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Chapter 3 "Home"

Two days later the doctor let me go . . . "home". That's what they told me it was. I didn't recognize the house. The only reason he let me go home was because Hatori was a doctor and had been my physician for my entire life. Kyo had walked me into the house and up to my bedroom. I didn't recognize anything. None of the things that were supposedly my possesions had any hold for me. I looked at Kyo. "You're sure this is all mine?"

He tried very hard not to smile, but he didn't succeed. I could tell that he was amused and trying not to laugh at me. At the same time he was also worried that I didn't remember things. I looked around the room again. Then I looked back at him. "Do I have to stay in here, by myself?"

His face was abruptly serious. I hadn't allowed him to leave me for more than a few minutes since I had woken up and when he was in the room I was attatched to his arm. He wanted me to become more independant. "You need to try to. But my room is right across the hall so if you get scared you can come get me."

I nodded. That made sense. If I depended on Kyo too much now I would never not depend on him. Which meant that I might never get my memories back. I wanted my memories back. I think. Then again, there had to have been a reason that I didn't want them in the first place.

Kyo put a hand on my shoulder. "You stay here for a few minutes and I'll be right back, ok?"

I nodded and he left. I instantly felt cold and nervous. I went to the bed and sat down then curl myself up with my knees under my chin. I watched the door until he came back. When he did he stopped and stared at me. His face looked pained. "Yuki, are you ok?"

I nodded. But I was shaking. It scared me to not be around him.

He came and sat next to me. "No you aren't." He rubbed my back and I relaxed next to him. He sighed. "Maybe you should stay with me tonight."

I shook my head. "I know I need to spend time by myself. I can't be babied." I tried to put on a determined face but judging from the look on Kyo's face I didn't succeed.

He took my face in both of his hands and looked directly into my eyes. "The moment you get scared you come to my room, ok?"

I nodded, slightly dazed. There was a spark when he touched me. I had noticed it before, but he had never touched my skin. His face suddenly seemed so close. kyo seemed to realize this too and he dropped my face and pulled back. I didn't want him to go. But I was too afraid to try to pull him back. I knew that the kindness he was showing me was strained. not because he didn't want to show me kindness but for some other reason I couldn't place. I didn't want to push my luck.

We sat for a few minutes in a strained silence and I studied the room again. The closet was open and full of what looked like school uniforms and more of what Shigure had brought for me to where home. The room looked unlived in. Everything was in its place and perfectly straight and clean. "I'm very boring, aren't I?"

"Why do you say that?"

"Everything is so clean. If I did anything just for fun or if I had friends wouldn't something be even slightly out of place?"

He shook his head. "Probably not. You're like that. You like everything in its place. You always have."

"It seems like I'm not a person. Are you sure that was really what I wanted and not just what I did because people expected it?"

He looked shocked.

"What?"

He stood and went to my door to close it. "Yuki, everyone does expect you to be perfect. You have always chosen to be perfect so I have assumed that you wanted to be." He turned around to face me. "But if you don't want to be perfect then don't be."

I frowned.

"Think about it this way. Without your memories you can literally be whoever you want to be. You can sort of start over on your life. Just don't let girls hug you."

I nodded. That had been explained to me already. "But I won't understand anything if I don't remember things."

"That might not be a bad thing."

I stared at him. He seemed to be lost in his own thoughts and they were depressing. "What did the doctor say about a therapist? I wasn't really paying attention."

"He wants you to go see one. Hatori agrees. They think that if someone can get you talking in a 'safe' environment that you'll get your memories back faster." He shrugged. "It might help. I don't know anything about head injuries and such so I don't know if it will help."

I nodded. The rest of the afternoon Kyo did things around the house while I followed him. He patiently answered every question I had and didn't say anything when I stared over his shoulder at everything he did. We ate dinner, which was delicious and then went upstairs to go to bed. This was the part of the day I didn't want to come. I knew that I needed to go into my bedroom and climb into my bed and go to sleep on my own. But I didn't want to try. I didn't want to leave Kyo's side.

Kyo walked me to my room and left me at the door. I went in, changed into my sleep clothes and climbed into bed. I looked at the clock as I pulled the blankets up to my chin. It was 10 pm. I was afraid every time I closed my eyes. My room got darker and darker as the night deepened. I glanced at my clock again. Only 10:45. But I couldn't wait any longer. My entire body was shaking as I climbed out of bed and practically ran to Kyo's room. I knocked on the door and waited only a moment.

Kyo opened the door and I jumped into his arms. I clutched the back of his shirt and buried my head in the crook of his neck. He put his arms around me and guided me into his room and to his bed. I cuddled up next to him in the bed. He wrapped me in his arms and I was asleep in moments.

A/N: I've already started writing this story in Kyo's point of view. Any thoughts on a title? Review!