely go on for three months.

Lil'Bubs: Hi everyone! I am Lil'Bubs! I am just ecstatic to be helping my best friend Kat on the Author note funnyness!

Kat: You were supposed to come out a hell of a lot earlier, where the hell have you been?!

Lil'Bubs: Having sex with your boyfriend.

Kat: That's a load of BS, do you even know my boyfriend's name, or if I even have one?!

Lil'Bubs: Yeah, uh, it's, uh… Dog!

Kat: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CORNYYYYYYYYY JOOOOOOOKEEEEEEEEESSS! *pushes Lil'Bubs off of stage* Anywho, let's get on to the story *coughs and straightens clothing* FOREVER ALONE *cries*

Lil'Bubs: Not your EX boyfriend's fault that you are annoying. *deadpans while being carried off on a gourney.*

Kat: You mention him one more time, and you're dead! *holds up glinting knife, flatline then resonates* ON WITH THE DISCLAIMER!

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Doctor Who, if I did, I would marry the Doctor and not River. Also, if this makes you think that I hate River, I DO NOT! She is awesome and badass, I am just jealous.

*CLEAR! GZZZZZZA*

Lil'Bubs: I'M BACK! On with the story!

"What the hell were you thinking?! You shouldn't be driving in the state that you are in! Let alone, be standing! Who checked you out of the fucking hospital?!" Autumn screamed at me accusingly, crossing her arms and reprimanding me as if she's my mother. Her yellow sundress with blue stripes blew around her from the force of the swinging door, which caused wind to course into the room from the foyer fan. Glaring at me, quite pissed, she flicked her hair out of her face, making her ponytail swing.

"I checked myself out," I stated calmly and tiredly… almost as if I'm decomposing right in front of her, without a care in the world.

"They shouldn't have let you out, you were scheduled to get out next week! How could they?" she demanded of me while walking over to my limp and lazy form to check my temperature.

"I just jumped out of the window, I was stationed on the first floor, remember?" I stated just the same way as before, only now I felt very sick, like I was going to puke.

"YOU JUMPED OUT OF THE WINDOW IN THIS STATE?! You are burning up! Okay… let's get you cooled down, I feel sick just looking at you. First, let me get a thermometer," Autumn said in her "mother" tone, continuing to press her palm on my head before shaking her head and leaving. Quietly, I stood and walked into the attached nook of my room. Sitting on my wide, upholstered, tan and pink chevron stool, I began to sigh as I looked out of my window onto the outside world, the world that kills with boredom, sadness, and tiredness, the rotting world, the horrible world that I have been living in my entire life, the world that took my parents, the world that hurts all who reside on it, this truly is a world that kills with boredom, sadness, and tiredness. I am burning up, yet I feel so cold. I feel so sad, yet I am anticipating something. What could I be waiting for? What is this blasphemous feeling? I am dying on the inside, yet living as well. I am in love with someone, but I do not remember who they are, or if they even exist, or even if I am in love with someone.

… Even though my heart is beating… I feel as if it has stopped… Cold and dead in my seemingly warm chest… But I still feel something keeping me alive… Just what is it?

Am I Alive Or Am I Dead?

The thought that just crossed my mind left just as quickly as it had come and by the time I had started to ponder, my thoughts were interrupted by Autumn coming back into my room, bag of frozen peas in her calloused left hand and thermometer in the other, the calloused right hand. I don't even bother trying to hear her. I know that I wouldn't be able to. Suddenly, I fell into a coughing fit, fighting for my life to breathe and winning, I took a look at my hand. It's stained in blood. It's stained in blood. It's stained in blood. It is stained in that horrifying crimson color that covers every living thing at one point in time. I saw it when my parents died, when my friends were shot, and especially when that happened. Even though I don't remember what it was, I remember that the species' hands… no, the monsters' hands, were covered in blood. The thing is, I don't remember who they are or how I know them… but I do know this,

… I Will Never Forgive Them…

It appears to be that they have found you now that you've remembered. I hope that you are ready to be set free soon, my dear. You will be set free from this dark and rotting world. Remember, I did warn you.

Now that I've remembered? What does that mean? I started to wonder, but my thoughts were cut short by a terrifying darkness flooding my vision, one that I haven't seen for one thousand seven hundred and fifteen years, and I knew it then. I knew what the voice meant. I remembered everything, and there was no going back after that.

All I know is that it's late, so very late, so very dark and lonely. The darkness residing around me is so suffocating and lonely. Had I been lonely before? Had I been saved from the darkness before? Or was I just ill minded and needed the Doctor... wait, isn't "doctor" a position rather than a name? What is a position? Never mind that, was I ever happy, was I ever in love, did I have friends? No, I do have friends, don't I? What is happiness, what is friends? What is love? Do I have a name? What is a name? It's so cold here, and dark, if there was a color darker than black, then this is it. There is more light when I close my eyes than when they are open. Eyes? Why is it so hard to breathe? It should be a natural mechanism, right? Mechanism?

Am I Dreaming?

What is a dream? What is happening right now? My past is fading and melting along with my future in purple swirls, reds flash before me and greens vividly brighten around the darkness. My time is coming. I think I can hear cicadas chirping. Cicadas? What is a cicada? What is purple and red and green? Is it what just brightened up the darkness? The cicadas, no the sonic screwdriver is getting louder. What is a sonic screwdriver? I feel as if I am imprisoned. I am imprisoned in my own mind. Someone, please save me. Please, call the Doctor. Get me out of this horrid dream!

I woke up panting, sweat rolled down my face as I sat up screaming. It was that dream again, the one where I forget who I am and everything about my life. Memories rushed to me, all of them at once making me feel happy, depressed, terrified, and a whole other mix of emotions. Looking around the room, I saw that it was unfamiliar to me. The walls are padded with a white foam, the ceiling is made up of just a large light, and the floor is a stainless steel metal. Finally, I saw the door through my tired eyes, but just as soon as I did, it opened and three dark forms sauntered into the room. All three of the figures are cloaked in a silver cloak, as far as I can see, but something about this presence seems familiar. It is an almost a loving presence. A presence that I feel as if I have known for all of my life. It is his presence.

"You rang?"

Doctor… how long has it been? How long has it been since I had last heard that quirky voice in person?

Shock surrounded me, memories rushed to me and flourished, like a cherry blossom tree blooming in mid-spring. I can remember my home planet, Gallifrey. I remember how it was several times larger than Earth, how it's binary star system was composed of two stars, the main star was large, and golden red, while the second rose south in the morning, making the mountains glow with a serene light. Karn and Polarfrey were two of the five other planets in the system, and there was an asteroid named Kasterborus the Fibster. I remember the rust colored grasses and silvery clouds, I remember the chocolate colored lakes, and pumpkin colored night sky and snow capped mountains shining in all of their glory. I remember the silver leaves of the trees and how they looked like fire in the morning light. I remember the gold fields and auburn deserts, and the heat. Gallifrey is much, much hotter than Earth, like he had said in his sixth regeneration, it is much like living in the Serengeti. I remember Gallifrey's two large moons, the copper-colored Pizitha Gallifreya, which could be seen during the day, and the other moon, which was a silvery white color, was always next to it, only seen in the night. Both of those moons perished along with the Daleks that fateful day. I lived in Arcadia, before the Daleks came, it was a city of both gallifreyan skyscrapers and beautiful parks of golden fields and silver leaved trees.

My mother and father had abandoned me at age 50 to take on a life of adventure, and had died when I aged to be 160 years old, their cause of death was cybermen. The last time that I had seen my mother was in her fifth incarnation, her hair was shoulder length, curly, and had a silvery-white color, but her face was youthful, on Earth, she'd be called an albino, her eyes were a shade of emerald and aquamarine, swirling to meet the depth of her pupils, which were black with the signature gold galifreyan specks in the dark abyss, her figure was both petite and athletic, but it was her facial features that I resembled the most, due to the fact that she had me in her fifth incarnation. LIke me, she had insomnia, pale skin, a long and thin nose, my small yet full, pink lips, and dainty eyebrows. My father, on the other hand, was on his third incarnation, and had my golden brown hair color and hazel eye color, but he looked nothing like me… except for my tall forehead and high cheekbones. My father had always worn his hair short and sophisticated, which threw away his true character. He was a good father, a great one in fact, but he, like my mother, wanted to see the universe, without being tied down by children. I will never forget my father's face, so kind and caring. He always slept well, he had a nose that was long with a slight eagle-like bump, a tall forehead, wide and thin lips, bushy eyebrows, slightly tanned skin, and high cheekbones, of course.

When they abandoned me, I still had to finish my schooling, so I was shipped off to the Time Lord Academy at the Citadel, the capital of Gallifrey. That was where I had met Theta. Theta Sigma was his nickname, it was custom for everyone to have one. Mine was Kappa Pie. I fell in love with him at first sight. We were in the Greek Division, which was the reason why our names were chosen to be greek. The divisions were used as levels of intelligence, they went from least intelligent to most, and it was composed of one representative language for each planet in the universe. Since Earth was one of our favorite successors, and their air is breathable, they are the second most intelligent group, right underneath Gallifrey, but only people who've decided to become a part of the government are allowed to be in the Gallifreyan Division. If you were in the Gallifreyan Division, you had to use your real name instead of a nickname, and trust me, no one wants to know my name, or especially Theta's. I didn't want to join the government anyways. They fought too much… and there was always conspiracies.

What? What is going on?

What is this? Is this what you call memories? No! Give them back to me! Don't take them away! Just as the thoughts surrounded me… they vanished. And so did he.

Where Am I?

Me: HI!

LilBubs: Was this chapter really important?

Me: YES! I would like to thank wiki/Gallifrey for giving me the information that I needed on what gallifrey looks like!

LilBubs: Did anyone tell you that you are very conceited?

Me: Did anyone tell you that you are rude?

LilBubs: Point taken…

Me: Please read on and review! OH and I would like to thank Lady Artemis Blaine for reading and reviewing! I am going to start updating my stories every Sunday, so please do not be discouraged if each chapter is much shorter. I am trying to do my best work in a weeks time and edit it, so please do not get mad at me! R&R!

Lots of Love and Friendship,

~CupKate Sweets!