"You are very lucky to have made it down the mountain before the storm had gotten any worse dear," an elderly lady to her handing her a cup of tea.

"Thank you Kaede and I know. I'm just in a hurry to get home is all." Kagome said taking a sip of the hot liquid.

"Ah well there are a few taxis that come in and out of town so you should be good, but tell me dear why do I get the feeling you are running from something?" she asked.

Kagome sighed heavily and told Kaede about her dilemma. "And now I just don't want to be anywhere near him."

Kaede sighed and patted Kagome on her head. "I know this is not how you want things to go but sooner or later avoiding him won't work. You should think about telling him how you feel, he might surprise you."

Kagome laughed and shook her head. "Thank you for the tea, but I have to go." Grabbing her bag Kagome walked out of the inn and spotted a nearby taxi. It was time for her to leave and just lock whatever feelings she had for Sesshomaru away.

~TLFY~

"Tomorrow is Christmas and we don't know where Kagome is or if she is even alive. All of this could have been avoided if you brother wasn't an asshole," Sango said to Inuyasha.

"Sango calm down. You know Kagome can take care of herself no matter the situation. I'm sure she's probably on her way home." Miroku said.

"I wish she would have stayed. Ever since her parents and her little brother died on Christmas six years ago she has never taken this time of year well. It took two years to get her back into a car." Kikyo explained.

"Wait you never said Kagome was in the car when it happened." Inuyasha said astonished.

Everyone fell quiet as they watch the fire burn in the fireplace.

"As soon as the roads clear we are leaving," Sesshomaru said from the hallway. Turning he made his way back to his room.

~TLFY~

It was dark by the time Kagome made it home. She just wanted to sleep and not think about anything, but that wasn't possible. Tomorrow was Christmas. The day she had lost everything. It was her fault and the kamis wanted her alive so she could suffer. Walking into her bedroom she dropped her bag. Locking her bedroom door she decided to shut the entire world out.

~TLFY~

The next morning everything and everyone were inside the car. "Hopefully Kagome has not done anything stupid," said a worried Kikyo.

Ten hours. It took them ten hours to get back. As they pulled up in front of the house the girls jumped out of the car and went into the house.

"Kagome open the door. I know you're mad and upset but everything will be okay." Sango said hastily turning the doorknob. They could hear rustling in the room before the door opened.

"What are you guys doing here?" Kagome asked.

"You look like shit and your lips are blue," Sango pointed out.

"And your skin is ice cold," Kikyo exclaimed as she held Kagomes hands.

Kagome watched as Miroku and Inuyasha walked up behind her two fussy roommates. Soon after Sesshomaru was standing behind them ass well. "I fell asleep outside on the balcony." Pulling her hands away grabbed a blanket and threw it over her shoulders. "Now why are you guys here? Shouldn't you be in the mountains?" She didn't dare look at the Daiyoukai or she might purify him to make herself feel better.

"Well some idiot decided to disappear in the middle of the night and not tell anyone! Besides it's Christmas. We weren't going to let you spend it alone." Inuyasha said pulling her out the room and down the stairs.

"Right well you guys go to the living room while I talk to my dear cousin."

The two walked into the kitchen and glared at each other. 'You told them about the car didn't you.' Kagome mouthed. Kikyo nodded earning a groan from her cousin. 'Did you also tell them I tried to kill myself three years ago?' Kikyo glared harder.

"Why would I do that?" she asked offended by the implication.

Kagome turned to leave but stopped as Sesshomaru walked into the kitchen.

Kikyo quickly took her leave.

"We need to talk," he said as he walked over to her. She looked behind her then back to him.

"We have nothing to talk about." Walking pass him she didn't bother look back.

"Lets open gifts now." Miroku said handing them out. One by one everyone opened their presents.

Sango leaned over to Kagome. "I thought you had a gift for ya know." She whispered.

"I don't know what you're talking about. I'm gonna go order some pizza." With that Kagome got up and walked to the kitchen to look at the menu.

Back in the living room Kikyo texted Sango telling her to grab the gift from Kagomes dresser. Quickly as she left she came back and handed it to the demon.

"Alright the pizza is ordered. Let's watch some movies and drink while we wait," Kagome suggested.

After about five minutes of deliberating they decided on watching 'Ninja Assassin'.

~TLFY~

Kagome stretched and looked around the room, everyone was asleep but her. So she thought. A hand grabbed her wrist pulled her to her feet and into the kitchen.

"What is your problem?" She hissed at Sesshomaru.

"Like I said earlier we need to talk."

"You mean you're gonna talk and you want me to listen." Kagome pulled away from him.

"Hn."

"No." Folding her arms across her chest she glared at him.

Sighing heavily she hoisted her onto the counter and trapped her there.

"What the fuck are you doing! Get away from me!" She said quietly so to not wake the others.

"I apologize about before." He said looking into her eyes. He watched as she unconsciously bit her lip. He rubbed circles in her sides and pulled her to the edge of the counter. There he stood in between her legs and staring at her lips.

'I need stop this. I have to stop this,' she thought. She needed to but she didn't want to. 'He is drunk and he has a girlfriend and like he said you're human. He would never love you stupid.' As all of this crossed her mind she wasn't prepared for what happened next.

He kissed her. HE kissed HER! And kami was it wonderful. As he deepened the kissed she pulled him closer as she crossed her legs behind his back. Their tongue battle for dominance. His hands seemed to set her skin ablaze as they traveled under her shirt and up her back. Pulling at his shirt it was quickly discarded and she ran her hands up and down his chest, admiring every muscle. Her hands traced the markings on his hip and traveled lower to the bulge in his pants which made him grind into her.

And just like that she came to her sense. They both would regret this later. She pushed him away and shook her head. Sliding off of the counter she sighed. "You don't want this Sesshomaru. You don't want me. It's the alcohol." He said nothing but she could feel his eyes on her. She refused to look at him, because if she did her heart would break even more. Side stepping him she rushed to her room.

"Why do I have to love a man that will never love me?" she asked herself before crying herself to sleep