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I have been waiting for this moment forever. The moment where I pack up all my things, move out to New York and live my dreams. So why am I so un happy? I bring the last suitcase from my room down stairs and give it to my dad so he can put it in the car. I look over a Kurt and Blaine. I am so envious of them. They get to stay together, with the one they love. Why can't I do that? I looked over at Finn, he is taking this hard. I've never seen him this torn up. I walk over to him and pull him in to a tight hug. If I had it my way he would be coming with me. He would be getting in the car and taking the 10 hour drive with me. But he's not. He is staying here. I guess I should be happy that he will be with me next year, but I'm scared of what this separation will do to us. It will either make us so much stronger or… break us apart. I flinched at the thought of us ever breaking up again. I would never let that happen. I am going to do whatever I have to do to keep us together.

I look up at him and smile weakly. "I'm going to miss you." I whisper to keep him from hearing the pain in my voice.

He strokes my cheek. "You have no idea. You are coming home for EVERY holiday!"

I giggle. "Even Valentines day?" He stopped rubbing my cheek and planted a sweet meaningful kiss on my lips.

"Especially Valentines day!" He winked at me and I hugged him tighter. I saw my dads close the trailer and start walking up to the house. It's time. My eyes started over flowing with tears. This was our goodbye. It was my time to leave, to drive hundreds of miles away.

I look up at him crying. "You better call me everyday!" I sob into his shirt and he kisses my head.

"I will I promise." I can hear in his voice that he is crying. "Skype dates at least twice a week!" he whispered.

"I promise." I lost it. I have never cried this hard before and that's saying a lot seeing how much I cry.

I look up to him and kiss him with as much passion I could with out trying to rip his clothes off. He put his hands in my hair pulling me closer to him. I can feel everyone's eyes on us but we didn't care. This is the last time I get to kiss him for 3 months. They obviously didn't care either because no one was objecting. Everyone walks outside to give us some privacy. We broke apart for just a second looking into each others teary eyes. He pulled me back in but his time for just a peck. "I love you so much Rachel." he says pecking my lips again. "I love you too, with all of my heart." I said and pulled him in for one more kiss. He took my hand and we walked outside. Everyone was in my dads SUV. I look at Finn, he has on a fake smile. I can tell he is trying to stay strong for me. I put my hand on his cheek. "This isn't for forever. Just for now." He looks down and blinks letting tears fall. I hug him close and whisper. "Good bye Finn." As I go to walk away he pulls me in and kisses me one last time. "This isn't good bye… I'll see you later." he whispers in my ear kisses me on the head and I walk to the car and get in. My dad puts the car in drive and starts going. I look back to see him standing there… alone in my driveway. "I LOVE YOU!" I yell out the window blowing him a kiss. "I LOVE YOU TOO RACH!" he catches the kiss I blew and blows a kiss back. I watch him standing there till I can't see him anymore. He's gone… I'm gone.

The drive was horrible… to say the least. I didn't even talk, I just listened to the playlist Finn made me of all the songs we ever sang together. I couldn't help but let tears fall. Kurt was comforting. He held my hand practically the whole way, rubbing his thumb over the top of my hand. We had an hour left of the drive and I broke my silence. "Thank you." I said looking over at Kurt.

He looks at me a little confused. "For what?"

I take in a deep breath. I really don't want to cry anymore but I can feel the tears coming. "With out saying anything you are making me feeling better." I bite my lip trying to fight the tears but I failed. I cry a little and sniff wiping my tears. "I would be an even bigger wreck if you weren't here, if that's even possible." I giggle a little.

I look at him and he is just smiling at me. "I know you'd do whatever you could to make me feel better if I was in your position. You're my best friend Rachel, and you deserve to enjoy this." He kisses my hand and wraps his other hand around mine. I look over to see Blaine passed out leaning on the car door. His head plastered to the window. I couldn't help but laugh.

I leaned my head on Kurt's shoulder. "I love you Kurt." I could feel his grip on my hand tighten.

"I love you too Rach." I think that was the first time we have ever said those words to each other. I felt a little better now knowing that I had the most amazing person as my best friend.

I look up to see my dads, they are arguing over Karen (That's our GPS and YES my Dads named our GPS.) I smiled as they resolved the argument and took each others hands back where the were before. I can't wait to start my life with Finn. I can't wait to kiss him goodnight every night. I can't wait to see him every morning when I wake up. I can't to live my dreams with the man for my dreams.

I looked out the window and there it was, New York City. Suddenly all these sacrifices I was making seemed to be worth it. I know I'm destined to be here and I know I'm destined to be with Finn. So why was I stressing? I should enjoy this as much as I can. I know it will be hard being away from Finn but we will be so busy with school we'd be back in each others arms before we knew it. I smiled at the thought of Finn holding me tight.

We pulled up to my dream school, Julliard. It was even more amazing than when we visited it this summer. I grab Kurt's hand and we both start walking up the stairs of the school. We looked at each other and smiled uncontrollably. This moment was almost as glorious as when Kurt and I snuck into the Broadway theatre that was showing Wicked… Almost. This was such a refreshing moment since everyone since I left Lima had been a little depressing.

I jumped at the sound of this blaring loud bell rang and hundreds of students came pouring out of the doors. I grabbed Kurt's hand so I didn't get swept away in the sea of people. Everyone looked so… artistic. You can tell who were the dancers, who were the art majors, who were the instrumental music majors, and the theatre majors were just by the way they dressed. The tights, the smeared paint t-shirts, the giant cases which held instruments, and then the over dramatic expressions on the faces of all the others. This was it. My future was within those hallways, the stages, the dance studios, the choir rooms, but for now the dorm rooms.

We walked back to Blaine and my dads. "We ready to move your stuff into your dorms?" Blaine said with a smile on his face.

"Yes!" Kurt yelled and hugged Blaine. Blaine was going to NYU for his Law Degree. He was going to be an amazing lawyer. You never want to get into a debate with him, he will win every time even if he is truly wrong. I was glad he was going to NYU because Finn would be there next year so he will know someone over there.

We finally got everyone moved in and we were exhausted! My dads had left to go to their hotel and it was Kurt, Blaine, and I in Blaine's Dorm. Kurt and I both got lucky with singles but Blaine had a roommate. His name is Chad and he is a theatre major at NYU. We instantly clicked and talked musicals for a good hour and then I realized, I still hadn't called Finn.

I jumped up from the floor where all of us were sitting. "SHIT!" I yelled and all three of the boys looked up at me. "Sorry, I'll… I'll be right back. I ran to the door and exited into the hall grabbing my cell phone out of my pocket. I dialed his number and held the phone to my ear anxiously awaiting the sound of his voice to break the silence.

"Rachel!" He sounded worried. Crap! Why the hell didn't I call him RIGHT when we pulled up?

"Finn!" I say happy to hear his voice. "I'm so sorry. I wanted to get moved in so I can spend as long as I want talking to you."

He laughed a little. "It's okay Rach." he was whispering now.

"Why are you whispering? Did I call at a bad time?" I feel soo bad for making him wait to hear from me.

"Well it is two am babe." he chuckled a little bit.

I pulled the phone from my ear and saw that it was 2:04am. "Finn! I am so sorry!" I sighed and placed my head in my hand.

He laughed a little louder. "It's okay. I'd wait as long as I needed just to hear your voice."

I smiled "I love you Finn." It was a long pause and I was a little worried. "Finn?"

"I love you to Rachel, so much." He voice cracked. He was crying. Tears instantly formed in my eyes.

I am so selfish. Not only did I leave the only man I've ever loved but I also made him wait up till two in the morning just to talk to me. Meanwhile I was talking broadway with some guy I just meant. I cried harder and slid down the wall I was leaned up against.

I hear Finn's breath steady. "I wish I could hold you right now."

I wiped my tears and cleared my throat. "I wish I could kiss you right now."

He laughs a little and sighs. "I'm looking at the photo album you made me. I've never wanted someone so badly in my entire life."

Another tear rolled down my cheek. "I'm going to wear you jersey tonight and every night so I can dream of you always."

Kurt opens the door laughing as Chad yells "Tell her to get her ass in here!"

"Who's that?" Finn asked. I cleared my throat again.

"Oh that's Blaine's roommate Chad. We are still at his dorm, we wanted to hang out with Blaine a little bit more before we go back to our dorms."

"Oh… cool." Finn didn't like the thought of some other dude telling me to 'get my ass' anywhere.

"Finn, he's a friend. I love you." I could tell he was overflowing with jealousy.

"I gotta go Rach. I'll call you tomorrow." He sighed.

"Okay bye-" I heard the phone click. "I love you" I whispered to my self.

Kurt walks over smiling. "Was that Finn?" I was pissed. I was pissed that Finn was pissed at me.

"Yeah I'm leaving." I walk past Kurt back into the dorm, grabbing my purse and walked out. I heard Blaine and Chad mutter 'okay bye' but I didn't even care. I walked into the elevator pressing the button so it will close. It began closing when Kurt slid in at the last second.

I kept my eye on the numbers that blinked telling us what floor we were on. "Rachel?" Kurt walked towards me touching my arm.

I shook it off. I was unbelievably mad. Not at Finn or anyone, at myself. Kurt walked closer to me. "Please tell me what happened." he pleaded.

I look over at him with teary eyes. "I am a bitch." that's all and I returned to stare at the blinking numbers.

"Uhh… what makes you think that?" he places his hand on my shoulder.

I turn towards him. "Because I wait until two am to call my depressed boyfriend. All the while I'm talking show tunes with some dude who kept looking at my chest!" I was breathing heavily.

"Yeah I did notice that. The guy thinks he is gonna tap that." he said laughing cause he knows he never will.

He grabs my hand. "Rach. You are not a bitch. Finn will wait forever you know that."

"But that's just it!" I yelled as the doors opened and we walked out. "He is willing to jump in front of a train for me. He watched me leave him. He is leaving his life next year to be with me. He waited up till two in the morning only to hear I was to busy 'flirting' with some creepy dude. And what am I sacrificing for him in return? NOTHING! I am the worst. I don't deserve Finn at all!"

Kurt stops us from walking. "Rachel! You and Finn deserve each other okay? You are following your dream, Finn gets it! And he is following his dream, he is following you. His dream is to be with you. To get a apartment with you, to be at every one of your shows, to marry you, to have kids with you, to grow old with you. His dreams of his future. Of you."

At this point of his speech I am balling like a baby on the sidewalk of New York. I want to run to the airport and just go home to him. I would risk it all to be with him. "I'm going back." I say blankly and start walking towards our dorms.

"WHAT?" Kurt yells running after me. "you can't!"

I stop and turn to him. "He has been sacrificing everything! It's my turn. I will talk to the dean and tell them I am prolonging my attendance at Julliard another year." I can't believe what I'm about to do, but I don't care I just want him.

I start walking again and Kurt runs to catch up "You know you might not get accepted back right?"

I stop. I never considered that part. I start walking again. "Well if I can't I'll stay, if I can I'm back to Ohio for another year. " I start walking again, Kurt's frozen amazed. He never thought I would give up Julliard for anything. To be honest neither did I until I knew with Finn everything would work out.