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Matt was waiting by the hospital to pick Gabby up. They were going to the beach again tonight and have dinner there. He was flying home in four days and even though they had talked a little bit 2 days ago. They both still struggled talking with each other about their problems. It made him worry that even when he was going home in 4 days. Maybe they had still not resolved their problems. He was scared since she had still a few more months left here they would struggle again. When he was going home they had to talk through text and phone calls, and he had no idea what that was going to mean for them.
She should be almost done with her shift now and he expected her to come walking out any minute now. Hopefully they would talk some more tonight.
He had finished the house today with his group and they were starting a new one tomorrow. Even though he would not see the end result, he was still excited to keep helping them for a few more days.
Even though he was still sad how this had made things go bad between him and Gabby, he was still proud of the work she did. He also fully understood how much this meant to her now. It made him feel like he was doing something really worthwhile and he figured she felt the same.
Finally, she came walking out of the hospital and got in the car. Giving him a quick kiss on her cheek, they gave each other a small smile. Even though they had not seen each other yesterday because they had both been busy, they were excited to see each other now.
''how was your shift?''
''It was good, really starting to feel at home here in the hospital.''
''That is good to hear – just, I hope you will come to Chicago someday.'' Matt said as he was looking out in front of him, but Gabby saw the worry in his face anyway.
''Matt –''
''I just hope that you don't stay here…because I will still be waiting for you.'' He admitted.
''I am still on for 4 more months anyway.'' She chuckled, and he nodded.
''Yeah.''
The rest of the car drive to the beach was silent. He was glad to see her, but he really was scared that things would still go wrong in those 4 months. She had already changed a lot here, and he would be sitting around waiting for her. But a this point he was also not sure if it was worth it because of how he felt in the marriage.
He had taken some wine for her as well and they sat down in the sand, enjoying dinner and she was enjoying the wine as well.
The sunset was not as pretty as the time they had been here before, but it was still nice to share together. She enjoyed the food that he had taken and it was nice they sat here alone with the two of them in the quiet.
''I was thinking yesterday, you really enjoy the contracting for charity, right? No chance you want to stay or do some work here too. Would give us some more time to work things out.'' Gabby carefully started the conversation.
He was silent for a minute, overthinking his answer. Before they had blurted things out, so he did not want to say something he would later regret.
''Gabby – I have given up a lot of things for you before. That is what a relationship is and I would give up a lot for you again, but I really love my job. I just got promotion and I am not ready do sacrifice the title of captain.
She nodded, disappointed. But she was also understanding. She was passionate about this and she could see why his job meant a lot for him. He had worked so hard on it for years.
''I few chose to continue – which I still really want – we need to find a way to get through the last four months.'' Matt said, firmly on his standpoint he was not going to give up his job.
''I understand. You could always come by for a week again.''
''Yeah.'' He said a bit disappointed that she was not ready either to come over a few days to Chicago. He knew that a lot of the relief workers would come home for a few days, and she was not even talking about it now.
After a while, it was starting to get dark and they got back in the car and he drove to the apartment she was staying. With half of the trip over and done and still a lot more to talk about, he was getting a bit worried about the future. Even thought he kept telling himself not to worry about it and see what way it went he still worried. He loved her so much with all his heart and thinking that they might be over if he went home, it made him so scared.
He walked with her to the door and shared a really short kiss.
''Will see you tomorrow.''
'yeah, not that many days left.'' He said a bit worried.
Maybe he would go home and they still hadn't talked it all out, or were still not sure about their relationship.
''Better make the best of those days.'' She smiled and walked inside then.
A bit worried again, Matt walked back to his car. He was about to get in when the door of the apartment Gabby stayed opened.
''Matt?'' She asked as she walked back out again. He was almost at the car, just opening the door to get in.
''Yeah?'' He asked walking back, nervous what she was coming back for. Maybe she was telling him that it was not going to work a tall after their awkward dinner and talk in the car.
''My roommate brought somebody home – probably that guy from the surgery staff- I can't go into my room.
''You can come with me if you want.'' Matt offered.
She doubted, for almost a minute, Matt just looking at her. She knew he was not forcing her and she did not feel forced at all. Even though eh was her husband she was still a bit worried about staying the night with him. They hadn't even talked everything out and she was not sure if sleeping together was going to solve their problems now.
Looking at Matt, she did feel butterflies in her stomach. They had shared the bed so many times before and she missed it. They had always been compatible in that aspect of their love life and she really missed it. He knew exactly what to do to make her feel wanted and loved.
''I will come with you.'' She said then and he took her hand as they walked back to the car. In his mind, this was a clear path of coming back together again as well.
He drove back to the hotel, a bit nervous to share the night again with his wife. It was something he had been looking forward to again. But he was just nervous now. Things were not perfect between them yet and he was worried that it would only make it worse.
Parking by the motel, they walked inside his room.
He felt ashamed he had not cleaned up, but he had not expected that she was going to come here tonight.
''it's a mess here.'' Gabby also stated, walking into the room and looking at all the empty beer cans and the clothe son the floor.
''I have not really been around here.'' Matt said a bit annoyed as she was immediately telling him what he was doing wrong again. She started folding some of his clothes as he was making a drink.
''You really don't need to do that.'' He said then as he didn't feel comfortable with her doing that.
''It must be a mess home too.'' She said a bit teasing.
''It is. You saw the last time it felt I lost the person I love most.'' He said, referencing the mess she had found him in when Hallie had died. It was not something he really thought of a lot, but when he ha d bene, with her, he had thought about how loved he had felt when she had come to help him out.
She had really helped him get his lives together and he could still barely understand that she was also the one to make all the sense in his life go away again.
''I am sorry Matt.''
''I guess I have to clean up when I get home.'' He just said as he handed her the drink.''
They just sat up on the bed, up against the headboard and having their drinks. After a while, Matt wanted to say something, but he had no clue what to say anymore.
Her hand was on his upper leg now and made its way up. Looking at her husband, she really wanted to be with him again, and sleeping together was easier than having to worry about talking and emotions. She hoped this would bring them closer, exactly the reason she had lied about her roommate.
''Gabby-'' He said softly. Evne though he really wanted to, he was not sure if she was only doing it because she felt she had to.
''You don't want to-?''
''We don't need to do this Gabby.'' He assured her as he wanted to get up from the bed the bed but she came closer then.
''Matt – to be honest, one of the best parts of our relationship has always been the make-up sex when we fought.''
''I guess so.'' He admitted, and he caressed over her jaw. They looked aside, both sad that they had to admitted that this had happened more than once.
He really wanted to, but he still felt hurt and he was scared about ruining things between them.
Looking at Gabby, she was so beautiful, and he had missed her so much.
They wrapped their arms around each other, kissing and making out. Rolling over the bed, they both held the bodies against that they had missed to much. It was strange yet so familiar.
Before they been gentle, slow. They had been tender, but this time they were so angry about everything, and there were so many emotions for the both of them. Instead of tender, they were fierce and passionate.
Making out, they started undressing each other.
It was almost like they crawled in each other's skin again. It all made sense again between the two of them for a little bit. Feeling like they didn't have to breath, didn't have to think, they finally felt like the married couple they were again.
As they were done, they fell back down on the bed, panting. So much of the stress was gone.
They laid together between the sheets. Gabby was falling asleep and he was caressing through her hair, not sure what to think about what had just happened.
Even though they had had a great night together, they were both worried that just relieving stress was not going to save their marriage.
Even though everything had been okay for a few minutes, neither for them were sure what the future for them would bring.
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