Welcome back guys. Chapter 4 is starting I don't think I have anything to say?

So without further a do Chapter 4

James POV

I remember telling off Jackson and him threatening Kendall again. Then after that it's pretty much a blur. I heard Carlos say Kendall went down, because what Logan says is a PTSD from seeing Jackson again. Carlos and Logan told me I picked Kendall up bridal style and ran out. They said that I drove all the way back to the house and put Kendall in bed. I honestly don't remember just thought I had to protect Kendall. Kendall slept til about seven in the morning then he woke up from a nightmare again and ran off to puke. I was there to comfort him.

"Jamie, I so sorry." Kendall whined. I looked at him like he was crazy.

"Why are you apologizing?" He shakes his head.

"I keep waking you up and making you lose beauty sleep. I am so so sorry." Why is he apologizing? I would walk to the ends of the earth for him without my lucky comb or mirror.

"Kenny, it's not your fault. I know you think that it is but you didn't asked to get raped. He is just some psycho nut. Plus, I'd do anything for you." He whimpered a little when I mentioned rape. He startled me because he pulled me into a hug.

"Jamie do you mean that?" I looked at his eyes. His eyes showed how vulnerable he is, like one wrong move and he'll break. I nodded.

"Kenny, I have been through it all with you. When you were going to be a big brother and you panicked because you thought she wouldn't love you. I was there when your parents fought and when your dad passed away. I was there when you scored the winning shot in middle school. I was there when you came out to us about being bi. I was there when you got your heart broken by Jessie. I sat around with you all those times so you could have someone help with those broken pieces of your heart. I'll be there until we die. Nothing means more to me than you do Kendall." He looked at me shocked. I was worried I said to much. Then I saw his signature smirk appear. He looked a lot more happy in this moment.

"James what was that? I mean it sounded more than just best friends." I nervously laughed and rubbed the back of my neck. I always had a crush on Kendall. No I am not bi or gay. I have never looked at a guy like I do Kendall. If I had to say a sexuality I was Kendall-sexual. I avoided his eyes. He grabbed my chin and pulled my face to meet his.

"Jamie tell me what that was? Because I know you aren't gay. I need to know how to respond." He looked really confused. I sighed and took his hands.

"Kendall, I am not gay and I am not bi. I think I am Kendall-sexual." He laughed a bit and apologized and told me to continue.

"I mean I have never looked at a guy like I do you. I think I have a crush on you. I know this is bad timing and all. All I think about is how to protect you from anyone and anything. After I looked back we have been there for each other ever since we were four. I mean now we are practically living together and I just wanted to tell you how I felt. But, I felt like it should of been more romantic. I mean not you clutching the toilet and sitting on the ground. While we smell the lingering stench of vomit and-" I was cut off by Kendall kissing me. To say I was startled and shocked was an understatement. He pulled back and blushed a little.

"What was that?"

"Sorry. One that was probably disgusting since I didn't brush my teeth after my episode. Second I should have waited for you to finish but that's the only way I could think to get you to stop rambling. Plus, I think your cute when you ramble." I was staring at him in shock.

"What is this then? I think it would be to soon to start dating or anything because of what happened." He shook his head.

"No I don't think it is. I have been thinking that you are one of the only people I trust. You have been protecting me and doing a pretty good job comforting me. I would like to date you." He smiled at me. What the heck is happening one minute I am in here rubbing his back. Then he was apologizing and I pretty much spilled my heart out. He makes me explain and kissed me. Now he wants to date me. HOLY FUCK!

"Jamie?" I looked at him and I smiled.

"Are you sure you want to do this so soon. I mean I could wait til it's the right time." Again he shook his head and hugged me.

"This is what I want to feel normal again. When I am with you I do and I don't remember what that fucker did. I want to feel normal with you again." I smiled and gripping tighter on him. My cell phone starts to ring. I pull back from Kendall.

"Kenny, brush your teeth and go back to bed." He whined but nodded. I got my phone off the charger.

"Hello?"

"Hi James. How's Kendall?"

"Oh hi Mr. Garcia. Kendall is fine now. We went to the mall and Jackson ran into him. He threatened him and Kendall had a panic attack. He pasted out but now he's fine."

"Good Carlos told me what happened. I tried calling him but he didn't answer. So you were the next best thing."

"Not to be rude Mr. Garcia but is that all you called for?" He chuckled.

"No actually I was calling to tell Kendall we got the rape kit back. We are on our way to get Jackson and put him under arrest. While this is going on we are making a court date because we have all the proof we need to get a good case with him. Kendall needs to be present in the hearing as a witness including you and the guys and anyone else who talked to Kendall that night. I'll call you with the court date because I think it would be better if you told him all of this stuff."

"Okay Mr. Garcia I'll tell him. Just put that bastard in a jail cell to rot. Keep me updated. Thank you and bye."

"Goodbye James" I hung up the phone and sighed. Kendall doesn't need to relive this again. I walk into the room and Kendall is asleep again. I decided not to wake him and make some breakfast instead. When I got downstairs on the refrigerator were two notes. One from my mom and another from the guys. I read mom's note first.

Dear Jamie or Kendall,

I am sorry to leave so soon but duty calls. I'll be out til next Wednesday. Jamie you know where the card is. I want you boys to go school shopping while I am away. The Garcia's and Mitchell's will be checking on you boys on a daily basis. There is enough food to last a couple of days please use it and don't order take out every night. Don't destroy the house and I am talking about you and Carlos, James.

I love you boys,

Love Mama Diamond

I had to laugh a little she knows us to well. We still have like three weeks til school starts why do we have to go now. I decided to take a look at the guys note.

James and Kendall,

We came in with you guys but James was to occupied with you Kendall and Kendall you were out like a light. Mama Diamond told our families that she was leaving. Mami took the first night to cook so James and Kendall better be there. She is making fajitas. My mom said tomorrow you guys are coming over for her meal. I was going to tell you but James looked really worried and busy. So we decided to tell you through note.

-Logan and Carlos

P.S. James you looked adorable taking care of Kendall. Kendall, James is a keeper. -Carlos

I had to laugh out loud. Carlos could see people a mile away and know who is crushing on who. Well as long as I don't have to cook food tonight. I was about to get out the pancake mix when I heard a thud come from upstairs. I knew it had to be Kendall. I ran up and saw him on the with a blanket draped around him. He saw me and crawled to me. I seen tear tracks on his face. I picked him up and sat him on the bed. What was going on? This is definitely the first time this has happened.

"Kenny what happened? Did you have another nightmare?" He nodded and clung to me. It's braking my heart that he has these damn nightmares.

"Kenny can you tell me what happened in them." He took a deep breath. I held him tighter and laid down in bed with him.

"I think it started in the locker room and he was there. I relived it again but then it changed to the hospital and my mom and Katie were there instead of you and the guys and Mama Diamond. I told them what happened and they looked me in disgusted. They told me they didn't love me anymore and that I was a whore. Then they left and the guys came in and they wouldn't look at me. I tried to talk but Logan beat me to it and said they didn't want to be friends with me anymore because of what happened. Mama Diamond came in and told me I had a week to get out and never speak to you again. You came in with tears rolling down your face and looked me right in the eyes. You asked why I did and if I even liked you anymore. I woke up and tripped." How can someones brain be so cruel and play tricks like that.

"Kenny look at me." He shook his head and hid it more into my chest.

"Baby look at me, Please." He finally did.

"No one is ever going to abandoned you. We all love you to much and plus you did so much for us. You keep us all together. This is just the bump in the road. Mom loves you, Katie adores you, you're still Mama Knight's baby boy, the guys don't think any less of you and I..." I kind of trailed off. He cocks his eyebrow.

"And what do you think?" I sighed.

"Well I think I love you to much to let even a bug hurt you." He laughed and I gave a breath of relief. I mean we tell each other all the time we love each other.

"Jamie, I would say the same but I honestly think it's to soon for me to do that. I have a lot of things to emotional put back together and you're helping a lot, so as of now I love you like a best friend I am dating." I laughed and kissed his cheek. Then I realized I needed to tell him about the phone call.

"Kendall, Mr. Garcia called. He was checking up on you because Carlos told him what happened. He told me he was on his way to arrest Jackson. He said they had all the proof they needed. He did say that when they set a date for the hearing that you need to go and anyone including Logan, Carlos and I needed to go to. Anyone that you spoke to before it happened. I know you don't want to but you have to. To put that bastard in jail." He started to shake. I kissed his temple trying to calm him down.

"Jamie why do I have to go? I don't want to relive every detail." I pulled him over to look at me in the eyes.

"Kenny, all you have to do it is one last time and no one will ever make you relive it again." He looked at me and saw I was telling the truth and nodded.

"Oh Kendall go downstairs with me you need to read these notes mom and the guys left for us.

Kendall's POV

I laughed as I read the notes of course Mama Diamond would already say James and Carlos would destroy the house. The guys note was to die for. I know Carlos was that intuitive when it came to people and crushing but didn't expected it to be with me and James.

"So Carlos really wrote this before we even announced we liked each other." James nodded and I had to laugh.

"Kenny, I was thinking after pancakes we ask Carlos and Logan and go back to the mall. We can shop for school clothes and supplies." He wrapped his arms around me.I jumped a little and I shook my head. I don't want to go back there were I could run back into Jackson no way in hell.

"Kenny, Mr. Garcia already arrested him. He is no longer a threat to you. Come on just come with us and I'll protect you like I always do. We can even invite the girls." I gave in and nodded. He kissed my cheek and started with the pancakes.

"I'll call the girls and you call the guys. Alright?" I nodded and pulled out my phone. He answered on the second ring.

"Hello?" I forgot he doesn't wake up until ten during the summer.

"Hey 'Los, I have a question for you?" He groaned.

"What is it Ken DOLL? It better be important for waking me up at... 8:30 in the morning." I laughed.

"Yes James and I are planning to get the girls,you and Logan to the mall for school shopping." I heard him jump up.

"Kendall are you sure that you can do that. Yesterday that fucker was there and you had a panic attack!" It was my turn to groan.

"Yes 'Los I am sure I want to do that. Plus, your dad called James and said he was arresting Jackson today. So, nothing to worry about. I also have a secret to tell you guys." I heard him jump up and down. I knew that secret thing would work.

"Can you tell me the secret NOW!"

"No 'Los you'll find out at the mall."

"Fine meet everyone at the food court at 11:30" He hung up. I then dialed Logan's number. He picked up on the first ring.

"Hey Kendall. Are you okay?"I groaned into the phone.

"Yes I am fine. I was seeing if you wanted to go with James, Carlos, the girls and I to the mall?"

"Kendall you can't be seriously thinking about going back there. After yesterday are you kidding."

"Loges, Mr. Garcia called James and said he was arresting him again. Plus I have something I need to tell you." He growled into the phone.

"Fine. I know you are still to stubborn to change your mind. I'll meet you at the food court. Bye." He hung up. I think he is a little mad that I am deciding to go back to the mall. Oh well it's not like it's the locker room. No, Kendall don't go there. I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"FUCKING HELL!" I turned around and it was just James. I smacked his shoulder. He pouted.

"What was that for?" I actually couldn't help laugh.

"You scared the hell outta me. I was thinking and you fucking sneaked up on me. I thought about the locker room when you did that." I seen his eyes go dark and sad. He pulled me into a hug.

"Kenny, I forgot that you were jumpy. Please, I am sorry I forgot. Don't be mad at me." I held him tighter.

"Jamie I am not mad at you. You just startled me that's all." He nodded.

"What did the girls say?" He pulled away and looked down.

"They are pretty pissed at us because no one was there after the party. No one answered them in the past week and they want answer when we get to the they are coming so that's a plus." I nodded and went into the kitchen. I guess James was making pancakes talking to the girls. We ate and got ready for the mall. I just don't know what I am going to tell the girls about what happened.

Well thanks for reading this chapter it's a little filler. James told Kendall his feelings! Kendall returned them! OMG! Okay one another note the girls are going to find out about what happened. How will they react? Will they still accept Kendall? What will girls and guys do when Kendall tells them the secret/surprise? Review.

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Have a beautiful, wonderful day

-cicibunbuns