Hey Everyone- I know this chapter is A LOT Shorter than the other's but I promise I'm working on something good. I really just needed to post this little chapter. I'm going to try to post 1 chapter a week and in the end of December at least 2-3 a week! PLEASE REVIEW AND COMMENT! THANKS!

Finding My Way- Acceptance

With a stronger voice he stands, "Lux? What are you doing here?" and questions.

His beautiful blonde hair and blue eyes like the ocean are looking at me with curiosity and with more questions in them than I can answer right now. In my head my thought was just to get here. Just to see him, I didn't have a plan after that. I didn't play the 'what if' game in my head. What if he'd moved on? What if he was married? What if he didn't live here anymore?- well clearly I didn't consider this one but that seems irrelevant now that he's standing in front of me right now. With all of these thoughts and words that I can't process right now I don't know what to do, I don't know how to respond to him, I don't know how to answer his questions.

I want to tell him I came here for him; I want to tell him that in the past 6 years I thought about him every day, that I still love him, that I want his help.

I look him in the eyes and open my mouth to speak and I can't find my voice, I can't respond to his question and I close it again.

"Lux, are you ok?" Allison ask's. Eric looks at her as if she's grown 2 heads. "You know Lux?"

They continue on with their discussion excluding me for the moment and for that I'm thankful. I need to process whats going on here. He's married. I say it in my head again, he's married. I feel as if a knife is being thrusted into my heart. I want to break down right here, I want to run away but I can't, I came here for this. I came here for him. I pull myself out of my world to hear them.

"Yes, Michael was pulling on her Eeyore key chain earlier" as she points my purse. He looks back at me says "Eeyore" in a quiet voice. I look in his eyes and I can see all of the conflicted emotions of 6 years ago rising to the surface and are now being displayed in his eyes. I hold up my key chain attached to my purse and simply say in a quiet voice "Eeyore."

Were staring at each other for several moments before his wife, god I can't get used to saying that, his WIFE Allison pulls us out of our staring contest, "How do you two know each other?" looking back and forth between us.

Eric starts to open his mouth and so do I, and for the first time I can answer a question "We met in Portland. A Lifetime ago" and with as much courage as I can must I turn to Eric "You have a beautiful family, It was nice seeing you again." I smile, turn towards the door and walk.

I can't turn around, I won't turn around. I keep repeating to myself, knowing that if I don't I'm going to betray myself and do it anyway. I reach the door and open it, I look back and he's holding a sleeping little boy in his arms looking at me. In his eyes I see the same sadness in them 6 years ago when he was forced to walk away from me because Cate and Baze wouldn't allow it. I turn back to the door and continue walking out knowing that whatever I was looking for from Eric Allister Daniels is no longer possible.