So Chapter 4 for you, hope you enjoy. EPOV and a splash of lemon.
Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
EPOV
"Bella" I whispered her name, as the warm breeze swirled around us. Causing her hair to flutter around her face, that was light up beautifully by the moonlight.
"Yes, Edward?" The way my name sounded coming from her perfect plump lips, made me want to banish everyone but her from ever use it. I lifted my hand to her cheek and brushed my thumb across her bottom lip, the warm causing the pad of my thumb to tingle slightly.
"These past three weeks. You.." I paused, giving me to time to sigh as I stared into the pools of chocolate looking right back at me. "Bella I've never know anything like this, and I don't want it to end. You have no idea how much it hurts to think…." She cut me off by placing her finger to my lips.
"Shh, don't…. okay" She looked at me and I knew that the idea was hurting her too. The thought of me leaving. The thought that I might never see her again.
"No I can't. I know its fast. But Bella, I lo…"
"No Edward! Please. Please don't say it" She whispered and I was taken aback and pulled away slightly feeling somewhat perturbed. I knew it had been to soon for her too feel that way for me. "No, please, don't pull away from me" She pleaded, and I didn't quite understand. "S..show me" Her voice was so small I almost didn't hear her over the crashing of the waves against the rocks.
"Pardon?" I knew I was being an idiot right now, but I didn't want to assume things. It seemed to take her a few minutes, as she looking to her lap, and then something seemed to grow inside of her. A confidence. It suited her beautifully.
"I don't want you to say the words, but… I want you to make love to me" The fire in her eyes told me that she meant every word. And the words made my heart flutter then swell. Made a nervous lump form in my through. Made every inch of my body ache for her, especially the part situated in my pants, which was now twitching to attention.
"Are you sure?" I needed confirmation, for her, and myself.
"More than I have been about anything in my life. Make love to me Edward. Here, and now." she paused, a twinge of nervousness flickered in her eyes "Unless you…" I couldn't let her finish. She would be insane to think that I wouldn't want to.
"I want you" I told her and I did. I would even go to say I needed her. "But Bella, here?" I asked reluctantly taking my eyes off her a second to glance around the small secluded cover.
"Yes, here." Oh god what her words did to me, and honestly, I couldn't think of a better place. I didn't say anything else, I had nothing else to say instead I inched my face closer until my lips found the place where they belonged. Against hers. It took her less than a second to respond and kiss me back with same amount of passion. Passion that I never knew existed until her.
The small moans vibrating against out tongues as they dances in perfect harmony. This was going to happen. God how I'd thought and dreamt about this. How I would worship her, make it unforgettable. Give her everything that she deserved.
My hand returned to cupping her cheek and however much I had imaged it could not prepare me for the real thing. The desire, need, nerves. "God you're beautiful" I spoke when my lips had broken from hers just so I could see her face and make sure this was all real.
"Edward…please" her voice full of need. She felt it too. We'd only just gotten started and I was already uncomfortably hard under my shorts. I had wanted this to last but I knew ever before I had even come close there was no way it was going to be possible. But god I needed to rid of these shorts.
My lips were ghosting there way down her neck as Bella hands traced down my chest, right to my shorts as if she sensed my distress. Up until that moment in the back of mind I had worried she was doing this for me and not herself but the way she pushed her hips up and tilted her head back, causing her chest to press against mine, I could feel her pebbled nipples through the thin fabric of her tank top. We had both lost it, and our hungry hands tugging and yanking at our clothes, throwing them from us as if they were acid and burning our skin.
Once the clothes were shed, there was nothing in the way. We were nobody else. We were us. Edward and Bella, completely bare to one another and there was thing else in this world. I searched her eyes for any sign of reluctance, or trance of this being a mistake and her not being ready. What I saw wasn't any of those things. She might not want me to say it, she might not of said it herself but her eyes, even if she wasn't there yet. I felt loved.
I positioned myself between her legs. "If I hurt you, or it gets to much, just tell me baby. I'll stop. I promise" It was true, I had no felt the pleasure of being inside her as of yet, and I could imagine it to be overwhelming, and I knew it would be hard to stop, but not as hard as the thought of hurting her was to me.
'Jitterbug.'
"Edward… please… make me yours" Her voice was broken by unsteady breaths that I put down to want, as it had been the second time she had pleaded with me in seconds.
'Jitterbug.'
"Mine" Declaring, I slowly pushed myself forward, doing just as she asked, and giving her myself.
'Jitterbug. Jitterbug.'
'You boom-boom into my heart.'
My body was cover in a stream of sweat, and my head a haze of sleep, confusion, and slowly annoyance approached. What happened?
'You send my soul sky high when your lovin' starts'
What the fuck was that noise?
My eyes began opening, and closing sharply as the sun blinded me. "Bella" I croaked, reaching out, my hand gliding over something soft, definitely not the coarse blanket we had been on moments ago. I searched but my hand never reached what I was looking for, and that damn music was still playing.
As I managed to open one eye, everything hit me all in a matter of seconds, as I took in my surroundings. I realized my mistake, and now. I was pissed. At myself, at the sun blaring in, at the heavy weight on my chest. The aching wood standing to attention under the sheets and is definitely not going to be cured by a cold shower. The empty space beside me. That goddamn music. And finally her.
How dare she? How dare she invade my dreams like that. How dare she cause me to say her name? How dare she make an appearance at all!
'Wake me up before you go go.'
I growled at the goddamn music and turned to look where the irritating sound of Wham! was coming from and I saw my phone, laying on the bedside table, lit up and spinning in circles caused by the vibration. What the…
Snapping up the ceil phone, I caught a glimpse of the caller ID. "What the fuck do you want at this ungodly hour, Emmett?" I hissed down the receiver at my asshole of a brother, who no doubt was not only the cause of waking me up, but the idiotic ring tone.
"Well hello to you too, Sunshine" Oh he wasn't making me feel any better. "I thought I would ring and warn you ahead of time that it is 8:55 and Alice is going to be Pissssssed if you aren't ready" Why in the hell would he find the need ring me? and more importantly why would they even be on there way over here? Did they not comprehend that I had the day off and done a thirty-six hour shift? Suddenly the night before swept over my mind…
*IP*
"Skopelos"
No. Fucking. Way.
"That's funny!" I laughed standing up, having the sudden urge for a Beck's.
"She's being serious, bro. She only announced it to Rose and I earlier this week." Emmett caused me to stop, halfway to the kitchen and turn around, my eyes finding Alice standing there with the most innocent look on her face. And I didn't believe it for a second. Why would she want to do this to me?
"Skopelos" I spat. "You can go anywhere in the world and you choose there. Read my lips. No. Way" I empathized, so it was maybe crystal clear.
"Aw come on Edward… its too late now, you promised I could have anything I wanted. This is what I want." She spoke, fluttering an eyelids, and giving me a pout. Any other time it would of gotten her what she had wanted.
"Save it Alice, for the first time in your life. That look is not going to work" I was out of the room and making a direct line for the refrigerator, and pulled out one of the waiting beers.
I had popped the cap and was taking a gulp when I registered footsteps behind me. Irritation overwhelmed me.
"Edward, I thought you was past this. Past her." She stood ith her fist on her hips, and I removed the bottle from my lips and straightened my back rather defensively.
"I am" firmly stating, and then realized maybe I wasn't being convincing so changed my stance to nonchalant when she rose an eyebrow.
"Past who?" Emmett seemed to be frowning and of course he was, he knew very little about our last vacation to Skopelos as he wasn't able to go.
"Nobody, Alice is just being Alice and assuming things." I said and shrugged, continuing with acting down the moment as if it was nothing while inside my stomach was doing backflips.
"Okay if I'm just assuming things, then you'll come because there is no reason not to" She smiled at me smugly. And I had to tread carefully because well.. I wasn't going. That was the end of that but I didn't want to fuel her 'know it all self', or give her the satisfaction in knowing she was right. Even thought she wasn't right. I didn't care about that I just didn't want to go.
Keep telling yourself that Cullen!
"I just don't want to go. I have enough going on here anyway, I might not actually get all the time off I thought" Attempting to try and get myself out of it. Right now I would use any excuse. I didn't want to even begin to get that old seed planted in my thick skull, or anywhere for that matter. It was all just a long time ago, and better left forgotten.
"Edward! Don't bullshit me okay. None of it is going to work." Alice was stern. I couldn't quite come to grasp why we could go pretty much anywhere in the world and yet she wanted to go there. I narrowed my eyes at her.
"Oh don't even dare give me that look!" She was in front of me, waving her manicured finger in my face. I don't think I'd groaned in annoyance, so much in one night.
"What do you expect Alice? That I'll be jumping for the ceiling?" No I wasn't pleased, but I must be out of my goddamn mind. I wanted them to leave, I wanted to sleep, I wanted control of my own freaking apartment back. I stood up. "You know what Alice, fine. As always, you get what you want." I'd given up, I didn't have the energy to argue anymore. I wasn't even startled when Alice began squealing and clapping in her joy.
"Oh Edward, I promise, you aren't going to regret this." She threw her arms around me, and bounced on the floor, in order to gain enough height to plant a kiss on my cheek. "You seriously need to shave." She was rubbing her lips, scrunching up her nose. I just looked her head on in the eyes with an expected and 'are you serious?' look penetrating into hers.
"Okay okay… we're leaving." She announced. I had to bite my tongue to not let out an exhaled 'Finally'. She was letting me go and I was dragging my feet towards my bedroom. "Come on Em, let Mr grumpy pants sleep."
"But I haven't finished my Yogurt!" I heard him complaining.
"I'm sure Edward won't mind you taking it with you, since you've dribbled all in it" She was right, and well I imagined she was dragging his ass up off the sofa. I couldn't see as I had my back to them walking away, I had no intentions of turning around, or making anymore conversation. The door to my bedroom was drawing closer and closer. Almost singing to me.
"Oh Edward, don't forget… Nine O'clock, in the AM. Better be ready or I'll make you regret it." The singing of the door was interrupted by a stroppy pixie.
"uh-huh. Got it" I called. I pushed my way through the bedroom door, seeing the familiar piece of heaven awaiting me. I kicked the door behind me. Silence. Bed. Collapse. "Annoying little pixie." Sleep.
*IP*
"Dude? Edward?… Oi you lanky streak of piss, If you've fallen back to sleep Alice is going to Murder you. No, murder would be too easy." Times like this I regret not going to Dartmouth.
I was brought out of my daze and well I have to be honest, last night I was just telling Alice what she wanted so her and Emmett would leave. I really hadn't been thinking straight because of cause this was Alice. You give any impression that you agree to something, she will make sure you follow through. Well I was here in my apartment. Its not like she can do much while I was in here and she was out there.
"Tell her I'm ill or something. I'll talk to you later." I said and well, I simply hung up. I hadn't had half enough sleep yet. I planned to sleep for most of the day, maybe get up after lunch. Take a long shower, probably reunite my hand with junior as he'd been feeling a little neglected. What can I say? It had been a long and hard week. If you'll forgive the pun. I should probably hit the gym but well I might just choose lounging around, instead. Maybe watch some TV, I'm sure there was a Seahawks game this afternoon. Probably order take out. Maybe spend some time on my baby. Oh I had missed her. I hoped she didn't feel abandoned. Oh I can just imagine the sweet song she made as I touched her. I think playing my Baby Grand Piano was the closest thing I was going to get to sex in awhile. Well there was my dream but I'm really going to try my best not to think about that.
Suddenly there was the same irritating sound of the ring tone, that when I get the energy I'll amend. I had absolutely no intentions on answering it because I knew who it was, and right now I was going back to sleep. She'll get over it. I buried the phone under my pillow silencing it. I closed my eyes, "Annoying little pixie." I mumbled as I set to slipping back into land of nod.
Someone else had other ideas, as there was a echo of what sounded remarkable like someone was clearing their throat. Wait… that was someone clearing there throat. I wasn't alone.
My eyes snapped open, and at first I wondered if I wasn't sleeping alone, but that through was put to bed when I rolled over onto back, half my face still asleep and crunched from where it had been compacted into my pillow for the last… so many hours - I couldn't be bother with specifics. I was too busy being startled by the sight of my sister, standing right beside my bed and with her arms firmly folded across her chest and with a scowl on her face. I just stared at her for a moment because it just wasn't processing. When my brain kicked into play my scowl matched her.
"What in god's name in hell are you doing here, Alice? Get out!" I exclaimed and looked down. Thankfully I had fallen asleep last night before the chance to get changed. Honestly it would not be the first time she had seen me in less - she had the habit of appearing at the not so desired moment. No this wouldn't be the first time I had woken to her peering down at me like something out of One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, or one of those movies with the serial killer hillbillies; that just appearing out of nowhere. The latter probably more when she had a hangover. I mean obviously, I would never say anything like that to her face because she would turn into Godzilla.
"Edward" She spoke my name and well it was sweetly, innocently. I didn't like it, it wasn't right. Why weren't her eyes turning red? Why was she smiling? I shifted up in bed, my argument from before forgotten by her strange smile painted on her face. She came and sat beside me. "Dear brother. What are you like? You would think after all this time you would be used to me wouldn't you? But no, you still insist on going against me." She was chuckling, and shaking her head. "Thing is Edward. I need you to come on this trip. I need my big brother there else… I won't be going myself and you see if I don't go then Alice isn't going to be one happy bunny. Nor is Alice going to be able to forgive you and well you know what Alice is like when she has a grudge."
You know when things are bad with Alice because she starts referring to herself in the third person. Also when she was acting as chilled as a cucumber. See this was scarier than any yelling or glare. Because it was rather manipulating and well I knew she meant it. In her unusual, peculiar ways. I groaned, slightly.
"Alice whats the big deal in me going? You have Jasper there, Em and Rose too. You can do all the coupley things. You don't want me dragging along." Oh the nice act plummeted.
"Edward Anthony Cullen, I can NOT believe you have just said that. When have you ever just 'dragged along'? Never! You are my brother, and my best friend and I want you there. Because unlike you, we have all actually missed you while you've been tied up at work. And I get it, its not your favourite place in the world, but it doesn't always have to be a place of doom and gloom. You never know you might enjoy it - if you let yourself." Her tone got calmer and calmer as she went along and she was now batting her eyelashes at me. Ugh I hated it when she did, and made me feel guilty. And she was wrong. I had missed them and work had taken over. I exhaled heavily.
"I need coffee" I annoyance. And like she was my fairy godmother or something, off the side she reached out and picked up a venti-sized Starbucks takeout cup. As she held it out to me the aroma of the coffee tickled my nose and sparked my caffeine craving.
"You got me coffee?" I asked, she really did think of everything.
"Yep, Double espresso shot, cappuccino. I even put you the chocolate and cinnamon sprinkles on top just how you like them."
So yes I admit it; maybe sometimes she a little out there, infuriating, a pain in my ass, at times I may have even wanted to bang my head against the wall after Alice had had one of her 'moments'. But at the end of the day she was my sister, and however crazy she was I wouldn't know what to do without her. I would like to point out right now, that I have just woken. I don't function in the mornings without my coffee fix, and I would be blessing the ground Hitler walked on if he brought me coffee in a morning. Even Tanya. No wait, that's going too far. So there is still room for regret in saying those things about Alice.
"Ooo you're a star" I licked my lips and reacted out for the coffee, my brain getting in a familiar tizzy as it became desperate for its fuel. Addictions are funny little things. They come in all shapes and sizes. Come to us in all different ways, sometimes there good, sometimes not so much. There is your obvious addictions such as drugs and alcohol. Then there are other addictions, more behavioural such as; Sex, gambling, work, food, technology and even love. I think its quite possible that everyone have found themselves with an addiction at one point in their lives. Some more than others, some more dangerous than others. I'd had a few myself, managed to overcome them - Well sort of. What I'm getting at is yeah they can be good, while the high of it all lasts. Then you just collapse back down into reality, and realize everything is just a alternative universe, that is all… false, doomed to end.
As I had reached out for the much needed coffee, I could already taste it on the tip of my tongue. My hands itched to feel the card board sleeve in my palm. So close, and before I could ever began to get high from the caffeine, it was being snapped away. Alice was pulling it out of my reach.
"Na-Ah-Ah" She twitched her index finger from side to side and then stood up. "You get what you want when I get what I want… so get your ass up, and ready. Then, you may have the coffee." She smirked at me.
Yep, I regret what I said.
It worked thought. Somehow it got me moving and out of bed. It wasn't that I was ready to climb out of the comfort of my bed, and that I would give it up for coffee. I just knew Alice and knew what she was capable of. So yes I had given in. I'm sure that would be yet another something to regret.
I behaved myself and took a shower, while Alice insisted on collecting the last few of my things together. I had tried to tell her not to, but seriously.. Can you really see me succeeding? No I though not.
When I finally got my hands on my coffee, I'd showered, shaved, shamefully dressed in the clothes Alice had laid out for me and was being dragged out of the door… and guess what? Yep… the coffee was cold. Alice should feel lucky I don't mind cold coffee.
"Good Morning, Dr Cullen, Miss Cullen" Dean nodded in passing greeting as he opened the door for us. "Would you like help with you bags?" He asked. I swear when did the guy sleep?
"Morning Dean, again.. Its Edward. Dr Cullen's my father and even he would insist on you calling him by his first name." I cleared up. "And no I'm fine thanks. I'll be gone for a little while." I informed him, just so he knew if anyone would come by. One person in particular who it was too early to think about, I was always out recently when she came around. Alice greeted him also.
"Well I'll make sure to keep an eye on things while you're gone. Going anywhere nice?" He asked.
"Skopelos" Alice answered for me. However many times she said it, it would no sink in.
"Oh well I hope you enjoy your vacation"
After the pleasantries, and byes we, meaning Alice and I proceeded to thee awaiting car with the rest of the Munster's inside.
"Oh you're lucky man, any longer and Rosalie was about to come up there and drag you down herself." Jasper said and he was coming around and opening the truck. My hat seriously goes off to him. The day he decides to marry my sister he will have my sympathy.
"About goddamn time" My ears were graced with the screeching sound of Rosalie Hale, from inside the car.
"Good morning to you too Rosalie" Sarcasm dripping from my mouth, as much as throw my case into the back, still gripping my beloved coffee in hand.
"Always a pleasure to see that smiling face of yours Edward. Now how about we all get in the car and get moving."
She was always a pleasure to be around. Well as much of a pleasure as a thorn in my side. Her face most of the time looked liked the back end of a Baboon. Well either the front or the back, I'm not particularly sure there is much of a difference. I suppose its good that my brother is with her for looks and not personality. Well that's how I see it anyways, Emmett would not agree. Apparently he praises the day, she - so he says - backed her ass into his hand and she turned around and slapped him. How he'd managed to put up with her all this time I have no idea. But then again Emmett was Emmett, he was easily pleased.
We were now all in the car, and I was squashed between Alice and Rosalie. My day just keeps getting better.
"I'm glad you decided to come man… it really means a lot." Jasper told me. Jasper was probably the sane one of them all. Actually I take that back. He's dating my sister. I couldn't comprehend why it meant a lot. What was the big difference if I was there or not.
"Speak for yourself." Rosalie chimed in. So Rosalie and I… it was a love/hate relationship, lacking the love. Over the years I'd come to bare her for my brothers sake. Okay so maybe that's harsh. I'm not in the best mood right now. We get along when we want to, but not when she is a moody bitch as she seems to be now, and well I'm not exactly in the right frame of mind either.
"Well I'm not exactly here by choice, Rosalie."
"Dude, serious what's the big deal? Its three weeks of sun, sand, and boot-tay" He wriggled his eyebrow. "Lighten up" Emmett interrupted. Rosalie interrupted him by slapping him on the back of the head.
"Excuse me, what was that Emmett?" Rosalie asked. Emmett plastered a perfected smile on his face, that apparently made her melt. So he says.
"Aw babe, you know I didn't mean me. There is only one booty I am interested in paying extra special attention. I think I proved that last night when I…"
"Emmett!" A chorus of unappreciated voice sweep through the car. None of us needed to hear the end of that sentence.
Three weeks. One Island, I vowed never to step foot on again. One best friend who had lost his mind. A sister who only had one setting, and that's 100 miles per-hour. A blonde who cracks a smile once in a blue moon. And a brother who doesn't have a brain mouth filter. And absolutely no escape.
Anyone have a rope?
So that's it.. Chapter four. I hope you enjoyed. Just want to say, I know Edward seems like a miserable bastard so far. He will get better, promise.
Thank you for the reviews, please keep them coming I really appreciate them.
I'll see you all soon with chapter 5.
