"A depressed person shouldn't fall in love, they become whole... but what happens when that person leaves?"

Brittany's Point Of View

I didn't do it. I didn't kill myself. I didn't even try to kill myself. Every time I'm about to try to commit suicide I think of that one percent of things I'll miss in life, and that one percent always wins.

I sighed as I dug my hands in my face. Why was I like this? Why was life so empty and depressing to me? I felt my eyes get watery, great! This is the worst kind of crying, when you don't know the reason why your crying. I felt my throat get lumpy as I felt a tear going down my face. "Sh*t" I cried "Why am I feeling like this?" cried quietly to myself. I felt more tears go down my eyes. I wish I could feel something, I wish I felt something anything.

Then suddenly my phone rang. I glanced at the caller I.D '702-454-7829'

Who the hell is this? I guess I'll just answer it.

"Hello. Who is this?" I said.

"Hi baby, what are you doing?" I knew that voice by heart.

"Hi Alvin." I said wiping away a tear "I'm just in my room writing a song, brushing my hair, and stuff like that. What are you doing?"

"I'm working, I'm on my lunch break so I called you from my works phone."

"Oh." I said playing with my hair. Then I got an idea. "Alvin?"

"Yeah Brittany?" He said.

"My parents aren't gonna be home tonight, neither are my sisters or brother, I'm gonna be home alone, so I was wondering if you can come over and help me with my song."

"Ummm yeah sure, what time do you want me over?" Alvin said.

"How about... 8:00?" I asked.

"Yeah sure that's fine I'll see you at 8:00"

"Okay."

"I have to go now babe I love you."

"I love you too Alvin." I said giggling. Then I hung up.

I sighed as I fell on my bed. I was feeling a feeling now, The greatest feeling in the world. Love.


After a while I got really bored so I decided to go to the mall. Right now I was in Victoria Secret looking at the body sprays. I liked smelling good. I didn't need lingerie I kind of well already have lingerie. And No I'm not a slut, I just well got some in case I ever got a boyfriend. But I'm not wearing any lingerie tonight me and Alvin only been dating for a few weeks. I smiled at the sweet scent of strawberry body spray. "I'm going to get this one." I said gently to myself. When I turned around I saw two faces I didn't want to see.

"Hi slut." Vanessa said looking at me with discuss.

"Hi Vanessa." I said looking at the blond. She was wearing a short blue dress and flats with a big summer hat. She looked so ugly.

"Oh look Vanessa she's wearing those ugly bracelets again." Her other friend Mary said.

"And those hideous long sleeve shirts, sweetheart you really need fashion advice." Vanessa said.

"I like my shirts." I said. I think I was dressing fine. I was wearing a black long sleeve shirt, with white torn up skinny jeans, and high heels.

"Oh sweetie you're just so messed up." Vanessa said. Then suddenly she graved my wrists aggressively and read "Fearless, Recovery, Believe, Faith, Fighter, and Relapse. You're pathetic." I got out of her tight grip. And touched my bracelets there was nothing wrong with them.

"Bitch." I muttered. Vanessa's head jerked up.

"Oh, you and that looser Alvin fit well together. Because in case you haven't realized bitch I am being nice to you and now I'm going to start being a bitch to you." Then with out me having any reaction she grabbed my song journal. "Hey give it back!" I said trying to get it, but she just kept tossing it around. "Nah I don't want to. Why don't you make you stupid ass to get it? Orphan, nobody wanted you" Then a strong firm voice said "Give her back the book." I saw a blond girl with pigtails, she had brown eyes, a cute face, she was a bit chubby but she was beautiful . She was wearing yoga pants and a green shirt. She looked athletic. Next to her was Jeanette a shy girl who was lead in are group assignment. She was wearing a baggy purple sweater, a blue skirt, and sneakers.

"No, fat*ss B*tch, I don't want to." Then suddenly the blond girl graved the book from her hands this made Vanessa lose balance and she fell. "Oh Vanessa are you okay?!" Her friend cried.

The blond girl just graved my arm and took me to the back of the store.

"Thank you." I said smiling at the blond girl.

"Oh it was nothing. I just really don't like her. And by the way I'm Eleanor. Eleanor Miller."

"Nice to meet you Eleanor, I'm Brittany Clock." Eleanor gave me a warm smile. I waved to Jeanette "Hey Jeanette." Jeanette just smiled.

"I hate how she rubbed in that you where a orphan from Australia." Eleanor said shaking her head.

"Yeah I know." Jeanette said.

"Yeah, it's pretty annoying."

"I mean I'm not ashamed of it. I was an orphan from Australia." Eleanor said. My head jerked up "Really?" I asked.

"Yeah, she is. I'm one too." Jeanette said.

"That's awesome.

"Umm well want to get some lunch?" Eleanor asked.

"Okay, sure I don't see why not! Just let me just buy this body spray first." I said.

After I got the body spray we went around the food court finding somewhere yummy to eat finally we both agreed on Italian.

I got a small salad, Jeanette got pasta, and Eleanor got pizza and pasta.

We where both eating when Jeanette sparked a conversation.

"So does anyone like any guys?" Jeanette asked giggled and taking a bite of her pasta.

"Yeah." Me and Eleanor both said at the same time.

"You first." Eleanor said.

"Well I actually have a boyfriend now." Jeanette and Eleanor raised there eyebrows. "Who?" They both asked at the same time.

"Alvin." I said taking a bite of my salad.

"So he finally got you?" Jeanette said laughing.

"Yeah, but I kind of always had a thing for him I just wish he would have talked to me sooner." I said smiling. For once I felt really good.

"I bet you guys look cute together." Eleanor said.

"Yeah I just wish he'd give up on his stupid rap music and actually focus on school." I said taking a sip of my water.

"Oh no Brittany!" Eleanor said "I've gone to a rap battle before and I happened to see him. He's a freaking' genius!"

"He i-" I was about to ask Eleanor a question when I remembered he was coming over to my house to see me tonight. "Do you guys happen to know the time?" I asked.

"Yeah it's 7:40." Jeanette said.

"Oh my gosh I haft to go now." I said standing up and graving my bad.

"Why?" Eleanor said.

"Because, Alvin's coming over to my house tonight." I said slightly blushing when I said that.

"Okay have fun in bed with him if you know what I mean." Eleanor said giggling along with Jeanette.

"We haven't had- Ugh this isn't your business. See you guy at school tomorrow."

"Bye Brittany." They both said.

It took me about 15 minutes to walk home, so I got there at 7:55 I quickly ran upstairs to my closet. I found a silk nightgown it was short, and pink. (And spaghetti strapped) I'll just ware this. I slipped on the gown, and let my auburn hair down from my ponytail then sprayed my body spray on me. "There I'm ready." I said to myself. And I was ready just in time because then I heard the doorbell ring. I went downstairs barefooted. I walked to the door and opened it.

"Hi." I said shyly "Come in." I let him in and I swear the second he stepped foot in the house he just kissed me. I felt his tongue lick my lips. I opened my mouth and granted his entry. I moaned in the kiss. I felt his hands touch my waist. FINALLY I pulled away.

"You smell good." Alvin said digging his face in my hair. I let out a giggle.

"thank you." I said.

"I missed you." Alvin said still holding me.

"I missed you too." I pushed him away gently and said "Come on let me show you to my bedroom." I graved Alvin's hand and dragged him to my bedroom. When I opened the door he looked around and then his eyes went on my vanity "Why do you have a pocket knife?" he asked. Oh crap I forgot to put it up after I cut. "Oh it's my brothers." I lied.

"Oh." Was all he could say. I walked over to my desk and got the song sheet I was talking about over the phone. "Okay so here's the song." I said giving him the sheet. "I really don't feel like writing. I had a long f*cking day." He said putting my music sheet on my bed.

"Well then come sit down with me." I sat motioning him to my bed. He sat down next to me. He looked troubled. "Alvin what's wrong?" I said in a worried tone.

"Nothing, nothing you should know." He said gently holding my hand.

"Your the best thing that ever happened to me." Alvin said gently touching my face. I smiled and said "Your sweet. I love you" Alvin smiled "I love you more." then he leaned and kissed me very aggressively. I felt his tongue explore my mouth. My tongue explored his mouth he tasted good. I found myself moaning. I felt his hand start touching my thighs. I found myself wanting more of him I pushed him on his back and kissed him more aggressively.


I woke up and looked next to me, I was surprised to see Alvin wasn't there. I covered my naked body with the sheets. I looked around my room and then I saw a note on my lamp table. I graved it and read it.

Brittany you where amazing and I love you and I'm honored you trusted me with this. I had to go work overtime today, I'll see you at school today.

Love,

Alvin

I smiled at the note for once I felt whole.


Oh no Brittany's falling too in love! And Eleanor's in the story Yay! Next Chapter is in Eleanor's Point of View. And next chapter Brittany's more B*tchy and Simon's more smartyish! Please Please PLEASE Review! I'm begging you to REVIEW please please! Please Review! Also the next Chapter Brittany's a cheerleader, she's way more in character! Please Review! I hope I fixed my grammar errors!