Chapter 4
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Time seemed to pass in a blur. Before he knew it the funeral for Morinaga had been planned. He stood dressed in blackness along with everyone else. He could hear people around him quietly sobbing but he remained silent. He could only stare in disbelief as the coffin was laid into the ground in front of the stone that held his friend's name.
He exchanged words with other mourners but hardly registered their faces or what they said. Everything felt so cold and numb and unreal. Souichi waited until everyone had left. One by one the cars pulled away until only he stood alone, staring at nothing.
He hated feeling this way, even the death of his mother many years ago hadn't made him feel this…empty. What was it about Morinaga that made him feel like he had been torn in half and that he could never be whole again? Why did that idiot make him feel so much?
Souichi hadn't noticed that he had gotten closer until his hand touched the cold stone of the tomb. He stared at the name of his friend again, still not believing it was there. Why was he here, still living when his friend was as cold and lifeless as the rock that held his name.
Souichi felt his legs give out from under him as he fell down in front of the grave, fresh tears springing to his eyes as he did despite how many countless hours he had spent crying before.
Suddenly all his memories of Morinaga came to him. Every word, every kiss and touch, every moment good and bad. The last memory was of that lifeless body lying on the bathroom floor with nothing but red surrounding it. That last memory is what caused Souichi's heart to break, to shatter into a million pieces. The one that had kept him together was gone, buried in the cold ground while he had to remain up here and suffer the consequence to his careless actions.
Souichi found himself beating at the freshly covered ground, wanting to be down there too, to not have to feel this ache anymore. He continued to beat at the dirt as images of Morinaga's face kept appearing in his mind, reminding him of everything and making him feel more and more guilt. He was the reason he would never get to see his friend again and it killed him to know that.
As the images of Morinaga's face seemed to slowly fade from his mind Souichi was left with one thing, Morinaga's voice whispering, "I love you."
That small phrase echoed in his head over and over. The memory of Morinaga's voice managing to bring a fresh wave of tears to Souichi's eyes. That phrase is what really hit him the most. A lot of couples would say that phrase to each other without understanding the deep meaning behind it.
When Morinaga had first said that to Souichi he too thought his friend had no idea of the meaning behind it. But he realized that every time Morinaga would say it his eyes were filled with such passion and love. Each time Morinaga had said it he knew the meaning behind those words and meant it with all his heart.
And what had Souichi done in return each time those words were spoken to him? He had rejected them. He had pushed away the other man or yelled at him. He had rejected Morinaga so many times it eventually was too much for him. And now he would never know the truth.
Normally Souichi's pride would get in the way of admitting something like that, but he no longer had any pride. How could he after what had happened? He had to admit that he care for the younger man, that he had grow to enjoy his company.
All that wasted time not willing to admit what he knew was true. All that wasted time pretending not to care. All that wasted time not being truthful and admitting to himself what was always in the back of his mind.
And now it was too late, his friend was gone forever. He would never know what lie in Souichi's heart. The truth.
Souichi bowed his head, letting his tears soak into the soil, his voice was very quiet and shaky as he finally spoke the words Morinaga had always wanted to hear, the truth that lie in his heart, "I love you too."
"Oh now you care!" came an angry booming voice.
Souichi looked up and suddenly the graveyard was gone. There was nothing but blackness surrounding him. He could barely see anything.
It only took a second for him to realize that was Morinaga's voice. He spun around to see a flash of black hair and then it was gone.
"You never would say it to my face, so why now?" came a hiss from behind him and Souichi spun to see a flash of Morinaga's face.
"You're nothing but a coward" came a whisper in his ear, it surprised him so much he fell to the ground when he tried to turn around.
"And now look at you! The guilt eating at you" Morinaga sneered, his voice so close it startled Souichi to his feet again.
"I trusted you, love you and you let me die!" Morinaga shouted, suddenly appearing out of the blackness, making Soiuchi jump back.
"No" Souichi breathed out.
"It's your fault!" Morinaga shouted, his words seeming to echo endlessly, making Souichi fall to his knees and cover his ears.
"I'm sorry Morinaga, I'm so sorry" Souichi whispered, shaking as the words continued to echo.
"Look at what you did to me!"
Suddenly the gravestone was there again but this time pale rotting hands were clawing their way out. Souichi watched in horror as Morinaga's rotting corpse rose out of the ground like something out of a horror movie. His hair was matted and uneven, his skin as pale as a ghost and some of it was falling off or missing. The corpse had no eyes, only empty sockets that seem to penetrate right through Souichi's very soul. The corpse screamed the most inhuman scream Souichi had ever heard as it lunged at him.
"And now you will pay for what you did!" it shouted in a demonic form of Morinaga's voice.
Souichi felt a searing pain run through him as he let out a terrified scream. But suddenly his eyes snapped open to be greeted by sunlight.
And cliffhanger! Ok well sort of a cliffhanger I'm sure most of you can figure out what is going to happen. I will try to have the next chapter out by tomorrow so just review until then and let me know what you thought.
