Here's chapter 4 of my story. Finally I know. I'm sorry about that, but I've really been stuck in this story. Anyway, I hope you like it.


I've been struggling with myself to spend more time with Harry and Hermione. As much as it pains me being with them knowing they're together (and lying to my face about it), I know they were starting to realize something was going on, and I can't have that. I can't have any suspicion over me, to my plan work correctly.

It's not easy though. Talking and laughing with someone, when you're filled with anger against them. Sometimes it takes all my self control not to punch him in the face when I see him looking at Hermione with that look.

The worst is that sometimes I see the exact same look in her face when she looks at him.

I cannot describe the feeling of knowing that the person you love is in love with someone else. With my best friend for Merlin's sake!

The only good thing about all this is that all the guilt I felt for having this plans to get back at Harry is gone. Someone who can date the girl he knows I like and lie to me about it is obviously not that great of a friend.

I think what was left of the friendship I had with him is gone, even if he doesn't know it. That friendship was killed by the years of envy and resentment I fell for him.

Anger, resentment… Those are the strongest feelings in my body. I can feel them right know, heating up my blood, making me want to do crazy things.

It's like a, whole other side of me. A dark, hidden, side of me, trying to take over my body.

I used to fight that. Used to fight the horrible thoughts in my head, I used the fight this will to hurt Harry that, right now, is what's keeping me going. I gave up that fight the moment I saw them kiss.

I'm not the same person anymore; the dark side of me has completely taken over. I don't feel the tiniest hint of guilt or fear for what I'm about to do.

I feel like laughing at my old childish plans to get back at him. They were stupid fantasies, would never work.

I have a real plan now. A plan that will take away everything he has. The fame, the love… Hermione. She will never want to look at him again.

For once, I will be the one that has everything he wants, I will be the hero. I will be the one people love.

There will be a price to pay for this though. But, as I said, I'm not the same person anymore. I'm willing to do thing I wouldn't even consider doing.

I guess that's what years of being rejected and ignore do to you. Turn you into someone unscrupulous that will do whatever it takes to be noticed, loved.

Or maybe I'm just weak, it doesn't matter now. There's no turning back from what I've become.

What I need right now, is put my plan into practice. I already know who's gonna help me. Even if they don't know it yet.


Is kind of short I know. As I said before, I've been stuck with this story, so, I'm story if this sucks.

Just a warning, the story gets kinda dark form now on. Nothing to heavy though.

Well, I hope you liked it. Please review.