Sorry it took so long to update—I have finals this week and have been studying like a mad fool!
Baby Talk
She wants to know how I feel about her being pregnant? I had to think for a minute before I answered her question. God knows I don't want her pissed off at me again. It's not that I'm upset that she's pregnant but I just don't want her taking anything that I say the wrong way.
"I have to admit that I was surprised. I mean, I thought that we were careful you know"? She laughed at me. God I love her laugh; it's one of my favorite things about her. "We were careful except for that night you had your wicked way with me in the parking garage of the Bellagio". "Oh yeah, I remember we did have a good time that night" I said as I laughed back at her.
We had just finished eating dinner. As I sat across from her I couldn't stop staring at her; she looked so beautiful tonight. On our way to the car I couldn't keep my hands off of her. She was laughing as I fumbled for my keys. Then I took her by surprise when I pushed her in the back seat and climbed in with her, kissing her neck as she moaned my name. I couldn't wait to be with her, she always knows just how to turn me on. I slid my hand up her thigh
Suddenly I was brought back to the moment when Catherine called my name and put her hand on my face. "Hey where did you go she asked"? "Sorry, I was just thinking back to that night" I told her as I smiled sheepishly. "It's okay, but I really do need to know how you feel about this" she replied. I could see a little bit of fear in her eyes.
"Honestly Catherine, I'm a little scared. I mean neither one of us is that young and I am fully aware of the dangers that could lie ahead of us. What if something is physically wrong with the baby or what if something was to happen to you? I don't think I could live with myself if it ended up that way. And it's not like I was a great father the first time around. I just don't want to be a disappointment to you or our child".
I felt her hand on my shoulder, rubbing it gently. "Lou, it's not like I was ever mother of the year myself so I guess we should look at this as a second chance. It is an opportunity for us to have something really amazing".
"You're right, you always are" I told her as I pulled her into my arms and held her. We were so close I could feel her heart beating against my chest. It felt good to be holding her again. I had missed her so much. "So are we okay"? I asked her. "Yeah", she answered as she snuggled closer to me.
We laid there for what seemed like hours even though it was only a few minutes, both of us content to be in each other's arms. She was the first to break the silence when she sat up and said "let's go to bed it will be more comfortable than this couch".
When I slipped into bed she was already there; lying on her side facing me. I could see her small baby bump beginning to show through her nightgown and bent down to kiss it before moving up to kiss her lips. After the kiss was over she smiled at me and asked "do you want a boy or a girl"?
