Chapter 4

It hurt! It hurt like hell to know him close and yet so far, but she couldn't do a single thing about it. Well, the only thing that popped into her mind at the time was this : to chop down his nuts and feed them to a stray dog. But that sort of revenge wasn't for her. She still loved him, even if he didn't want her.

Sucks to be a human in a world ruled by demons. It sucked even more to be in her shoes: in love with one of the most desired men out there, not to mention one of the richest, she being close enough to that title.

"Higurashi-san, one word please?" a voice she knew so well called out to her.

"Yes, Sango! What is ..." she tried to reply to her long time friend, the only one that sow into her soul and not her money or looks.

"Come on, Kags! Cheer up! I don't know what happed in The Big Apple, but you shouldn't be so down over it! Sessho..." the brown haired female tried to cheer her friend up.

But hearing his name, and knowing the next in that phrase, Kagome's eyes began to tear up. She didn't want to cry in front of Sango, but the past events came rushing back into her mind, as if they wanted her to drown in her sorrow. And drown she did! Wailing in despair, the brunette slumped down in the couch next to her. Who cared if she was in her office, crying in the arms of her primary secretary? Who cared if she had work to do?
'That's it! No one would care! They only see the mask I put on so many times a day! Even Sango...' the hurt she felt in her soul made the matters even worse.

Meanwhile, the older girl that was Sango, married and all, tried to find the cause of Kagome's behavior in her past experience. But all she found was the hurt over a man, or the love of one's life. But how could Kagome cry over that? She, Sango, knew nothing about that sort of relationship in her 'sister's life. Maybe she was missing something.

'Why do I have the impression that she is crying whenever she hears Sesshomaru's name? And not only that : that pesky demon must have done something! If Inuyasha is responsible for this crisis, I swear to God and God alone that he will die by my hand!' the flames of hatred towards the younger brother of the Tashio family sprung to life in an instant.

Personally, Sango hated his guts for what he did to Kagome in the past. If she didn't love her friend so much, she would have ended his miserable life a long time ago. But she feared that this hole problem wasn't the hanyos fault at all. But if Kagome was mad at Sesshomaru, what in the world did he do to her?

"He left... He left and he is..." Kagome tried to speak between sniffs and hiccups, but with no avail.

She was hurt now beyond relief, but somehow she knew that it will pass. Yet, she still had to suffer.

"What? Kags, speak to me girl! Tell me who it is at fault and I will serve their dicks on a silver plait for you! Tell me... I can't stand seeing you like this. It breaks my heart!" the stronger female tried to reason with the younger one.

"Mnoh, Sango-chan... It's OK! It will pass. Though, what hurt was the fact that I, for one, thought that it was the best time in my life. Maybe I was wrong to assume that he will think like that too. Maybe I was wrong to come to him at that point in time... Maybe..." a cheerful Kagome, at first, tried to convince her friend, as the words passed my her lips, getting bitter and bitter.

She really tried hard not to cry again, but the memories stood against her decision.

"Hm..I know it's sudden, but can we go to a shopping spree right now? I sow some very cool outfits I think I might look good in.. What do you say?" a grinning female tried to lighten up the mood.

Kagome just shook her head in regret.

"I am sorry, but I can't! I still have work to do, so tears or no tears, I have to finish this! Plus, you need to go back to your own work! I still don't understand why you are here!" the brunette puffed waiting for an answer.

"Should I remind you that it's four a clock and that you need to pick up Shippo? Or the fact that you came today to work looking like a freaking ghost? Or that this mood is persisting since two weeks ago when you went to New York?" the anger in the tall beauty rouse as she stood up from her place.

Kagome was... well... she was just Kagome, so she couldn't do much there. This wasn't the first time she has seen her friend like this, and she knew she couldn't do a thing, but she still tried. Huffing, Sango just looked one last time at her half panicked, half sad and slow friend, and just walked away to her office, ready to pack things up and go home. Even in her state, Kagome still had to care for an abandoned child that she had, not officially, adopted. Sure, that was nice and all, but the brunette had her own problems. Dealing with the fits of an adolescent demon fox wasn't the best treatment for her sorrow and pain.

'I hope you know what you are doing Kags! You know that the only thing you need to do is ask and I will talk to the bastard that brought this pest over your head... I know you need to do this your own way, but I can't stand it!' the sincere thoughts of the brown hair beauty tried to reach not only one's heart, but the heart of her friend.

Kagome was the one that helped her with her cured husband when she caught him cheating. Kagome was the one that dealt with that problem and got them back together. She was the one that made the pain in her heart go away, so why wasn't she, Sango, able to do anything for the independent girl that was Kagome?

But enough with that problem. The brunette will tell her what she needed to know when she will be ready. No need to push her.

Meanwhile, the gloomy looking girl, tried to find her phone to call the kit the was taking care of. It was a hard task, raising a child that didn't belong to you, you yourself barely an adult. But she was having fun : Shippo wasn't a problematic child, and he always helped her when she needed help. Plus, even if he had problems, he was discrete enough not to pester her when she was buried in her own. He was cute, smart, and she thought that any female his age would be mad not to drool over the fifteen year old.

Rushing out of the big building that was her own personal heaven, she scurried to her car and drove like mad to the high school that Shippo was learning in. It was a twenty minutes drive, so she had to apologize to the boy for being late.

When she got there to pick him up, she sow him speaking to one of the cutest girl she had yet to lay eyes on. The girl was like a smaller version of herself, but with cuter forms. Blushing, seeing that her son was enamored by the girl that he was talking too, Kagome waited in the car. She still remembered how it was when she was young, though she didn't look like the girl she sow just now. She was an outcast, even if she was a beauty. She always like to hide her form or her looks behind cheep and ugly accessories, so she was never popular.

'But... Back then I had Sesshomaru to tell me that I am beautiful... Not to mention the fact that I was only pretty whenever he was around. But somehow... I managed, back then, to put my hands on the most desired boys.. Like Koga, or Bankotsu, or Hojo, or Muso or his twin Naraku... And finally Inuysha... But all of them were just cheep imitations of some of the qualities I sow in Sesshomaru. None were like him, and then God for that.. And I still linger on with the pain that remained from that time... Sometimes I wish that I could just forget about him.. But I know I would regret that wish.. And even if that came true, the minute I would lay my eyes on him I know I would fall in love again, maybe even harder that I fell now...' the romantic thoughts were disturbed by a small chuckle.

When she looked up, a blushing teenager looked at her, knowing that his little secret was discovered. Trying not to laugh at his face, Kagome patted the seat next to her in her BMW. Huffing, obviously puzzled, Shippo jumped from where he was standing right into that same seat as his adoptive mother drove off. They didn't say one word as the car got closer and closer to their destination, but they knew that this silence wouldn't last forever.

"You know.. If you like her, you should tell her so..." Kagome broke the ice, stunning a still blushing demon fox.

"Well... I wont ask from were you know that, but, just so you know, I can't tell Rin-chan that... I can't.." the male answered her.

"There is no such thing..." a little angry brunette huffed looking straight at the flustered teen.

"yes there is... When we talk about Rin-chan.. Even if she isn't as lucky as I am in finding a wonderful mother like you, she is still... Look, kaa-san, Rin-chan is kind of, committed to a very loved sempai in my school. This sempai is very jealous, and I would get in big trouble if.." but his monologue was briefly cut to a halt when Kagome hit the breaks hard enough for him to stop.

"There is no such thing.. Tell me about her! But the look on her face she likes you too, and not as a friend or as brother, more as someone she would like to go out with! If I know my son like I know I do, then, be it there a monster besides this cute girl, you can easily make him go away! Now! Tell me who does she prefer to spend time with?" a fired up Kagome asked her little son, looking strait into his chocolate orbs.

"Me... Even if she has a date with her boyfriend, Rin-chan always comes to me and asks me if I can find her something to do... Well, it is true that she was forced to date him because of her little step-brother, but still... I... " Shippo changed colors as he spoke to his mother.

This was the first time they had a conversation about girls, and, to be completely honest with himself, the young boy loved every minute of it. He trusted his mother more then anyone else, and he knew every secret of her heart. Well, almost...

When he finished with the description of his loved one, and after Kagome told him every piece of advise she could give, Shippo just looked at her and sow through her mask. She was in pain, and he knew the cause.

"When are you going to tell him you feelings? I know that something happened between you two in New York, even if I can't put my finger on it, but you haven't told him your feelings right? Or is he still hung up on that promise? If he is...then you don't have to wait too much.. " the very smart kit said as a matter of fact, looking straight at the sky.

Kagome just stared at him, unable to say anything, but just analyzing everything. She knew for a fact that Sesshomaru was getting more and more powerful as the time passed, but she wasn't so sure about the enemy part. The more power he got the fewer they were, but, as few in numbers as they seemed, they were the most respectful and dangerous of all.

'Shit... Naraku still has a grudge on him... 'the thought popped up in her mind.

Naraku was seven years older than her, and he only wanted power. That's why he wanted and even got to be her boyfriend, but Sesshomaru was prepared to shoo him away then. But now... If the great tai wasn't careful with his dealings, he could get delayed in his plans by that greedy hannyou.

She didn't fear Naraku as much, knowing that, if Sesshomaru didn't succeed on his own, she would unite their companies and win over all the others. Even if Naraku would get other companies to join his, none of them would surpass theirs.

Nodding in agreement with her own thought, Kagome started the engine again, and drove off. She really needed a bath, and some sleep. Shippo would understand, right?

(*)

"This is... Fuck off, Inuyasha" the rough voice of a ticked off tai youkai rang through the rooms.

It was nerve racking to work and at the same time listen to an idiot yapping about the girl you like the most. If it was only talk, then Sesshomaru would have just listen with half an ear, but the stupid hanyo started talking nasty things about his Kagome, so he snapped. He hated when his half brother thought that the brunette would do everything he told her to do. He was really nuts to think that he, Sesshomaru, would just stand around as he thought out loud.

"Out! Get out or I will kill you this instance! Get out, and if you get near Kagome until the day you die, you will find yourself in peaces in a grave, with me pissing over it!" the anger rouse in the great lord.

His youki just moved around him, menacing and ready to attack the idiot. His eyes were blood red, as even his beast was ready to rip him to shreds. The things around the great demon started cracking as he fixed his eyes on the retreating hanyo. The rational side of him was still battling with the two forces that wanted to kill Inuyasha, so, in mere seconds, the partially scared hanyo scrambled out of the room, thinking that : this was the first time seeing his brother that mad. He didn't particularly like his brother, but he could never anger him on purpose like that. He may have hated the bastard, but he didn't have a death wish. He learned how to live with his much more older and stronger brother over the years.

One thing was for sure : something happened between Kagome and Sesshomaru. But he just dismissed it! That was their problem. The only thing he like at Kagome was the fact that she looked exactly or close enough to his long time love Kikyo. Sure, Kagome was looking pretty damn sexy right now, but he didn't dare to approach her, fearing his ass would first get scorched up pretty badly from the angered miko and then he would get ripped to shreds by his even more pissed brother. It wasn't a win for him! He loved his life so far.

Meanwhile, still in his office, trying to calm down, the silver head youkai stared at his computer screen. A picture with a very happy Kagome smiled at him. He loved that smile the most, and he knew that only he had access to those moments.

'Fuck.. I miss her.. and my beast wants her under us rattling in pleasure like she did no long ago.. If I was honest with myself I would have told her the truth : that was the best night out of my abnormal life! But I can't and she probably hates me or hates herself... Plus, this isn't the moment to go to her... Even if I know she is the only one I need... ' he sighed.

This was a problem that he didn't expect to appear so soon. But one thought bugged him : did she love him like he loved her? Or was she just horny or drugged that night?

"Hn..." he puffed to the empty room, hitting the keyboard fool force, his anger and hurt raising in him, almost suffocating him.

What did she think about him? What was he for her?

"Kagome... It hurts... " he groaned, hiding his face from the world, his stoic appearance crumbling.

He needed her. Biting his tongue, knowing that, with what he was about to do, he would break every promise he had made with himself, Sesshomaru grabbed his keys, and practically ran to his Ferrari. He needed her with him so he could calm down. He drove like mad till he reached her apartment.

With all the money she had, she had one of the smallest apartment, thought, that same place, was as big as a really expensive penthouse. He didn't like the atmosphere, but he knew that she didn't need that much of a space, especially if he considered the fact that the fox kid was there too.

Growling deep into his throat, Sesshomaru used his inhuman speed to reach her apartment door in mere seconds. He only knocked a few times before the human girl answered the door herself.

Big blue eyes, full of shock, meet hungry gold orbs. He didn't say one word to her, just rushed in, with her in his arms as he inhaled her mouth-watering scent. He was, as of right now, in pure bliss.

Struggling in his arms, all red, Kagome only managed to say his name a few times, not understanding what was happening with him, when he lowered her face, from above him, to his level to look deep into her eyes. Only then did she read his true feelings, though he remained as stoic as he always was.

She sow the hurt, the pain, the wants his body and soul needed. But were did she fit in this hole amalgam of feelings and desires.

Before she could even voice one of the millions of questions she had for him, he crushed his lips to hers, making her yelp in surprise. When she opened her mouth for air, his tongue invaded her wet cavern, tasting her. He kissed her like there was no tomorrow, making her moan after the kiss.

But still he needed more.

Walking to her room, he locked it, his scent heavy in the air, left all over the place just so the kid that Kagome took care of would know that he was there and that he didn't want any disturbance. Not voicing his feelings for her, Sesshomaru poured all of them into the kisses and touches he laid over her body. It's needless to say that not only was Kagome in heaven, but she managed to understand her new lover better.

This was the moment they were waiting for. It was a little late, but who to care when they were in such feverish passion.

"Took you long enough, bakka youkai!" the demon fox snickered in the living room.

He knew and damn to be if he wasn't happy for his mother. She was more fragile than she looked. He would have told that tai some things of his own, but he knew that this wasn't the time to talk about that. Plus, he bet that they were already too engorged into 'that' activity to care. And he was aroused as well. Who knew that their smell, combined and all, could be that arousing.