4th chapter already. Wow! Anyway, sorry for it being way longer than what I posted for chapters 1,2, and 3. But it's worth reading, I promise!
Her crying became quieter after a little bit. I heard her sniffle a little and felt her try to wipe my collar and neck dry.
"Clare, it's okay. I just need to know, are you alright?" She coughed one more time before she looked at me with those big, beautiful eyes. She wiped her eyes one last time and slowly leaned on me, looking up at me and studying my expression carefully.
"Can we go sit in my car for a bit? I don't see yours." Clare said softly as she took my big hand into hers and led me to her car. She got in the driver's seat, and I sat in the passenger's seat. I could tell that she was thinking, and I'm pretty sure I knew what about.
"Clare. What are you thinking about? And don't lie to me and say nothing, because I know for sure that is not the case." I began as I turned my whole body towards her. The lump in my throat came back, though I desperately needed it to go away.
"I think us taking a break was a mistake. I could just feel myself aching the day after. And Adam and Alli told me to revoke it. Whatever the hell that means. Basically, listen to my heart. And that's what it is telling me," She drifted off and finally looked at me, making eye contact. Her small, pink lips sheepishly smiled at me. I returned the smile, but I was so fucking nervous inside.
"I love you, Eli. More than myself, more than anything. But I'm still mad about you cheating with Lana or whatever her name was." There it was. The turning point in the conversation. Where she would go on to how she just can't forgive me, and how we can't be together.
Prepare yourself, Goldsworthy, you're about to lose the absolute best thing that has ever happened to you. Don't cry, or at least not in front of her.
"Clare, wait," I interrupted, wanting to at least to tell her how I felt before I lost my girl. I leaned back against the seat, realizing something.
My car is 5 minutes away, I could just sprint up there and get it real quick. As long as she stays there and waits for a bit. All I need is 5 minutes,
"I need to give you something, but I left it in my car. Clare, I just need 5 minutes to sprint up there, get it, and jog back. Can you maybe wait for just 5-10 minutes?" I asked, hoping that she would say yes. I watched her as she bit her lip and met my eyes.
"Yes. I'll wait here." She answered, with a small smile and a little hope in her beautiful eyes. I returned the smile once again before I jumped out of her car and started sprinting. Once again, I shoved numerous people in order to get to my car. I was out of breath once I got there, with barely enough strength to reach in and get what I needed, but once I did so, I held it closely to my chest and jogged back. I was close to passing out once I reached Clare, god damn it I am out of shape. But I slowly got back into her car, thrilled to be sitting down. I looked up at Clare, and she looked a bit shocked. I'll explain later.
"Eli, are you okay?" Clare softly asked as she cocked her head to the side, with some of her dark locks falling into her beautiful eyes.
"I'm…Okay…Just, just…" I struggled to say the right things without coughing up a lung. But I collected my breath and put a large book on my lap. I could feel Clare looking at me, and then the book.
"What's that?" I didn't answer. All I did was place the book in her lap. She looked over it but began flipping through the pages, and stopped before looking at me. "These are our e-mails." She sniffled again and smiled a little at me.
"It's the story of us," I finally started a sentence without needing to gulp in air. "Can't let this be the final chapter" I continued, watching her flip through some more pages. "I messed up the best thing that's ever happened to me. I can't leave without trying to fix it. I know that this doesn't fix everything, Clare. But I will do whatever it takes, because I love you. Please don't give up on me. Just…Just know that I will do whatever it takes so that you will be happy to be with me again. Give me a chance." I practically begged her. It was quiet for a few seconds, but she then reached over and hugged me tight. I let out a sigh and closed my eyes, holding her against me.
"I can't wait to read this when I get home." She whispered into my ear as we pulled away. Clare looked at the book, then me.
"I know. I enjoyed reading it. But uhm, I've gotta ask, will you give me another chance?" I reached for her hand, watching as she didn't pull away from me.
"Yes. I'll give you another chance." She laughed a little but pulled me towards her. I watched as she got closer and pressed her lips against mine. Her hand was placed on my neck, bringing me in closer for a deeper kiss. I slowly put my hand on her cheek, running my thumb along the tops of the apple of her cheek. This was long overdue.
Don't get too horny now, Goldsworthy.
Clare was the first to pull away, but she was still close to my face. "Jake went out a while to get takeout for dinner. My mom and Glen went out for their date night. Would you like to join Jake and me?" A small smile spread on my lips as I took her hands into mine.
"It's a date, Edwards. Well, an awkward date that has your step-brother involved. I'm up for it." My smile grew from ear to ear, and Clare did he same.
"Great then." Clare replied as she started her car and began driving towards her house.
This is a start. But with the week that I have left, I should dedicate it to proving to Clare that I love her, and how much I love her. She needs to know that she's the only girl for me.
