Chapter 4

Scully rests pleasantly on the couch while Mulder massages her feet, she has her eyes closed and both hands together on her belly - How are we going to call him, Scully? - Mulder says looking at her as he smiles, she opens one eye and looks at him causing him a cheerful laugh - It seems that someone is falling asleep thanks to a wonderful massage - she smiles and nods

- Maybe it's a girl Mulder - she says still with her eyes closed

- I know, it's just that I don't like to call him or her "it", but I would be very happy with a mini Scully - she smiles and opens her eyes to look at him - I love you - he says looking at her with those eyes of love that make her heart beat faster

She removes her feet from his lap and sits next to him, then puts her hand on his cheek and kisses him sweetly - I love you too - he brings his face back to hers and continues to kiss her

two weeks without visions have led them again to feel more relaxed and enjoy that miracle that grows in Scully's womb, ten weeks of gestation, only five more to make sure that the greatest danger has passed, and although both think recurrently in the mysterious visions, they try not to do so, Scully because she feels her life can change drastically and Mulder, because he can't fully understand the situation and gets angry not knowing how to help her.

- Mulder, do you think we should tell mom about the baby yet? - she asks him like a child afraid of the answer

He smiles and draws her towards him with one arm - Anything you want honey, I think she will be happier than ever - she smiles and rests her head on his chest with a sigh. At that moment a sharp pain presses her temples and she clings to Mulder's shirt with all her strength

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- I know now why Mom asked for Charlie, even though he was out of her life. She wanted to know before he left that he'd be okay. She gave birth to him. She made him. He's her responsibility. And that's why she said what she said to us. She wanted to make sure that we'd be responsible, to know that William's okay. Even though we can't see him. I know that, as parents, we made a difficult sacrifice, to keep him safe. That it was for his own good to put him up for adoption. But I can't help but think of him, Fox. I can't help it. I believe that you will find all of your answers. You will find the answers to the biggest mysteries, and I will be there when you do - she is looking at him with tenderness, he turns to her but he can't stand her gaze - But my mysteries... I'll never have answered. I won't know if he thinks of me, too, or, if he's ever been afraid and wished that I was there. Does he doubt himself because we left him? What questions does he have of me? The same that I have with this quarter? And I want to believe... I need to believe, that we didn't treat him like trash - her voice breaks completely and Mulder puts his arm around her

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She gasps for air and hears a voice next to her - Scully, Scully talk to me - is Mulder, is the real life again, she looks into his eyes and his expression relaxes a bit knowing she's back with him - Scully, what did you see? -

She frowns and breathes through her mouth trying not to cry - Mulder, we must find William, we have to, this is becoming a nightmare and I think he's feeling the same, he's only eight years old, we must help our son - he tries to talk but she keeps talking - And I need to see my mom, I can't lose her… and I must call Charlie, well Bill... -

Mulder puts both his hands on her cheeks trying to call her attention - Scully, stop! - she looks at him with eyes wide open and stops talking - You can't do this Scully, I can't fucking understand what's going on - He stands and walks around the room while she looks at him in disbelief - I need you to tell me every little detail of each vision, I'm totally lost here, how am I supposed to help you when I can't understand a word you say - he finishes speaking and stops short to look at her, she has her mouth open and looks at him with watery eyes

She stands up in anger and walks to the kitchen, then turns to look at him with eyes of rage wiping tears - And you think this is a game for me? This is a damn joke Mulder - she says raising her voice

He sighs crossing his arms over his chest and staring at her - then help me understand, how many visions have you already had, four? damn it Scully, we must do something -

- I know Mulder, but the only solution I see is find our son, I know I said I won't do it, but this is an emergency, if he's feeling the same pain I'm feeling, I have to do something to help him, I'm completely sure this is him doing a sending. Why? That's the difficult question here -

He walks towards her and put his arms around her, she rests her forehead on his chest and he kisses her crown - I'm sorry, I just wanna protect you Scully, but this is stranger than any x file we ever had - she lets out a low laugh and cross her hands behind his back - I think you should write down every vision so we can make some kind of plan -

She looks up at him smiling - That's my G-man - he kiss her forehead and then walk with her to his study to find a notebook, old habits - Can we use the computer, Mulder? -

He looks at her with a shake of his head - Of course not, it's easier to carry a notebook than a computer that can be damaged or run out of battery -

She smiles and nods - Fine, you're right -

He's an old Fox, but he's right, with a journal maybe things can clear up a bit, she tries to remember every little detail of each dream, but some words escape from her, she just knows the main subject of each and some lines that really hurted her, saying William was not her son just after he died, and revealing a new impossible pregnancy, just like the one right now, that's maybe the vision that perturbed her the most, they should start by making a research about Spender, what if he really is alive? He looked perfectly fine for her, no burns at all, they need find him. Then Mulder's depression, of one thing she's sure, she won't leave him no matter what, she can't leave him, she love him too much to do that. Then the alien DNA, they were talking about a girl, what was her name? Something Russian, she can't remember now, but the girl was telling the truth, they should find her too, maybe she has some answers, but first, check her Genome, she has to do that soon. Then the motel conversation, so many regrets, so many years apart, so much history between them, that's a conversation that they should have now, she tries to remember every word, she needs to see if Mulder will answer differently, and her last vision, her mom's death, it was a terrible conversation and the saddest situation for her, it might not have connection, but she has the chance to have a closer relationship with her mother now, she has to.

She writes down everything and Mulder reads what she wrote, he's frowning, she just waits, his expression changes a few times and then he looks at her with eyes full of sadness and fear - I can't believe this Scully, you really think William is doing this? -

She swallows and nods - Well, I can't be completely sure, but I think he is, who else can be? -

He tightens his jaw and looks at her seriously - What if this is some way of put us on the spotlight again, if the Smoking Man is really alive, he can be doing this, maybe he found a new way to manipulate us through your chip -

Scully breathes faster and looks at him with horror - God Mulder, I… I don't know what to say -

- What if he is trying to find William, if he is special, then maybe he needs him - he says interrupting her

She throws her head back on the sofa trying to think of Mulder's words, it may not be crazy, his theories have always been very accurate over the years, and if she relies on someone it's on him, that damn chip is part of her and will always be, and if that wretch is alive, he is capable of doing anything to drag them back into the darkness - Okay Mulder, but I think we should do the DNA test and ask Skinner for help, if we will find the damn smoker, we need help -