Chapter 4

Ian Evans. He Likes Me. He Likes Me Not? Make Up Your Mind.

"Kristie. I need to tell you something. Please listen and I'll understand if you don't want to talk to me again after this."

He sounded so silly! Why wouldn't I want to talk to him? I made up a list of about fifteen reasons why I love him. Now if that doesn't say I'm madly in love with you...then what does?

"Where I come from...it's a dangerous world. You don't want to get involved with me. Please learn to accept that fact."

"No. Ian, I really want to be friends with you. Really." Well...more than a friend.

"Kristie," he sounded mad at this point, "I'm not safe. Where I come from, we can hurt you beyond what you call pain. I could easily kill you if I hugged you a wrong way. I'm not a social person around humans. That's why my three brothers, and two sisters always sit and talk to just each other. We don't know what will happen if we ever made contact with anyone but ourselves."

"Um. I'm not following you on this." I was confused beyond what I could comprehend at this point.

"Kristie Hamilton," he was definitely mad at this point, "I'm not safe. Never was. Never will be. Kristie. I'm not human. But I'm not a killer, I'm just not what I was when I first started out. I'm not alive in a normal human sense. I mean I have a heart, and it still beats, but its been beating for far to long now. It's like I'm brain dead...only walking. My blood is deceased, my eyes are not a normal shade. Nothing is normal about me. I'm not fully human, I'm not animal, but I am fully....vampire. I wont kill you, I wont eat you, I'm not safe to be around though. I can't do this if I know that you will wind up dead because of me. Kristie, I really like you. More than a friend, and trust me on that. It's to dangerous to be around me unprotected though. I just cant anymore."

"Ian. If you believed that I would be scared. I'm not. In fact I suspected something very different from you in the start. You have gold eyes, that look like they could turn black. Your pale. More pale than most people could think. Your hair. Its gorgeous, but no one has this shade of blonde anymore. Your body shape, amazing, but not normal for humans. I've done research, no one knows what I thought about you. What you told me, matches the description perfectly. Ian Evans. Half man. Fully vampire. Kristie Hamilton. Fully human. Totally confused. And completely in love." Oh. My. God. Did I really just say that out loud. If he could blush, he'd be redder than me on any day.

"In love?" He looked like he was expecting everything I expected. And he fell in love with me, just the way I fell in love with him.

Blushing so much... "Yea. After you NEVER talked to me, I became more and more into you because it would give me something to hope for in my life."

"Can't say I don't blame you." He laughed. I grimaced. "I knew you were going to say this speech though." Told ya. Knew it all along. "Well for one, you keep your mind occupied on one thing most of the time. If it's a bio test, or how hot you think I am," amazing smile...God I could get used to that, "I know what your going to say, when, and where. I can only read certain minds. My father said its only the mind of my true love that I can read. And you're the first person's mind I can read. But I can see the future for mostly anyone. Including myself matter-of-fact. I saw myself coming here today, having this discussion, and," he left off, he looked to embarrassed to tell me. Silly Ian.

"And?" I prompted him. It seemed to be working most of the time. At least he got past his "episode" now to be honest, that scared me half to death, more than spiders scare me...and that is more than anything.

"Well...its kinda embarrassing to tell" He sounded ashamed to even tell me.

"Please Ian! Please Ian? For me? I'll leave you alone for however long you want if you just tell me."

"That's the problem," he said getting closer "I don't want to be away from you anymore. I can't take my life having to ignore someone for so long, that I'm in love with." Ending with that, he kissed me in the sweetest way, a light, but romantic kiss, that he held that seemed like forever, but only lasted a few seconds. Of course I came out blushing, and he came out smiling.

"Go to sleep Kristie. You need it. Trust me."

"But..." I couldn't finish, he kissed me just like before, but it seemed to get better.

"No but, sleep. Whenever you decide to wake up in your dreams, I'll be right over. Faster than you can imagine."

"Fine." Just like I said in the hospital yesterday, and I drifted off in a sleep that only brought great joy and comfort. Dreaming of Ian. I knew this was the right relationship for me to be in. It worked out today, lets just hope that it will work out for forever. All I want. Ian. Forever. Together.