I found Morgana in her room, looking out the window.

"Morgana?" I called her name and the look she gave me told me she was angry with me.

"What do you want?!" The way she said it was bitter, and full of disgust. I didn't understand why she was so upset with me.

"What's going on with everyone? You're pissed at me, Gwen nearly cried and Merlin isn't acting like himself. Am I the only one who isn't going crazy around here?" I sat down and sighed. "I just want to know why everyone is acting different."

"Arthur...you can't just take what you want and expect there to not be consequences."

"I don't understand. What are you talking about?"

"People aren't something to play with, so stop trying to mess with Merlin!"

"What does this have to do with Merlin and I? I'm not playing with him. We're together. He's my boyfriend. I'm not playing with anyone."

"God you are an idiot!"

"What is going on?"

"Ask your boyfriend how he really feels about you." Morgana spat as she turned back around, so I took that as a signal for me to leave.

I sighed, slamming the door as I left. Maybe Morgana had a point. I should ask Merlin how he feels about me. Perhaps he loved me. The thought got my heart jumping again. That would explain why he was acting weird. He could be afraid to show it. Maybe he thought I wasn't as serious about us as he was.

All I had to do was talk to him and set things straight. Then we'd be happy. It was late now and I didn't want to bother him. Tomorrow we would talk and I would have a normal happy Merlin.

That morning the palace was abuzz with some sort of tragedy. Finally I found my father.

"What's going on?"

"Morgana's handmaiden committed suicide. It's no big deal, but all of the servants are very upset. You might want to check in on Merlin." I stared at my father shocked. How could he act so calmly?

"Gwen was very important, don't treat her as though she isn't." I said through my teeth as I began to walk away.

I found Merlin standing with Morgana in the hall. I rushed to catch up to them. I hugged Morgana, then Merlin. Merlin flinched slightly, as though he was afraid of me.

"I heard about Gwen what happened?" I asked, keeping a hand on Morgana's shoulder.

"Just stop! Stop acting like you care! You're nothing but a brat! Gwen died because of you, this is all your fault! Why won't you just open your eyes and just stop..." Morgana trailed off.

"I don't understand." I looked at Morgana confused. Morgana pushed past me.

"Merlin." I looked to see if anyone was around, and we were alone, so I felt comfortable holding his hands in mine. "We need to talk. I know it's probably a bad time with Gwen, but how do you feel about me? Honestly." I looked into his eyes. His eyes widened and he looked away.

"What do you want? Why are you doing this? I just want to be left alone." Merlin pulled his hands away.

"I'm so confused. Merlin, I love you, so it's ok if you love me back."

"Love you? Arthur, you've been pushing me around since I got here. I can't stand your arrogance. I don't want to be anywhere near you. I just want to know why all of a sudden you're forcing me to be with you like...like this. You make me sick. At first I considered us friends, but after all you've done the past week I don't want to see you ever again. I thought we were friends." Merlin shoved me, but not hard. "Just leave me alone."

I stood there in shock. "No you don't understand. You led me on, I thought you liked me! This is your fault not mine!" I backed away from Merlin.

Merlin snorted. "Of course. Of course you're going to say that. You know what? Screw you. You are the reason Gwen is dead, you've ruined my life, and I'm just so sick of your crap! You took advantage of me as your servant. The only reason I put up with it was so I wouldn't lose my job. You are so selfish and self-centered."

I tried to reach out to Merlin but he just shoved past me. "I thought you loved me."

Merlin turned back to me. "You were mistaken."