A/N- I was kind of disapointed by my reviews I only got like one...So yeah. But thats to the one who

did review. So faw Johnny is winning the poll to end up with Mary. But I won't know for a few

more chapters who she will pick. And sorry I don't update as much...I have school

know. Soph side!Don't hate the class of 08!

Disclaimer- I only own Mary Mathews and Jeff Huskey. All the others belong to S.E. Hinton.

Chapter 4

I sat in my room an hour later. Just gazing into space. The truth is I didn't want to go back and think...because it would bring up something that I would like to be left alone. I sat there for a few more minutes. I grabbed some money and left. I walked out of the house. I started just walking. I heard a horn behind me. I turned around to see Tim Shepard.

"Hey! Do you need a ride, Mathews?" Tim asked.

"Naw, I'm good." I answered.

"No, come on get in I'll take you home."

I got in the car and just sat there. "What are you doing just walking around?" Tim asked. "I mean Angel just got jumped by some soc a few days ago...They don't care if your a guy or girl. Were gonna talk to some outlets and see if they'll rumble with us."

"I can talk to my gang for you. I am sure they will do it though. I mean we have your back. And we know you have ours." I said. "Oh drop me off at the Curtis' house" I said.

He did as I told him. I got out and walked back inside. I was only gone for five minutes. I went back into my room. I shut the door and laid down. I had to think about this sooner or later so not why sooner. Well lets see me and Johnny.

flashback

Two and a half years earlier.

"Mary?" Johnny asked.

"Yeah, Johnny?"

"Um, do you think that maybe...we could...um...maybe we...I was thinking maybe we could...you know... go out sometime like maybe this weekend. Maybe to the dingo?" He finally got out.

I nodded. Everyone knew me and Johnny were crazy about each other. "Yeah, about that you may want to talk to my brother-"

"I already have. He said that would be fine. So yeah, but lets not wait until this weekend. Do you want to go out like right now?"

I got up "Lets go." We went to the dingo for a few hours. When we left we went to the park. He sat down on the bench so I followed. He moved closer to me. I could tell he was really nervous. I put his arm around my shoulder. I scooted closer to him. He looked like something was bugging him.

"Johnny what's wrong?"

"Mary, do you think that I could ah maybe kiss you?" He asked nervously.

"Yeah." I was nervous. He leaned down slowly and kissed me. I kissed back eagerly. "Johnny, I really like you." I blurted out. I couldn't help it.

"Yeah, I really like you too. Uh. Mary...Will...Um...Are you...Are you gonna be my girl(A/N I couldn't help it I love that song. I said are you gonna be my girl) I mean I really like you too."

"Yeah, so are we like a couple or something?" I asked.

"Yeah I guess so." He said.

end flashback

I smiled recalling that night. When me and Johnny became us. Maybe Two-Bit is right. Maybe I should choose Johnny I mean we have been through so much together. I mean I can't just throw everything away. I know if me and Johnny get back together that we will be together forever. I mean I know he loves me I can't deny that at all. He is the greatest guy that I know. He has always been there for me. Well most of the time at least.

There was a knock at the door. I sat up. ''Come in,'' I said. Two-Bit and Darry came in. "How are you doing?" Two-Bit asked.

"Fine. I guess. I mean, I don't know who to chose. I mean I can see why I should choose Johnny but then again I see why I should choose Jeff. I don't know I just need to think a little more I guess."

"Okay, well I guess. We will leave you alone." Darry said. He pulled Two-Bit out.

Let's see what has Jeff done for me? Then one particular time popped into my head.

flashback

One year ago.

I ran to Jeff's house sobbing over what had just happend. I knocked on his door. He answered in a few seconds. He saw how I was and just held me. I told him what "happend."

"Mary, do you need to go to the hospital?" Jeff asked.

"No, I'm fine. I mean I can just go home and relax." I said.

"Yeah it looks like you need to. I mean you look terrible. No offense." Jeff said. "I'll even walk you home."

The whole way there he had his arm around my waist and was trying to calm me down a little.

"Don't worry it'll be alright. It won't matter in a little while." He said.

I walked in to my house. I hugged him and said bye. I walked up to my room and walked in I stopped when I saw who was in there.

end flashback

I stopped there. I didn't want to go any further. I sat there a few minutes. I walked downstairs. I saw Johnny. I didn't look at him. I couldn't, because of what happend one year ago. I remember everything perfectly.

I ran up to my room. I laid down and started to cry. I hated having to choose. I remembered something that I had been blocking for a while. That memory that makes me want to choose Jeff.

flashback

one year ago.

I walked into my house. I hugged Jeff and said goodbye. I walked to my room and walked in I stopped when I saw who was in there.

It was Johnny. He looked really mad. "Where were you? I didn't see you after we left Buck's party?"

"I left. I didn't want to stay in there." I said.

"Yeah, well why in the hell were you one, dancing with Jeff. Two why did he bring you home?" He asked.

"What does it matter. Me and Jeff are just friends." I defended myself very quickly.

"Open your eyes Mary he likes you." Johnny said.

"Who care Johnny. I love you, not Jeff." I said sobbing.

"Liar!" The next thing I felt was the back of his hand on my face, and me hitting the ground." I clutched my cheek and looked up at him. I saw his eyes and for the first time in my life I was terrified that Johnny would hurt me. The look in his eyes were fierce and sharp. Even violent. They reminded me a lot of Dally's eyes for some reason.

"Johnny," I pleaded.

"Get up!" He screamed.

"Johnny why are you doing this?" I begged. He pulled me up by my hair. He punched me in my face multiple times. In my chest, arms, legs, and face. I tried to shield my face with my hands. I laid there aching. He left me like that.

end flashback

I remember, having to tell people that I got jumped by five soc. Just to save Johnny's ass. Maybe I should have just broke up with him, but I was too much in love. I still am. But he never hit me again. I went downstairs. I got Two-Bit.

"I know who I am going to chose." I said. " I have to call Jeff so he can come over here so I can tell everyone." I went to the phone and dialed Jeff's number. It rang once.

--Hello--

"Jeff, hey it's me I've made my decision. You need to come over." I told him.

--Okay, I'll be over in ten minutes.--

I went and sat in the living room. Johnny came in. I pulled him to my room. "Johnny, today when I was making my decision, I thought about what happend one year ago at Buck's party. I thought about how bad you hurt me, inside and out. I love you with all my heart. Even then I couldn't break up with you..." I trailed off.

"Mary, please don't hold that against me please. I didn't mean it you know that. I love you. I haven't hit you since. I never will. I mean I felt so bad that week just seeing what I did to you just about killed me. I mean I saw how bad I hurt you. I really am sorry. I know you probably don't believe me and I don't blame you but I am sorry. I love you so much I never want to hurt you again."

I thought about it and I knew he was telling the truth. I could tell I knew him so well. I heard someone come in.

Johnny and I walked downstairs. But from upstairs I could have told you it was Jeff.

Everyone sat down in the living room. I stood up. "Okay I just wanted to tell all of you that I did a lot of thinking. I have made my decision. I chose..."

end chap 4

A/N- I am sure some of you are mad at me for making Johnny abusive and ending it like this. I love this. I have power over something. Uh reviews please. Don't flame me. Pleaz. SOPH SIDE! STRONG SIDE.

Mary