Warm and alive, I'm all over you. Would you smother me?
-The Used "Smother Me"
Groggy I peeled one eye open before slamming it shut.
"Briiight." I moaned out pityously. I waved my hand and heard the curtains all shut. With a smile I snuggled back into the blankets. A freezing cold hand touched my forehead.
"Cooold!" I moaned swatting the hand.
"Harry... Are you alright?" At the sound of that silky voice I cracked an eye open to see Edward right in my face. My breath caught in my throat before I cleared it.
"Fine just tired. I forgot vampires are heavy as fuck." I smiled at his worried face.
"I'm so sorry Harry. We should have never allowed you and your family to get involved with this. I should have been the one to handle it. Bella is my responsiblity. Not anyone else's." Edward sounded torn up and my heart broke at the sound. I touched his cheek and brought his topaz eyes to mine.
"This was NOT your fault. I'm just a magnet for dangerous things. Plus if I hadn't singlehandledly brought her back she would have never escaped. There weren't enough of us to restrain her. That's all this was. It was my fault. And I don't want to hear another word about it are we understood?" I held his face in my hand as I gave my speech forcing him to listen and obey.
"Fine... You should thank Ron and Draco when you feel like going downstairs. If it wasn't for them showing up at the right time... I don't know what she would have done to you." Edward grabbed my hand and turned his face from me. Patting his hand I let a small smile slip onto my face.
He cared about me. That was enough to satisfy my heart.
"Harry come on we're going to be late for school!"
A few weeks later and it was as if nothing had hapened. Edward and Bella were still an item though the strain was visibly there. I did my best to avoid making flirty comments towards Edward. I even tried being Bella's friend. I felt like something had happened when I was asleep and I needed to do something to make up for it. Besides the vampire attack everything else was pretty normal. I had started hanging out with Jacob and Draco. The other shapeshifters there were quite fun and they always loved horsing around with our magic.
They were very accepting of Jacob and Draco which was interesting, you would think they wouldn't be as open minded about that but they were. Probably because Jacob wasn't the alpha nor did he want to be. He was perfecctly happy just being Draco's mate and giving the spoiled blonde whatever he wanted. It seemed to be a trend with all the shapshifters to dote on their loved ones. It made my heart ache every time we left there. Of course until a shapeshifter of my own was following me around. I had noticed Embry was always shy and embarrassed with me.
"Hey Embry what are you doing?" I snuck up behind him as he was working on a car.
"Oh! Harry... Um just fixing this car. What are you doing up this way?" he asked looking anywhere but at me.
"I got bored watching Jacob and Draco talk mushy gushy. So I decided to come see you." I said with a smile. Embry's whole face was red.
"Well um we could go to the movies or something..." he mumbled looking at his shoes.
"That sounds fun!" I grabbed his hand and dragged him to his car. I knew the only way to get him to really go on a date was to make it seem like it wasn't a date.
As we drove we made chit-chat and I realized Embry was a very sweet guy. Quiet and depressed about his nameless father but sweet and kind. I could very easily see myself with a guy like him... If it wasn't for Edward's face that kept popping up at me. Pushing that aside I let myself have fun with Embry. He was kind and a gentleman. Plus he knew I liked popcorn mixed with MnMs. After we made it back home Embry droped me off and I let himkiss my cheek. I had made up my mind to live without Edward but I couldn't see myself alone forever. Embry was cute and he liked me. That would be enough. I would make it enough.
Edward wasn't happy. I could tell he wasn't as soon as I pulled up. My face had a huge smile on it and I knew Embry's did as well. We had just went cliffdiving and it was the biggest rush of my life. Also it was Embry and my first month anniversary. Two things that just itched Edward the wrong way: me being with someone else and me having a good time with that someone else. I had gotten use to the glaring and the not talking. It wasn't my fault he wanted to have a girlfriend but keep me single. I was allowed to live right?
Embry kissed my cheek and I turned my thoughts back to him. He was adorable. With his hair tousled and salt water still clinging to him I wanted to kiss him. So I did. It was probably our seventh kiss all together. I was scared to let things go to far. Knowing my mental state I'd probably do things I'd regret. Thankfully he was very patient.
"I had a wonderful time. And thanks for letting me drive. I'll see you tomorrow?" I asked getting ready to open the car door.
"Yeah, bye babe." Embry said sliding over in the truck to sit at the wheel.
I kept waving until I could no longer see him. Edward was right behind me when I turned around. Expecting it I just smiled.
"What's up Edward?" I asked acting like I was innocent.
"Why are you dating him?" Edward asked a noticable growl under his words.
"Because I like him and he likes me. That's what two people do when they like each other." I was trying not to be annoyed with him but honestly I had more finesse dealing with it.
"But... But... he's a wolf! And he's not even your type!" Edward was getting flustered but I wasn't giving him a life jacket. Let him drown.
"He IS my type or I wouldn't kiss him. Draco is dating a wolf? Is that a big deal? As I recall you were all for it?" I put my hands on my hips and raised an eyebrow. Draco did it enough that I knew I could pull of the same look.
"It's just... Draco isn't you..." Edward mumbled his eyes turning sad and lonely. I took a deep breath through my nose and let it out slowly.
"Deal with it."
I walked away wanting to run back into his arms. But he was with Isabella. He has no right to tell me how to live my life. If he liked me he would have tried to be with me. He gave up his rights... But that didn't make it any easier on my heart...
I knew the exact moment they broke up. Edward sent out a mental wave so strong I was nearly knocked off my chair. Asking to go to the bathroom I nearly apparated there. When I did reach the stall door he burst through and tackled me in a hug before I could blink.
"She left me Harry... She just left me... She couldn't stand my attitude anymore... And she had already gotten everything she had wanted... The new car, the new clothes, and all the new gadgets... She didn't love me. She knew how to use my secret to get what she wanted... She was so evil.. I can't believe I let her destroy me... I don't know what to do... What do I do Harry?" Edward was pacing now so hard I was scared he'd leave marks in the floor. I stepped infront of him smoothly.
"Calm down. For one she's a bit-bad bad word. For two obviously you just have to let it go. I know it's easier said then done but it's true. If she's not the one, she's not the one. There is nothing you can do to change that fact or make anything any less painful. You have to let her go Edward and move on. And it's okay because you have me and everyone else. We'll always be here for you." I said hugging him with a smile. When I looked up his face was dangerously close to mine.
"Edward what are you-?" Before I could finish my sentence his lips touched mine.
Author's Note: Correct version of Blood and Music 4. Sorry about all that! I haven't had internet due to the move into my new apartment. Oh and I'm moving all my stories soon so stay posted!
