Kaylee: Woot. Im really anxious to keep writing :D I hope its good…
Ikuto: It would be better if me and Amu had a personal alone time .. ;D *licks lips again*
Amu: S-Shutup I-Ikuto… *Blushes*
Kaylee: Jeeez. When do you NOT blush Amu?
Amu: *blushes*
Kaylee: Anyways… Read and review! I DON'T OWN SHUGO CHARA :D
AMU'S POV.
I blushed. As usual. That was a really bad habit. *sigh* I looked at Ikuto again and then had a fear that everybody was staring… A big pause.
"AHHHH! AMU ARE YOU GUYS REALLY DATING!"
I looked away from Ikuto slightly blushing. Ikuto had a small gap in his mouth then he composed him self and smirked. "Mmm. No. But im sure Amu would like that." He smirked at me teasingly and I turned my back to him.
My heart was racing 100 miles an hour. I felt his stare on the back of my head.. I truly wish that he was mine..but I highly doubt that he would ever date someone like me..Speaking of which..
"Hey, Amu." He paused. "Wanna go hang out somewhere you know, as friends..? You know I haven't seen you for awhile.."
I blinked at him for a minute. I sighed as he said the word.. Friends.. But I don't blame him.. because its not like were dating or anything… He has no idea how much I like him.. I can't build enough courage to just SAY it. Fingers snapped in my face.
Ikuto chuckled again. "Haha. Amu you thinking about me again?" Of course, I was. I lied and said, "No." softly as I looked at the ground. He took my hand and he took me to class.
I looked at our hooked hands and I blushed a darker pink. He stopped at our class and I kept walking and ran right into him. He looked at me and just started laughing. How embarrassing.. I wiped off my blush and said a small ' bye' over my shoulder as I walked into class.
2 minutes until the bell rang. I sat up from my sleep in class and realized that I forgot that Ikuto, Ikuto, was here again. Maybe I would be a little more open with my friends, and not so gloomy like I used to be.
BEEEEP!
There went the bell. I got up quickly and ran towards the door. I saw him outside walking through the hallway. I didn't want him thinking I was desperate so I quickly composed my self and went to the door to see him waiting there for with his hand out again.
I looked at it and thought, What should I do! I panicked. Should I take it or not? Ahhh! I looked back at him staring at me awkwardly. He then said, "You scared? Its not like were dating." I nodded and took his hand nervously.
He started to laugh. I narrowed my eyes at him and said "What?"
"Oh nothing, its just I love seeing you blush everytime your around me. It makes me think…
"N-o..No.. NOO!" I waved my hands in front of me frantically. "I would never date a playboy like you..!"
I turned to see his expression. He was staring forwards grinning, then it turned into a smirk. I
Narrowed my eyes at him and was about to ask what's so funny then he came around and snaked his arms around my waist and said, "Now that was cold. Amu." I started blushing mad fast. His face a couple inches from mine. He started too laugh to himself and slowly let her go and said "Haha, I wouldn't attempt that."
I glared death at him as we walked to class.
Once we got to class, I turned around and said "Well…Bye…" and I turned half way just enough to see his amazing sapphire eyes. I was mesmerized by them. He smiled, waved, and walked away.
I turned back around to see if he was gone, then I saw. I saw him walk up to another girl. I made my eyes go a little closer to see what they were doing. I saw them giggling. I saw her hug him, he hugged her back.
I knew this was too good to be true. I ran back into class and sat in my assigned seat. My head down the whole time…filled with nothing but tears.
Why am I getting so jealous? I'm getting so furious at him, but I can't be mad at him. Its not his fault. It was mine.
I walked out the classroom when the bell rang, wiped my tears away and Ikuto standing there waiting for me again.
"Hey,Amu, guess what I-"
"No. Ikuto. It hurts me to say this, but…" My word stuttered. I think I was going to cry. But no. I can't. This is what growing up means.
"Just..leave me alone…for awhile.."
I couldn't take it anymore. I turned away and started to walk fast away from him. But then, I felt a heavy hand on my shoulder. I looked up to see Ikuto right beside me.
"What are you talking about Amu?"
"I-Its not your fault…"
Its not your fault that im deeply in love with you…. I finished in my head.
All I got in response was a "Huh…?"
"Nevermind, forget it."
I turned around once more and started to walk home. My shugo chara's came out and started to chat with me. Making an attempt to make me feel better.
"AMU! REMEMBER WHAT YOUR MOTHER SAID?" Ran said obnoxiously.
"Yeah Yeah! She said when she was younger she would always have a journal that she wrote in." Miki said trying to sound smart.
"I'll make you some chicken noodle soup~desu!" Su added.
I smiled at them. "Yeah…Maybe I will!"
I went inside the house, ran upstairs, And spun around and fell on my bed. I pulled out the journal that my Mother had once gave me. I never really wanted to write in it before… I grabbed a pen and started to write…
Just Let Go.
Secrets, Lies and holding it all in..
Tears are shredding like cheese on a cheese shredder..
My heart is cracking, I need to stop holding back, let it go..
She loves him; She can give him what he wants..
I need to just let go…
I shut the journal shut, Kind of proud. (A/N JACQUELYN OWNS THAT POEM NO STEALZ!)
I went to sleep once it got later.
Kaylee: Heh. I WRITE MOARZ LATER. :D Review. Muah.
Michelle: I'm still putting these up, bench ;D
