Chapter four. Face to face
I woke up. It was time for school. I was numb. I got ready put my long sleeve on and my skinny's.
I looked in the mirror I started crying. I grabbed some scissors. Chopped my hair to my mid face. Cut my bangs. I put dark eyeliner on. Black eye shadow on. I went downstairs. My mom was cooking me eggs. She took one look at me and dropped the pan. Eggs went flying everywhere.
"You don't like it?" I whispered.
"No sweetie no. I love it. Its just so different from what you usually were. You always look pretty no matter what." She said with optimistic.
"Thanks mom" I smiled.
"You want breakfast?"
"No I'm not really hungry mommy."
"Okay sweetie lets get you to school" She drove me to school. We didn't talk much. When I walked into school everybody looked at me with there jaws dropped. I didn't care. I went to math class .Sat in the back didn't look up.
"Everybody. This is our new student. Seth Black" said. I could care less about a new student. I didn't even care enough to look. Next thing I know I hear heavy foot steps coming to the back of the class. The only seat open was the one next to me. Great, just what I needed.
"Hey I'm Seth Black" His deep voice said. I looked up and didn't even smile.
"Yea I know I heard. I'm Jenifer Love." He extended his arm toward mine. I took my left arm and shook his. The sleeves went up and he looked but no emotion showed to his face. I studied him more. He had to at least be fifteen. He had steady puppy brown eyes. He was tall, Cute black hair nice body. I didn't care though. I went back to work. I barely worked. All I did was stare at my paper. Thinking. I wanted to runaway from the pain. There was no escaping it. It felt like a knife was in my stomach being twisted every two seconds. There was no way to escape it though. I couldn't do anything about it. The day passed by slowly. By the time I came to reality it was already time for lunch. I walked alone. Hoping I wouldn't see Tyler. I got my lunch and went all the way to the back of the cafeteria. I thought and thought. How do I tell my mom? How could my neighbor read me? Why couldn't Seth get out of my mind? Why did this happen to me? I wish I could just have a normal life. But I couldn't. It happened. I know it did. I got raped.l3 I still wanted to die. Die painfully by slashing my wrists lying in a tub. Watching the clear crystal water turn bloody red. Here I was barely eating my macaroni. Starring at it.
"Hey Jen" I heard my best friend Amy say. We were complete opposites. She was pink and energetic. Big blue eyes, long eyelashes, beautiful straight blond long hair, & okay body. While I had hazel-light brownish eyes that everybody wished they had, short brown hair, Curves in all the right places, Flashing smile, Big dimples, Beautiful. That's what everybody would say. I didn't feel so beautiful right now.
"What happened to you at the party? Why'd you leave? I saw you go upstairs with Tyler. Mm. What happened?" She said curiously.
"Nothing okay. He was just showing me his new guitar." I said sharply stabbing my macaroni.
"That 's not what I heard. I heard that yawl smashed. That he told you he loved you."
"That's not what happened."
"Then what did happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"All right if that's what you want." I went cold. My body went stiff. I ran out of the cafeteria. And then suddenly I hit a brick wall. I fell down crying. Feeling worthless. I started running out of the school. I ran. I didn't know where I was running, I ended up running all the way home. I didn't have a key. I just sat there numb crying looking down.
"Jen I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to bump into you. I'm sorry." I heard Seth say. I looked up. Starring.
"You followed me?" I asked.
"Well when you fell you started crying. It wasn't like I was just going to let you run home crying. What's wrong?" I felt so warm. So protected when I was with him. It was weird. He sat next to me. He tipped my chin up looked me in the eyes. I felt his hot breath against my skin. My heart sped up. I felt my face turning red. I got butterflies.
"You can tell me anything. I know we've only known each other for a few hours, but I feel like I have to protect you. Make you happy. Please tell me. It kills me to see you like this. I don't know why I feel like this" I felt so safe, so warm. I hugged him and squeezed him. I started sobbing.
"I-I-I g-got raped." I sobbed more into his shoulder. He was silent he rubbed my back.
"It'll be okay. Its okay. Be strong. We can get trough this."
"I-I didn't wa-want to. I said no. I begged him not to. He hurt me. He ripped me in half. He took the only thing God gave me. I can't get it back" I sobbed more into his shoulder. He stayed silent and just kept rubbing my back. I cried for two hours straight. Seth just rubbed my back listening to me. I started falling asleep. It was like I was half awake and half asleep. I heard my moms car pull up into the driveway.
"Jenny?" She gasped.
"Shh shh. She's had a rough day. I'm Seth Black. You must be Miss. Love." I heard Seth's voice say. I felt like I was faraway.
"Yes I am. It's nice to meet you. What happened?" She whispered.
"She ran into me crying ran all the way here and I followed her and she's just been crying "He whispered.
"Hear lets put her on the couch and we can talk. And if you'd like eat." I heard his stomach growl.
"Yes ma'am." I felt his body getting up. I heard the *Whoosh* of the door. I felt comfort softness under me. I felt heat oat the top of my body. Like a blanket. Then I completely went to sleep.
