Author's Note: Hi guys! Here is Chapter 4, as promised! I really hope you all enjoy. The response to this story has been so amazing, I love hearing you guys' thoughts! There are some people that seem to think, that I am not a McSwarek. I promise guys, I am a McSwarek through and through. I have faith they will pull through this season. ;)
Jelly Bean Jenna, is my new partner. I cannot thank her enough for the work that she has put into this chapter and the rest of the story from here on out. I really hope you guys enjoy!

DISCLAIMER:

I DO NOT OWN ROOKIE BLUE, OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS. SIMPLY A FAN OF THE SHOW, AND SAM AND ANDY.

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Immeasurable time spent wrapped around each other made time drift by forcing it to became inconsequential as Sam and Andy sat together lost in the moment.
Andy's fully fledged crying had seeped away and became sniffs as she regained some composure. Andy seemed to lose herself and let Sam close enough to
comfort her until reality set in and she realized that she was sitting wrapped up in his arms.
Her eyes snapped to meet his gaze before she shrugged out of his grasp and pulled away, eventually finding her feet and standing before Sam with an
anxious expression on her face.

"What are you doing here Sam?"

Andy's tone is harsh as the words come out and her hand scatters across her cheek to wipe away the last few tears that stain them. She whirls around,
unwilling to let him see the signs of her weakness as she wipes them away, her back now facing Sam as she tries to block him from her mind.

"Andy.."

"No, what are you doing here? Nick told you didn't he? That's the only reason you would be out here looking for me. You feel bad. I don't need your pity, and I
don't need you to hold my hand and coddle me."

Her words sting, they come out cold and make her sound distant.

"Andy, I know you're upset but I am not here to fight with you. I'm just.."
"You're what? Worried about me? Afraid I'm going snap? Fall over the edge? Please Sam you've never really been worried about me before. Don't start now,
just because some girl I tried to help had her brains blown to shit. What was it that you said 'you have to accept that we can't save them all?"

"Yeah, but this wasn't just some girl you took care of her like she was your own, loved her like she was your own.. " Sam starts to reason with Andy, but she
wasn't about to let him so she cuts him off and says "It uh, sounds like you have everything figured out detective, like you've solved the puzzle."

This time when she spoke, Andy turned around to face him, her eyes lacking the display of any emotion at all.

"But... you don't know everything. You don't know howI was supposed to take care of her, keep her safe. You don't know that I promised her, we would make
it out of the hell hole we were in together" Andy's voice was barely a whisper, but even so it still broke under the emotion she felt.
"You don't know the look of sheer terror she gave me before she died. You weren't there, when I silently promised that everything would be okay. YOU
WEREN'T THERE. SO DON'T ACT LIKE YOU KNOW A GODDAM THING, JUST BECAUSE SOMEOME TOLD YOU, AND YOU NOW HAVE SECOND HAND INFORMATION!"

Since she had come home, Sam had seen the difference in her, he just had no idea until now that it had effected her so deeply. Witnessing it first hand made
him shudder.

"Andy, this wasn't your fault. What happened to Lillianna wasn't your fault. She knows you loved her."

"Sam, shut up. Okay, just shut up. I don't need your regurgitated bullshit. That isn't going to fix what happened, it isn't going to make me feel better. Do me a
favor, just leave, I want you to leave."

"I'm sorry Andy, but I'm not going anywhere. Not until, we talk."

"Talk? Talk about what Sam? Jesus. I thought everything had been said between us, what more do you want from me? I can't keep doing this pulling and
tugging between us. You broke up with me remember?! In a fucking parking lot. Then you make all of these promises to me, and I come home to see that
you're in a relationship…"

"Andy don't. I don't want to fight. That's why I'm here. I'm tired of the two of us constantly at war. I feel like if it can't be love, if we can't be in love, then It's
war. I don't want that anymore."

"What are you saying? You wanna be my Friend?"
"Please Sam, if you think we can be friends you're a bigger fool then I thought."

"Jesus Christ Andy. Stop!"

"No, you stop! You stop trying to button up all that we are, that we were with that stupid cliché! God, do you know how insulting that is for me?! Us being
"friends"? I don't want to be your friend Sam, I can't just be your friend. When are you going to understand that? What we are and what we had, can't be
summed up into one lousy shit word. You summing us up like that, is a slap in the face, because it's like I never meant anything to you."

"You're friends with Luke and you were engaged before he cheated on you, so I think we can be. You're just pissed off because you didn't get your way." Sam
could tell that he hit a nerve saying that, it also made her anger escalate a little as her face flashed with red.

"Go to hell." Was her response.

"I'll meet you there". The words slipped out before he could stop them, but he really didn't mean them.
"Andy, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it."

"No, you seem to have it all figured out. You want to know why I'm friends with Luke, I'll tell you why. I never loved Luke. I mean I did, but I wasn't in love with
him. It was always you. I loved Luke as a friend. That's it, and I will admit how stupid I was to say yes to his proposal, knowing full well that I wasn't in love
with him. But you scared the hell out of me. You were everything I wasn't, you saw things with a whole new perspective and did things I would never in a
million years think about doing. That scared the hell out of me, so I ran. That is why I can be friends with Luke, that's why his betrayal with Jo didn't really hurt,
because I didn't really love him that way. My history with Luke can be summed up in one lousy shit word, because he isn't you."

Sam was utterly shocked by her declaration.

"Andy, she isn't you…"

"Sam, that doesn't make me feel any better! That does nothing for me, to be honest with you it's an even bigger insult than wanting to be friends because I
don't know if that is a good or bad thing. If it's a good thing, then why are you with her, and not with me?Or are you saying that she isn't me because she isn't
complicated, and the whole concept of "we" isn't complicated? Either way Sam, that little declaration you just made is shit. So, I can't be your friend, we can't
be friends. I can be your colleague but that's it. Nothing more. It's too hard. I'm done fighting, I know when the odds are against me, and when to walk away.
Goodbye Sam".

Just as fresh tears made their presence known, Andy turned and walked away, her feet sinking into the sand of the beach as she left him staring after her.
They had made it almost to the shoreline while their argument played out, Andy walking away and Sam following.
Sam watched her go, he just didn't have the strength to chase after her right now and rehash all of the ugly words that had been carelessly thrown around.
After watching her disappear into the distance, Sam's feet found themselves standing in front of his truck in the parking area. He had walked back up here
without even being focused on actually doing it.
He looked around the parking lot and saw no other vehicles, although there were a few people milling around on foot.
"Damnit" Sam said as he slammed his hand down on the roof of his tuck when his patience finally gave way and his anger flourished.

He was angry with himself because even though she had ordered him away, he couldn't leave her here.
Retracing his steps back down to the beach, Sam set out in the direction that he had seen Andy walk in. He was at least hoping that she'd let him take her
home instead of leaving her out here alone.
Sam scanned the faces of the few people he passed as he walked, none of them remotely close to resembling the one that he was searching for. But it kept
him determined to find her, just to make sure that she was okay.
He'd walked for some time, letting his mind aimlessly wonder as his shoes filled with sand. And still, Andy was just missing.

When Sam was least expecting it, he heard Andy's laugh carry out over the soft rolling silence as she let it free.
He could tell that she was close by, he just couldn't see her yet.
Spinning around in a wide circle, Sam finally found her. Her hair billowed slightly in the breeze that had come up, and her head was titled slightly to the side as
she listened intently to some guy that had completely captivated her attention.
Andy's feet sank into the sand as she fled across the beach seeking solace anywhere but here.
She had known for a while that things would reach this point with Sam, she just never expected it to be while she was free falling towards rock bottom.

She sensed that he wasn't following, a breath sighed out in relief that he was giving her space right now.

The light breeze that had picked up was refreshing, the smell of salt carried across the sand from the water.
She loved coming out here, until now. Now it had become a place scarred with misery.
Andy felt something brush against her leg, the sudden feeling making her jump and let out a shriek as she was pulled from her harsh thoughts.

"SPOT!"
As Andy jumped and tried to scramble away she looked down to find a huge Labrador next to her legs as it circled her playfully. It made her burst into a fit of
giggles, she'd been scared by an overgrown puppy.

"I am so sorry."

Andy noticed the voice again to find that it belonged to a face that was smiling like it was not really sorry.
"It's okay" Andy let her hand find the dog's head as he kept weaving around her seeking attention.

"He doesn't normally do that" the voice repeated as the face under a mop of dark hair flushed.

"It's okay, he's just being friendly" Andy said, both hands now rubbing around the dogs ears and under his chin.
As Andy pulled her hands away, the dog leapt up and pushed her over with its unexpected weight causing her to effectively tumble over and sit on her ass in
the sand.

"SPOT!"

The owner moved closer and hooked the dogs leash through its collar before pulling it away from Andy. "Sit! Please?"
The owner sounded like this was all new to him.
He held out his hand and helped Andy up, her face turning scarlet as she dusted herself off.
"He's still a pup, and I'm trying to train him but, that's not really working out".

"So you named him Spot?" Andy giggled out.

The stranger nodded, "Bob just wasn't working for him". It sent Andy into another fit of giggles.

"I'm Andy". Andy said holding her hand out for the stranger to shake.

Sam stood watching the exchange in the distance, everything screaming that the scene unfolding in front of his eyes was all wrong.
The dog was lapping up the attention that Andy was showing it, the guy soon following as Sam saw him look Andy up and down.
That was a gut-grinding moment.
Sam watched as Andy tumbled over before the stranger bent down and held out his hand to help her up.
The entire ten minute exchange made life feel surreal as Sam watched another guy be where he was, doing what he wanted to be doing; complete with a dog
and all.

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Authors Note: I hope you guys enjoyed! Let me know what you all thought. I can't wait to hear! Chapter 5 is already in the works! Have a great day, and thank you all for all of the support!-EJAMI-SANDY13