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A/N: HI! Last chapter of this story:) Hope you enjoyed it! I'm also going to be posting a domestic!Jogan soon, so I hope you'll check it out!
CHAPTER 4
We planned the party. And made polite small-talk. And pretended. And lied to ourselves that the extent of our relationship was only a mutual friendship with Kelvin.
Everything was tense though. Tense and awkward and our conversations never lasted longer than absolutely necessary. We got to the point and left each other alone. Nothing else.
The night of the party came along and Kelvin was as surprised as we had expected. He laughed and smiled and kissed John. He never suspected a thing and that was exactly what we wanted.
I kept to myself mainly. After my agreement with John I hadn't been myself. I wasn't as alive as I had been. Wasn't myself. I did my part as the host but as soon as I could I made my way, unnoticed, to my bedroom to escape the crowd of people socialising in my house.
"Julian?".
"John. Is there something you need?", I needed to be alone. I was tired of lying and I just couldn't deal with him.
He stood in the doorway and looked uneasy, "No, I was just wondering where you were…", he was what? John wasn't supposed to wonder about where I was. He seemed to remember this and tried to rectify his previous words, "Uh… Kelvin was asking about you.".
I let his slip-up pass and answered, "I'm just a little tired. I'll come out again in a while.". He needed to leave. John didn't leave his boyfriend's surprise party and his boyfriend to come and speak to his boyfriend's best friend who he had only met a couple of months ago.
"Okay…", he turned to go before changing his mind suddenly and striding into my room and towards where I was standing by my bed.
"I can't do this Julian. I can't keep on lying about us to everyone out there", he pointed in the direction of my living room where the party continued, "I miss you Jules. And I want to be Logan again.".
I shook my head at him. First of all, he was standing way too close to me. Secondly, he and I had made an agreement that he would be John and I would be Kelvin's best friend and we wouldn't talk about anything past the weather and maybe Kelvin.
"You can't do this John. We have an agreement. You agreed to this.".
"I DIDN'T WANT TO!", he fisted his hands together to keep from shaking me by my shoulders.
"Stop it John. You can't change things now. Now go out there and be Kelvin's perfect, loving boyfriend and forget that you ever had these thoughts.".
He was silent as he stared at me with fury and I could almost see him shaking with the effort it took him not to scream and swear at me. Until suddenly he broke and the old Logan took my face in his hands and roughly smashed our lips together.
The kiss was passionate and angry and as much as I wanted to push him away, the love of my life was pushing me down onto the bed and I was helpless to my release of a multitude of emotions.
I was completely at his mercy until I felt his hands struggling with my belt and I was ripped out of my euphoric haze and forced back into the real world.
"Stop.", I pushed against his bare chest (when had our shirts come off anyway?), "Get off me John.".
"Jul-", he moved away from me and sat on the opposite side of the bed while trying to speak but I cut him off and said in a uncompromising voice, "No John. This is wrong. Your boyfriend, my best friend, is in the next room and you love him. You got your pent-up anger out, now go back to Kelvin and forget this ever happened.".
He still looked angry so clearly he hadn't released all of his pent-up fury, "But you love me!".
My face gave nothing away, "I had feelings for Logan. He's not around anymore and you aren't him. You made a decision, now stick with it.".
I moved away from the bed, put my shirt back on and left John in my room before he could argue.
The party ended and I didn't see anything more of John. Later, Kelvin told me he had left and a part of me relaxed because it meant not having to deal with anymore drama for a while. Especially when the party was over and he and I no longer had any reason to talk to each other, other than a few words around Kelvin.
Two weeks passed and I thought I might have a chance to properly forget the incident with John at the party when out of the blue there was a knock on my door one Friday night and when I opened the door I found none other than John Wright standing on my doorstep.
"What do you want John? You need to leave, you know you shouldn't be here.". My exasperation was extremely evident.
"We need to talk.", his voice was odd. Not John-like at all.
"No we don't. Go away.".
He pushed past me and strode into my house, "This is important.".
"What is it? Hurry up and tell me so that you can leave.", I shut the front door and followed him into the living room where he turned around to face me.
"I told Kelvin.", he began and gave me no time to take in his words before continuing, "I told him about Logan. Who he is, his history with you and your confession during the fire… And what happened at his surprise party.".
My eyes widened in anger and shock, "What the hell?! Why the fuck would you do that?".
"I also broke up with him.".
I sat down heavily on the couch and put my head in my hands.
"Why?", I asked, looking back up at him.
"Because I am done with John. And lying and keeping secrets. I'm setting things straight and I'm here tell you exactly what's going to happen from now on.". His voice sounded like Logan: forceful and unwilling to change. I kept quiet and waited to listen on.
"I'm Logan, I'm in love with you, I'm asking you to forgive me for what I put you through in the past few months and to make up for everything, I'm taking you to dinner tomorrow night and afterwards I'm going to ask you to be my boyfriend and hopefully you'll say yes because you can still find some of those old feelings you told me about in that fire. And then I'm going to kiss you.".
I stared at him in disbelief. And when the shock subsided I gave a small smile, "Sounds like a plan, Lo. But I can think of a better one… one where you just skip to the kissing-me part right now.".
And when I felt his lips on mine, I knew for sure that John was never coming back.
A/N: Wow! For a while I kind of thought I would never end up finishing this story but thank goodness I pushed through and forced myself to sit down and write because it's kind of become my favourite of my Jogan stories. Thanks so much for reading! Let me know what you thought: ) – Cloey van Zyl