Here is chapter 4! Sorry for the short chapter.


This love that we found
It's gonna break us
And when it does
We'll jump back


Hourglass

Chapter 4

As soon as Blaine couldn't hear the whispers of the crowd, he bit his lips hard trying not to cry his heart out. How stupid he was to not see this coming. Truly stupid. Blaine touched his stomach and felt the small bump forming. He really is stupid for believing that he was good enough for Kurt, to actually have Kurt love him. But where the pain really hurt is the fact that Blaine can't find it within himself to hate Kurt.

Eric is right.

Kurt doesn't want him.

Kurt wants Eric.

Someone who can make him happy.

Someone who just isn't baggage.

Blaine ran to his room and grabbed his suitcase and slammed open his closet door grabbing all of his clothes and shoving them in, not caring that they will get wrinkled. Blaine quickly worked in cleaning the room of all of his belongings and stepped out. He closed the door and looked up to see his best man and older brother standing at the end of the hall with a small frown tugging on his lips. Cooper walked over to Blaine and grabbed his suitcase pulling it over to his car.

"Come on squirt, let's get you and the little guy some food." Cooper said ruffling Blaine's perfectly gelled hair. Blaine didn't even protest at his hair being messed up and just looked at his brother with wide eyes.

"Ho-how did you know?" Blaine asked weakly, swallowing his nerves.

"I'm your brother. I know everything." Cooper said with a cocky grin.

They walked out of the vineyard with Cooper's car already waiting for them. Cooper put the suitcase in his trunk and opened the front door to drive. Cooper looked at his little brother and sympathetically smiled, seeing how heartbroken Blaine looks. He put his hand on Blaine's shoulder griping it nicely in support.

"It's okay to cry. It's only me and the little guy that's going to hear you." Cooper knew how much Blaine hates crying in public. He always claimed it make him look weak and that he was an ugly crier. As soon as Cooper said that, Blaine broke down. He hid his face in his hands as he sobbed his shattered heart out. Furiously brushing away the tears that just won't stop from falling down.

Cooper just stayed quiet and let his brother have his moment. The next time he sees Kurt, he's going to beat the living shit out of him for humiliating his brother by leaving him at the altar for a dickhead and having him cry his heart out, especially for bailing out on their child.

'Little fucker,' Cooper thought angrily, 'You'll pay big time for this'

"The wedding bills, Coop I don't have the money to pay for everything." Blaine hiccupped brushing away his tears.

"Don't worry about it. I handled it," Cooper lied smoothly; he'll just leave it to the Hummel-Hudson family to deal with it, his baby brother already has enough on his plate to worry about than some useless wedding bills, "Just tell me where you wanna go to eat."

"H-how did you know I was hungry?" Blaine asked blowing his nose in a face tissue.

"Your stomach has been grumbling ever since we got into the car." Cooper joked seeing a small smile on Blaine's lips.

"Yeah," Blaine said rubbing his stomach, "he sure is hungry."

"How do you know it's a boy?"

"Father's intuition."

Cooper smirked at the response. Cheeky response.

"Pick anything you want. My treat."

"I want to go to Boulevard Restaurant." Blaine whispered.

Cooper raised an eyebrow, "Are you sure? That's in San Francisco."

Blaine nodded his head, "I don't want to be in New York anymore. I don't want to be here anymore knowing that he's here. I just want to go somewhere far away." Blaine said feeling more tears start falling from his eyes. Cooper just nodded and flipped on the blinker to take the next exit to JFK Airport.

'I feel like I'm suffocating the longer I stay here' Blaine thought looking out the window.


Blaine stood in the hallway of the hospital and felt his nerves rise in the pit of his stomach. God how he never thought he would be here again. Blaine just wants to forget this and run home to James, cuddle with him and beg for him to forget about his other father, but no, James is persistent and once he wants something, he'll never stop until he gets it. Blaine blames Kurt for passing on his son's stubbornness.

Blaine never called Burt about wanting James and Kurt to interact. The last time he spoke with Burt, he made himself clear that he didn't want James and Kurt to know about each other, but here he is, going back on his words. Blaine reluctantly walked to Kurt's room and gulped when he saw Carole and Eric. Both of them haven't noticed him yet and all Blaine can do is just feel more of his nerves rise in his stomach to the point where he needs to vomit.

Oh God, how am I supposed to do this?! I don't want to see Carole and especially not Eric, not after the last time when we've talked Blaine felt his palms get sweaty. Do this for James, do this for James, DO THIS FOR JAMES! Blaine chanted in his mind to calm himself.

Eric stiffened when he saw a familiar face. A face he despised. A face he never thought he will see again. Shit, he really is here. Eric did not except this to happen. His idea of Blaine trying to get Kurt back is coming true. Eric gripped his arms together when he crossed them, keeping his anger at bay in front of Carole. Carole turned her head when he saw a disgusted look on Eric's face and turned around to see Blaine awkwardly walking over to them.

Blaine swallowed his nerves for the millionth time down and gave a weak smile while looking only at Carole. They stood there for a few minutes, letting the awkward quietness settle in.

Unable to take it any longer, Blaine cleared his throat and nervously smiled at Carole.

"Hi."

Carole mouth is open at first, but then rushed to Blaine and pulled him into a motherly hug. Blaine felt surprised and returned the hug back.

"It's so good to see you again Blaine." Carole whispered in his ear.

"You too Carole." Blaine responded.

They broke up their hug and just smiled at each other. Blaine looked at Eric and felt awkward under Eric's intense hateful gaze.

"Eric, it's good to see you again." Blaine weakly said avoiding eye contact by looking at Kurt's door.

"I wish I could say the same." Eric snarled when he saw a disappointing expression on Carole's face.

"Why don't you go in and greet Kurt. I'm sure he'll be happy to see you." Carole said putting her hand on the door to open it only to be stopped by Eric.

They both looked at Eric, Blaine raising an eyebrow.

"I think you should run back home and never come here again." Eric sternly said, hatefully looking into Blaine's eyes.

"Stop being so rude Eric and let Blaine in." Carole huffed and tried to open the door only to have Eric stop her again.

"I don't want him to see Kurt." Eric snarled not taking his eyes off of Blaine.

"Why do you get the say?" Blaine asked feeling his nerves go away only to be replaced with annoyance and anger. Blaine always hated Eric and one of the reason is having him feel this way. Eric always played dirty and Blaine knows that Eric will do anything to win.

"Because I'm Kurt's husband." Eric said with pride.

"Yeah, but you don't own him." Blaine said gritting his teeth. Eric left eye twitched. Eric knows where Blaine's weak spots are to hit them hard and by the way he reacted to Blaine's comment means that Blaine also knows where Eric weak spot are too.

Eric loves control.

Dominance.

Power. Especially over people.

Eric bit his tongue and gripped the door handle harder. He really wanted to punch the fucking toad to death.

"Let him through Eric. Now." Carole stepped in. Eric aggressively looked at Blaine and then Carole and reluctantly let go of the door and walked away.

"My God, I have never seen Eric act like that before. What is his problem?" Carole said looking sympathetically at Blaine who looked like he's out of breath.

"Yeah, I'm not surprised." Blaine mumbled not noticing a concern look on Carole's face as she heard what he said.

Blaine grabbed the door and took a deep breath in and opened the door. There Kurt sat on his bed, his face looking at is father. Kurt turned his head to the door thinking it is either Carole or Eric and felt his heart stop. He felt time has stopped and all that mattered is the man entering the room. It was like slow motion where you notice a beautiful man walking in on your life.

"B-Blaine." Kurt barely whispered, feeling his tears swell up in his eyes and letting them fall.

Burt also turned his head around and is surprised that Blaine is here. After their last encounter, he was sure that he would never see Blaine again.

Blaine weakly smiled at Kurt and slowly walked over, feeling uncomfortable by the intense gaze of the two men. Kurt immediately reached out his hand to grab Blaine's arm and pulled him on the bed, crushing him into a hug with all of his might.

Blaine was surprised by Kurt's action. Being in Kurt's arms has always felt like home when they were together, now it just feels foreign. It's been so many years since he has felt Kurt's warmth, it may feel foreign, but also comforting. He put his arms around Kurt's back and gently soothed Kurt's cries, resting his chin on Kurt's shoulder.

"You're here. You're really here." Kurt said tightening his hug on Blaine as he nuzzled Blaine's neck.

"Shhh, it's alright. I'm right here. I'm right here." Blaine hushed patting Kurt's back, relaxing his tense body.

Burt smiled at the sight. It brought back so many memoires of his teenage son and his boyfriend, love struck eyes as they cuddled watching movies, drinking hot chocolate in the winter. It felt nostalgic seeing them together again. Burt doesn't know why Blaine is here, but he sure is glad. Kurt never looked this peaceful before and never with Eric.

"Feeling better?" Blaine asked, when he noticed Kurt relaxing. Kurt nodded his head, but his grip on Blaine didn't loosen.

"I thought you would never come." Kurt whispered brushing his lips on Blaine's neck, softly kissing it. Blaine's body went stiff. It's been years since he has felt those lips on him and Blaine hated how much he secretly liked it. It's been two years since Blaine has been intimate with anyone. After Cole, Blaine gave up on dating, especially when he had to think of James. Blaine is pretty sure the last time he has really enjoyed sex was with Kurt. Having a child in his life, makes the dating world practically non-existent. Being intimate with Kurt again made Blaine feel ashamed. Kurt isn't his husband. He shouldn't be here, hugging him and comforting him like a husband should. This is Eric's job. Blaine tried to break away from the hug, but Kurt refused to let him go holding his grip harder.

"Don't go. Don't leave. Please, I don't want to be alone." Kurt pleaded frantically looking at Blaine directly in the eye, his fear showing.

Blaine gulped.

He knew he should say no, but the painful look in Kurt's eyes prevented him from doing so. Blaine sighed and nodded his head, sitting back on the bed with Kurt wrapping his arms around his body.

"I've missed you." Kurt whispered in his ear. Blaine closed his eyes, the feelings of nostalgia slowly creeping in.

"Yeah, I've missed you too." Blaine said softly at Kurt.

"So why are you here?" Burt asked interrupting their moment.

James. Blaine suddenly remembered.

"I-um, I need to tell Kurt something," Blaine stuttered, quickly glancing at Burt, "Privately."

Burt raised an eyebrow and didn't question as he left the room giving Blaine and Kurt privacy to talk.

Blaine looked at Kurt who is still hugging him and gently pushed him away to give him room to look at Kurt in the eyes. This is it.

"Kurt," Blaine gulped feeling nervous, "there is something I need to tell you. Something I should have said a long time ago that you needed to know." Blaine cleared his throat, feeling his palms get sweaty.

"Blaine, please let me go first. I also need to tell you something too." Kurt said gently holding Blaine's hands in his.

Blaine, not feeling fully prepared, nodded his head doing everything he can to delay his confession.

"Blaine, I love you."

Blaine took a deep breath and held it shock written on his face as he looked up, meeting Kurt's blue glaze eyes.

"I love you and not Eric. I don't care if I have amnesia or don't remember five years of my life. I love you and that is what matters. I want us to be together again like what we used to be."

"You don't know what you're talking about." Blaine mumbled bitterly, feeling his anger rise.

"What?"

"You don't know what you're talking about!" Blaine yelled standing up.

"W-what do you mean?" Kurt asked scared at Blaine's reaction.

"I'm talking about the fact that you love me. Kurt, don't you see? It's not real. None of how you feel is real! You lost five years of your memory! How can you possibly think that you love me, if you don't remember the reason why we broke up in the first place?!" Blaine snapped.

"I do remember how we broke up!" Kurt yelled back just as angry as Blaine and feeling hurt that Blaine is rejecting him right now. In his desperate time of need.

"Oh really?" Blaine asked sarcastically, "how?"

"I-I," Kurt began to say his voice wavering, "I left you at the alter for Eric."

"And before that?" Blaine asked his voice cold.

"Before that?" Kurt asked confused, his brows knitted together.

"Of course, you wouldn't remember that." Blaine scoffed shaking his head, cursing himself for thinking this was even a good idea. Blaine turned around and walked to the door, opening it when Kurt finally yelled.

"Stop!"

Blaine hand hovered above the door knob, not looking back at his ex-fiancée, but also not moving forward.

"What are we doing?" Kurt asked hysterically laughing, "Why are we having this fight? Blaine, I told you that I love you and that is never going to change. I want us to be together, why is that so hard to understand?"

Blaine turned around and just shook his head.

"My god your such an idiot," Blaine murmured, "how can we be together if one your married, and two you lost five years of your memory, so this probably isn't even the real you even talking and three I have a son to take care of who will always be my top priority. Kurt, everyone can't change their lives just because you want them to because that's not how life works. We haven't spoken in over five years so it's ridiculous to even say that we can get together. The main reason why I came here is because my son wants to know and interact with his other father. If you're not interested in see-"

"Wait, wait, wait – hold up. I'm a father? To your kid? Me, a father." Kurt asked in bewilderment.

Blaine nodded unbale to use his voice anymore. Kurt just sat on his bed with wide eyes, processing what he had just heard. He wouldn't believe it. He cannot believe that he is a father. And to his ex of all things. Wait – Blaine can have kids. Blaine has a son. Their son. The boy must be at least three or four, so that means Blaine was pregnant at their wedding. Kurt left Blaine. He left their son. He left them and never bothered to contact Blaine. Is that the reason why Kurt left?

"Oh my god." Kurt said feeling panic by the sudden information, "you can have kids. How come I never knew that? And I left you. I left my son. You had to be a single father. I left my family to choose and marry an absolute asshole when I could have been with you raising our family together. I'm such an fucking idiot."

Kurt fell back on his bed and just couldn't believe what he threw away. Why would he choose to leave all those things behind him? Why would he not marry Blaine? What happened to them? What did he do?

"You wanted kids?" Blaine suddenly asked.

Kurt fell back on his bed and looked up to the ceiling and nodded his head, his throat hurting too much to speak. All of the life choices his stupid self-made is really biting him in the ass.

"I did after I proposed to you. I thought about the family we could have. Our house with a white picket fence and our two children with a dog and two cats. I thought about how we can spend our summers at that house and live in an apartment in here where we can send our children to private school and watch them grow up as we grew old." Kurt whispered brushing his tears away.

"Kurt." Blaine said but Kurt simply shook his head.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for what I did to you and to our son. I'm sorry that I left you at the altar. I'm sorry for everything that I did to you. You deserve all the good things in the world Blaine. God you deserve it all." Kurt sniffed his nose, brushing away more tears.

Blaine stood there more a few minutes, unsure of what to do. Kurt looks so miserable and sad like a child, that Blaine wants to comfort him, but he also doesn't want to be touched by Kurt. So, Blaine just nodded his head and opened the door to leave.

"Wait Blaine." Kurt said one last time.

Blaine turned his head to see Kurt looking back at him with a serious face.

"W-what's our son's name?"

Blaine's eyes widen. He honestly didn't expect Kurt to be curious with any information regarding his son. He always knew that Kurt didn't like children, even when they were dating, Kurt made it clear he wasn't interested in having kids.

"Um, why?" Blaine choose to ask wanting to get the full intention of Kurt's reason.

"Because I want to know my son. I want to know what happened to you during the last five years. I want to show you that I'm serious about wanting us to get back together. I want to be the better father for him. I want to be in his life and yours– if you'll let me too. I want to make him happy, for both of you." Kurt said the last part quietly.

Blaine felt his throat tighten at Kurt's confession and nodded his head.

"His name is James. James Gifford Anderson. He's three and a half years old, turning 4 in November. I think James would really like to have you in his life too, but I'm not going to let you see him just yet. I don't trust you enough to know that you won't hurt him."

Kurt felt his chest tighten at Blaine's words, but knew that Blaine had a point. If Kurt was in Blaine's shoes, Kurt certainly wouldn't trust him either.

"I promise you that I will never hurt him."

Blaine tensed at Kurt's promise and before he knew he said something he knew he is going to regret saying. "Just like how you promised to always love me."

"Blaine."

"No." Blaine said shaking his head. "I have to go. I have to pick up James now."

Blaine left the room and closed the door walking down the hallway to see Carole and Burt sitting on and quietly chatting. Thank god that Eric isn't here, Blaine didn't know how he would be able to handle himself if he were here.

"How did it go?" Burt asked once he saw Blaine and stood up to greet him.

"I told him that we have a son." Blaine said. Burt and Carole to look shocked and Carole walked up to Blaine to give him a hug.

"Blaine." Carole said gently.

"And that I won't let Kurt see him because I don't trust enough to know that he won't hurt him." Blaine said the last part quietly. Carole seemed to understand, and Burt just sighed.

"C-can we meet our grandson?" Carole asked with a bit of hope in her voice. Blaine always knew she wanted to be a grandmother, and with the infertility of Finn, she knew that would never happen because Kurt didn't want kids. Blaine had always thought about his future with Kurt and the family they were going to start with. Living in New York and visiting Carole and Kurt during the holiday seasons, but those thoughts were nothing but fantasies that weren't ever going to come true. Blaine knew he shouldn't, he didn't want to give James false hope, but knowing that these are Carole and Burt and not his parents, they won't hurt James at all.

"Sure." Blaine said nodding his head. Carole and Burt gave a sigh of relief and Carole just squealed in joy.

"James is at kindergarten right now, I have to go pick him up. We can all meet at Macaron Café." Burt and Carole just nodded their heads and Blaine bid his goodbyes to them to leave to get on the subway to James. Carole and Burt went back to Kurt's room to tell him that they were going to go and get a bite to eat and if he needs anything to just call them.

"You're going to meet Blaine, right?" Kurt asked as his father and step-mother were just about to step out.

Burt and Carole looked at each other, not knowing whether to tell the truth or lie.

"It's okay. I'm not mad, hurt yes, but not mad. I know Blaine doesn't trust me, but I promise to him and myself and our son that I am going to fight for them. Even if Blaine and I don't end up together, I want to be a part of James life. I am going to be a good father to him." Kurt said looking determined at his parents.

"I know you will son. I know you will, just have patience." Burt advised and closed the door. Burt and Carole took the subway to Macaron Café where Blaine told them to meet and went to order tea and coffee while choosing a seat near the window.

"Are you nervous?" Carole asked.

Burt nodded his head.

"I wasn't excepting any of this to happen, honestly. I always thought that I would be there for the big events in my son's life."

"Burt, you shouldn't beat yourself over this. You raised Kurt to be a handsome, gentle, kind young man. You did everything you could, no one could have predicted all of this to happen."

"I know, but I always think to myself of where did I go wrong? What did I do as a father to end up having my son be who he is now, a miserable man who is stuck in a marriage with a selfish bastard and let the love of his life walk away?" Burt asked readjusting his hat.

"Nothing. Those were Kurt's choices in his own life where he is learning to grow as a human. You gave him all of the necessary tools in life and now he has to learn to use them. You did nothing wrong, it is Kurt who needs to learn on how to control his life to the life he wants it to be. You gave him a framework of what he should have and except in life, now it is his turn to paint the picture. So, don't start blaming yourself for never being a good enough father, because you're been a damn good one. And you're going to be an even better grandfather." Carole said with power in her voice. Burt nodded his head and quickly wiped a tear from his eye.

"I love you, Carole and I'm the luckiest man in the world to marry such a gentle, loving wife." Burt said as he leaned in to give Carole a peck on the cheek. Carole just laughed and lightly patted Burt's arm, intertwining their fingers together. They waited a few more minutes for Blaine and James to get here and once the bell to the café ranged, Carole and Burt held their breathes.

Blaine walked in the café slowly, his right hand being tugged by a very excited little boy. Burt and Carole stood up from their seats and walked slowly towards Blaine and their grandson. Blaine kneeled down to James and picked him up from the floor and stood in front of Burt and Carole.

Burt felt his heart tighten at the look of his grandson. His curly chestnut hair and pale skin along with bright blue eyes he specifically got from Kurt who got them from Elizabeth. His chubby cheeks and pouting lips made him adorable. Carole immediately gushed at how adorable he looked and petted his hair which made James swat her hand away and burry his face in Blaine's neck.

"James, this is your grandparents from your other father's side of the family. Here is Nonna and Papous. Can you greet them?" Blaine asked his son who's grip on his dad's collar tightened. James shook his head but peeked his head out before hiding away again.

"Sorry. He's shy when he meets new people." Blaine apologized with a smile and kissed James head.

"Why don't we buy him something then? What does he like to eat? James what do you like to eat here?" Carole asked with a motherly smile.

James peeked his head out of his father's neck and looked at the display of desserts. Hesitantly he pointed to the small raspberry jam cheesecake and Carole just smiled and order that one before ordering a lemon blueberry scone for herself and a chocolate croissant for Burt and a simple black coffee for Blaine.

"Are you sure you don't want anything else?" Carole asked worriedly.

"I'm sure. If I did, this little one would give me the puppy dog eyes and beg me to give him several bits." Blaine said pinching James cheek who tried to bite his hand away before stuffing his mouth with more cheesecake. Blaine just smiled affectionally and patted James head.

"So, why hasn't he spoken to us yet? Is he deaf or mute?" Burt asked.

Blaine stiffen a little, before looking at Burt.

"His speak therapist says that he can speak, but just chooses not too. We don't really know the reason why, just that he doesn't do it. I have tried multiple times to get him to speak, but he never speaks back. Jenna, his speech therapist, says to just let him be and that when he wants to talk he will. Every child needs to find their own comfort zone. James isn't in school yet but is already very smart so he's not a special needs child. He just doesn't choose to speak." Blaine answered.

"Well he's very beautiful Blaine. You did an amazing job at raising him, especially for being a single father." Carole said.

"We're sorry for what Kurt did to you and always will be, but we are so very proud of you." Burt said.

Blaine smiled at her and looked back at his son, his heart warming at their words. He really did a good job at raising James do far hasn't he? Now the question of what Kurt will do when he meets James.


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