The next day had already come. Even with all of her problems Jenny some how fell asleep. True she fell asleep in the fetal position crying, but it was still sleeping. Now it was time to take on school. Wait... No! Today was time to take on Spencer.
Clothes didn't seem to matter so she threw on what ever looked good. Not that any one would complain about her outfit. It'd be some sort of a death wish to have a nasty comment about what ever she was wearing. Days like these, the soon to be crappy ones, it was good to be queen. You always knew people would be nice. That no one would have the guts to tell you the truth.
Some people could consider it a type of denial. Knowing every one will be nice to you, until one day you believe they really mean the words they're saying. Jenny didn't believe all the compliments were true. Strange to think any of the real compliments she ever got were from the girls she never hung out with. Jenny could only imagine all the bitchy comments her so called friends made. That's high school girls though.
Trying to not make a scene, also known as trying not to make Nate notice her, Jenny slyly tip-toed down the stairs. If it was possible to get out of the house without being detected would be a blessing. Dan and her dad probably have been preparing their speech about language or whatever. And Nate probably didn't even want to talk to her. He'd just shake his head and continue with what he was doing. Neither seemed like fun experiences to go through.
"Going to talk to him?" Nate suddenly appeared behind her. Something inside him needed to know. Even if Jenny was blowing things out of proportion, he still cared.
Jenny grabbed her heart in shock, "Oh God Nate! Don't sneak up on me like that!" She tried to laugh a little, but Nate looked really serious, "Actually I was planning on going to the bathroom first if that was ok with you? Or are you going to force me to go directly to him?" Sarcasm defiantly was there.
That seemed unnecessary. But Nate had to admit his facial exasperation was a way to serious look; his voice could be softer too, "By all means. Go. I wont bump into just wearing a towel again." He meant it as a cute friendly joke. To bad it started to give Jenny all the wrong ideas in the right way.
"That's a shame..." Playfully, yet seriously, Jenny winked and ran into the bathroom. She had to be one hundred percent about this before talking to Spencer. If it was a yes, then they really had to talk. If it was a no, then they could move on with there lives. No matter what Jenny knew Spencer and her could never be the same.
Looking into the mirror, Jenny wished it was broken. If the mirror was broken then she would be able to see a perfect imagine of herself. Because deep down she felt like a million pieces. Perfect wasn't her. Crazy wasn't either, "You are not Serena. You are not Blair. This is all a bad dream. After you see the answer you can love him again. You can be in love with Spencer again." Talking to herself in the mirror like that only made her more like Blair, and she didn't even know it.
The bathroom door swung up as Jenny emotionless-ly came out. Did this happen to every queen? Was it some kind of sick ritual God played on girls to see them squirm. She should have learned from Blair's mistake. If Gossip Girl knew this... Jenny was no Blair. No way in hell could she ever recover.
Nate smiled to himself as he watched her leave. He watched the elevator until it finally hit lobby. So there was no real way to make sure she was going, but it was good enough for now. One thing bugged him though. She sure came out of the bathroom hollow. Like there were no thoughts in her mind. Not happy, not sad, not angry, not excited, just hollow.
All the sudden he realized he really had to go to the bathroom. Four glasses of apple juice and drinking all the milk from your cereal didn't necessarily make you want to dance. Nate ran into the bathroom just in time.
While he was washing his hands something couldn't help but catch his eye. It wasn't even something strange. He noticed it though. A little rectangular box. Nate froze looking at it. No it wasn't the rectangular shape that made him rapidly turn off the faucet. But it was what was written on the box.
"Where's Jenny?!" Nate screamed as he ran out of the bathroom to the living room, "Dan where is she?! I have to talk to her now!" His advice could cause her whole life to be destroyed. If only he knew what he was giving advice on earlier.
Dan laughed and had some of his coffee, "You basically watched her leave. What's the big deal?" How could going to the bathroom make Nate suddenly need to see Jenny? Actually maybe that question was better left unanswered.
"I just really have to talk to her!" He ran to the elevator and waited impatiently, "I'll explain when I get back!" Nate yelled as the doors closed. No doubt he'd think of a lie on his way back to tell Dan. Then again, he didn't know when he'd be coming home. Who knew how long it'd take to help Jenny?
Jenny skipped up the school steps. Spencer was up there talking to his friends. All relaxed and care free. The perfect time to talk to him. Or possibly the worse. It didn't matter, she had to talk to him now and not a minute later.
"Hey Spencer... Can I talk to you?" Jenny softly said looking at all of his friends, "Alone?" She wanted to take deep breathes, but she couldn't. Air was leaving her to quick to even try to get it back.
Spencer looked at all his friends, and nudged away, "Yeah, sure. What's going on? We haven't talked for a while... We're still going to prom right?" He sounded concerned. It was sweet when a boy cared like that.
Saying this was going to be one of the hardest thing Jenny had ever had to do, "You can decide after this," Jenny did take a deep breathe, "The thing is Spencer. I kind of." She got cut off by Nate.
"Jen can I talk to you? Great," Nate grabbed her arm and pulled her away, "Ok new plan. Don't use my advice. Jenny I saw the box in the bathroom. If you told me this was why he was avoiding you my advice would have been completely different." He was only hoping he caught her before she told Spencer.
"Nate... I didn't really tell you everything last night," Jenny stopped. Once again Nate knew more then he should, "First off, why were you looking in our trash? Second off, how the hell did you get here so fast? And third, why bother?" So the third question was just a bonus. Something Jenny could remember.
"One, I just saw it ok? Second, I took a cab and ran the last to blocks to stop you. Third, I care because this is a big deal! You're my friend Jenny. And telling a guy you're," Nate lowered his voice, "Pregnant or not for sure is huge. If he's been ignoring you because he thought you were, imagine how he'll be now? I'm just looking out for you." She probably wouldn't understand where he was coming from. He went through it with Blair. Then again Blair also had an affair with Chuck, so it was a little different.
"Shut up Nate! He wasn't even ignoring me!" Jenny was freaked out if any one heard, "I was ignoring him! There's a difference. It's complicated ok? Can we talk later?" They couldn't talk now. Not around every one like this.
Why was she doing this to him? All he was doing was caring about her. Maybe he was caring more then he should, but Nate couldn't help it. Jenny was driving him crazy! And that craziness was only making him want to help her more. Damn friendship.
Nate wanted to brush the hair out of her face, he didn't, "Just tell me why it's so complicated. I mean how complicated can it be? Either he supports you, or he doesn't." Saying that out loud sounded a lot colder. He was right though. Spencer was with her, or without her.
Jenny gave him a fake smile, and it was obvious it was fake, "You're right Nate! I mean how complicated could it be? Oh yeah," She got only inches away from Nate's face, "We've never slept together. Spencer and I have never, I repeat never, had sex. So when I have to tell my loyal boyfriend I had to take a pregnancy test, things get a little complicated." After that Jenny was about to faint. Her life really was ruined.
"Oh my... Jenny I had no idea that was the problem," Nate felt like he should hug her or something. Something Dan would do. Actually Dan would probably be screaming his head off, "What ever you need I'm here for you."
History really was repeating itself. Jenny was really the new Blair. And Spencer was really the new Nate. The only thing to figure out was who was the new Chuck. It felt weird watching the problems, instead of being a part of them. Nate didn't necessarily like that feeling.
"Go away Nate. That's all you can do. I obeyed Blair. I followed Blair. I listened to Blair. Blair taught me a lot, even when I wasn't one of her minions but..." She sighed thinking about what she was going to have to do, "This was one thing I didn't learn. But it's the biggest thing I should have. I'm sorry, I really need to get to class." Jenny healed back a tear as she turned her back on the one guy who would understand.
This was pure insane. Not in a million years had Nate imagined going through this... again. The fact it was happening wasn't the thing that was killing him. Jenny became a part of a thing like this. It was clear to see she had changed a lot, but something this big. She should have been more careful. Who was he to judge? Yet he expected better from her.
As she was walking away Nate realized something. The answer. What was the answer?! Was Jenny really pregnant? Or wasn't she? He never got the answer. All he knew now is that she cheated on Spencer, and that's why she was being so distance from him. But what was the answer? Was there going to be a little bundle of drama coming into the world or not?
"Jenny! Wait Jenny!" Nate chased after her, stopping the door right before it closed, "You have to tell me the truth. Are you really... You know?" He was afraid to say it out loud. Every one seemed to be ease dropping; starring. Strangely most of the eyes seemed to be on him. The fact they all got Gossip Girl hadn't occurred to Nate.
"I have to go Nate..." Jenny looked into the eyes she had to deceive. Deceive might not be the right world, but it gets the job done. She wasn't treating him the way she should, "Forgive me?" With that Jenny walked away.
Note: Did any one else feel this chapter was really awkward? I don't know... I feel it came out kind of bumby. Did I let you down?
