"Hey how are you? You guard dogs gone home yet?"
"Ha no their here somewhere lurking, I don't see why I can protect myself"
"Yeah right you about as strong as me"
"Ahem ill have you know I've been training with Derek and I'm getting pretty good" we both smirked it was kind of awkward but I like him he seems NORMAL if there is such a thing when werewolves are running around? Well he seems to get me unlike me brother.
"Hey day dreamer you coming?"
"Erm yeah sorry".
Stiles throws his arm over my shoulder "let's show you around ay?"
Picking his hand off me I squeeze his hand tightly, "Never put your arm around me ok?"
"Yeah, yeah fine it's ok".
As you'd expect a gym, classrooms, the never ending corridors and walls of lockers, it was your everyday high school except for the werewolves that run around at night. Being with Stiles is calming i forget for a few minutes that I'm even undercover as such, like for once I'm a normal teenager. A girl - talking to a boy. Whether I find him attractive or not that's another thing intirely, I suppose for a guy of his age he's quite good looking, though he looks a lot younger with his little baby face.
Some times I find myself looking at him a little to long and when ever he smiles this little sincere grin I light up and can't help but to laugh. And I haven't really laughed or cracked a smile in so long I would always fake one just to keep mom and dad happy, which of coarse it did so I guess maybe I do have a little of the lying gene from the Hales, maybe. Or maybe it's just luck for having such a plain canvas of a face for the majority of the time I'm expressionless, just sitting there thinking, daydreaming, over thinking about the tiniest thing.
My bottom half had began to go numb I'd been sitting in my window, Dereks window for hours. I can't sleep, haven't been able to since i got here not really anyway. It's almost as if I'm too awake, nocternal maybe. Or maybe it was the room seeing as it wasn't really mine i am just residing here. I feel bad for that Derek sleeps on the couch and god knows where Isaac and Erica sleep Boyd on the other hand comes and goes i think he still stays at home, though for all i know he could live in another apartment. I'm suprised they stayed in school actually I'd probably wolf out when i get pissed at a teacher talking down to me or when they give me an F on an asignment. I barely cope with highschool as it is let almone having to deal with super human abilities.
As for the school itself you get use to the smell of sweaty gym clothes and bleach from the cleaners the night before. Then theres the half broken lockers and the screeching sound they make as you open them. But everything just seems more i don't know heightened, i smell things i couldn't before, hear things clearer than i use to. Like in the parking lot yesterday i could hear someone who had drop their keys from the other side of the lot asif they were right next to me. I'm normally so blindly oblivious i don't even hear the lock on my own car. Maybe being related to a werewolf has rubbed off on me so now i have super hearing and smelling abilities. Or maybe just maybe my sleep derivation has kicked into overdrive on the randomness side of my brain. Well i am closing in on my 17th birthday maybe this is puberty finally kicking in?
You'd think after 3 weeks I'd be used to the lingering stares and whispers behind hands. But no. As hard as it was for me to admit I just didn't fit in here not because of being a Hale but its that I doesn't feel right lying to them. To Stiles. It's not my natural instinct maybe for Derek, Isaac and Erica but not me, lying isn't just something that comes easily to me. I'm awkward, I don't make I contact and I fidget. Yet Derek wants me to participate in this huge scheme to find out information that he could easily find out with a little threatening behaviour and I'm sure that he scares Scott just as much as everyone else in this town. I'm not quite sure how long I'll be able to keep this act up, before I start to actually get close to these people before they turn from my fake friends into the real kind, and if they were to ever find out the truth I couldn't bare to see that look they would all give me. I wanna be able to trust everyone trust my friends, yes my friends i said it and thats what they are though they don't even realise the truth they are my friends i want them to know the truth i want the to be able to trust me 100%. Ive got close to these people now, Lydia seems like a genuine friend. I don't think i'll be ablee to do this much longer. But i have to. Maybe i just need to cut loose, do what most highscool kids do, get drunk got to parties. Well i need to get invited to one first but my odds are more likely with Lydia and Jackson in the mix.
Most days i end up waiting on the bleechers for Isaac so i can get a ride how he isn't to big on letting me go home alone still but i don't midn as much now, i used to have to wait whilst he got changed before we could leave but now Stiles packs up on the feild so we end up talking untill Isaac is ready. Stiles is easy to talk to not like Derek nor Isaac i talk to Isaac but i feel easier around Stiles, it must be that whole strange thing thats known as being humn that makes him so comforting. Stiles and Isaac have helped me settle so much they don't treat me like everyone does, like a freak that is. Erica well she's her typical charming self, but i don't see her at school so thats one less thing to worry about and Boyd i haven't seen him since the day i got here ive heard his voice but not seen him atcually the same goes for Erica i havent actaully seem her for days. They seemed to have disapeared of the face of beacon hills, which must mean their out on some job for Derek, Isaaac said this kind of thing is normal. So i am not going to worry especially not about Erica.
As for lying Derek's pretty bad, he has a little vein in his neck that pops out almost as if it is stressing him out to lie. I've been lucky enought to share this experrience with him, though when he lies to stiles or anyone normal e doesnt flinch. I saw him talking to Scott outside the School the other day when he came to pick me up, there it was that little vein poppy out in his neck, it pained him to tell waheveter that lie was to Scott. Scott cant just be a kid he's more than that he's important i know it and Derek knows it but he lies to him, makes me survey him but why, what purpose does he have, to protect him? god knows i would love to find out.
