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Staying Strong
Ianthe's words that were expected to be hurtful and vile helped me more than she imagined. As I looked at my reflection I could see the differences in my body, my face, my eyes. I could see the dark circles returning, the weight I gained back with Rhysand slowly vanishing from my body. The darkness of the old me was returning but this time it was faster and stronger. The depression that took weeks of isolation and pain was coming back within a week. I knew it was there, I could feel every inch of it in my body, reclaiming its once owned possession over me. I wanted to let it continue, maybe even drift off enough to let it finish its work and finish me. The joy and happiness that my heart was once full of, becoming scarce before my eyes. If I didn't make a change I would never see my home again, my friends again, but most important of all - I would never see my mate again. My love, the one who has made more sacrifices for me than I could imagine, "the things I love have a tendency to be taken away from me" were the words he once spoke to me. My love, the one who has made more sacrifices for me than I could imagine, "the things I love have a tendency to be taken away from me" were the words he once spoke to me. He allowed himself to love me, to care for me, if I didn't make it through this it would break him. If I couldn't find a way to push out the darkness for myself, I would do it for Rhysand. I would fight for him, my mate. For him I would endure any pain or suffering, I can have the strength to fight Tamlin and this war. I will not be the next thing to be taken way from Rhysand. I will not drift away from him, for him I will continue. The next morning I awoke feeling new and empowered. I didn't have to force myself out of bed, I had the power and strength to get through the day.
I allowed Alis to dress me in a dress of bright pink and style my hair as she used to. I walked out of my room to the new sentinels that were ordered to follow me everywhere I went. Instead of feeling anger, I felt happiness. If Tamlin wanted the old me back, he would get it in full force. I arrived at the breakfast table the same time as Lucien and Tamlin, both were quiet with the happenings of last night. I walked over to Tamlin who looked at my with a surprised look as I whispered into his ear
"I'm sorry about last night, I don't know what happened to me. I want to make things right between us, just like they used to be."
As I said this, even though his touch burned my fingers - I slid my hand over his thigh and didn't stop until I was close to his hip. I could feel the heat in his body rise, and with a small smile and nod of agreement - any suspicions vanished instantly. With the way he looked at me for the rest of breakfast I could tell my plan worked. I smiled as I looked at him, even though it pained me to do so I continued my act knowing that if I did not, I could lose any chance of getting Rhysand back.
As I walked away from the table I sent a feeling down the bond to Rhysand, with an immediate response I quickly walked back to my room. I found a piece of paper saying just 3 words,
I miss you
The paper vanished in an instant and within seconds I had a response of
I miss you too
I wanted to be with him, have him inside of me. But at the moment anytime with him was a fantasy, I was beginning to write my response when I heard Tamlin's footsteps. The paper vanished from my hands and I quickly walked to the door and stepped outside into the hallway. it was hard to hide the disgust from my, but instead of focusing on the hatred I have for Tamlin I channeled all my energy into making him believe that I was like the old me. I took a few steps toward him to the point where my breasts were slightly touching his chest, I could feel his urge and desire as I pushed my body closer to him. He slid his arms around my waist and back and pulled me closer to him. I took his moment of weakness and slipped past his mental shields into a whole new world of Tamlin. I was instantly filled with every thought Tamlin had at the moment, every question he had, every desire he wanted. I gripped his mind with my power and fully controlled him. I put a story in his mind of what he wanted to happen, I created every detail that he would fantasize about later inside and sent him away with thought dreaming of me.
If Tamlin wanted me to be this poor inosent little wife he had before, he was going to get the exact oposite.