Chapter 4

Olivia slowly made her way to Alex's bedroom. Before she knocked on the door she took a deep breath to calm herself down. Once she felt ready to face whatever Alex threw at her, she tentatively knocked

"Go away Liv. I don't want to talk with you."

"I'm not going anywhere Alex. I came down here to apologize; I shouldn't have goaded you on like that. It was very wrong of me." Olivia stood there waiting for an answer, and when two minutes went by and Alex wouldn't reply, she tried again.

"Alex, I'm serious, I feel like an asshole right know. Open the door so I can talk to you. Or I swear if you don't I'll use my manly arms to break the door down."

From the inside Alex sat on her king sizes bed listening to Olivia's pleas. As she heard Olivia's threat from the other side a small smile appeared on her face. Olivia couldn't hate her if she was talking to her could she? With a heavy heart she made her way to the door. When she opened it a bit she saw Olivia's smiling face.

"This isn't funny Liv. I feel very insecure right now."

"I know Lex, but please let me in. I promise I'm not here to make fun of you." Olivia pleaded, as she looked into vulnerable blue eyes.

Alex looked up at Olivia to see that she was being sincere, and against her better judgment opened the door wider to let her in. Alex made her way back to her bed, but this time she pulled down the covers and crawled in and pulled the covers over her head.

"C'mon Alex, this is very immature. I just think we need to talk, is all." Olivia said, as she made her way up to the bed. When Alex didn't respond to her, Liv tried to pull the covers down.

"Leave me alone Liv, I really don't feel like facing you right now. I think you should probably leave before I embarrass myself even more." Alex finally said as she once again pulled the covers back up.

Olivia stayed silent and stood there, waiting for Alex to come out of hiding. When 5 minutes passed and Alex had staid still, Olivia sighed and made her way around the bed.

"Fine, but I'm gonna be here all day till you decide you want to sort this out." And with that Liv crawled on top of the covers and lay next to Alex.

Alex's heart started pounding when she felt the bed dip. I can't believe that Olivia Benson is in the same bed as me.

Once Olivia realized that Alex had no intention of making any kind of move, she scooted over to her side of the bed and tried to lift the covers once more. As Alex had her back to her she could only see Blonde hair, so she lifted herself up on her elbow and tried to get a look at her face.

Alex felt Olivia's breath on her neck and instinctually turned around. She hadn't realized how close Olivia really was.

Once she turned around, Liv's breath caught, she couldn't believe how beautiful Alex was, the proximity was intoxicating. Olivia wanted to kiss her, but didn't even know how to initiate it. Her mind felt entrapped, she knew she had feelings for Alex, but was she really gay? If she kissed her, could she hide from that fact or was it not worth the answer?

As Olivia search her eyes for answers, Alex once again just laid there waiting. For a second she had really thought Olivia was going to kiss her, but then her eyes became unreadable. So when Alex finally resigned herself to reality, she was surprised when she felt soft lips on hers.

Olivia could barley think right now, but she knew she would never regret her decision. As she pressed herself against the blonds' side, she felt Alex's hands make their way up to her hair. The moment she felt hands massage her scalp, her brain shut off and she was operating on instinct.

Liv pulled herself up and placed herself on top of Alex, straddling her waist, without disconnecting their lips. She needed more contact so she dropped down on her elbows, holding up most of her weight and placing the rest on top of Alex.

While Liv was readjusting herself, Alex took full advantage and explored her mouth. Her hands were everywhere on her body, exploring the beautiful toned skin that belong to the detective.

When they both couldn't take it any longer they disconnected for air. As their breathing evened out, Olivia stayed still, afraid that if she moved her perfect moment would disappear.

Once it registered to Alex that she had just kissed her best friend, a blush started to creep up. Oh my god, I will never be able to sleep tonight.

As Olivia looked down at Alex and saw the blush, she couldn't help the small smile that started to show. She had no idea what was going on in the Blonde's head, but she knew that she had to lighten the mood before she started to run again.

"Well Alex, looks like your fantasy with a cop finally came true." And with a grin she rolled off of Alex and slid next to her.

Grateful for the detectives attempt at light conversation, and disappointed with the loss of contact, Alex turned toward her companion and answered.

"Sorry, my fantasy was all about the uniform, I'm not really into plain clothed detectives.

"hum, that sucks, guess I'll just have to go home and dig in my closet." Came her response, as she moved closer to her friend, hoping for more contact.

"Olivia," Alex started no longer able to play along, "what just happened?"

Olivia opened her mouth ready to tease Alex, before she saw the look in her eyes. "I don't know, Alex."

"Liv, I can't believe I just did that. I can't believe I just─" Alex couldn't finish her words. She felt so helpless right now, how could she have fallen for her best friend.

"Lex, look at me," Liv pleaded, as she lifted Alex's chin to look up at her. "remember you didn't do anything wrong. I kissed you and I'm not complaining."

"Liv, you do realize that nothing can ever be the same. We can't just go back to being best friends, because I won't be able to forget that kiss."

"Okay, lets try and talk this through then." Olivia offered, hoping they could salvage something.

"Alright, but we can't do this here, we have got to get out of this bed." Alex said as she started to move and distance herself from Olivia.

As both ladies made their way to the living room, Olivia noticed that it was getting dark outside. Looking at the clock on the wall she found out that it was nearing five. Once they sat down on opposite sides of the big couch, Olivia made a proposition.

"Let's order takeout before we talk, Lex. I think we lost all sense of time today."

And with that gentle offer, Alex got up to order takeout as Olivia made herself comfortable.