Author note: I know I take forever to write these and for that, I am truly sorry had bit of writers' block, which will always work against me. Some sadness about love doesn't help me at all creatively speaking. Any who I wrote the third chapter and this one at the same time and if I'm right, it should sound a lot better and well written for it. Trust me when I say I never abandon what I start and those of you few who has read my other works like harry potter fan fiction I haven't abandoned it. I just have more ideas for this. Trust me when I say that story will be well written when this finished. Besides I made the choice only Jaspers point a view. Mostly because his character was less present then Bella's was in canon and would be easier to write for overall anyway trust me it will be more my style to do it my way then the worlds opinion. One thing I want to mention as word to the wise no chapter will have a consistent length some updates will be short for me other will be long sometimes I let the story tell me how long the chapter wants to be. Sounds odd but I follow my muses will. Last time I angered her she left me for six months and writing with writer's blocks is beyond impossible even though I try they come out horrible. So I try to play by her rules more often than my own any more.
Unknowingly in the bushes about a yard out of sight of the Cullen's home, they were being watched by knowing eyes. Waiting to see if the time had truly happened. Observing them and their actions as one would observe fish in its tank. Knowing she had to keep track of her subject and have their movements monitor closely she knew she would keep the others posted and make sure there is a schedule to keep. This was their final opportunity and there best shot so letting it slip through their fingers was not an option.
After yesterday the relaxing day, we both had yesterday. I am glad to know that today there is some excitement with us site seeing the rest of Washington State Seattle being our main part of our sightseeing. How most other cities are similar to forks with the whole hiking and outdoor centered with no museums of great significance that come to mind. There are times when I wonder who thought it was great idea for a state that is so rain not to have indoor entertainment but I digress. The fact I am going spend another day having fun and enjoyment with Bella makes this sunnier then I could ever want. As I said this a smell came to my nose it was Bella scent but stronger almost seem to permeate the house. When it started the need mate almost consumed me almost making lose myself making it obvious I need to hunt a mountain lion before I think of interacting with her today with that I took worried about my mate but more worried about what will today bring will and what it meant Bella scent expelling as it did.
It is sad that the mountain lion population is so stable. It makes my cuisine at the moment limited and bit bland. The rangers in the area blame the environment poaching and self-defense from hikers, when it is truly us preying on them so often. That I could not find one roaming near the town wilderness. However, I did take down a deer and a bear to satisfy my thirst and hopefully make today more bearable. For the raging inferno, and myself, which is known as my libido. That's harassing me like an unending war. Which now is seemingly almost relentless now from needing her. I do not think I could have lived with myself if I done something that reckless with Bella. Something I would feel more ashamed and regret then almost anything I have done in this life something we both would regret and she would hate me for, I rather not treat her as if she has no right in this much less, like choice in this doesn't matter.
I check my phone for the first time in two days' time does fly when you have fun as the saying goes
I mumble to myself at least sixteen messages from Alice, twenty from Edward, and one from everyone else at least all of them weren't voice mail or we have more issues then we know what to deal with. Including ruptured eardrums and excessively many guilt trips, that any being and can handled honest I am tired of going through guilt trips with Alice, who lays more tar down then all the roads in the of the united states. In the fifty years of knowing her, I think even if I have never found Bella I would've left Alice regardless. Either the whole thing about opposites attract does work short term but not in the end. Because opposite always clash and have nothing in common, nothing they can truly bond over. Moreover, true love has common interest and have a lot compromise which if not balance is pointless and doomed to disaster. The only ending for seeable is pointless heartache and sorrow. Between Alice and me, we have no mutual ground. We have separate interests and very different personality. Half the time I just suffer her whims in silence. It's easier to appease her then endlessly argue with her that I don't want to 'play' at the moment or I don't want eavesdrop on the humans in town.
I just hope going back to the house their explanation for what is going on with Bella. Moreover, why her scent seems to be coming to life all of a sudden. While it's potent all the time, why did her aroma seem to be stronger now out of nowhere? It was strong enough before but now it's tempting me like the fruit did to Adam and Eve or chocolate cake to a fat child on a diet. Almost seemingly impossible to resist even the smell alone is enough to make you cave, but I have more will power than this. He braced himself as he opens the door to the living room to find Bella throwing up into a trash can. It's a wonder we keep one at all much less in the living room even though we don't have much trash appearance is everything. Esme and Rosalie always say and she looked so fragile like the slight touch my break Bella what is wrong are you sick was it the meals yesterday did you get food poisoning? No Jasper nothing wrong I usually get like then during this time of month I forgot during the rush of the wedding what date it was and forgot to bring some precautionary measures. Then what she told made a lot sense. Making me even more embarrassed about what I want to do just a few hours ago even more horrify. Feeling so more shameful this is her time of need and someone to hold while she in a lot of pain that she has to face she going to need a lot help apparently she forgot a lot of her apparent precautions honestly I blame Edwards dazzle. I swear I still remember when we on the run from James now and then was the few time I have seen the real Bella be herself and be very lucid it's almost as if Edward dazzle has a suggestive message within to act a certain way to act completely helpless. Which for time she has been with me she has relentlessly proven she can take care of herself. She has proven she is not as clumsy as she claims. The times she tripped her have been like four times. For the most part would've tripped any person in the same scenarios we have been through for the last few days the curb the amusement park that guy that shoved her when we at the amusement park. Some nimrod spilled their soda near the water park side of the park I saw three other people almost slipped in the soda after her. There was an incident in the bathroom apparently where she almost broke her neck. The bathroom was like a disaster area of a mess. As if a sink exploded, there was water and toilet paper and soap everywhere. Luckily enough the next bathroom was stocked but not clean considering we were somewhere with lot of foot traffic no surprises. Looking back now half the time I wonder if the dazzle is literally causing her to lose her sense self-preservation and will to survive at all.
It's why mates don't actually exudes the dazzle pheromone (as I call it at least) towards there mate. Much less send out the pheromones out to random humans in a crowded place just to test for their mate in in such away. Imagine the massacre if a vampire decides to drain a crowded street utilizing dazzle to keep them placid enough to drain them all without too much fuss. There would be witnesses an investigation then finally witch-hunts. Since the Volturi took over almost a thousand years ago or so count Dracula being the most well published mating between human and vampire. As well the consequence of not hiding. The largest reason they took over to insure rules and order and consequences. When it comes to mating they just naturally happen like planets and their moon or the poles of a magnet it unavoidable. Regardless it's time to make the best of this and try. I think back to the day she was in the state of almost zombie like state. I could right there have said whatever I wanted said that I want to make amends for Edward's folly. Said I wanted to prove I was no danger to her by staying around her as close as possible. But to be honest if I had I would have been caught Alice would have seen with me Bella and told Edward so that shot that plan out of the water as quickly as it came to mind also the fact I'm still married to Alice. Though to be fair I'm not even sure our marriage is even considered valid any more. Since we lived with the Cullen's. We have had to fake our death somewhere in the realm of six or seven times to cover our tracks. Though it would be easier too recluse into the world and make ourselves seem to be homes schooled and not interact with humans at all we bring more attention to ourselves then needed be. I worry one day this country might take a sheet out of Brittan's books and put camera everywhere then the vampire already established here will need to go less developed countries. Speed or not they would pick up a patterns of deaths happen oddly in rainy cities or the fact that the cause are humans who seem very alike in beauty but different looking then the people they kill. Who can be seen somewhere really incredibly far away in a matter of moments and notice their no car their using. And honestly, by the time the Volturi realized that fact. Humanity would advance again to the point they will wipe us out with one fell swoop they will be too ignorant to realize it until the bodies are nothing but ash and cinders.
"Um Jasper I don't feel so well." I heard her call to me and I went to her almost floating to her just to see what she wanted. Trying to fight my desires for her was a testament to my will, though they call to me like a siren song. When I see her though my lecherous thoughts are the furthest thing from my mind she is almost see through pale and weak looking more than she does around Edward wrapped up in her blanket looking like she has the flu.
"What's wrong?"
I can't help but wonder in taking her to the amusement park was the best idea no she got the flu from the place.
"Um no I'm have women troubles."
Her face red, looking down, and I really have to think of what she meant but then I thought over this morning and now it becoming clear why I could smell her all over the house.
"Did you bring any precaution with you?"
"Not really, it's early and it tends to make really weak and fragile for the next three days." She was hunched over in pain looking like she wanted to throw up all over the floor and her feet. Do you want to come and get your stuff at the store I know you don't feel well but I don't want go myself and pick the wrong ones?
Final note: No, I'm not bashing Washington State on the site every other city besides Seattle has the same theme of things to do in the wilderness. Don't believe me look for yourself. If anything if Washington State did what New York State did I doubt people would dread living there. Make attractions like indoors museums. New York is rainy state but there is a lot you can do during the rain, even go out clubbing, go to a movie, and go to the museum. We got at least a hundred of them even our capital city Albany has a whole a lot of activity. When it is so subdued compared to New York City. I always say New York State has one more tourist attraction cities the other buffalo New York. This chapter went under some deep reconstruction seeing how big the last chapter was. The idea for this chapter was actually a thought I had during the story's canon but it never was answered I mean at all. I thought it would make a funny scene and scenario to explore.