Hey guys I'm really sorry for not updating for so long. But I couldn't enter to my account, and I couldn't exactly ask for help, because well I'm a closeted bisexual so it'd be weird if someone saw what I write and read. Anyway, I came out to one friend and then he helped me!
Many chapters were erased BUT I've been writting as crazy.
SO here is the chapter of what happened before Emily got to class.
Is it weird to go out past midnight to an uknown place with an older friend that resemblances a blonde you like?
Because I'm in that situation right now and I'm freaking out.
Drake has been driving for half an hour and as tradition I told her everything that happened, without of course, telling her that the girl is in fact Alison Dilaurentis.
I trust Drake but it doesn't feel right to tell something so personal about Ali, her name is well known in town, therefore everytime I tell her about my distress I skip my crush's name. We call her "Vivian" though, Drake says it fits great with such a bitch. Her words, not mine.
"Drake" I call her.
"Ass, you gotta stop calling me by my surname" The blonde complains without looking away from the road.
"You gotta stop calling me ass" I respond.
"That's different, you are an ass" She smiks as usual.
"Aren't you a Drake then?" I ask chuckling and she rolls her eyes.
"Smartass" She mumbles.
I love how good my answers are when I'm with Cece, usually when I argue with people I'm left blank and can't retort to anything they say, but with the blonde I feel in ease and able of being assertive. I wish I could be this cool with Ali, I'd love to ser her face if I used sarcasm with her.
"What were you going to ask me?" She asks with a more serious tone.
"What should I do about Vivian?"
"Fuck her" she shrugs.
"Drake!" I scold.
"What? Im serious, that girl needs the Field's D" My cheeks warm up at her embarrasing statement.
"Ew that could mean my dad's too, you know? I say making her burst of laughing.
"Oh my god you're right, well you got the point anyway" Is my turn to roll my eyes this time.
"She's not gay" I mumble with a pinch of frustation, the older girl isn't helping much.
"Kissing and masturbating a girl sounds pretty much gay to me" She says and I cringe at the word "masturbating"
"There's no need to speak crude"
"Emily grow up, you'll speak crude at sex, start practicing"
The heat in my cheeks increases.
"I don't want to... make love soon"
"Yeah sure... and call it sex or fuck by the way" Drake's sacasm is as evident as her roots, and it frustarates more.
"I'm telling the true!, I don't want it!" I yell and Drake raises an eyebrow at me grining with malice.
Oh no, I'm very familiar with that type of gaze, I've been dealing with it since I'm 13 years old due Alison. Is the warning sign that she has some evil plan and I'm her victim.
At least I'm not too scared since unlike Ali, that when she gets that look I often end up with a broken heart, Drake just makes some irritating prank.
"Ok, I believe you" The blonde says with a neutral voice.
Not a good sign.
"Really?" I ask suspiciously.
She simply shurgs
Okay...
Some minutes pass and I feel myself falling asleep.
"Imagine you're fucking Vivian and she's moaning your name"
"WHAT?!" I scream totally awake now.
"You're thrusting faster and harder" She continues and I try to block her voice.
"Faster and harder" The blonde repeats and I can't help but to create the scene in my mind.
"Her boobs bounce and her pink nipples are erected"
I bite mi lips and close my eyes, having Alison like that would be a dream.
"Her naked body rubs against yours and she begs for even more contact"
I whimper.
"Cece, st-stop it, ple-please" I stutter out of breath.
"Her tight and wet pussy hugs your dick"
Fuck... That'd be amazing.
"Stop please"
Drake doesn't say anything else but my mind is running, unable of pause the erotic movie with Alison as protagonist.
"You are getting those more and more often" I open my eyes and Drake is pointing to my crotch.
Yeah, I got a boner.
"I know, is annoying" I mumble, this month my dick... have been getting excited with every damn remotly hot thing. I think Drake has seen me like this a dozen of times, this week.
I should be worried, maybe I'm sick.
"Are you sure you don't want to fuck?" Drake asks satisfied. I guess she wanted to prove her stupid point.
"I don't want to!" I grumble.
Drake observes my boner without shame and raises her eyebrow again.
"Emily you are horny all the time, that clearly means you want and need to get laid"
I groan with frustation.
"Idiot, this hurts a lot you know" I say
"You can jerk off here if you want" She says focused in the road.
"What?! No!"
What the hell is wrong with Cece?
"Come on ass, I've already seen you naked a million times and I don't want you to get to a party full of strangers that will see your boner"
"Then you shouldn't say those things"
"Ok, I'm sorry, but you know I'm right, you can't go with that between your pants"
"I'll just think about ugly things and let it down" I say embarrased.
"There's no time for that, we are five minutes away from the party"
Damn it.
What do I do?! I definitely won't let people see me like this, I'm a girl, I'm not suposed to have some bump in my jeans.
But I won't touch myself in front of Drake either!
"Three minutes" Drake sings.
"Ok I'll do it" I say defeated.
"Awesome!" Her smile takes me aback.
"You're excited" Is not a question, is an afirmation.
"Duh?, its been a fantasy of mine to see you doing dirty stuff"
"What? Why? Do you like me?" I ask terrified. Don't get me wrong, Cece is hot, however she's my friend and is the only one with whom I can talk about my problems. I would never ruin that.
"Keep dreaming Emily, is just that you're this little innocent bambi, I always wonder how would you look being different"
"Is that a compliment?" I ask more relaxed but still confused.
"Yeah it is and now that I think about it... maybe that is the same reason Vivian did what she did" She explains with a frown.
"To see me not being a bambi?"
"Exactly"
"I don't understand"
"You will bambi, for now you gotta jerk off, then I explain how you'll take charge of Vivian"
I sigh, ok I better do it quick.
How do I touch myself with Drake here?
I start rubbing myself over the jeans and she laughs.
"Come on! I doubt you actually get off like that"
"I'm in the most uncomfortable situation Cece!"
"Oh my god, you're a total baby"
"CECE!"
"Fine, I'll park and close my eyes, ok?"
I nod.
When she parks I sigh, I'm really doing this. What kind of kinky comedy had my life become?
The blonde closes her eyes and I turn on the stereo, I don't need her to hear me moan.
"Don't peek Drake" I warn.
"Kay girl"
I unbutton my jeans and pull them down to my knees, then my boxers. I grab my dick and start stroking it, I exhale at the touch.
Damn finally, what a relief.
I continue and bite my lips to avoid doing any sound.
Don't moan. Emily don't.
But It feels so good...
I moan.
The face of Alison forms in my mind, then her naked body and I increase the speed.
Then the image of Ali riding my dick appears abruptly and I moan again.
I need to say her name so bad.
No Emily, you can't say Alison!
Right, Cece can't know who's Vivian.
I look at my side and there's Cece, eyes open, blue eyes open. She has her mouth half-open and her cheeks and neck got a pink tone, Ali looked exactly like that yesterday.
I groan.
Ali...
Stop thinking about Ali! You can't say her name!
I rub faster and I know I'm close.
I keep moaning and groaning incomprehensible sounds.
I need to say her name to cum, I need it!
You can't Emily. Say Vivian.
No, Vivian doesn't feel right.
I'm so so close...
I look at my side again and Cece licks her lips, she's so sexy when she does that...
That's it, I can't control it anymore I'm cumming!
"FUCK CECE!" I scream as I reach the glory point of full pleasure.
I freez, did I just...
"Oh my god! You yelled my name!"
Yes I did.
"So-sorry Cece, it wasn't my intention, I'm sorry, is-
"You don't have to apologize, is actually a compliment-
"No cece! I was-
"Geting off by fantasizing about me"
"No! I wasn't thinking about you!, I mean, yes I was but not all the time, I-
"Wait, so you think about various women when doing it, naughty"
"I was thinking about Vivian!"
"And me"
"No, well yeah but not in that way" I know I'm making no sense.
"Then how?" She asks curious.
"You look like her, I already told you a while ago. I didn't want to say "Vivian" or Vivian's real name, and I saw you while... Yeah... It came by itself, I'm sorry Cece, I did not imagine you like that, I'm not some freak, I'm really sorry, please still be my friend, I promise it won't happen again, I'm sorry!"
Drake takes off her belt, sits in my legs and caresss my face wiping some tears away. I didn't realize I was crying until now.
"Hey hey, Emily, breathe" I didn't realize I was holding air until now.
"I'm still your friend, you can't get rid of me that easily dumbass. What happened was normal, I understand, I believe you. You're not a freak or anything alike, you are a girl with a pure heart and I'm glad I met you, so stop being so hard with yourself, you're a human, fine?"
Her words pacify me and I nod. Her blue eyes are warm and comforting, I can see she's being honest. A huge contrast againts the icy killer blue eyes of Alison.
"And this was my fault, I'm sorry for put you in this position, I was trying to help" Cece says soft.
"Help?" I ask confused.
"Emily, you need to establish power in this sick game that Vivian begun, you can't be at her mercy anymore and I refuse to see you cry again because of her, you have to play and overtake her"
"I know but how this have anything to do with-
"You have to change"
I flinch at that, change? Didn't she like me like this? She told me once I didn't have to change, she accepted me for who I was. Did she lie? Is she a liar as Alison?
I think Drake noticed my mood because she starts to talk again.
"Just arround Vivian, you're awesome the way you are baby, but you need to learn how to deal with this type of bitches"
I smile, she doesn't want me to change at all, she wants me to confront Ali.
"Okay" I whisper.
"That's why you'll become a bitch, the best bitch in rosewood" She manages to say that sounding completly sweet.
"Rosewood?"
"Well, lets being with Rosewood High for now" She seems like a child with a mission in her hands.
I nod, but then I remember something.
"Drake..."
"Yes Emily?"
"That doesn't explain why you made me masturbate in front of you" I laugh because it's actually so bizarre.
"Oh, that's because to be a bitch, you get rid of the prude in you"
"That's ridiculous"
"Really? Because I'd swear that masturbating with a spectator, then having a woman on top of you while your dick is exposed and there's cum in your legs wasn't a prude thing to do"
I keep silent, gaining conscience of our... position.
Drake continues talking as nothing odd is happening though.
"And you said the word masturbate aloud, that's progress"
I shake my head, Drake is crazy but I love her, she's one of the best person I'd have as a friend... in some not traditional way.
I see the disaster that my pants and boxers are.
"How am I supposed to go to the party?"
"I have all planed" The blonde smirks and gets up from me.
"Drake" I call.
"Yes ass?"
"Did you really fantasize about me doing...this?" Is obvious what I'm talking about.
"Yeah, and damn it overmatched my expectations, you ain't the only one who got all hot and bothered"
"Oh ok" I say without knowing what else to say.
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It results that Drake had "Party clothes" in the car's trunk.
We changed our clothes, Drake is in black short shorts, black high leather boots and a red simple top. I'm in blue boyfriend jeans, a black crop top and white sneakers.
I didn't want to put make up but Cece insisted.
The location of the party was unexpected, we're in a speedway, but not those fancy concrete racetracks, nope, it was a dirty made of soil racetrack. I watch various boys with tatoos and hot girls wearing almost anything on top of big motorcycles. There is alcohol everywhere and I'm sure that not all the smoke on the air comes from the bikes. Cough weed cough.
I'm anxious.
"Drake you didn't bring me to an ilegal race, did you?"
"No Emily, you aren't ready for that type of adrenaline...yet"
Fine, is not that bad then.
"This is the afterparty of the race, is half legal"
THIS IS BAD.
"Half legal?! Drake we'll end up in jail!"
"Calm down girl, some policemen know about this, the rich guys that come buy their silence and cover us"
"This is so so wrong..."
"Stop the tantrum, do you want to defeat Vivian or not?"
"Yeah but-
"Then you'll learn to take risks, you ain't Emily anymore, since now you are Fields, a savage bitch"
Well, what could go wrong? I ask to myself.
Everything. I respond to myself.
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I don't know what song is on, but I'm loving it. The lyrics and instruments sound loud by the giant baffles making me feel vibrations through my whole body and I love it. I bet is rock or something like that.
Well here we go again
You've found yourself a friend that knows you well
But no matter what you do
You'll always feel as though you tripped and fell
So steady as she goes
I observe my red cup with curiosity, the fuss creates waves on the yellow liquid, I guess beer. Honestly this is my seventh cup and it tastes like apple juice, I love apple juice.
When you have completed what you thought you had to do
And your blood's depleted to the point of stable glue
Then you'll get along
Then you'll get along
I don't know where Drake is, but I see a "dance floor" made of wooden boards. People seem having fun there. I want fun too.
steady as she goes
Steady as she goes
Settle for a world (settle for the world), neither up or down (neither up or down)
Sell it to the crowd (sell it to the crowd) that is gathered round (that is gathered round)
I plunge in the crowd with my arms at the sky and move my hips at the pace of the electric guitar, I thank God for giving me grace at the art of dance.
Settle for a girl (settle for the girl), neither up or down (neither up or down)
Sell it to the crowd (sell it to the crowd) that is gathered round (that is gathered round)
So steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
Steady as she goes (steady as she goes)
I stop when a pair of hands grab me by the waist, I'm ready to reject the guy but when I turn around I see a female face.
Brown eyes, bronzed skin, chestnut wavy hair, thin lips and a pierced nose.
"Hi" She purrs with a distinct and alluring accent.
Steady as she goes, are you steady now?
Steady as she goes, are you steady now?
"Hi" I murmur.
Steady as she goes.
The song ends and there's a tiny silence before the music comes back and I recognize Rihanna's voice.
"What's you name sweety?" The misterious girl asks.
Sweety... That's how Ali calls me sometimes.
No no no, don't think about Ali.
"Fields" I say
"I asked for your name"
"Thats my name today" I simply say remembering Drake's instructions.
She smiles like she had me figured out already. I should try to do the same then.
The brunette is wearing a tight black dress that details her curves, her cleavage is tempting and she's using heels, How she manages to walk on those here?
"Won't you ask for mine?" She asks me.
"Hum?"
"My name, don't you wanna know it?" She's almost mocking me.
Oh right. Fields focus, you're a bitch not an awkward shy girl, that's Emily.
I'm losing it.
"Of course, what's your name?"
"I'm Alex" She answers and I notice that her voice is husky and the accent makes it even better, from where could she be?
"Won't you say my name is beautiful or whatever?" She asks, she seems stunned.
Be a bitch.
"I see you're used to receive compliments" I smirk. Uh it feels great to smirk, now I get why Drake and Alison always do it.
"You're straight" Alex says and cross her arms making her chest more remarkable.
"Why did you think I wasn't in first place?"
Am I that obvious?
"Gaydar" She says.
I chuckle at that.
"I suspect I wasn't totally wrong" Alex says making me look at her eyes. Oh, I was still staring at her chest.
Emily would say sorry but Fields will not.
"So what would you do if I weren't straight?" I aks smirking again.
She smiles and gets closer to me surrounding my neck with her hands.
"I'd dance with you" She moves her hips following the rythm of "S&M" great song by the way. I move too and we gain sync. She turns arround letting me have a great view of her perfect and full butt. I caress her curves scared of touching what I want to touch.
Be a Bitch.
I breath and grab her butt, she whimpers. She's rubbing her entire body on me.
I never knew why people liked to practically have sex with clothes on while dancing. Until now.
I'll get a boner soon, how would Alex react? Not good I bet.
I should stop, the only girl that knows about me is Drake, and well Alison too.
"Alex" I call her.
"Yes?" That accent is killing me.
"We should stop" I strain to say.
She faces me now.
"Why?" She pouts. Mmm Her lips look so kissable...
Alex notices the direction of my gaze and raises an eyebrow.
"You have a boyfriend" She states
I shake my head.
"You have a girlfriend"
I shake my head.
"You love someone and you can't get them out of your head" her last guess surprises me, is the closest one to the truth, nevertheless I don't love Ali, I liker her. I love her in the friendly way and desire her at the same time. Yeah it has logic.
I presume Alex took my silence as an afirmation since she's giving me a sympathetic look.
She put her mouth in my ear and kiss my lobe.
"I can help you forget for a night" She whispers seductively and I melt a bit. Her voice is so engaging.
"That's not the problem, I..."
"You..."
I can't believe I'm gonna tell this to a total stranger. I'm quite drunk.
"I'm a girl" I say, why? I don't know, I'll let my mouth do the work because my brain is pretty much tired.
Alex laughs. "I already knew that silly, you're a hot girl and that's why I'm dancing with you"
I'm an idiot.
"Yeah but like I was born a girl"
"I supposed it" She's still smiling.
"I'm all girl" I say extending the L in all.
"I'm all gay" she mocks me doing the same thing with the L. Ok I laugh at that, this girl is amusing.
"I'm all girl expect..."
I got her attention, she's frowing interested in my next words.
"Ihaveadick" I babble so fast that I'm not sure if she understood.
I look at my sneakers waiting for a humiliation but It doesn't come.
I raise my head with my eyes closed.
I open one and then the other, I tought she'd run away. She's here instead, with her head slighty tilted to the left watching me in a way I don't know how to describe, but there's no anger or disgut.
I calm down, maybe she didn't hear me with all the noise.
"You're cute" The girl says leaving me dumbfounded.
"Did you hear what I said?"
"Yeah, Fields has a package down there" She caress the waistband of my jeans and smiles.
"Why aren't you disgusted?"
"Why would I? You're the dream of the mayority of lesbians. You're hot, sweet, apparently smart, honest, can move and don't need of a strapon"
"Strapon?" I ask and she laughs again. Whatever a strapon is, I should google what the hell is it.
"So now that there's nothing to make us stop, I'll show you what else I'd do If you weren't straight" She purss.
Fuck.
So I can be wanted for girls. Me being intersex is not a curse, maybe an advantage. Fuck Alison for made me think other way.
I kiss Alex, hard and with passion, I don't want to sound cocky but I know I'm a great kisser.
"I'd be glad" I whisper while I grab her awesome butt for the second and not last time today.
So here is the first part of what happened with Emily. I hope you liked the dynamic between Emily and Cece. Did you like alex?
Please leave a review. :)