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"Can we talk?" Edward questioned as soon as we arrived as La Push. I knew the talk was coming, Edward couldn't go three seconds without over thinking a situation. He over analyzed every single thing before he even made his move. Maybe that's why he's a billionaire, at only 22. I mean he made his fortune before even leaving college. Being that smart, only leads to destruction.

"Sure," I said as Alice pulled Rosalie, Emmett, and Jasper over to Jake who was waiting for us patently. "So, what's up?" I questioned playing dumb.

"What happened last night won't happen again," he blurted out pacing up and down. "I mean, it was nice. But we can't happen again," he ranted more to himself than to me. I only stood there making no move to interrupt him. When Edward got on a roll it was pointless to interrupt him.

"Look," I said watching him slow his pace. "It was one night. We fell into old habits. We'll call it a relapse and be done with it. I know you think you're some kind of god like creature, and after one night I'll just come crawling back to you, but I wont. You left without a word, a girl doesn't just get over something like that. We fucked," I said running my fingers through my hair. "I'm done fighting with you, but I'm also not going to sit around and wait for you to suddenly want me again." Edward's bright green eyes only narrowed slightly at my last sentence.

"You think I don't want you?" He basically hissed making me roll my eyes.

"What am I suppose to think, Edward? That you secretly want me, you're just too afraid to show it? Or maybe that it's just the way you show your affection? So I'm not going to wait around. I'm going to live my life, if that doesn't include you, then it doesn't."

"You're so..." he trailed off looking down at me.

"No," I cut him off shaking my head. "You don't get to belittle be, because I'm done waiting. I waited for you, and you never came back. So tell me what the hell was I waiting for? I was nieve to think that you would come back, or that when we saw each other all the pieces would just magically fall together. I haven't seen you in four years, you've changed. I've changed," I clarified giving a sigh realizing I was almost yelling.

"You can't deny the spark," he said in a voice barely above a whisper. He was right about that, I couldn't deny the spark I felt when we were together. It was something in the air, something in our touch that was simply electric. He made my heart skip a beat, and my toes tingle.

"No," I said honestly running my fingers through my hair. "But sometimes love isn't enough. For me, in this moment loving you isn't enough. Let's face the facts, in two months you're going back to New York, me and Alice are going to Seattle. You're leaving, again. So we'll have a summer fling, I'll get attached, you'll leave." Edward only licked his lips looking away from me. "I'm not letting you have that kind of power over me again."

"What if I wasn't leaving for New York?" He questioned making me glance up at him.

"Loving you still wouldn't be enough. I would be constantly afraid that when I woke up, you'd be gone." I could tell I was giving answers he didn't like. He wanted to pick up where we left off four years ago, he wanted things to go back to the way they were. But I didn't.

"What would be enough?" He questioned through his teeth.

"I don't know," I said honestly shrugging my shoulders. "I don't want you to lie to me the way you use to, for starters."

"I never lied to you," he spat out.

"Oh, no?" I questioned placing my hand on my hips. "Why is your last name Masen?" I questioned like I did months into our relationship. Edward only glanced off to the beach refusing to meet my eyes. "Who the fuck is Tanya?" I questioned remembering the text I accidentally saw one night when we were together.

And I was not snooping. I had his phone in my hand, because he was to drunk to even hold onto it. I was babysitting, it went off and I thought it was mine. I realized it wasn't after I read the text message. Elizabeths not well. Tell Carlisle you two need to come see her.

"What about Elizabeth, want to explain her? Or maybe James?" I questioned Edward still staring off to the beach. He flinched slightly at the name, other than that he remained completly emotionless. "The mysterious shit was fine in high school, but we aren't in high school anymore. I want to know you," I said biting my lips. "And I don't know you. I never did."

"You knew me better than most."

"That's not enough. I don't want to be the person who kind of sort of knows her boyfriend," I said shrugging my shoulders.

"So there's no hope for us?" Edward questioned meeting my eyes for the first time.

"I never said that. But I know you better than most people, and I know when things get hard you quit. This," I motioned between the two of us. "Won't be easy."

"I am 22, and I run my own business. That wasn't easy," he pointed out making me shake my head.

"Let me rephrase that. When things get tough in your personal life, you bail out. Getting you and me, to an us, isn't going to be easy. It's going to take a lot of work, and a lot of trust, on both sides." I explained making him purse his lips. "Last night was a mistake, but it helped me realize what I want. I don't want the Edward from high school, as much as I thought I did. I want someone better, someone who trusts me, and will let me know every single version of himself."

"It'll scare you." He said making me throw my hands up turning away.

"A dark side doesn't scare me," I said walking over to Jake. I was done talking about this with Edward. I'd made what I wanted perfectly clear, and I knew the conversation would probably pick up later. Right now, I wanted to join the bonfire.

A/N FINALLY. Right guys? You all thought I went POOF. Who can blame you? I've been gone for a while. LET ME EXPLAIN BEFORE YOU ALL KILL ME. My computer finally crapped out on me (I had it for like nine years, so it was only a matter of time) I didn't have internet access to upload the chapters (or the chapters for that matter) so I had to wait until I had the funds to get a computer.

It took me a bit, but I am back now. For those of you still with me, thank you for not giving up on me!

Let me know what you think of the chapter. Will Edward try with Bella, or will Bella find love somewhere else? What is Edward hiding, who is Elizabeth and what role does she play?