Chapter 4 - Everyone's smiling but me.
"I'll get over it." Caroline chanted. She'd been singing it all night.. I'll get over it. Ill get over it.I'll get over him.
And each time she said it was reminded of the way she'd felt that night or in the morning, or the previous night. It'd already been a week since Stefan and Katherine got engaged and thinks were not looking good for Caroline.
"Don't shut it out, Care." Elena smiled. "If you feel something for him, you should tell him."
"First of all, I am so emotionally traumatized that I don't even care that I'm seeking love advice from Stefan's ex." Caroline said. "Secondly, what exactly am I supposed to tell him? And will it even make a difference? He loves Katherine, he always has... He always will. I was stupid to think engaged."
"You were just hoping." Bonnie reassured her. "It's okay to be optimistic sometimes."Sweetie, there's never going to be a right time." Bonnie said, holding her hand. "You just need to tell him so that its out there. What if he feels the same way but he's just been keeping it bottled up for the same reasons you're about to?"
"So he got engaged!?" Caroline shrieked. "I highly doubt that... What if he hates me for saying it?"
"What if he doesn't?" Bonnie smiled at her.
"He's moving out." Caroline told them.
"What?!" The both said simultaneously.
"They've been house hunting all week." She sighed. "She said they wanted to get a feel of marriage life."
"So you're just going to let her stroll off into the sunset with your man?" Bonnie asked.
"He's not my man." Caroline whispered. "And I've known Katherine since kindergarten... We haven't always been the closest, but we were friends before I met Stefan. I'm not going to hurt her."
"You're right… Both of you are, but I'm still not telling him." Caroline said.
"Well then, we're your best friends and we're going to get drunk and have fun tonight!" Bonnie said.
"Finally." Caroline nodded. "Something I agree with."
"Let's do this." Elena said, grabbing her coat.
"Wait, why not at home?" Caroline argued.
"Because this is my home." Elena said. "And as much as I love having you guys here, I hate cleaning up in the morning and your horrible hangovers."
"It's not our fault you can't get drunk." Bonnie laughed.
"It not mine either." Elena smiled. "Come on, let's go."
"Fine." Caroline finally surrendered.
•••••
"Wow, you're really wasted." Jesse said, examining Caroline.
"And you're really pretty." She said drunkenly before leaning in for a kiss.
But he quickly pulled out.
"Caroline..." He warned.
"What you don't want me?" She sobbed.
"Not like this." He whispered. "I'm not going to take advantage of you."
"So you don't want me?" She asked dramatically, but he stayed silent. "Nobody wants me."
"That's not true." He objected.
"Really?" She asked sarcastically. "You just turned me down, my friends ditched me for their lame ass boyfriends and Stefan… Don't even get me started on stefan."
"Stefan?" He repeated.
"He's my roommate." Caroline explained.
"You live with a guy… Please tell me he's your brother.." Jesse sighed. He really liked her. He was intrigued by her.
"He's not." She sighed. "He's my best friend. Ex- best friend. I kind of told him I had feelings for him after he drunkenly kissed me and then he pretended like he didn't remember the kiss because he didn't want to damage our friendship. So I ended it... Then he got engaged to his girlfriend."
"Sounds like an ass." Jesse laughed.
"He wasn't always like that." She whispered.
"Sounds like you need someone to talk to." He smiled, placing a comforting arm across her shoulders.
"I don't have to talk to you about my boy drama. That's what Bonnie and Elena are for." Caroline giggled. "Besides, what guy wants to know about his make out buddy's boy troubles."
"We're not make out buddies." He laughed.
"We just made out didn't we?" She asked.
"That we did… But ,Caroline Forbes, you're definitely not ready to go back on the market… I don't want to be your rebound. But let me know if you ever do get over… Stefan."
"I will." She kissed his cheek. "And you're a really nice guy. I just… I don't want to hurt you."
"Cheesy much?" He joked.
She laughed before going silent for a few minutes and then they talked. They talked all through the night. They talked about everything.
She told him about Stefan and he told her about his sister Megan who recently passed away. They talked until they fell asleep. They were each other's shoulder to cry on, and when caroline finally woke up and decided to leave when the sun started rising, she new she'd never forget that night.
•••••
She couldn't find him when she got him. She realized that she'd have to get used to that... The feeling that he wasn't going to be there at the end of the day.
She could tell everybody she hated him, scream it on the rooftops, but it wouldn't change the truth. He was all she wanted.
She couldn't do this, she knew that. Stefan was engaged... She couldn't wait around forever for someone who felt nothing but platonism for her.
She decided to take a shower to clear her mind. She grabbed her bathrobe and went into the bathroom.
The water on her skin was amazing. She felt like being there, alone, in the silence was what she really needed. Until she remembered that she was alone so nobody could distract her from thinking about him.
And with that her quiet time was over...
•••••
[SPOV]
"Katherine, this isn't the one." Stefan sighed.
"This is like the 7th house we've been to... There's not one thing you like about it?" She whined.
"None of them are right for us... There's something missing. I can't tell exactly what it is, but there's something missing." He said.
"It's okay." She smiled, giving him a kiss. "We'll keep looking."
"Can we keep looking tomorrow?" He asked. "We didn't get much sleep last night... I think I wanna just head back to the apartment and get some rest."
"Yeah, that's fine." She reassured him. "I'll see you tonight?"
"Yeah... It's a date." He smiled, before getting into his car and driving away.
•••••
When he got home the first thing he heard was a noise coming from Caroline's bedroom. He found that odd, considering the fact that she hadn't been home all week.
"Caroline is that you?" He asked, but no one answered.
So he decided to go in to make sure everything was okay... But he saw was something he never thought of.
It was just a glimpse... She'd left the bathroom door slightly open and her reflection was in the mirror.
He saw her... All of her. He knew he should've turned away, or left the room but he found himself forced to stand put.
She was beautiful. He'd never seen that before... The way her body curved, or her hair fell smoothly down her back... She was some sort of angelic creature. She was beautiful.
He found himself going red and becoming aroused.. He shouldn't have. He was with Katherine.
100% completely, and faithfully with Katherine. So why did he feel this way about someone who wasn't her?
He heard her coming out of the bathroom and so he quickly got out of her room and went to the kitchen to get a drink. For some reason, the room seemed to be getting hotter.
•••••
"You're home." He whispered when she finally emerged from her room.
"Hey!" She smiled. "Yeah... I'm back."
"You seem... Friendlier." He smiled.
"Yeah." She smiled. "I realized that I was being stupid and dramatic.. I had a really tough night, but then I talked... A lot, with Jesse.. and I realized that it was a stupid drunken mistake."
"You weren't being stupid." He said. "But I'm glad you're home."
"Me too." She said. "Do you mind whipping up one of Damon's special hangover cures? I have the worst headache ever!"
"Yeah sure... No problem." He laughed.
"So." She said. "How's house hunting going?"
"Pretty good." He said before catching the judgmental look she was giving him. "What?!"
"You're a horrible liar." She laughed, taking a seat at the kitchen counter.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." He joked. "How's things with Jesse going?"
"Great." She smiled.
"Well that's amazing." He said. "Our lives are finally making sense."
"We're finally happy." She smiled before raising her imaginary cup. "To be being happy and life making sense."
"To being happy and life making sense." He repeated. "And to best friends."
Somehow though, the moment he said the words... He felt as if the tittle wasn't right for the two of them..
Best friends? Why did it suddenly have such a disappointing ring to it?
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