A/N: Thank you guys for reviewing it means a lot. And sorry for making you wait, I thought that that'd be a good cliffhanger place so I went for it. Anyways, thank you again and here's chapter four.

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Chapter Four:

Brooke started to work her hands up Haley's shirt and went to lift it up when… "Wait," Haley pushed her hand away and broke the kiss. Brooke looked at Haley with a confused face and out of breathe not understanding what she did wrong. Haley read her mind and tried to reassure her that wasn't the case, "No, it's not you, believe me, you didn't do anything wrong, I don't see how that's possible." Haley smiled at Brooke who still looked uncertain.

"Then… what's the matter?" Brooke had done this before, but probably not as much as Haley, and that kind of intimidated her. Brooke didn't want to do anything wrong to make Haley think she wasn't ready or not good enough.

"Listen, Brooke, you mean a lot to me. I've liked you since the 6th grade, and I just don't want to rush things. I've done this a lot, everyone knows my reputation, and I'm pretty sure you do too," Brooke nodded her head, still not really grasping Haley's point. Haley saw the look on Brooke's face and continued, "I've done a lot of things, but I've never done this. What I mean by that is, it's never meant anything to me, till now." Brooke had been looking down the entire time and raised her head to look at Haley.

"This…means something to you?" Brooke couldn't help but break a little smile when she said that.

Haley nodded and took Brooke's hands in hers, leaning her forehead against hers. "Everything," Haley whispered. Brooke broke into a huge smile and Haley wore one just as big on her face. Haley laughed lightly and caught Brooke in another kiss. Except, this time, unlike the first, it wasn't rushed, it was a slow, light kiss that seemed just as wonderful as the others.

After the two, now ecstatic girls, made out for awhile they soon fell asleep. Both dreaming of one another and no worries to be found in their minds. And totally unaware of the what the next day would bring, good or bad…

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Brooke yawned and stretched her arms. She glanced over at the clock that read one A.M. and wondered what kept her up that late. Then flashbacks of the previous nights events flooded her head and she smiled, for the first time in awhile (besides that night) a big, gigantic, real, with dimples as big as the grand canyon, smile. She turned her head expecting to find Haley laying next to her, but was disappointed to find her not. Brooke sat up in the bed and instantly her head started spinning as doubts started to fill it.

'What if she was too drunk to remember and thought it was a mistake?'

'What if she did remembered and thought it was a mistake?'

'Did she really mean what she said or was that just an excuse to get out of going all the way?'

'Did she think I wasn't ready?'

'Was I suppose to be another conquest that she decided not to conquer?'

'Maybe she's just scared of what Luke would say?'

All these thoughts were forming in Brooke's head and she couldn't believe how naïve she was last night. It was Haley James, she should of seen this coming. But last night, when Haley said those things to her, it sounded like she actually meant it. Brooke should of known better. She was brought out of her thoughts when her bathroom door opened and out came Haley wearing nothing but one of Brooke's gray, oversized Raven's cheerleading hoodies.

"You're up," Haley smiled.

Brooke let out a breathe, scolding herself for thinking Haley would do that to her. "Yeah, just now." Brooke looked at Haley and was mesmerized at how…adorable, she looked in her huge jacket.

Haley followed Brooke's gaze and laughed, "Yeah, sorry 'bout that, I didn't feel like going back to my room and just thought…" Haley's voice trailed off and Brooke picked up.

"No, it's cool. Besides, you look hot in my clothes." Brooke smirked. Haley blushed a little and looked away. 'Oh my God, did I just blush?'. "Is Haley James blushing?" Brooke teased with an even bigger smirk.

"Shut up," Haley mumbled, "I can't help it that you do that to me." A little smile played at Haley's lips, still thinking this was all a dream. A flash of guilt crossed Brooke's face, but she quickly covered it up with a smile hoping Haley didn't notice. Haley did notice however, and knew exactly what it was for. She sighed and walked over to the bed sitting on the edge near Brooke. "You thought I left, didn't you?"

Brooke looked at her and couldn't believe how she had thought her thoughts just a while ago, if that made any sense at all. "Look Haley--"

"No, it's ok I get it. If I woke up expecting me to be there I wouldn't be surprised if I wasn't there, laying next to me." Haley said the last part slowly wondering if that made any sense at all. Both girls started laughing forgetting for a moment what they were discussing. When they calmed down Haley remembered what she was trying to say, "I think you get what I was trying to say. Look Brooke, I've made a lot of mistakes, but last night, wasn't one of them. I meant what I said about this meaning something. I just have to know, well…" Haley took a deep breathe. She wasn't sure if she should take this risk, but knew she had to, "Does this mean something to you as well?"

Brooke looked at Haley. Not looked, but 'looked'. At this moment, she looked so, she wasn't quite sure. She'd never seen her like this. For the longest time she'd known Haley, she was always tough, collected, always together. But now, she looked…vulnerable, lost. Brooke was sure there was more to Haley then she let on, with the rough family life she had, more like the family that was never there, the late nights. It wasn't the best way to live, Brooke knew that, she knew half of it at least. But it always seemed to fit Haley, now she wasn't sure if it ever did from the look in Haley's eyes.

Realizing she hadn't answered Haley, Brooke smiled and kissed her. Haley was a little taken back, but recovered and kissed back. Brooke pulled away, smirked, leaned her forehead against Haley's and said, "Everything,"

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It had been three days since both the girl's confessions to one another and they couldn't have been happier. They decided they wouldn't tell anyone. Actually, it was Haley's decision. She figured Brooke would probably want to keep things on the DL for awhile. Besides, they both didn't think anyone would believe that their relationship was serious. So, for now, they were content with the janitor closet breaks, and midnight 'snacks'. Granted they hadn't slept together yet, Haley still wanted to take things slow. Not to mention the fact that she didn't want to do anything to screw it up with Brooke, she'd been waiting too long.

Both girls were laying on Haley's bed with Haley lying on Brooke's shoulder and Brooke's arm around Haley's shoulders, gently stroking her hair. It was weird, Haley thought. She had never been the cuddling type, but with Brooke she could cuddle all day. It was also amazing how wrapped she was around Brooke's finger, not that she'd ever let her know that.

"So, you're telling me that people actually wear clothes like that," Brooke scoffed at the attire people in Haley's magazine were wearing.

Haley groaned, "For the last time Brooke, not everybody wears short skirts and tight tops with bright colors that come from million dollar labels like Prada or Gucci."

"Um, Haley, those are purses." Brooke looked down at her clueless girlfriend. 'Wait, did I just think girlfriend?'

Haley rolled her eyes, "Whatever, I think you know what I mean." Haley looked up and saw Brooke's expression. "What's up?"

"Can I ask you question?" Brooke seemed serious so Haley could tell something was up.

Haley sat up out of Brooke's embrace and looked at her, "Yeah, anything."

Brooke was hesitant at first, "What are we?"

Haley looked at her confused, "What do you mean?"

"Like, what are we?" Brooke motioned between herself and Haley. "Are we like, girlfriend and girlfriend?"

Immediately Haley tensed up. 'Girlfriend'. That term alone scared the hell out of her. She'd never been anyone's girlfriend before. She was most definitely scared of commitment. She didn't know why, but the thought of someone relying on her for anything, just didn't sit well. 'What am I supposed to do? I like Brooke a lot, but…girlfriend? Can I do it? Oh god what am I going to do?'

Brooke felt like hyperventilating right then and there. She honestly didn't know what she expected Haley to say, but no answer and a blank face wasn't exactly what she had in mind. Brooke nodded her head slowly and got up off the bed grabbing her coat off a chair. Haley didn't notice she got up until she was to the door.

"Wait!" Haley jumped up and ran to the door, "Brooke what are you doing?"

"I'm pretty sure you just gave me your answer Haley," Brooke made a move for the door but was cut of by Haley again.

"No, Brooke, that's not it. I like you…a lot--"

"And obviously that's not enough." Brooke looked at Haley who could do nothing but stare back hopelessly. Brooke let out a little bitter laugh and left out of Haley's door without another word.

Haley stood in the same spot not understanding what just happened. How could she just let Brooke walk out like that? She had liked her forever and as soon as she got her she let her go. Why? All because she was scared of a stupid word. No matter what she did however, she couldn't get over it. Was she really that screwed up? Was she really that lost? All of a sudden, Haley was filled with anger. But not to Brooke, to herself. Everything bad that happened was always her own fault. And no matter how hard she tried to stop it, she couldn't. She was just one big screw up, and that's what she would always be.

Haley walked over to her mini fridge and pulled out the half empty bottle of Vodka. She laid down on her bed and started chugging away, turning on her stereo with her remote and raising the volume all the way up. She at least had one relying source in her life, and she could give a rats ass if it wasn't the best. It's not like she had anyone to impress right?

A/N: Ok, well that's it for now. I was going to write more but decided you wanted an update. I hope you liked it, it wasn't exactly how I planned out, but I'm remotely happy with it. Anyways, thanks again!

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