DISCLAIMER; I am NOT Stephenie Meyer, nor am I claiming to be.
Warning; Might die of Jacob insulting. Sorry to TEAM JACOBS.
(This is a Bella/Edward story!)
Edward Cullen;
She married black?! Jacob Black?! Why would she marry…such a loser? She deserves so much better than him. I've heard my fair share of bad gossip about him. I always assumed he married some slut, not my Bella.
She's not your Bella anymore… she never was.
I ignored my conscious, and continued on my mind rant.
How could she just sit there and be married to him?
And worst of all; how could she randomly plop back into my life again, after all these years again, she randomly shows up.
And then tells me my little sisters are getting married!? She obviously talked to Alice, again.
I was happy, happy…yeah keep telling yourself that. I had Tanya. That is all I'd ever need right? Tanya didn't want kids, but I always did and always will want kids. I overhead Bella and Tanya's conversation earlier when I was glaring at that… dog
Bella didn't have kids either, but she was married. She wasn't ready for kids, but when we're in high school, I knew that she couldn't wait to get married and kids? What changed? If it was possible, Bella turned out to be more beautiful, she was perfect, she had a slim figure, and her brown flowing hair got a little bit longer. When she said we should all hang out sometime, I felt a ocean of hope, I might have seemed like I didn't forgive her, I really hadn't, but as soon as I saw her, I couldn't help but forgive her.
Sadly, Tanya couldn't hold a light to Bella. No matter how wrong that sounds. I love Tanya. I and Bella would maybe be good friends, if that.
When I got home that night still thinking about the earlier lunch, I saw Tanya on the phone, I raised an eyebrow at her.
She mouthed "Bella." I felt my heart climb to my chest.
"Yeah…okay…Yeah, Edward just got home…oh that sucks…mhm…yeah I'll see you tomorrow…yeah…okay…goodbye." She said before hanging up. See her tomorrow?
"So you're seeing Bella tomorrow?" She nodded and smiled brightly.
"Will black be there?" she shook her head,
"Oh…that's good. I don't need him going after you." She giggled and playfully slapped my chest.
"He's a married man. So how do you know Bella?" she asked, I shook my head not really wanting to talk about. I still had the note she left.
That night I feel into a restless sleep.
When I woke up the next morning I saw Tanya running around frantically.
"Are you okay?" I said, my voice was horse. I wiped my eyes of all sleep.
"Hey are you working today?" she said in a rushed tone, I shook my head.
"Well, I have an important meeting and I have to go out of state," I frowned "can you meet her and tell her that I had a meeting? Her phone is off. Please?" she said still running around like a chicken without a head. I had to laugh at her, she narrowed her eyes when she stopped running, and I rolled my eyes and nodded.
She ran to the bed. "Thank you. –kiss- thank you –kiss-"I chuckled at her and wiped off her lip gloss off my lips.
So now I had to see Bella, why was I so excited? Tanya said goodbye, I watched as her car drove away at the speed of light, I rolled my eyes, and got ready for the day.
Bella Black; (OUTFIT'S ON PROFILE!)
Today I was meeting Tanya for a cup of coffee, She was really nice we talked for a while last night, She seemed like she could be a life long friend. You could stop talking, and about two years later talk again were you left off.
Tanya made me feel plain. I knew exactly why Edward married her; she was gorgeous, nice, kind. I could go on forever.
I put on my dark blue button up sweater, my favorite black skinny jeans and my strap leather heels, I slid on my black reading rimmed glasses, everyone swears I look good in them, and I agree, its one of those days where you just want to wear glasses, (Outfit On Profile!)
I soon realized my phone was dead and put it on charge before I left, I waited about half an hour before taking it off charge and putting it in my pocket. I walked slowly to my Audi. Looking in the glass at my reflection making sure I look my make up looks decent, the drive to the coffee shop, was silent, I kept thinking of how ashamed Jake would be if he knew
I was meeting Tanya, but he was out of line and unfair. How dare he tell me who I can and cannot talk to? I pulled up at the coffee shop and walked in; I looked around and saw Edward sitting in the corner, shit. Obviously Tanya sent him because something came up…or something. Or maybe she was in the bath room; I walked towards him and sat down across him.
"Something came up?" I said guessing, he nodded. I started laughing, Edward looked at me questioningly.
"I'm thinking about what Jacob would say if he saw me here with you." I said between giggles, "I'm sure he would probably yell…a lot." I stopped laughing when I thought about it, he expected me to follow his every order and I just can't do that, I promised myself I would never let a man control me. And what was he doing controlling.
"Hey Edward…what if….Your wife told you never to see your best friend again what would you do?" he raised an eyebrow at me, he signed before answering.
"I don't know…maybe do it anyways…or something. Why?" I shrugged,
"Jake said…something…to me. That bothers me?" I said, blushing slightly. I wasn't used to opening up to anyone ever since I left I've only had a few friends.
"What did he say?" Edward asked sipping his coffee. I took a huge intake of air.
"When we left yesterday…he told me to stay away from you…He basically said…either him or you…Wouldn't something like that bug you. I hate being controlled, it makes me feel helpless." I rambled.
Edward didn't seem like shocked, even though I haven't talked to him in years, It felt like we never stopped talking.
"Yeah, that's not cool." He said simply.
"I'm sorry." I said simply.
"For?" he was confused.
"For leaving like I did, I don't know what got into me…it just felt like I needed it; you don't even know how much I missed guys, especially you." It was true,
I missed them all so much for years I would pick up the phone but not call. I actually called once, but hung up when Emmett said hello. I was so scared they would hate me, I was stupid, I should have known they would accept me with open arms; they are the most forgiving people I've ever met. I didn't deserve them.
"Why did you leave?" His green eyes boring into my brown ones, there was hurt, pain and forgiveness in his eyes. Could I honestly tell him that I feel in love with him and that I never got over it? Wait, did I ever get over it? Do I still love him? No… I love Jacob… right?
"I always wanted a life in New York." I said looking down, my mouth felt dry, I wanted to walk away from this conversation, the one I've knew would happen for years, but always dreaded.
"We could have came with you!" he said loudly, flinging his arms up. I felt so bad, he wasn't helping. But I didn't deserve it.
"I'm sorry! It was on the spot! I didn't want to affect everyone Else's life! I wanted everyone to do what they wanted not follow what I wanted!" I said, I felt the tears gather in my eyes. I sniffled.
"You have to understand that." I croaked, my voice was laced with pain and regret. "If I could go back and time and change it, I probably would." I tried to blink the tears away, but they were to ready to fall, I closed my eyes and a few tears feel down my face.
"I'm sorry." I said as a sob racked my body, I wanted to look up at Edward but I couldn't. I took my glasses off and whipped my eyes. I excused my self and went to the bath room, my make up as running down my face,
I grabbed a paper towel, and wiped my face, I did that until I looked decent and went out there, to my surprise, Edward was still there, his fingers on his nose. I almost laughed, he used to do that when he was trying to calm down, and obviously it never stopped.
I sat down sniffling. Edward's eyes shot up.
"I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry." We said at the same time, this time I couldn't stop the laughing that came from my mouth, he laughed too, I missed that laugh. I missed him.
We talked some more, not much has changed with us, this is how we were together, we could act carefree, fun and just plain stupid. My phone ringing stopped the conversation.
I answered it without looking at the caller id.
"Hello?" I said smiling; I always answered the phone with a smile.
"Where the fuck are you?! I've been calling the house all morning?" Jacob shouted, I gulped, I mouthed "Jacob." To Edward, and continued my conversation.
"I'm shopping with Alice." I said lying through my teeth. I could hear a sign of relief.
"Oh…good. For a second I thought you were with Edward."
"Why would I be with Edward?" Edward smiled, and snorted.
"I don't know. He's off work today, your not home. I just figured." I rolled my eyes.
"Well maybe you shouldn't just 'figure' how about you call my cell phone for once instead of freaking out on me. I mean if I was with Edward what would you do?" I said sarcastically.
"I don't know…kick his ass?" laughs racked my body, the reason I laughed is because as shameful as this will sound, I was POSTIVE Edward could kick Jacob's ass.
"Jacob…" I warned. "You know how I don't approve of fights." He signed.
"Yeah, I guess I forgot. I got to go. Bye love you." I hung up without a bye or I love you.
"Well that was…interesting. Shame on you, for lying." He said mocking shame, I laughed at him.
"Whatever." I said mocking pissed off. I rolled my eyes at how stupid we could be. I looked at my phone and realized we've been talking for about five hours.
I wasn't ready to let him go yet. I just got him back.
"Want to go for a walk, this coffee shop is boring me?" I asked, he nodded and laced his fingers through mine as we walked out.
I tried to ignore the electric current that passed through us. But it was still there after all these years.
Eventually we made it to a park, a park I've been to many times with Jacob when we're dating. We walked hand in hang through the park.
From the outside you would think we we're together, I smiled at the thought, me and Edward fit together like a two piece puzzle.
"So what happened to Tanya?" I asked curiously, the silence was comfortable, but I felt like there was something that needed to be said.
"She had an important meeting somewhere in California," California? That was pretty far from here.
"When is she coming back?" he shrugged and mumbled
"A few days." Edward seemed deep in thought and I didn't want to disturb him. My phone went off again…for the twentieth time today.
"Hello?" I said agitated. No smile this time.
"Hey Bella." Jacob said.
"Jake! Why do you keep calling? Do you not trust me or something!?" I swear he mumbled 'no' but than said
"Yes. I do." Liar.
"No you don't I heard you, well you know what, until your trust me, I wont be home. I'll stay at a friends or something, don't call I wont answer. I'll give you time to think." I said hanging up and turned off my phone.
"Are you two alright?" I shook my head, frowning.
"I guess not, this happens in every relationship right?" He was confused. "I mean couples fight but can still love each other right?" he shrugged,
"I guess, but if it's true love. There should be trust you know?" I nodded; I realized my feelings for Edward never left when I first saw him at the restaurant, was I really just picking fights to have a reason to leave Jacob? Do we belong together? The questions swirled in my head.
"Well, I need to find a hotel. So maybe we should walk back?" he nodded but said something that surprised me.
"Nonsense. Just stay with me." I couldn't keep the silly grin off my face, Edward was truly an amazing man, Tanya was lucky.
"I couldn't impose." I said, even though I really wanted too.
"Once again, no question your staying." Edward was as stubborn as I was, if not more. So I gave in and nodded. A smiled appeared on his gorgeous face. I loved being the one to make him smile.
Once we got back to Edwards house, it was beautiful, almost as beautiful as him. Almost. It was Victorian styled house; it had a balcony's all around. It was white and very gorgeous.
"Like it?" he asked, I jumped out of my car.
"Its beautiful." I said smiling.
"My mom designed it." I didn't answer. Esme… I haven't thought about her in a while. She was like a second mom to me; she was probably devastated when I left without a good bye. I was filled with guilt.
"How is she doing?" he shrugged, I frowned at him.
"Don't you talk to her?" he signed as we walked through the door.
"Not really." I stopped walking.
"How could you do that?!" I yelled at him, he made some weird noise that sounded like an 'ugh'
"I don't know."
"Your calling her tomorrow." I said matter of factly.
"Oh yeah, how are you going to make me." He took a step towards me, I took a step towards him, normally people would get scared and take a step back, but I knew he would never hurt me.
"If you don't call her, I will and tell her everything bad you did in high school, like changing your grades, or cheating off my homework, or going to those parties and dragging me along." I said trailing off. He might be a grown man,
but he was still scared of his mother. He took a step back and gulped, I smiled in victory. He probably would have called anyways, but it was always fun to screw with him.
"You wouldn't dare." He said in a shaky voice. I took another step towards him, making him take a step back.
"Try me." I said before skipping down the hallway into the kitchen, I desperately needed a drink.
"Edward do you have any vodka or anything like that?" I shouted, looking through the cabinets.
"Yeah." He said from right behind me, causing me to jump. I turned and put my glare on full force.
"Not cool, and where?" I said poking him in the chest. He pointed to the lower cabinet on the left I grabbed the vodka and pulled out a glass that was next to it, I turned to him still kneeling.
"Want some?" he nodded, I pulled out another glass and pored the cups till about halfway, I finished the cup in my drink and refilled it.
The cycle went on till, I felt completely numb and drunk.
Edward Cullen;
Today did not turn out anywhere near as I expected it to, I expected it to be awkward and tense, but it was the opposite, I met bella for coffee on Tanya's request. We got to talking, for what seemed like forever without running out of anything to say.
Than we took a walk through my park, I laced my fingers through hers without even realizing it,
The electric current did not escape my notice. She talked to Jacob…again. They got into a fight; I ended up asking her to stay in my house. How foolish.
She kept refilling her drink, I wasn't sure to stop her or to let her keep going, so I just let her do what she wants, and let her refill her drink, soon enough she was drunk.
We ended up sitting on the couch, her head on my lap, I felt so right, but it was so wrong.
"Hey Edward. Do you really want to know why I left?" she slurred, I mumbled a sure.
"I feel in love with you." She slurred and than feel asleep, I couldn't believe my ears, Bella feel in love with me. Than why did she leave? A drunken mind speaks a sober heart; I know when I was drunk I made confessions,
Once I even told Emmett I was in love with Bella, when he asked me about it the next day, I said as a friend, and I was drunk. From that day on Emmett always knew but never brought it up.
Which I thank the lord for; I was so in love with her? "Was" Was I really over it? Did I ever move on? Yes. I moved on to Tanya. But did my love for her every stop? The questions flew around in my head, I realized it was probably a drunken mistake and shouldn't think about it to much, I feel asleep. In my most comfortable sleep, I've ever been in. thanks to Bella.
This one was pretty long! 5 pages, its pretty damn long for me, thank god I saved it.
Right after I saved it and closed it I was like 'why did I do that?' than I moved my book shelf, and my computer unplugged, I was SO HAPPY that I didn't lose this.
This chapter took my while.
Now I know what they mean when ppl say; the story is writing itself. Cause that's exactly what Is happening to me! :D
review and I'll send you a straw, a red straw!
