Your name is Cronus Ampora and you have never been so frustrated in your life or death.
You've been alone in your hive - house, wait, it's a house - for the past few hours. You just don't get why Rufioh didn't want to keep going. It's not like the two of you were interrupted by anything. And you really wanted to keep going, damn it.
You finish The Outsiders and sigh, glancing around. It's really a shame that your house was such a mess when he came over. And your hair, your hair looked and still looks horrible. You sort of wish he would've given you more of a warning. You sort of wanted to impress him, as weird as that sounds - he's a lowblood, you're a seadweller, really, if it was like it was when you were alive, if it was like it was on Alternia, he should have to have sex with you.
It's not either of those, because both of you are dead. In the dreambubbles, none of that really matters. Nothing really matters, after being dead for so long. All of you got stuck in these ruts - you stand in the same place every day, trying to pick up someone to finally get some action, Rufioh always seems to be avoiding Horuss but he won't break up with him, Kurloz and Meulin still have some sort of thing going on, though nobody really knows what it is. Kankri's even been repeating some of his lectures lately. And you're not really sure what you mean by lately - weeks? Months? The last twenty sweeps- years?
There was a bit of an uproar when your ancestors in kid form showed up, of course, but they still mostly stick to themselves. You've seen yours, what, once? You think he's avoiding you. You're pretty sure it's one of your alternate self's faults. Probably god-tier Cronus. He's got that codpiece and damn does he annoy people with it.
You have to admit, you're sort of jealous.
There were, of course, the living ones - and the appearance of Meenah at last! That was fun, that was different, you blew it immediately. None of the living ones would talk to you, except the one with the shades for a few seconds. Then the little Vantas, out of his complicated, weird thing at last, pulled him away, yelling something about how they were leaving. It was a shame, really. You were pretty sure that you weren't fucking it up with this little blond human. He seemed to think you were interesting, if only for a little bit.
Maybe you should switch it up today. Just for fun. Already, you're switching it up, with this whole Rufioh thing that will probably end in immense pain for you, but, hey, while it lasts it's looking to be fantastic. You have a few hickeys from him, which you are going to display proudly, no matter what happens to you. They need to know that you're off the market, that they missed their chance with Cronus Ampora. Sure, Rufioh's only one quadrant, but you can play the 'humans only have one quadrant' thing. But if someone offers a wild black fling, you totally won't say no.
But yeah, you think that you're going to stand in a different spot today. Maybe you'll hang out in Mituna's weird brain place? Can't be that bad, you can never tell where he's going to be, but, still, maybe you'll see Latula. Or maybe you'll hang out in the forest where Rufioh and Horuss (and Damara, sometimes, you're not really sure what to think of her) hang out. Or maybe you'll see if you can find Porrim. Or Kankri, maybe he'll lecture you about your hickeys very loudly, so that everyone hears. Because, if you're going to get lectured by Kankri, it's always best to get lectured about something good. Something you can brag about.
After re-doing your hair and making sure that you look fantastic, you head out. You wander a bit, accidentally stepping onto the lilypads for a little bit. You leave really, really quickly, though - you don't go near that area unless you need something from Meulin, Kurloz scares the shit out of you. You just don't know what his deal is. If he comes up to you, or is in the same vicinity as you, you don't ignore him, that'd just be rude. You try to stay on his good side, complimenting him, trying to talk to him without mentioning the bad things, like his fuckup of a moirail, or asking if he would kill you if you went after Meulin seriously (that was probably the worst idea you'd ever had. You really don't know why you ever said that. You don't think about that anymore.), or even his hair, anymore.
You did talk about his hair once, tried to give him some tips onto how to style it better, maybe cut a little off because damn you're pretty sure that's half his body weight and adds about a foot and a half to his height, and the next thing you knew, you were collapsed in some weird place with a huge headache. You still don't know what happened there.
You still don't really want to know.
Surprisingly, Rufioh is at your usual spot. Well, screw doing something new.
"Hey," you say, grinning at him. "What was up with the abrupt ending? I was having fun there."
He laughs awkwardly, glancing around. "Yeah... sorry about that... I just didn't know if he'd be back... he's not, but I never know when two days at Meulin's will turn into one... or half an hour... you get what I'm saying?"
"Yeah, yeah," you say. "So, if you have to deal with Meulin, do you have to deal with Kurloz, too? 'Cause I was just thinking about him and what a creepy fucking guy he is. Like, wow, calm it down man."
"He's alright, I guess..." Rufioh says. "Horuss doesn't like to bring Meulin over, so Kurloz doesn't really come, either... but sometimes we'll all go do something... I dunno, he's pretty cool... quiet..."
Yep. Nobody else thinks he's an evil mastermind. You're pretty sure Rufioh is creeped out by him, because, let's be honest, who wouldn't be, but you can also tell that he's just dismissing what Kurloz really is. Which is some sort of evil mastermind, bent on throwing you all to the thing that's killing the bubbles.
Sometimes you think that you should've gone with Meenah. Sure, it sounded like a lot of work, but you'd win points with her and you probably wouldn't have to deal with Kurloz. Who, to be honest, hasn't been around very much lately, but he still shows up every once in a while. Once or twice you saw the little Makara.
Now he was fucked up.
"You okay?" Rufioh asks, and you stop thinking about Makaras and their awful hair and begin thinking about Rufioh. It's a lot more pleasant of a subject. You nod, biting down hard on the end of your cigarette. "Okay... just looked like you were having some bad thoughts there..."
"Nah," you say. "No bad thoughts here, chief. Just thinking about the next time we should hook up."
"Oh, wow..." he says, then glances around again. You do, too, just for something to do. Nobody. He sighs, then kisses you quickly. You hate it when he does that. Well, you don't hate it, you just hate the fact that when he does that, he never does anything more. He just does that and he's done with it. It's so fucking stupid. And it makes you blush a little. Which is also so fucking stupid.
"You've got to stop doing that," you say. He looks at you, uncomprehending. "It's teasing me, man, I can't handle it. It's just so... I get reminded of what we could be doing, but I know when you do that, you're not gonna do anything beyond it."
"Oh, sorry..." he says, but he's smirking. He's smirking. God. You seriously can't handle him right now. "But... we should plan out when we can do this again... hey, do you want to play my moirail? I mean... in public... and it would give me excuses to go over to your hive..."
You bite your lip. You haven't had a moirail in a long, long time. Not since before the game, at least. You're not sure you remember how to be pale, if only to pretend. But... maybe you can. If it can get Rufioh over to your hive... yeah, you can fake it.
"That would work," you say, and he grins. Wow, he's really attractive. You seriously don't know if you can handle how attractive he is. Like, seriously. But at least the two of you have a plan now.
You'll pretend to be his moirail, and he'll be able to come over more often. Shouldn't be too hard, right? You look at him, and you can tell that he thinks that it might be a little hard, but, well, who cares.
"How long was Horuss supposed to be at Meulin's?" you ask.
"A few days..." Rufioh says, and you grin. "What?"
"Enough time to have a little more making out," you say. He looks at you, a little skeptical, and you put on your best puppy-dog face. "C'mon, it'll be fun. All we have to do is find a dark corner someplace and go at it."
"Can you stay quiet?" he asks, and you wince. "Sorry."
You sigh, letting him know that it was rude but you're willing to put it behind you, and then work up the courage to kiss him. "I'll try."
The two of you wander around until eventually finding some space between two hives. He knows that it takes you forever to get things going, so he has you up against the wall and is kissing you in no time. You're focused on keeping quiet and how his mouth feels against yours, his hands on your waist and his body against yours. It's almost too much.
He slips his mouth away from yours and kisses your neck, apparently planning on giving you a few more hickeys. You let out a whine, and faster than you thought possible, his hand is up covering your mouth, and you're shaking and trying to keep quiet and wait aren't your hands supposed to be doing something, too?
You have no idea. You don't know what you're doing but damn, he sure does, because he's making you crazy. His hand is muffling the noise you could not manage to keep down, his mouth is on your neck, his other hand under your shirt, feeling your skin.
There's a noise that's not you (shocker, huh?), and you both jump. Rufioh glances back. Oh. Porrim's walking past. She gives the two of you a strange look before continuing on her business. You breathe a sigh of relief, and Rufioh smiles a little.
He kisses you, one of those short, quick kisses, and mutters a good-bye.
You stand there for a few more minutes before finding the strength to go home.
this is probably the last update for a while? because nanowrimo is coming up and halloween night which is when i would update this for the last time before nanowrimo im planning on like taking a bunch of fic requests and just writing a whole bunch of stuff before november so yeah there's that um i dunno when i'll finish my thing usually i do around the 20th, so maybe around then not promising anything but there should be regular updates again in december
