Yes, Slade is a big pain in the ass that I should kill of before he ruins things between Raven and Cyborg but you will see what happens

Disclaimer: Nope, never.

I finally cried myself out and got back into the tub. Yes, the water burned but the aftermath of the shower felt good. I got all the bleeding to stop and put a mental note to check myself later. The hardest thing to find was underwear and bra. I found a soft pair of boy boxers to put on and a sports bra. I put on my soft pajama pants; they weren't tight enough to hurt my stomach or thighs. I added a sleeveless shirt, big enough not to touch my sores. I checked myself in the mirror, before throwing on Robin's old sweatshirt he had given me that was way too big. I pulled the hood up over my head before painfully walking to get some tea.

"Robin, what is a taco," I heard Starfire ask before I walked in. When I opened the door to the kitchen, I saw everyone around the table, getting a taco. Robin turned as I came in and had a slight frown on his face.

"Hey, Rae, did you not hear me tell you supper was ready," he asked as I walked by the table to the cabinets. I was careful to hide my pain and bruises.

"I'm not hungry," I said quietly, while picking up my extra large mug. I picked out the jasmine tea, and poured some steaming water in it. I sat at the end of the table, opposite of all of the guys. I was dipping my bag in and out of water when I felt something sliming up my thigh. Out of pain and fear, I jumped back spilling my tea all over the table and rice. Beast Boy was in snake form wrapped around my leg. He changed back into human form, and laughed at me.

"God, Rae, you should have seen your face. You look terrified," he said laughing still. I stared at him, shaking in fear. When he had touched me, I felt Slade's hand all over again and that reminded me that anyone can hurt me.

"Raven," I heard Robin ask. I looked up and saw him standing in front of me along with the others. He put a hand on my cheek, and I flinched, backing away, almost tripping over my own feet.

"Rae, what's wrong," I heard Cyborg say. My hood fell then, and I looked up at them. They gasped as they saw my lip that was still cut and started bleeding. I reached up and covered my mouth. Robin took a step forward, holding up his hand, and I ran. I ran out of the room, scared that he would hurt me. I heard him holler my name as I ran back to my bedroom. Someone tackled me from behind when I was almost there. When Beast Boy flipped me over on my back, searing pain shot up my back and I screamed.

"Raven, what's wrong," he asked as the others came up to us. I felt tears run down my face. He was in the same position Slade had been and I started whimpering. I knew he wouldn't hurt me, but I was so scared and hurt.

"Please…please don't," I cried. "Don't hurt me! Stop!" I started crying more and Beast Boy got up off of me. I sat up and faced the others, backing up and taking a deep breath. Starfire looked as scared as I was, Beast Boy concerned, Robin confused and Cyborg hurt. Cyborg stepped forward and I flinched as he kneeled beside me.

"Rae, what is wrong? What happened," he asked laying a hand on mine. I jerked my hand from his and looked up into his eyes. They were filled with compassion and sadness.

"I can't tell you. I…if I do he'll hurt you," I said looking down. Cyborg growled under his breath.

"Who will hurt him," Robin asked kneeling on my other side. I sighed.

"I can't tell you and stop touching me. It hurts," I said removing Robin's hand from my shoulder.

"Why does it hurt, friend Raven," Starfire asked sitting beside Robin.

"I can't tell you," I said again.

"Then show us," BB said from his place in front of me. I thought about it and decided the bruises needed tending to.

"Hold on," I said before walking into my room. I pulled off the pants and sweatshirt. I grabbed my cloak and slung it on before walking out.

"Why the cloak," BB asked as they all followed me to the infirmary. I turned and faced them, gulping as I did so.

"I can't tell you how this happened, or anything, but I need to have it looked at. Ok," I asked. They all nodded and I slowly released my cloak, letting it fall and rose my shirt to reveal my stomach.

"Oh, my god."

"Aw, shit."

"No..."

"Raven…"

All four of them gasped different things as they saw me. Cyborg then caught me when I started to fall forward from a dizzy spell.

"A man did this, Cyborg. Look at her arms and thighs, they're covered in hand prints," Robin said pushing my braid out of the way to look at my shoulder. I flinched as he covered one of them with his. "It looks to be an older man; the hand print is way bigger than mine." Cyborg leaned back and looked into my eyes and fear held me in place as he placed one of his hands on my arm. His hand was bigger than Slade's and his fingers were longer. I shivered as I felt something scanning my arm, and flinched when Beast Boy spoke.

"I don't get it. She's been in her room since we got back. Haven't you," he asked turning to face me. I turned my head to hide my eyes, to keep them from seeing the truth.

"No, I….I needed to think about some things, so I went into to town," I said in a quiet voice. Robin sighed and turned me to face him, gently.

"Raven, I need you to tell me exactly what happened," he said searching my eyes. "I need every detail." I froze and cast a look at the others to see them nodding.

"I….Robin please…I don't think I can," I said tears coming to my eyes yet again. Robin turned to the others.

"I want all of you to go back to the common's area. I want to talk to her alone," Robin said in his leader voice. My eyes widened and I backed up a few feet. He looked at me confusedly and I looked down at my hands ashamed.

"He's not going to hurt you," Intelligent said in my head again. I heard an internal cry and started shaking violently.

"You don't know that! He could just want to get you along to hurt you," Depression screamed. I placed both hands on the side of my head and squeezed.

"Shut up," I screamed internally. They ceased talking but fear was overtaking me. I kept my hands down as I talked.

"Robin, I don't…..I can't be alone with you or any one right now. Fear is taking over and I can't control myself, or my actions. If I'm alone with you, I could seriously do some damage if she gets loose," I explained squeezing my head tighter.

"Rae, I'm not going to hurt you," he said placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Don't you think I know that? I know in my heart that you won't hurt me, but my head, fear, and depression don't," I screamed, my eyes glaring at him.

"Can you be around Cyborg then? I mean both of us. I could ask the questions while he tends to the wounds," Robin said gently, motioning for the others to leave. Star and BB headed out the door, but BB turned first.

"I'm sorry for scaring you earlier," he said before walking out. I looked up at the other two in front of me, feeling my heart beat furiously. Robin stuck out a hand, and I grabbed it as he helped me up. I walked over and sat on the edge of the bed, feeling the bruises.

"Ok, what I'm going to put on them will burn, Rae, but it should make them feel better," Cyborg said bringing over some cream based stuff. I nodded and he sat on a seat in front of me, cleaning my legs first. I watched as he gave me one last look before dubbing that stuff on there. I groaned as it began to burn widely and clutched the bed with my hand. It started to tingle and then a good cold feeling came and I sighed.

"Ok, first of all, who did this," Robin asked sitting in another chair beside Cyborg. I froze and remembered Slade's earlier words.

"Tell them, and I'll kill Cyborg," he had said in my ear as he held me to his chest. I swallowed hard and grasped my hands harder.

"I can't tell you," I said defiantly. Robin sighed deeply and Cyborg froze his hands for a minute before continuing.

"Why can't you tell us," Robin said trying a different tactic.

"Because he said if I did, he would kill Cyborg," I said trying not to cry.

"Raven, I am a hero for God's sake. How the hell could this jackass hurt me," Cyborg asked looking up into my eyes.

"Trust me, if he wants to hurt you or any other person, he could. I mean, look what he did to me," I said looking down at my bruised stomach. "He promised he wouldn't rape me. He said he wanted me to let him take me, not forcefully. He said that he would get kisses and other things if he wanted them. I asked him what if I defied him and…and he said….," I broke down there and started crying worse. Robin caught me as I started to fall forward. I clung to him and cried on his shoulder. How could I do this to Cyborg, the one I truly loved? How could I do this to him?

"What did he say Rae," Cyborg asked somewhere nearby.

"He said if I didn't, then he would...then he would make Cyborg watch….as the man raped me in front of him," I screamed in Robin's mind. Robin froze stroking my back and pulled back to look at me.

"He said that? Are you….are you serious," Robin asked in shock.

"If he didn't, then why would I have let him do this," I asked motioning to my body. Robin winced and smoothed my hair back from my face.

"Rae, I am so, so, so sorry. I can't imagine what sick minded bastard would do such a thing," he said as Cyborg continued to stare at us.

"What," he asked and Robin leaned to whisper in his ear.

"HE WHAT," Cyborg screamed when Robin leaned away. Robin nodded and Cyborg started shaking in anger.

"Cyborg," Robin asked putting a hand on the metal man's shoulder. Cyborg looked at me and I stared back. I don't know what Robin was doing, but I knew that something was happening here.

"Raven, I….. I can't begin to think…of what I'm going to….do to this…animal when I find him, but please, tell me who in the world did this to you," Cyborg pleaded. I looked down at my hands and sucked in breath as my back began to burn. Cyborg winced and went to sit behind me.

"Robin, hand her a towel to hide her chest. Rae, I need to rise up the back of your bra, ok," he asked as Robin handed me the towel. I tucked it under my arms, and nodded for Cyborg to go ahead. He gently lifted my shirt and gasped loudly as he got it up and over my head.

"Robin, please tell me I'm seeing things," I heard him say. Robin walked around and looked at my back.

"Holy shit," he screeched before tenderly touching my back. I jumped up from the bed and ran to the mirror. I turned around and saw that Slade had scratched his name into my back while he was messing with me. I reached back and touched it, blood came out and I turned to face the other two. Both were red and angry as they looked at me. I winced and backed up to the wall as they walked toward me. I slid down the wall and pulled my knees up to my chest, beginning to sob.

"You will forever have a reminder of me," he had said. I sobbed louder and Robin stopped where he was. Cyborg, however, continued to walk towards me. He got on his knees in front of me and pulled my face up gently. I saw the tears in his real eye and the tears that had ran.

"Raven…" He said my name like a prayer on his lips. I threw myself at him, wrapping my arms around his chest and he strongly, but carefully, placed his arms around my waist.

"I'm sorry," I whispered in his ear again and again. He leant up and kissed my head, gently breathing in as he did so.

"You have nothing to be sorry for, love, nothing at all," he said resting his chin on my head. Robin knelt beside me, and rubbed my arms up and down.

"Raven, why did you lie to us," he asked and I turned barely to look at him.

"He said he would hurt Cyborg," I repeated and heard a growl from the window.

"And I will, in do time believe me," I heard Slade say. We all turned and expected to find him, but all we saw was the open window.

"Was that a threat," Cyborg asked caressing my sides and waist, for my shirt had fallen off and I was in my black sports bra.

"No," I said looking into his eyes. "It was a promise." On that note, all was silent for a minute. Cyborg continued rubbing my arm and back and Robin sat there watching me. All of a sudden, I felt pain in my chest and I released Cyborg. I hugged myself and groaned as the pain dulled. I knew my chest was bleeding again and I walked over the sink, grabbing the towel as I did so. I dampened the towel in warm water and used my powers to float another towel above my waist, hiding my view from the boys.

"Uh…Rae what are you doing," Robin asked when I took off my bra. I ignored him and pressed warm towel to my breast, wincing slightly.

"Sorry, but when I say I have bruises everywhere, I do mean everywhere," I said checking the towel for blood. It had a few drops, so I pressed it to me again.

"Here put some of this on it until it heals," Cyborg said sliding it to me. I did as I was told and put my bra back on. I made sure it wasn't still bleeding before lowering the towel. I sat back on the bed and the other two came back to sit in front of me in their chairs. Cyborg continued with my legs and Robin continued with his questions.

"So, we know it was Slade, so what exactly happened," he asked motioning to my body.

"He was in my room after I got out of the shower. He then told me all the stuff I told you, about what he would do of I told and if I rejected his touch. He then brushed my hair and hurt me for not answering him. When he was done with half the braid, Cyborg knocked on the door," I said turning to face him when he stopped. "I wasn't hollering leave me the hell alone to you, it was to him. He had been jerking at my towel, and it pissed me off. I'm sorry." Robin turned to Cyborg, who had dropped the towel, the bottle and his jaw.

"You mean, he was in there when I was standing outside the door," he asked slightly scary at his anger in his eyes. I nodded and he tightened his fist and took a deep breath. "I could have stopped it. If I would have been insistent on talking to you, I would have walked in and you wouldn't have been in this shape," he said getting louder each time. Robin placed a hand on his shoulder and Cyborg shoved it off. "Don't tell me it's not my fault! She is in this shape because of me! Because I couldn't walk in there and demand she talk to me! Because I didn't read the readings of her room to make sure she was ok!" He slammed his fist into the wall beside us and Robin jumped but I remained.

"Cyborg, it's not your fault. You didn't know I was in trouble and you defiantly didn't know this was going to happen. Cyborg….listen to me. It's not your fault," I said grabbing his face in my hands. He opened his eyes and nodded before placing his hands on mine.

"Anyway, after you left, he….he fulfilled what he wanted. After an hour of head to toe kissing, and bruising, he fixed a hot bubble bath and sat me down inside. He said he was sorry, but next time it would be easier to respond to him. He left and I tried to stop the bleeding and I cleaned up my bed sheets and all that. I got all the…uh dangerous bleeding stopped," I said motioning to my waist. Robin jumped up and grabbed my shoulders.

"I thought you said he didn't rape you!" he screamed and I smiled a small smile. I reached and put my hands on his shoulder, sitting him down.

"He didn't Robin, but…he was….creative in ways," I said looking at my hands feeling guilty. Yes, he had been inside of me, but not with his sex. No, he had used other things, things of which I am not mentioning, but I'm glad he used those things instead of it. Those things don't take away your virginity.

"Rae, I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking," he said looking bashful.

"It wasn't your fault. Not many guys think about things like that," I said and hoped none of the ones I lived with did.

"Do you think you are alright though? I mean, do you need to go the hospital or doctor to check your uterus," Cyborg said and I laughed. I truly laughed for once that night and the two looked at me like I was crazy.

"Cyborg, honey, listen carefully. All they will say is, and I quote, 'Avoid having sex until your soreness is gone and you can pee without pain'. Believe me, all they will think is I am a sex driven, hormone raging teenager. I had a similar problem a year back when I was in an accident in a battle. That's exactly what she told me and she seriously gave me the 'sex talk'," I said smiling as a blush made its way to Robin's face. Cyborg, however was smirking.

"So, no more sexual fantasies for you Rae. Awe too bad," he said smiling and I laughed.

"Ya, for you," I said causing him to stutter. Robin busted out laughing and I joined in.

"Cyborg you know no one can beat Raven when it comes to sarcasm," Robin said still chuckling. Cyborg smiled and shook his head. Robin then looked at me weirdly.

"Hey Rae? What were you doing before you went back to your room," he said and I immediately had flash backs of the make-out with Cyborg. I then remembered I still owed him an explanation. I looked at Cyborg and saw him looking at me.

"Robin, let me explain something to you. Children need toy trucks and cars to have fun, but parents only need a bed for some," Cyborg said winking at me. I laughed as Robin looked between us with a raised eyebrow.

"No, I asked Cyborg to do me a favor," I said and my phone rang. I saw it was Bumble Bee and answered.

"Hello," I asked as the boys looked at me.

"Hey, girl! What ya up to," she asked excitedly.

"Nothing really in the infirmary," I said and Cyborg went back to cleaning my legs.

"Girl, you practically live there. Anyway, guess who's back from the ocean," she said and I could tell she was holding in laughter.

"Aqualad's back," I almost screamed in the phone. He is always the biggest flirt and yet he was always one of my favorite titans.

"Yep, girl. He's back and he actually wants to talk to you. Hold on," she said. When I heard another voice on the phone, I smiled.

"Hey sexy," he said and I laughed. Robin and Cyborg looked up to me.

"Sexy? Laying it on thick, now aren't we," I said smiling. He laughed and I stood up and headed to the window to look out.

"Ya, kind of. I was wondering if you wanted to go on a date with me tonight," he asked and I froze. He had never asked me on a date before and it shocked the hell out of me.

"A date? Like, an actual date," I questioned and watched as Cyborg's blue faded to red. Robin went jaw slacked and you could almost see his eyes jutting out of his mask.

"Ya, you and me. I mean, come on, you need a date. Besides what have you got to loose," he asked and I could tell he was excited.

"A lot, actually. I could loose a lot. Aqualad this isn't the best time. Slade's been acting up and well, he attacked me earlier. I'm not in shape to go out tonight," I said watching the waves roll. I heard his breath hitch and get caught in his throat.

"He attacked you? How," he asked.

"Sexually," I said simply.

"What," he screamed into the phone and I removed it from my ear as he hollered for about three minutes straight.

"Are you done yet," I asked later.

"Ya, sorry but that's horrible. We can go out some other time right," he asked and again, I froze.

"I don't know about a date…. I'm kind of….uh…You know what? Forget it. I won't go on a date with you, but I will go as friends with you. Just not tonight," I said trying to find the words to use.

"Sure thing. Hey I got to go, Bee is about to kill me. See ya," he said before hanging up. I sat the phone down on the bed and I sat down too.

"I swear, he never gives up," I mumbled to no one in particular.

"Well, maybe you should start dating. I mean, it's been since Melchior," Robin said gently. I glared at him and was surprised to see Cyborg did too.

"Ok…ok," Robin said backing up. "I'm going to fill the others in while he finishes up." He walked out of the room and Cyborg started rubbing my thighs. I grimaced but soon relaxed. His hands moved surely and softly as he massaged the cream in. I watched his face as he did so and he turned me to lay me down on the bed. He then moved to my other leg and I moaned as he released the tension that had built up. When he finished my legs, he moved to my stomach. Some of the cuts were pretty low, so he lowered my underwear, just enough to see the cuts. When his hands rubbed over my stomach, that feeling came again. The lust and love one. I bit my lip to keep from moaning and gripped the bed sheets. His hands moved in small circles, seemingly driving me crazy.

"Uh…Rae, you ok," Cyborg asked pausing for a minute. I nodded and he continued. He reached a new sensitive spot and I moaned loudly. I couldn't hold it in and Cyborg ran his hand over the spot on my left side again. He smiled when I moaned again as the sensual experience grew. He finished my stomach and rubbed that spot every once and a while.

"Ok, now you need to turned over," he directed and I turned to lie on my stomach. He handed me a towel and I pulled my bra over my head before covering my chest with the towel as I lied back down. He did my back for at least thirty minutes and nearly put me to sleep. When he was done, he put all the stuff away and sat beside me on the bed. He rubbed my bare back and I shivered. He pulled the sheet up over me and started untangling the braid. He did it quickly, but softly and then ran his hands through the curls.

"Rae, you know I finished ten minutes ago," he said smiling. I leaned my head up to look at him and smiled.

"I know, but I, my dear, am very comfortable. Just leave me here tonight," I said before laying my head back down.

"I'm not leaving you alone," he said smoothing my hair again. I grunted and patted the side of the big bed.

"Well, then, climb on in," I said lifting the sheets with my powers. He sighed but climbed up under them, and I turned to face him, keeping the towel hiding my chest. I pulled a few more blankets over us and I snuggled up into the safe arms of my protector. He kissed my head softly and I used my powers to shut off the lights.

"Goodnight, Cy-bear," I said using Happy's nickname for him.

"Goodnight, Love," he said and I gently fell asleep there.