Happy weekend everyone!

Hope everyone has had a good week. Mine was going well until I got sick yesterday. I'm sure it was caused by stress from my family/personal life. But that's a tale for antoher time.

How's everyone doing on their brackets? Has anyone already ripped theirs up and cursed the basketball gods yet? I don't do brackets anymore because I just got so frusterated with them and always failed. But that defintely doesn't stop me from enjoying the basketball goodness from March Madness.

To everyone one else how's the beginning of your spring going? Of course yesterday, the wether had to remind us that we live in Ohio and snowed. Yes, it snowed on the first day of spring. I'm pretty sure my boyfriend and I will be looking somewhere new and warmer to move once he finishes school.

Lastly, if anyone posts a review, either anonymously or not, please make it about the story that I wrote. Also, please make sure that if it is a criticism, that it is at least constructive and helpful. If you don't like the story or would rather have something else happen, then I encourage you to start writing your own story. See if you have a new passion and if not, maybe just a hobby.

Now onwards!


APOV

"Leah!" he yelled back running towards her. He picked her up in a bit hug and spun her around.

I told you, you should've ran, my mind told me as my heart shut up. Just leave now, you wouldn't want to intrude on their time together, I thought sadistically to myself. Slowly, I made my way over to them to let them know I was going leave, though I'm not sure what compelled me to even do that when I barely knew them. At least my mom would be happy with my manners.

"Oh my God, Leah, I missed you. What made you come back?"

"Just felt like I should," she shrugged before she hugged him again.

"Yeah, well, whatever the reason, I'm glad that you did."

"I guess I am too," she smiled at him and then glanced over his shoulder over at me sizing me up again. "Was I interrupting something?" she asked, after a short pause and cocking an eyebrow. Definitely his girlfriend. Why else should she be looking at me like that?

"No," I answered quickly, "I was just leaving." I started to walk away awkwardly giving them a small wave bye.

"But I thought I was going to make up for knocking you over?" I stopped to look back at him. He looked at me confused and a bit sad that I was suddenly leaving. But why would he be sad if he has his girlfriend there with him?

"I'll take a rain check."

"Are you sure?" he asked with an sadness in his tone that gave away more than his face, as he took a step towards me. I almost took a step towards him as well, but made my feet stay where they were.

"Yeah, but thanks anyway," my voice cracked as my sadness started to become apparent. At that time I couldn't tell you why I was feeling sad and emotional about having to leave. But either way, I couldn't help but keep the emotion held in. The bigger question was why was I so sad leaving someone I barely knew, who has a girlfriend and he's probably too old for me?

Because you love him. Stay, my heart said stpidly.

Shut up he has a girlfriend and she needs to go, my mind argued.

Then why does he look so sad?

He might just be a nice guy and feels bad about not making it up to her.

Shut up both of you! I yelled internally. I need help, I keep arguing with myself.

"Oh…okay…bye," I saw his face completely fall. Leah just looked between both of us confused. If she knew what I really felt she would probably try to kill me for flirting with her boyfriend. And the worst part is that she looked like she could. She was very beautiful, but it was the deadly kind of beauty. She could look like she could walk a runway one second and the next a evil she-demon will emerge and rip you a new ass hole. Even the way she stood was casual and relaxed, yet you could tell by the look in her eyes that she was one of the last people you ever want to mess with.

With that I started to run back home wanting to forget about today, about how my heart skipped a beat when I saw him. How it felt when our skin touched. How I loved to have his arms around me. How it hurt when he ran to Leah and especially…Wait! I stopped dead in my tracks. I never got his name. Well whoever he is I'm going to forget about him. It's going to be easier since he has no name.

When I got home I ran into the house and shut the door. I turned to run upstairs to get away, but I then ran into someone else causing them to fall back on the ground as I stumbled back into the door.

"Alison, what did I tell you about running into the house?" my mom asked coming from around the corner.

"I'm sorry mom. Let me help you up," I said as I helped up the second person I ran into today off the ground.

"Sue, this is my daughter, Alison, I told you about," my mom said gesturing to me.

"Oh, nice to meet you. I'm Sue Clearwater. I live a couple houses down."

"Nice to meet you Mrs. Clearwater," I said shaking her hand.

"Just call me Sue. Your mother was right, you are beautiful. I see that you're a perfect combination of your mother and father."

"Thank you. You look very lovely too," I said politely.

"Thank you dear, but I know I'm starting to look old," she laughed. "How old are you?"

"17."

"I have a son that's the same age. What grade will you be in?"

"I'll be a junior."

"Tess, you didn't tell me that she's the same age and grade as Seth."

"I'm sorry Sue," my mom said apologetically. But she knew I wasn't big on meeting anyone new, at least not that way.

"Well you'll like him," Sue said turning back to me. "Oh, its okay, I don't mean like that." What I was thinking must have been apparent on my face. "But if you need help with getting to know people I'm sure Seth would help."

"Thanks, I'll remember that."

"Well I have to get going. But make sure you remember the cookout at my house the day before school starts."

"Will do," my mom responded.

"Bye. Nice to meet you, Alison," she said leaving.

"Nice to meet you too, Sue."

When she left my mom turned to me looking down at my hands.

"What happened to you iPod? We just got that for you."

"I know. I fell during my run and it broke. Don't worry it's still under warranty so I can get a new one."

"Okay. You okay sweetie?" she asked in a motherly tone as she tucked a piece of hair behind my ear. My mom knew me too well. Even if I was acting happy she always knew.

"I just need to clear my head. I'm going to be taking a shower. Actually, I'm going to take a bath," I said starting to walk upstairs.

"That bad huh?"

"You have no idea."

"I hope, no, I know you'll figure it out. But if you need help I'm always here for you."

"Thanks mom," I really meant it. I hate how she can read me so easily, but love that I know she won't pry. She lets me come to her on my own time instead of just butting into my life. She actually tried that approach, but found out quickly that just waiting for me would is the best.

When I got to my room I closed the door and headed into the en suite bathroom. Though it might seem a bit odd, but I always took a shower before a bath. I just found it weird to be sitting in a tub full of dirty water trying to relax, then again I guess what I do could be called weird.

Anyways, when I was done with my shower I filled my tub up as full as I could with as many bubbles as I could and sat in the perfectly warm water trying to clear my mind. I closed my eyes as I listened to music coming from my phone.

As I sat there with just the soft music coming from my speakers, I started to rethink my day, mostly my encounter with Mr. Nameless. I was still wondering why I felt drawn to him even now. I well, part of me, which I tried to make sure it stayed a small part, wanted to get out of my bath, get dressed and go see if he was still at the beach. He said there was a bonfire down there. But would that be the best thing to do?

No, absolutely not, my mind thought. Great not this again, I groaned internally.

You should. Find out why he was so sad with you leaving. If he has a girlfriend why would he be sad? argued my heart.

We figured this out earlier. He's just a nice guy and didn't want to just leave her hanging.

Or it could be because he felt a certain connection with you as well. Josh is right you can't just keep running and let what happened to you run and ruin your life.

The reason her family moved here is because of you.

Well you didn't help either.

That's because I never knew how stupid and unreasonable you were.

BOTH OF YOU SHUT UP! I really need to stop talking and arguing with myself. I've heard of people wrestle with themselves, but this is getting annoying and almost way to literally. It didn't help that I was torn between trying to decide who to listen to and taking some meds to get rid of these voices. After a little more debating on what I should do to forget about today, I decided taking early morning runs would be the best. Then the rest of the day I would just help my mom around the house making it our home.

After just resting there a bit making both my mind and heart shut up, I was truly able to relax knowing school was going to start in a week and then I could just immerse myself in my school work. Before I knew it I fell asleep and I woke up to my water getting cold. Once I got out, I put on some comfy black sweat pants with a blue streak down the sides, a white wife beater and blue zip up hoodie.

When I went out into my room after drying my hair a bit I looked at my bed. On top of my blankets was two peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with my favorite grape jelly, a pack of double stuffed Oreos with a whole jar of peanut butter for me to smoother them in, a can of wild cherry Pepsi and a bottle of NOS. This was the meal my brother always put out for me when he heard I had a bad day. My two favorite things to eat that he could make, and my two favorite drinks. I'm sure my mom told him I was a bit down after my run. Even though we fought, he always protected me and we got along really well for siblings. It made me smile whenever he did this for me.

Then I looked at the clock remembering he had a date and it had to be late since he did this. It was only 10:30. Mostly he was out until close to midnight. Must have been a stupid, giggling girl he had the date with. I went and sat on my bed sat down and started to eat my sandwiches, knowing he was going to probably come back soon to see if I wanted to stay up and talk or whatever.

As I started eating the very delicious sandwiches I looked out my window to see the night sky of La Push. It was how my father told me it would be, cloudy with few stars showing. He warned us that it was going to be overcast with very few days of sun. So when the sun does come out we should enjoy it.

After I unsuccessfully tried to find a star, I stared into the deep dark woods that started about fifty feet away from my window. Something about the woods at night always fascinated me.

As I skimmed the tree line I thought I saw something moving a couple feet away from the tree line. I strained my eyes to see what it was, but it was hard with it being dark already and the forest being even darker. Then, I saw it look straight at me. When our eyes met it turned and ran farther into the forest. Their eyes looked like…never mind that's not possible. Besides it was probably a deer, elk or something like that. We were told with the forest behind our house that there were a lot of wild life around and to be careful.

So I shrugged off and forgot about the animal and opened my laptop to see what was going on in the outside world.


I miss the days when I could eat that kind of snack and not gain 10 pounds by the next morning. Getting older sucks, and the sad part is that I'm only 25, ugh.

What are your favorite snack(s)? Mine would have to be Goldfish. They are like crack to me and I will devour them like no other.

Anyways, hope you all enjoyed.

Reviews are like getting your favorite snack magically appearing on your bed after a bad day.

Until next time, stay safe.

~fighter419